Parano

I'm thinking about starting blogging more frequently again. 

My New Year's resolutions was to blog more. So far, I've not really achieved that. However, I shall amend!

Perhaps I'll set aside some time specifically for blogging. I'm trying to spent less time at a computer, but I've seeped back into my bad habit of browsing Reddit too much, clicking pretty much every link in all the subreddits I follow & this gets me nowhere. I think what I need to do is make sure the time I do spend on the internet is not wasted, & I reckon blogging is a fairly productive use of the web.

Since I haven't properly posted in a while, a roundup of things I'd usually have posted:

Wore bike brakepads through to metal.

Finally replaced bike pedals (the bearings had gone), new ones only fit toe cages if they're on backwards, it works though, shrugs.

Watched American Hustle (impressed, might be seeing it again tomorrow too), Citizen Kane (unimpressed, what's all the fuss about?) & Twelve Years a Slave (depressed, very worthy of its awards).

Possibility of going on a fortnight-long road trip with my sister across the west coat of America in September has arisen.

Had my interview with my university supervisor about my industrial year & how I am getting on which went really well.

Student loan came in, aw yeah.

I really want a Sony Xperia Z Compact.

Flatmate almost bought a fixed gear bike because of me.

Not taken very many photos lately because, in terms of physics, photography relies on light & to be honest, there hasn't been a great deal of that around. Wasn't pitch black cycling home from work today though.

For the last fortnight I've got soaked by the near constant deluge the sky is currently delivering unto the UK's second wettest city cycling home from work. Every. Single. Day.

I made the biggest butternut squash curry ever. Imagine the biggest curry you can. It's bigger than that.

Played an awful lot of Metal Gear Solid: Peace Walker. Really want to preorder the next one now.

I'm doing a month of non-drinking! I'm currently two weeks in & I feel like I've saved a lot of money & not missed out on that much really.

Bought a proper VPS! It's far superior to my old (free) one. So now I can do proper hosting .etc.

To look back through my favourited tweets. I thought I'd find lots of good memories & funny things, but that ended up being really overshadowed by the amount of tweets related to people who are no longer part of my life.

I don't think I'm sad that they're no longer features of my life. On the contrary, I tell myself, I feel better without them. Sure, they were good people to know at a time, but now I've moved on, so have they & we're all different people now. I do feel sad though.

To be honest, things didn't end well with the people I'm completely nonspecifically talking about. Things never had any closure, it's a bit jagged & cutting. Raw. 

But also it's a sadness from not having anyone care about me like that any more. I've been alone for a long time, I don't often feel being liked, but now I'm reminded of those times & I miss them. This is like my usual loneliness times five.