looking at you and i’m just so grateful

my heart hurts because i know for a fact i’m so undeserving of love and happiness, i can’t get anything together ever, losing myself and the love of my life

i beg for you to want me and miss me since i know i always leave you’re mind, cause when i’m not here there’s always someone else around...

i don’t know where i belong

just a big fucking dummy who’s always in her head and ruining everything wooooo fun

how come everyone can hurt me, cause me to be fucked up, and then wanna fuck me over because of it?

why do you get to switch up all the time but i have to be fine with it

i wish didn’t live in the same room cause this shit hurts and it’s only been like three days but how am i supposed to constantly stay away from the one thing that always can make me happy again

it’s not fair at all that i have to put myself on the back burner to give you what you want when no matter how much i wanted to leave i’ve stayed by your side, you did my dirty and made all my insecurities resurface and i’m having the hardest time of my life letting go and being better and i keep fucking up all the time and all i wanna do is get it right with you but you don’t even want me around anymore.

so many things i wish i could differently, the place i put us in is killing me,

no one understands how much i would give up to be completely different

i expect too much when the only good things i have to offer lately is money and sex

i’m really the worst at everything so wtf

super sad

i’m not it at all, everything about me is awful