Probably screaming

Sellsword Arts asked me a silly question, so here’s a silly answer!

last song: more more jump's eleventh. it's been my favorite airi comm and one of my favorite comms in general since it came out ohhhhh it's so gorgeous

currently watching: one piece lol

currently reading: nothing at the moment. but i have a few books i want to pick up soon

currently working on: MY PHNX AUTONOMY AND IDENTITY ANALYSIS. i have to actually finish it.

last google search: eternal recurrence 134. like i said, im working on my analysis ok

no pressure tags: @lostacelonnie @anthonycolonthree @keyofradiance @stonegetter @momokan-kawaragi AND WHOEVER ELSE MIGHT WANT TO DO IT mya tagged u too

last song: z rozmyślań przy śniadaniu by myslovitz. ive been listening to the album of the same name a lot recently

currently watching: nothing, really... [i dont watch too many things, i guess?]... but just to not leave this blank, the last thing i watched was birdie wing #peak yuribait

currently reading: umineko, if that counts? if it doesn't, then kafka's the trial, although ive been kind of neglecting it.

currently working on: ive been kind of picking away at the kiraeln poland au, even if without much commitment.

last google search: yen to pln. money comes up a lot in both higurashi and umineko and i always try to have an idea of the amount being discussed HSKFSKF

Last song: Rude Buster - Bonesaw Mix, I've been thinking about deltarune recently and it's a really good remix, it worms into my brain

Currently Watching: Re:Zero for the 10th+ time, finally making my best friend watch it and I'm having a blast, crazy how watching something with someone you love a whole bunch makes it even more enjoyable (I say as if I haven't done this before to others)

Currently Reading: I'm not actively in the process of reading anything particularly because I'm too fast of a reader and I finish really long things in a single sitting, but here's some fics or original amateur novels I'm keeping up with actively rn whenever they get updated:

I got isekaied but not the way I wanted (wished to be a girl♀ but I’m a guy♂ again) - Original Work | Confounded Pineapple & Cutterlina91

Her Majesty's Dragon - Elden Ring | TheUnkindledQueen (if you want insane elden ring yuri smut read their work coughs, even my friend who doesn't know anything about elden ring loves it)

The Ice Princess and the Frozen Witch - Re:Zero | Iamthewalrus8002

My Own Villainess - Original Work | Princess Kay (I'm on her patreon for this story heehee)

Gauntlette - Original Work | QuietValerie

Ryn of Avonside - Original Work | QuietValerie

(QuietValerie is basically my FAVOURITE AUTHOR EVER I've been on her patreon for YEARS I've been reading her novels for like 6 years, Gauntlette is her main updating novel but Ryn of Avonside is probably her best story ever in my opinion and if you love fantastic worldbuilding and trans lesbians you should read it)

Currently working on: Most of my current projects involve streaming on my Twitch and content creation, I'm trying to treat it as if I was serious about it just so I have something to continually strive for instead of sitting around all day every day. It's kind of my main creative outlet rn to just try and change up layouts and make things look interesting.

Last Google Search: "Auto Subtitles Davinci Resolve" because I was desperately trying to find a way to automate subtitles without relying on generative AI models, which in this current climate is almost impossible holy shit?? Everything uses OpenAI and I want to strangle it with my bare hands. I'm fine with manually subtitling for more involved projects but if I wanted to throw something out there without taking 10 hours each time I was looking for another solution.

Wow I yapped on for longer than I was expecting uhhghhgh anyways here's the tags

@gayfangirlboy, @windpoppy (gets you), @cyraspace01 for my main tags I was going to tag keyofradiance too but xe was already tagged in the first post, oops.

last song: umamusume gold triumph is the last song i voluntarily listened to.. nakayama festa please step on me. i have an umamusume playlist and i keep that shit on nearly every time im listening to music currently

currently watching: honestly lol i have difficulty finishing shit so rn im trying to get through Frieren s2, jjk s3 and This Monster Wants to Eat Me (lowkey the most interesting one on this list even if i like the other two)

currently reading: lots of books im rereading or need to finish lmao, like hunger games ballad of songbirds and snakes, which i keep getting distracted by other things (coughs horsegirl hyperfixation can't explain much when ive been reading it for two years) theres also this one yuri manga im keeping track of which is uh. "how about some afternoon tea/afternoon tea wa ikaga desu ka"

currently working: uhh i have some fanfics im working on and a random tierlist that i might or might not make it a video on youtube about my ramblings (both umamusume related.. i have a Problem)

last google search: the name of the goddamn yuri i wanted to mention bc mangadex didnt want to open. other than that it was the name of a song that was playing on the speakers where i was at, a brazilian song from the 80s called "escrito nas estrelas".

Now, if you have any kind of disability, you know it's fucking annoying go have people make you explain something over and over again, or have people go "oh, you have X? You mean, like the [awful stereotype] thing?"

So, I have realized recently that being Vague As Shit is great for making people leave you the hell alone.

I have autism and anxiety, and with that comes the symptom of selective mutism. If you don't know what that is, Firefox is free. But I had an episode where I couldn't speak today in one of my classes, and knew I would have to explain it to my partner and probably my professor.

This usually goes with me writing that I can't speak, them asking why, me saying selective mutism, and them asking me what that is. Then I have to painstakingly write out an explanation. And, obviously, I'm tired of this. So I tried something new. When he asked, I simply told him I couldn't speak, and when he asked if I physically couldn't or just didn't want to, I just opened my mouth and unleashed the terrifying, awful, broken stuttering that comes out when I try to speak while mute.

His response was "OKAY OKAY OKAY YOU CAN STOP NOW" and he did not question me for the rest of class, and even explained to the professor what was wrong when she tried to make me popcorn read.

This also works on doctors. When I tell doctors I have PCOS, POTS, or hEDS, they usually hear "oh the crazy women self diagnosis disabilities" and treat me accordingly. So, instead I drop unhinged symptoms until they leave me alone.

"Yes, my last menstrual cycle started on December 12th, 2025 and ended January 28th, 2026." "I have experienced several events where I have passed out randomly, yes." "My hip has subluxated six times in the past week."