I love all 3 million of my children

i do think we should normalise being like. platonically enamoured with someone. perhaps i love and admire you dearly and there's nothing romantic about it

“Would you block someone just for disagreeing with you?” Pal, I’ll block someone for agreeing with me in the wrong tone of voice.

having a multi year long character obsession becomes like a abstract thought experiment at some point

I'm thinking about the nulls' grudge against the kaminoans again. It seems to me like something that calcified throughout their childhood and was encouraged by multiple factors. and why wouldnt they have a grudge honestly? your preschool teacher decides you arent a satisfactory toddler and does a bunch of evil shit to you and then tries to have you killed. and when they can't get away with that they just come back as your kindergarten and first grade and so on teachers and all they want now is to try and make you more satisfactory? first of all thats suspicious to the mind of a child. second of all the unresolved conflict of all of that is insane, it's like an infected wound. the kind of stuff that would easily make a bunch of kids extremely stubborn and hateful. it's very enraging to be assigned crazy at that age, especially when it's because of behaviors that developed from things they had no choice in. frustrating to have to deal with your own failed experiments all the time, twice as suffocating to be the failed experiment and still expected to perform for beings that you know see very little value in you. there is a kind of instinctive urge to provoke that is created from that I think. especially when their reactive behavior is likely the main excuse in writing to use more abusive tactics. ask a null for compliance and he will make you treat him how you used to, before it could be determined his fault, before there was anyone else around to see or care about it. there is no moving on.

it is funny that the climatic moment of the first six star wars movies hinges on luke cutting off vaders hand and going…wait…..i’ve become just like him….the cycle stops now…..meanwhile there’s his mentor spiders kenobi who cuts off 1000 limbs a day and dgaf. i’m not saying obi wan is evil but u have to admit that’s funny