Ginger Tweaker

Meth is Awake. Talking. Doing everything you’ve been wanting to do but havnt felt like. sharpening all your pencils then arranging them by color. All 200. Deep cleaning your room. Vacuuming. Organizing. Wiping everything down. Reading about a topic for hours that you’ve wanted to learn about but havnt felt like spending time on. Having deep convos. Getting to know your friends like family. Feeling like your un touchable.

Then it’s death. Your mind being awake but your body feeling like it’s dead. Your bones feeling hollow and your brain empty. You know you need to eat and sleep but honestly laying in bed and withering away sounds easier.

Then it’s loosing your family when they find out what you’ve been doing. And they don’t want to be around you. It’s feeling alone even though you have a million dope friends. It’s feeling hopeless.