Kiki

I forgot to share the picture of my floof ball the day we brought him home <3

I hate that I had to have nightmares about doctors the entire night before my surgery 😫

I just spent at least 12 hours in my bed, either sleeping or trying to. I've been sick as fuck since the beginning of September and I woke up violently ill again throwing up and in so much pain I couldn't think but it's starting to wear off. Also the last tooth I need pulled ( it's in my sinus so I have to see an oral surgeon and it's a whole fucking thing..) has been hurting REALLY bad. I can't wait to make more calls tomorrow to get that fixed. But for the moment, I feel okay, and I just hope I can have a good day with my family today. We still have the Christmas tree up, and I would love to put that away today. Also, I really want to focus on eating good today. Being sick has made eating so hard, and I think that's why I've been so tired and unmotivated this week. I bet some sunshine would really help my energy, too. I can't wait for the spring even though I'm really trying to slow down and enjoy the beauty and stillness of the winter. I'm trying to rest like a hibernating bear, but there's always so much to do between the kids, the dogs, homeschool, keeping up with the house, and my needs. I've been thinking a lot about my health and feeling fed up with doctors and medicine that doesn't help and trying to tune into my own body and what it needs so I can make myself feel better. I started 2 herbal supplements and taking a spoon of raw honey twice a day and I'm really hopeful soon I'll start healing. I haven't been eating enough and when I do it's normally not exactly healthy. I've been reducing the processed food I eat the past few weeks but it's still been hard to find healthy stuff I want or have time and energy to cook. I would love to start cooking more especially with my kids. I also think eating more meat would help me feel better. I tried steak for the first time a few weeks ago. It was weird but I'm going to try it again because I really want to like it. I'm currently eating chicken once or less a week and the protein drinks I like are full of sugar so it would be good to not need those. I've got a kombucha scoby coming in the mail so we can all get some probiotics, too, and I'm excited to have a new kitchen project.

I had another emergency room visit and I'm hoping things start to get better now. Still no answers about my stomach and it's been over 4 months so far.. I ordered some supplements to help speed along the healing process and I'm feeling really hopeful about getting some relief.

I just came here to say I had an absolutely perfect day yesterday. It was Chris and my 14 year anniversary and it felt like a big milestone. We all went to my moms to celebrate Christmas and the kids stayed over so Chris and I could go out for our anniversary. We all got some really nice gifts from my mom and it made my heart so happy for my dogs to be included. I got to eat twice yesterday and didn't throw up or have any serious pain. I even had a frozen alcoholic drink which made me feel good but not sick and I don't ever really drink anymore so I was feeling it. Our football team won a tough game. Some pants I ordered for Christmas are going to get here on time when I thought they would be late and I'm really excited about that. My dogs were super well behaved from all the stimulation at my mom's house. Chris and I got to be intimate for the first time in a while and that was really good, I slept like a baby after.