Stay Soft

I started my first real journal at 17. Here I am at 27 laughing my ass off at the journal that I banned myself from reading for 10 years (haven’t read it since I wrote it) because I was embarrassed of what I might have had to have said in the past. It made me realize I will always love myself. I told myself jokes to make future me really happy I was encouraging to future me and I pointed out the fact that I was able to get out of a deep hole. Without even being out of it yet at the time. I told myself I was proud of future Jackie without even knowing what future jackie would be like. it’s making me realize I always have taken myself for granted

Might be getting too used to being alone.

Starting to give up on finding the love I’m looking for tbh