Claire B.

I hate how doubtful I am!!!

I’m really glad I’ve gotten to a point where I’m focused on who I want to become, instead of focusing on what others wanted me to be. I think for a while i coped by concerning myself with what the people I looked up to were doing, how they did it what they stood for... with that being a huge area of focus, it’s easy to forget what feels good for yourself. Even more so now with social pressure as an artist online and all of that, a lot of times it feels like a fake world you’ve created for yourself that no one is listening to. You want to be heard but you also don’t want to shove anything down people’s throats and appear annoying. Wait see!!!! It always goes back to that fear. Facing what you want and showing it to people. It’s so fucking hard!!! It will always be hard!!!! But I’m realizing who’s opinions I value, I’m definitely learning on that end of things. I think now I’m at the beginning point in my career where I can figure that out for myself. I know I don’t want to live here, it’s just another thing to fight against. I need to go back to Cali, I have a lot of work that needs to be done!!! 🤙🏼🧠🥑🧚🏻‍♀️🐞