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hey! i'm gockhuntress :D i like trans women, uhhhhh. everyone knows that one though, wowza surprise betcha didnt see that one coming! a cookie to all those who guess that that's the point of my blog, you would be in fact correct!! i am now a streamer on twitch, check this out right isnt that crazy vvv https://www.twitch.tv/fatalmaze

^^^ fun facts! - i am 24, and currently going to school so i can be a therapist or something. - i have schizophrenia, sometimes i post about mental health! - i have 4 cats. i sleep in a pile of kitties going to bed, highly recommend this. fair warnings! -men beware, this blog caters to women however i am not the internet police, view at your own discretion. also consider transition before hitting on me, that's a girls only club bud -a lot of my posts are nsfw, minors DNI, please avert your eyes and maybe search up cute puppies or like, idk, minecraft build tutorials instead - i often use the word 'chaser' to describe myself, this is because i actually worry that my interest in trans women at all makes me a weird fetishist so i call myself a chaser because i hate myself. i use it in a more lighthearted context so i don't beat myself up for having a sexual preference. ^^i'm working on backtracking this one because this blog has helped me feel better about my sexuality. you won't see many posts tagged with "c4t chaser" from here on out because i've been doing better with more acceptance for my sexuality.

and also....

So why the chaser stuff?

That is a PAINFULLY easy question to answer. Because i have a very low self esteem and it hurts my feelings, thus validating my own self hatred. i cope with humor because it's a way to wrap that self hatred back around into being charismatic. because people don't like self deprecating humor, you need to dance around the self hatred. you can't speak a word of it or else you come off as an edgy cunt and lose any respect you might have had before opening your mouth. When i first heard the word “chaser,” i had NO IDEA it wasn’t the proper term, back then i used it completely innocently. It was first said to me because i described my sexuality as being into trans women and i was like, okay, cool, there’s a word for me, that’s awesome. I felt seen. When i started using tumblr, i didn’t even know any sexuality terms beyond your usual and a few other less common ones like pansexual because sometimes those terms are used in official documents like the paper the doctor hands you before you go in. Since starting to use tumblr, i’ve learned a lot, but i still don’t know one that describes myself. I am not well versed in LGBT vocabulary enough to create a term of my own in good consciousness because i am about the farthest from an expert as one can get. You don’t tend to hear these terms that much offline and i live under a rock. I don’t use the social aspects of the internet much. Isolation is a hallmark of schizophrenia. My sister told me to use tumblr. It’s in my first post i ever made, “i heard a lot of tgirls use tumblr.” my sister told me, she’s trans, she uses tumblr herself so i considered her an expert on the matter. She knows i like trans girls, but also that i’m deeply lonely. I cannot escape my head, nor can i fix it either. this being said, i recognize that chaser is something i cannot reclaim, because it is not a slur. It is an uncomfortable truth for those that hurt others. i have hurt others. I can’t keep defending my sexuality if it’ll always be treated like a fetish. there will always be people that i care about that are hurt by the thought of me liking them. It’s okay, it’s understandable. whenever i post i worry about coming off as a creep too, just like any other c4t poster coming from a cis person. Sexuality is a very nebulous thing. if you ask a lesbian why she likes girls, it’s gonna be hard to pinpoint a specific reason as to why. Why do i like trans girls? Good question. Why does anyone find anything attractive? The cut and dry of it is that I just think they’re cute and nice and it makes me happy to imagine being wives in a happy, loving relationship that comes with everything about one half of that being a trans girl.

I’d follow yr twitter too but they unfortunately banned me for being too hot and sexy (they thought I was a bot for some reason?? Assigned robogirl by musk it seems…)

oh what the hell!! grrr, wtf musk, not letting the robogirls come hang out?? >:0 it's okay, robogirl isn't the worst fate, far from it..... yaknow, i kinda like robogirls hehe, istg lancer black witch ruined me

what does the portable device do...... oh, oh goodness, she's like a real life tamagotchi huh?? where's her needs bars at, does she need a snack? playtime? is she sleepy? pets always, i always pet, you can never ever go wrong with a pet!! :D

Do we fuck with silly jester girls who are surprisingly hung and look at ya like yer a piece of raw meat?

Also uh. Favorite Cyberpunk Red role if ya have one (mostly just an excuse ta' bring up Cyberpunk Red)

oh my god social anxiety, you poor poor thing D: the world is missing out wtf GET OUT AND PLAY YOU SILLY SILLY GIRL. SILLY JESTER GIRLS???? YES YES OH MY GOD i love jesters, SPECIFICALLY JESTERS. not a clown fan, not big into mimes really, but JESTERS...... what a beautiful art form, gorgeous costumes, also the historical value of a jester... djahfjwhaf...... jestersssdsafs...... literally the only one in the entire king's court who could say ANYTHING to him if the jester only framed it just right..... also female jesters, plaisante. thats a thing check this out