Garrett Anderson

I'm glad that we have this, this makes me happy.

It feels silly. I know you’re always here to listen and I appreciate it.

Then we'll leave the arguments against it being silly behind and move on to the fact that it's alright, even if it does feel silly. I'm incredibly grateful for you opening up to me.

I told you that you’d think it was silly. I knew it was silly even before I attempted to put my thoughts into words.

It's not silly, and I'm always here to listen to what you want to say. Even if it were silly.

Shush. I don’t recall asking you to poke holes in my logic. I’d probably agree with those other adjectives. Cute is just… it’s cute. It’s different from simply calling someone hot, attractive, or something equally as shallow and based simply off appearance. I think most of the academy is hot, but you don’t see me running around and calling our peers cute.

And what are we if not intimate? You mean something to me. I think I mean something to you too. None of the compliments that I give you are shallow, like your appearance-based theory suggests. Every time I compliment you, I compliment all of you.

Actually, I’m pretending you didn’t make that remark about me being pleased to correct myself. As for the rainbow hair, Sebastian didn’t want to do it and told me to instead. Unlike him, I’m totally game for a little change. As long as said change is only temporary. You can think it all you want, Gare but just know that your thought process is flawed.

Same topic, same thing. Cute is a subjective adjective, and I-- as the subject-- think you're cute. Which makes you cute. You also happen to qualify for a lot of other adjectives. I seem to have found the one compliment you don't want to have.

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You're the one pretending I didn't just like a picture of your butt and talking about making your hair rainbow colored, but I'm not allowed to think you're cute?

PM: I've never seen you so pleased to correct yourself.

PM: Oh, I'm sure. Do you ever stop being so cute?

I don’t think they’d mind if I went ahead and answered for them both and said that we’re all alright. I’ve had Elliott and Alex with me, and when..everything happened, we stayed with Blaine and Kurt. How about you..are you alright? 

I'm glad you're all alright. It's a good thing that you all have each other, especially in this time of crisis. I'm alright. I helped put out the fires on our floor before heading down and out to the courtyard.

Bring it on, Garrett.~ I understand that, and I understand where you’re coming from by not wanting me to dismiss your negative behaviors by saying they’re “fine” or “alright” but this was a little thing. One that you fixed as soon as it happened. Hence: it’s fine. As for you hurting me… that was six months ago, Gare. I’ve forgiven you for that day. Why do you continue to refuse to do the same? I’m not afraid of you hurting me like that again. If I was then i wouldn’t speak or spend nearly this much time with you. Fortunately, the chances of you finding me with a smile are pretty high. You might even get the bonus of actually seeing me turn red if you keep that up.

It sounds so nice when you say it. My thoughts are very black and white. When I do something, it can't be both a negative behavior and fine or alright; even if it's something I've solved and apologized for. There is a difference between forgiven and alright, in my mind, at least. Alright means it can happen again. It's not that I haven't forgiven myself, it's just that I ..don't want to confuse myself or excuse myself. ...I'm afraid that I might talk myself into doing the wrong thing again. I'm still trying to figure out where certain lines are, I'm not used to treating people equally, least of all submissives. I'm learning. There's a lot of actual effort that goes into making sure I consider what I'm doing and how it affects other people. And perhaps it's just a pedantic way of viewing things, or my own black and white thinking, but I don't like the sound of you saying that something's alright or fine when that something happens to be a negative behavior directed at you. Whether it’s me doing it or someone else. I like the sound of that sort of thing not being alright at all. Oh, now red would be such a good color on you. It would compliment those gorgeous green eyes of yours.

I can take you, Anderson.~ Did you want me to get angry and upset with you over something petty? You apologized right away and it wasn’t an issue. I might know how to hold a grudge, but I’m also pretty forgiving at times. This happened to be one of those times. I’ll be waiting. I’ll also see what I can do about having this smile ready and waiting for you when you arrive.

Then a challenge it is, Christien.~ No.. but it can be forgiven without being alright or fine. I don't want any of those words attached to my negative behaviors, I already have a flimsy enough moral line. And I've hurt you before, incredibly so. It's made me rather aware of how much you deserve to not use dismissive wordage like that. Perhaps I'm too pedantic with this. Good, I meant it when I said I hopes of it being in place when I get there. I'm quite fond of it, and it looks even better in person.

That’s because being blunt and forward works in my favor. Especially with you.~ I repeat: it’s fine. I know that’s not who you are and you’re allowed to be a little off considering the circumstances, As if I’d ever turn down an offer like that.

Mmm, that almost makes me want to take that as a challenge.~ I don't want it to be fine, but I am glad it's forgiven. I'll come get you. Hopefully you'll still be wearing that smile when I get there.

Good, because I don’t generally do subtle. It’s alright, Gare. I know things have been tense lately. Other than making me second guess if teasing was a good idea or not, I didn’t let your passiveness get to me. I don’t have any plans for breakfast, right now, and the only thing I’m doing right now is trying to decide if I want to lay back down and attempt to sleep again.

No, you really don't. It was childish. That's not who I am or how I want to be with you, stressful dramatics or not. Would you like to try to decide whether you want to lay back down and attempt to go back to sleep with me?

As true as that might be, that “someone” still wouldn’t be the person I’d prefer it was. I haven’t been very subtle when it comes to my interests either.

Not with me, at least. I like that you aren't subtle. I have to ask you to forgive me, I was being a little passive before. I think we're all on edge, but you don't deserve that. What are your plans for breakfast in a few hours? Or right now?

None of that now, Anderson. Otherwise I might have to take your lack of words as a sign you’re not interested and find someone that is.~

And it wouldn't be hard for you to find. I think the entire academy knows where my interest lies at this point.

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