recently a mutual who i would consider a friend found my personal spotify account where i post my face, real name, my friends and family because of a screenshot partial selfie i posted w a playlist in the background. he said it wasnt hard to search the playlist then go down every track list to find the one that matched mine. i dont post my face or even completely explicit photos bc of my distinctive tattoos out of fear people i know will have access to this side of me. i dont think its an irrational fear to have and that fear has just been amplified. i dont feel comfortable in this blog anymore and it makes me sad because i have made great friends here and ive gotten to explore my sexuality in a new and exciting way ! deleting it feels weird, like im losing a lot. i tried reaching out to this person bc i truly believed him to be my friend! i just wanted to understand and believe he wont do me any harm but i dont know. i really dont. being on the internet has just felt nauseating, like im waiting for my gotcha moment.