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12.00am they said that the twenties are your selfish age. and here she is showing up when nobody is present, being dragged down by sadness, and washed out by hurtful words. and if no one apologizes for disappointing her, she’ll apologize to herself that she’s sorry for not empowering herself. she’s sorry for watering her heart to drown, instead of filling it with warmth. more than anything, she’s sorry that she couldn’t hold herself whenever her world is trembling and her hands are shaking. for anyone reading, i hope that you will return to your shore very soon. keep your tide moving and let your wounds heal.

9.11pm i heard them saying rain is underrated because no rainbow appears on a sunny day. i heard them saying rain is special because it washes the pain away. but, i think rain is just sad. because rain is clouds missing the ground so much, they start pouring down. rain is just thunder screaming secrets about lightning. all the comfort and silence are broken faster than the speed of sound. rain upset me. because how can i forget you, if every time a raindrop fall on my face, your kiss is the only warmth that i feel. every time i walk on a rain puddle, your reflection is the only sight that i see. and every time the clouds reveal the bright sun, it reminds me of how quickly things could change. just like us.

1.36pm someday I will be 20 and I’ll wonder what have I learnt among these journeys? because honestly I don’t like cultures or airplanes or jet lag and every sky looks kinda the same, but traveling has put me throughout all the sunsets and sushis. and being on a trip is almost as inspiring as those nonsense poetry blabbered on your local plays. and even though wandering empty street sound pretty cheesy, man there’s something about arriving in a new city, finding places you never know you’d miss, and hearing footsteps you don't recognize.