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Of monsters and men. When men become the monsters they used to be afraid of.

(p.p.s. Again, i’m the overly dramatic kind of human 😅.. By the way, I wrote this when I was 14. So yes, again, i’m the overly dramatic kind of human)

Then tell me what a 16 year old should be thinking at 4am in the morning? How could a 16 year old overthink When she doesn't even know how to drink? Many voices gathers in her head But she can't just sleep instead Is it because if a boy Who never glance at her? Would she continue being coy Or have ways to be near that boy? Is it because of her decisions Wherein she can't create conclusions? And just think about them all day And keeping just silent when someone says hey Or is it because she's a paradox. A contradicted contradiction. For she craves so much attention. But when it comes her way she pushes it away. (Never knew that I made a poem when I was 16 😅 so yeah.. I'm like the overly dramatic kind of human 😅😅😅)

You know who’s dangerous to love? It’s the broken good girls. Because they make you fall in love with them hard that you drown with your own feelings and they won’t even be there to save you because they are also drowning with their broken pieces and they cannot even save themselves. (P.S. As you can see, this is not a review yet.. I’m just posting everything I have in my notes to back them up… In case if they get deleted 😉😉)

Bc of the 4 years we've spent together, they've had alrdy became my family 💕💕

Hollers 2014-2015 💕 © photo by Alisha Mae Bogo

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The heart wants what it wants. How should we feel about that? The heart always overpowers the brain for it alters our senses. How could a mere organ control our life? But yes, it may be hard to admit. But it is like that, we can never choose who we love. We can’t choose the safe one for us not to be hurt. Our hearts choose for us. Unfair. Yes. How can we not choose? If given the chance, i would gladly choose who i want to have and who wants to have me. Why would we choose those who doesn’t want us to be theirs. It would just leave us hurting. Ah.. hurting, yes. A pretty bad word. But that is always what the heart wants. Hurting. What a sadist and a masochist our hearts is. Why would it want the hurt. But it always does. It always does. No heart have never gone hurt. Every heart have gone hurt. Yes. Hurt beyond repair. Others get lucky and find persons who will repair it for them bc they can’t for the simple reason that they want it left broken so that it won’t be broken anymore than it is already broken. Others, unlucky, they get their hearts broken again after repair and can’t even put it back together bc it’s in powdered pieces. Others even unlucky bc they find no one to repair it for them and the broken pieces pierces them and kills them inside everyday. But the heart wants that. Yes. The heart wants hurt, the heart wants broken, the heart wants shattered, powdered to pieces.

     I was light but darkness kissed me and I kissed darkness back and now I'm drowning nowhere never seeing the light I once was. Because I fell inlove with darkness for I thought it gave me strength while he was kissing me but it wasn't strength it was my weakness. It was my weakness flashing before my eyes swallowing me slowly. For you won't see your fears if you've been blinded by the kiss dark gave and you find yourself being swallowed, not being able to breath, swallowed by the ground a hundred feet underground for you fell inlove with darkness and you'll never be the light you once was. (c) photo by http://crazy-frankenstein.com/kiss-wallpapers.html

How would I say its over? How should i feel that its over? Should i tell you so that i wont expect anymore? As the days passed, i loved you more. But have you returned the favor? No. Bc it is no favor. The heart wants what it wants. And my heart, my foolish heart, chose to want to be hurt by only one person thru the years. Should i love someone else to forget you? I don't think so. Because then again, the heart wants what it wants. And my heart wants to be hurt by you.

Shamelessly doing the cutie with eyes closed pose ☺

Hosted my 18th post-birthday celebration @ Sans Rival Bistro. Thanks Sans Rival for the good food and nice service 👌👌

Because sometimes we close our eyes for better dreams than monstrous reality

(c) photo by http://epicrapbattlesofhistory.wikia.com/wiki/File:Valar-morghulis-game-of-thrones-wallpaper-6.jpg?useskin=oasis