geneisnutty

I should have let you go, the last time you decided to leave me. I should have let you go, from the beginning. I should have... let you go a long time ago. But I didn’t, I choose to hold on, I choose to walk this rough patch together alone. 

Now that things slowly happen, things start falling into place, I see a bigger picture, but still I have a fear to let you go. 

I was upset because all these while you haven't been telling me, I was disappointed because you thought so lightly of me. 

Can I learn to let go of him now? How should i do it? Can I do it?

I’m sad, I’m crying. I’m hurt. I am. 

I’m tired...

15 > 17 .07 .2016

Today is the 6th day that we haven’t been talking to each other. The numbered of times I typed in the message box and back spacing are killing me slowly. Last night i decided to delete you from my instagram, because it really became a bad habit that i constantly checked on your new feeds. I woke up very early in the morning recently, hoping to see your message. Sadly, none came. I questioned myself, did i do anything wrong that i deserve this cold treatment from you. I really miss you so badly that i couldn’t concentrate with work. I always thought I’m more focus with my career until I meet you. It’s driving me nuts.