Obviously, I'm not one of those who can have everything they ever wanted no matter how much I wanted it or how hard I tried to get it. The devistating thing is I wasn't even sure I wanted her until I realized I'm sucked in the trap of if you tell her you might lose her and wait till you're sure kind of shit. so I didn't, and now I'm devistated like hell feeling like shit waiting for any damn sign just to let it go without being rejected or at least being the guy who likes her and she's talking about him with her friends - I used to be one of those friends-. God, there is too much on stake here and too many calculations, we're having lots of common friends now, even we go to the same work. I'm ok with the no being said to my face but I don't want to see her for a while if that happened and obviously it's not an option. So, I have to shut the hell up.
It's the First time in my life I have to think about something this much without being able to move a muscle, yea I'm hesitant a little bit but usually when I reach this point in something I do whatever that shit is and deal with the consequences. In this every time I think about doing so my brain keeps fucking me up with all of those things I'll have to deal with.
Even when I sought help from trusty friends some of them said stuff like, it's not gonna work " you're too good" whoch damn it hurts like hell till today or just wait cause that's how these things work.
I just don't know what to do anymore
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