Who lights the way for the aimless?

things were nice for like 8 months or something and now everything is back to feeling like shit

Okay so like what the fuck

It's funny because I used to have this weird and silly fantasy of having someone in my life who wants to know everything about me, who would love to just be able to know exactly what happened every day in my life since I was born. But at some point I realized it's stupid, right? No one is like that, and if I want attention so bad then I have to be the one to give it to myself. But then I turned out to be this person, for other people. When I'm in love I'm like that, I want to know everything. I remember asking my ex to tell me about random memories that he had, about his life, his childhood, anything, because that was interesting to me, because I wanted to know everything. At some point he said "I think you know everything there is to know" but that wasn't true, I wanted more. I always want more. I want to know everything.

Me when I spend my days doing dumb shit because it feels good at the moment, knowing full well that it will have disastrous consequences later

Yoooooo what doesn't kill u messages u six months later and just talks to u about random things as if nothing had happened what the fuck man

One might say that once you reach your late twenties you're too old to get your feelings played with so bad that you end up lying in bed at 6 in the morning, spiraling and wondering if whatever you thought you shared ever meant anything. But it could also be said that it's wonderful to still feel emotions as strongly as you were feeling them when you were a teenager and not let yourself get drowned in the apathy of the world.