I, Laney, am sitting on the couch. The apartment is dark, the light from the TV illuminating me slightly. For me, being the youngest, most emotional member of The Boys isn't easy, especially not recently. Everyone else is asleep, or so I thought. I have no idea that you're awake also, as I remain seated on the couch, nursing a bottle of liquor.
Noticing the other person still being awake and on the couch, the raven haired Brit raised a dark eyebrow slightly before quickly dismissing it. Lately, sleep had been evading him â or at least that was what it felt like â only allowing him to get maybe a couple hours of it at a time, and that was if he was lucky. Not that heâd be openly admitting it to anyone else â and certainly not to anyone else in The Boys.
For one thing, he wasnât the kind of guy who complained about anything â and when he did complain, everyone automatically knew it was bad. Also, his stubborn nature wouldnât allow him to do so, even if he wanted to. So, heâd have to make something up â or just say that he wasnât exactly all that tired, despite being nearly exhausted a lot of the time.
âOi.. Ainât ya sâposed to be sleepinâ?â His voice was a bit on the gruff side, though there was no real harshness to it.
I look over at you. "I could ask you the same damn thing." I wrap my hand around the neck of the liquor bottle. To be honest I couldn't tell you what it was. Vodka? Tequila? Whiskey? No fuckin' clue, I didn't read the label, I just grabbed it.
The TV light flickers and shows my face. I look like a hot damn mess right now. It's obvious that I've been drinking. Even without the bottle right there in front of me, you'd be able to tell.
âJesus fuckinâ ChristâŚâ Butcher muttered under his breath when he caught a glimpse of the otherâs features. If they didnât want it to be way too obvious that theyâd been drinking rather heavily â they werenât doing a very good job at hiding it. Hell, they were doing a pretty piss poor job of it. âAlready turninâ to the alcohol a bit âeavy, eh?â
A smirk had already tugged at the corners of his lips as he made his way over to the liquor cabinet. Reaching out, he grabbed a few bottles, dragging them from shelf.
"You gonna join me in my depressive episode?" I'm half joking, half serious. Usually, despite my craziness and wild child nature, I'm a pretty responsible, sensible girl. Not now, though. Sometimes off.
Shrugging lightly with a shoulder, the raven haired Brit tilted his head slightly for a few seconds. âMight as well, eh?â The smirk widened slightly as he made his way over to a recliner, lowering himself down into it. Leaning back, he cracked open a bottle and lifted it to his lips taking a much needed drink. ââSides, it ainât like either of us âas anythinâ đđđđđđ to do.â
"What's your poison for tonight, cheif?". I lift my bottle to my lips.
âLooks like good olâ whiskey.â Came the reply as he leaned back against the recliner, managing to get comfortable before lifting the bottle to his lips again to take another refreshing drink.
I snort a laugh, "I didn't even read mine. You mind checkin' the label 'fore you get too shitfaced?" I take a large swig.
A smirk had already started tugging at the corners of his lips as his dark hazel gaze shifted toward the bottle in the other personâs hand. âKinda looks like ya mightâve gotten⌠Either vodka or tequilaâŚâ He squinted slightly for a few moments.
Or, maybe the person had gotten a bottle of whiskey just like he had. At the moment, the raven haired Brit wasnât entirely sure.
I decide to take this moment to tease you. I lean back against the back of the couch. "I know you ain't the sharpest tool in the shed there, Butcher, but uh...I figured you'd at least know how to fuckin' read."
A rather blank and unamused expression almost immediately washed over his features â despite the fact that he had a feeling the other was teasing, judging by the tone of their voice. âOh piss off.â Came the swift response, though there was no real heat behind the words. âYa got your favorite kinda alcohol.â
I nod, and take another swig out of my bottle. "I'm sorry," I start my apology. I did something stupid today. Something reckless. Something that could've gotten me killed. And when I was scolded by the others earlier? I couldn't have been more dismissive of their concerns. "I'm sorry for today..."
Lifting his own bottle to his lips, Butcher took a refreshing drink. Still leaning back against the recliner, he allowed the back of his head to rest against the top of it for a few moments. Closing his eyes for a few moments, he took a deep breath before slowly letting it out. Upon hearing the apology slip past the otherâs lips, he shook his head slightly.
âYa couldâve đđđđđđ gotten yourself fuckinâ đđđđđđ out there earlier.â
The last thing I wanted to be to you was a reckless little girl who makes dumbass decisions, but I had done just that. "I know...", but you haven't even gotten started yet with the tongue lashing.
âWhat the fuckinâ âell were ya thinkinâ, goinâ out there alone like that?!â His tone was a bit gruff, as usual. âNo, that ainât right.. âCause ya đđđđđâđ thinkinâ!â
Sighing heavily, Butcher lifted a hand and pinched the bridge of his nose for a few moments before rubbing his temple. The girl might have been trying to help, but it didnât excuse the fact that sheâd nearly gotten herself killed because of one stupid and reckless decision made on her end.
He was barely even scratching the surface with the tongue lashing.
"I fucked up, alright? I'm sorry." I didn't mean it, though. Not really. Out of everyone on the team, you were my favorite. Maybe it's the daddy issues. Maybe it's the fact that I'm drawn to dangerous men. Maybe because you actually give me attention. Probably all 3, and they made me insanely loyal to you. I need your praise like a chainsmoker needs a cancer stick, and I'm willing to go to great lengths to receive it. That's what today was about. I almost got myself killed because I wanted to be a badass on our mission.
She had đđđđ đ đđđđđđđđđ fucked up. Was she actually sorry about it? Not likely. Sure, she could always đđđ she was sorryâbut by now Butcher could practically see right through that whole facade she seemed to have going on, and he wasnât particularly thrilled about it.
âOh, ya đ đđđđđđđđđ fucked up. đŠđđ đđđđ.â Came the quick, almost harsh remark. âIt was đâđđđđđ to be a quick in ân out. Everyone âad their instructions that were sâposed to be followed to the T.â Even now, the raven haired Brit couldnât exactly help but feel his anger rising within his system. ââN what the fuck do ya do? Ya charge off into the fuckinâ midst of everythinâ, forcinâ me to get your ass outta there before ya got yourself fuckinâ killed!â
His tone might have been a little sharper than heâd actually meant for it to be, but damn it, he was pissed. Maybe it was because he actually considered her to be a friend? Maybe deep down he cared too much about everyone on the team and when one of them nearly got themselves killed, he was the first to react? Or, maybe it was a bit of both.
Why she seemed to want to follow him around like a lost pup, he đđđđđ didnât really know. Maybe heâd never be able to figure out how anyone would consider đđđ to be their favorite one out of everyone on the team. Heâd always figured the girl would prefer to be around MM, Frenchie, Kimiko, or even Hughie more than sheâd want to be around a grumpy bastard like him.
If she wanted any kind of praise from him, nearly getting herself killed wasnât the way to go about getting it. All đđđđ would do would get her yelled at and possibly into even more trouble than she was already in.
"I fuckin' know, alright? I fucked up. Majorly". I shift in my spot on the couch. The air is thick with tension and things debated on whether they'd be better off left unsaid. I stay quiet for a minute before patting next to me on the couch. A silent ask for you to come sit next to me.
âDamn fuckinâ right ya did.â Came the gruff reply, his tone still sounding majorly pissed. When it came to the team, the raven haired Brit generally didnât care what they didâso long as they didnât put themselves in any unnecessary danger or possibly worse. But if any of them fucked up majorly to the point of getting themselves nearly killed the way Laney had?
Well, that alone went without saying. How the hell could she have been so damn recklessânot to mention flat out careless like that?! It was a good thing Butcher had been there to immediately rush in, grab onto her, and yank her out of there to safetyâotherwise, theyâd likely be making funeral arrangements for the girl right about now.
She wasnât the only one heâd ended up practically yelling at. Heâd yelled at the others for letting her get herself put into that kind of situationâdespite the fact that none of them had known sheâd do anything đđđđ stupid. Granted, they all knew sheâd do just about anything in order to get the raven haired Brit to notice her and sheâd likely do even more to get him to either compliment or praise herâor even đđđđ.
Taking a deep breath, he slowly let it out with a shake of his head. Butcher was still practically đđđđđđ, though he tried to calm himself down. His dark hazel gaze shifted toward the spot on the couch next to her for a few moments. It was obvious that the younger female wanted him to sit next to her. Why? Probably because he đđđ her favorite member of The Boys. Why and how? That part he had yet to figure out.
He wasnât always the easiest person to get along with. Most of the time, he was busy pushing everyone and everything away from him while planning on taking down Vought and their Supesâđđđđđđđđđđ Homelanderâonce and for all. Plus, he was usually brutally honest and blunt about everything and he wasnât afraid to speak his mind. On top of all that, he wasnât exactly the kind of guy anyone wanted to be around all that often.
Yet, for some strange reason or another, the girl seemed to always want to be around himâeven when he was clearly pissed at her for doing what sheâd done. Maybe it was something heâd never truly understand. Finally, a heavy sigh escaped past his lips as he pushed himself back to his feet and made his way over to the couch, lowering himself down onto it next to her.
Leaning back, he managed to get at least somewhat comfortable before lifting the whiskey bottle to his lips again, taking another refreshing drink.
"I just wanted you to be proud of me, Butch...I always do." My head turns to look at you, eyes gazing at your mouth, waiting for your response.
Butcher stared at the woman with an incredulous expression already washed over his features. âYa run âead first into somethinâ dangerous ân nearly get yourself fuckinâ killed⌠All thinkinâ that Iâd be đđđđđ of ya for doinâ somethinâ as fuckinâ đđ đđđđđ as that?â A rather dry tone had already etched into his voice.
She always wanted him to be proud of her? Nearly getting herself killed was definitely đđđ the way to accomplish that. All that would do would land her into some pretty major trouble and it would end up pissing him offâwhich would likely end up getting her yelled at. Taking a deep breath, the raven haired Brit slowly let it out with a light shake of his head before he lifted the whiskey bottle to his lips, taking another refreshing and much needed drink.
âUnfuckinbelievableâŚâ He muttered under his breath. Reaching up with his free hand, he rubbed the bridge of his nose for a few moments as he closed his dark hazel eyes. âThat ainât gonna be makinâ me fuckinâ proud of ya.â
I shift on the couch. "Then what the fuck do you want? Huh? Just tell me what you want, Butcher. I'll do it, I-". I get cut off unexpectedly by you.
âYa already đđđđ the answer to đđđđ.â Came the almost growled response. His dark hazel gaze narrowed into a bit more of a glare toward her as his hands clenched into fists before opening back up again a few times.
I look over at you, confused. "Well I obviously fucking don't, or else I'd be doin' it already. God you're so damn cryptic and complicated." I sound clueless and agitated. Why couldn't you just be straight forward and honest with me?
A frustrated sigh escaped past his lips as he rolled his dark hazel eyes with a shake of his head. âKeep yourself outta fuckinâ danger.â Came the almost instant growled response. The woman on the couch was definitely not the only one who was agitatedâhe was just as, if not more, agitated.
Was agitated even the right word to describe it? Maybe where she was concerned, it was. For him? It was more like irritation.
I look at you as if you've just said something dumb. "Out of danger? Our entire fucking job description is danger, Butcher. The fuck do you want me to do?!" My voice raises a little, and so does my attitude.
đśđ đđđđđđ, the woman đđđđđ remind him of that factânot that he really needed to be reminded. He knew all too well just how dangerous the job wasânever knowing whether any of them would manage to survive through every day. Sure, they could all try their best to make itâbut eventually, their luck would likely run out and then? Then, they wouldnât be getting lucky enough to make it out of anything alive.
âWhat the fuck do ya đđđđđ?!â Came the growled response, his dark hazel gaze narrowing into an even harder, colder glare toward her. âOutta all the fuckinâ things ya coulda picked to do for a livinâ, ya just âđđ to jump into đđđđ shitty life!â
"Don't. Don't start with that bullshit. You're the one who came to me." The audacity of you right now is pissing me off, getting me riled up. "You came to me, Butch! This is not on me!" I'm tense on the couch.
âYa coulda walked away!â Came the exclamation, his hands lifting into the air for a few moments. âInstead of jumpinâ in âead fuckinâ first beinâ all excited âcause ya thought I was finally noticinâ ya!â
Taking a deep breath, Butcher slowly let it out with a low, irritated growl before he shook his head. Sure, he might have been the one that had gone to her, but as far as he was concerned, she could have gotten up and walked away at any given time. She could have chosen to stay out of everything and not even bothered to jump into everythingâalmost as though sheâd been dreaming of that moment.
Hell, she could have chosen to stick to a rather normal life instead of the chaotic one that they all lived in. Of course, it had been obvious right from the start that she wouldnât have gone anywhereânot unless he forced her to or he decided to abandon The Boys. Granted, that was all purely speculationâthere was really no way of knowing for sure whether it was true or not.
I scoff. "Yeah, stupid me, right? Thinkin' you'd ever throw a "Thank you" my way, let alone give me the time of day." I rise from the couch, ready to walk away. Away from this, because I know I'll probably end up saying some shit I shouldn't have.
âGettinâ ready to run off as fuckinâ usual, I see.â Butcher remarked, his arms already folding over his chest in a somewhat casual mannerâthough he was still clearly pissed. When he was pissed, he tended to say things he didnât necessarily always meanâbut then, wasnât it that way for everyone when they were pissed or even upset?
So, it wouldnât really be all that surprising if things ended up being said that either one or both of them didnât mean.
"You are fucking miserable to be around." I grab the bottle of alcohol by the neck. I press the opening to my lips before taking a generous swig, gulping it down.
âYet, âere ya are, stayinâ âround me, followinâ me âround like some lost little pup.â Butcher smirked a bit more before lifting his own whiskey bottle to his lips, taking a refreshing drink.
I pause, thinking for a moment before asking, "And if I quit?" The question is very obscure for me to ask, considering how loyal I've been to The Boys. The bottle is still raised to my lips, but I don't take another drink, not yet.
Butcher had raised the bottle back to his lips so he could take another refreshing drink when the question had slipped past her lips. If she quit? What the hell kind of question was that? Always before, sheâd never even thought about quitting the teamâespecially considering the fact that sheâd always been so fiercely loyal to The Boys.
Now she was thinking about quitting and just leaving to go her own way while they went another way? Something wasnât exactly right there and the raven haired Brit knew it. His dark hazel gaze shifted toward her for a few moments. âYa wouldnât.â
You think I wouldn't quit? Really? "I would. In fact, I am. Right now. I'm done." Shit, I actually said it...
âSo, ya wanna quit, eh?â His tone dropped to a dangerously low level. âYa wanna go somewhere else to find that excitinâ thrill that ya claim to love so much?â His dark hazel gaze narrowed a bit more into a dark, cold glare. âđđđđ. Go on, then. Find somethinâ else that ya love better than this shitty life weâre all livinâ in.â Came the almost snarled response.
Where would she end up going? What would she end up doing? How would she end up liking it?
Those were only a few of the questions running through his mindâthough he was fairly sure he wouldnât be getting any answers. Besides, it wasnât exactly like it was any of his business anyway. They were just friendsâat bestâand that was exactly how it would stay, unless something happened to make them enemies.
"If I told you that once I leave out that door, I'?never coming back...Would you let me walk through it?" The look in my eyes is serious, threatening but in a sad manner.
Did he really want her to leave and never come back? Not particularly. Of course, he wasnât going to stop her if that was what she really wanted to do. She was a grown adult who was more than capable of making her own decisionsâjust like everyone else in The Boys. Granted, those decisions werenât always the greatestâor even the smartestâbut that only proved that she was human, just like the rest of them.
âIf thatâs what ya really want, then I canât exactly stop ya.â Came the almost snapped response before he took another deep breath, slowly letting it out with a shake of his head. Maybe it might not be the answer sheâd been hoping for, but then he almost never gave her any answers she might be hoping forâso, it shouldnât really come as much of a surprise.
I scoff. Typical. "So you're gonna just let me pack my shit and skadattle? After everything we've been through? As a team?" The way I say it, let's you know. I'm not talking about The Boys, I'm talking about you and I specifically. All the shit that we've been through...












