Garden of Secrets

Girls, if you're 'seeing a guy' and wondering 'does he really wanna be with me or not', let me tell you something. When a guy likes a girl, I mean REALLY wants her to be his one, there is NOTHING in this universe that can stop him from being by her side. He will move boulders, cross rivers and climb mountains to be in the presence of a girl he's crazy about, it's an insatiable craving that doesn't diminish. In my opinion, if he says he's too busy to talk, isn't sure or needs time to think, sad to say but in most cases, you're just a convenience :) There are circumstances where this wont be applicable but for the most part, if someone wants something, they'll do anything to have it. I've said it before and Ill say it again, life's too short for 'let's see how it goes'.

How could I not say yes to you..

But am I ready to confess? Am I ready to commit? I haven't hesitated at all with anything coming up to this point. I'm sure we're both way in too deep to turn back around. So full speed ahead we go..

Next time round it'll be just me and you. We'll do all the things I wanted to do. Can't wait to try this out with you.

I'll miss the way the sunlight shines through your hazel brown eyes and that gleam they get when you look at me. I might even..

There's more than just one type of satisfaction.. What if it's not enough? Am I willing to risk it?

Don't keep doubting and second guessing yourself because you might regret it later on. Sometimes you've got to take risks to be happy. Best advice I've heard yet. But I'm freaking out and completely stunned and speechless by this. If I say yes, what will that mean for my future? For myself? For my family? What will people think? Or say? Why the fuck do I even care what they think? If I say yes, everything will change. If I say yes, my life will change. I'm scared. I'm so fucking scared. I really want to say yes..

It's all going away slowly. And being replaced with something else. It's a feeling I've felt before, but not for awhile. I'm excited again. I'm open. I'm not judging. Am I ready?

I'm getting that feeling in my chest again. This isn't good..

What am I afraid off? Why do I purposefully fuck up when things are just about to get good?