sol

it was a nice and sunny day, but it was quite hot, maybe agreeing to spending a majority of the day outside with the girls wasn’t the best idea.

you groaned as you laid out a blanket on the grass in a somewhat shaded area in the park. karina followed behind you with the basket filled with snacks, then giselle with a drink cooler, winter with some ice cream bars that you had all bought before arriving to the park, and ningning who was basically in charge of holding the different cameras brought along for aesthetic memory making.

everyone set their things down before sitting next to you on the blanket, watching as you dramatically ranted about the hot weather.

“not our fault you decided to agree to this outing.” karina said, tapping winter on the arm to hand over her ice cream bar.

“but it technically is your fault,” you retorted, sitting up just to dramatically drape yourself over karina. “you made it seem more fun than it actually is.”

you pouted, gaining ningnings attention because she just found it cute how dramatic you got when it came to hot weather. it’s almost as if you were gonna melt at any second due to the heat.

ningning grabbed one of the disposable cameras and snapped a picture of you, the flash bringing you out of your dramatic state and putting you into a playful one.

“hey, we need to use those films sparingly! do you know how much film costs.” bringing yourself closer to ningning, your foreheads practically touching.

“i’m aware, but i needed to capture that cute moment.” ningning smugly smiled, putting the disposable down, watching as everyone’s face turned into a more disgusted one.

“get a room you two.” giselle said, making a fake gagging noise which earned a laugh from winter. ningnings face turned a slight pink while you sat on your heels, trying your best to also not laugh along with winter.

time passed and you all were making good memories, everyone had taken at least a couple pictures with the different cameras, making sure to not miss a single moment you all shared.

“aw man, we finished all our snacks, maybe we should go back home.” winter said, sighing as she looking into the basket in search of any hidden snacks.

“maybe, but at least there’s air conditioning inside!” you said enthusiastically, getting up from your spot on the blanket and helping everyone else up. you all cleaned up before folding the blanket up and taking a path that lead to the exit of the park, but as you all were walking, someone had come up to you to start up some light conversation.

ningning turned around when she didn’t feel you clinging to her arm anymore and when she saw two men talking to you, she felt anger bubble up inside of her.

“you guys go ahead, i’ll meet you guys back at home.” ningning quickly said before speed walking to you.

“so we were just wondering if we could get your number? we saw you from across-” one of the dudes said before he was cut off by ningning who clinged to your arm, giving them both a stare they’ll never forget.

“sorry to interrupt, but we have things we need to do today.” she said before dragging you away from the two men. you waved goodbye before looking at ningning as you two walked, the angry look on her face was enough to send chills down your spine.

why did she seem so mad?

once you two reached the exit of the park, you stopped which made ningning stop with you.

“what was that all about?” you asked, noticing how ningnings expression softened slightly.

“they were so clearly trying to get your number so they could take you on a date or something, how did you not catch that.” ningning said, her tone filled with jealousy.

“nuh uh, they probably just wanted to be friends, i don’t see why it concerns you anyways.” you responded, crossing your arms and looking past ningnings shoulder to see if you could at least spot one of the dudes who stopped you, but no luck.

ningning bit her lip, deciding on if she should be straight up or lie. if she confessed right now then what would your reaction be? would it ruin things? time to play russian roulette i guess…

“it concerns me because i like you and im tired of you being so oblivious when it comes to people flirting with you.” she blurted out, watching as your eyes instantly locked with hers in shock.

“you like me?” you asked, confused.

“yes you idiot, i’ve liked you for longer than i can think of but you’ve always been so oblivious when i even attempted at flirting with you.” she sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose while closing her eyes, she knew you were oblivious but she didn’t think it was that extreme.

it was silent for a moment before you pulled ningnings hand away from her face, holding it as you gently kissed her cheek.

“i like you too.” you smiled.

thats where your best friend, jinsoul, came into play. she was the most experienced person you knew, always talking about how good she made someone feel whenever you two hung out at your place. you always wondered just how good she made them feel, but it wasn’t your place as her best friend to just suddenly say something along the lines of “make me feel good too.”

however…who were you to deny if jinsoul was the one that brought it up?

something must have been in the air that one night that jinsoul came over, something insane was in the air…she came into your house with the most perverted smirk you had ever seen on her, you almost thought she was going to tell you about yet another body added to her fuck count, but this time was different.

“i was thinking…” she started off, staring at you while you finished up your homework at your desk as she was laid back on your bed.

“how about i give you some pointers on being experienced so that whenever you have your first time with whoever, it’ll be…special..” she trailed off, waiting for you to react, but you quite literally couldn’t. you were frozen in your seat after that, shocked at how your own best friend was suggesting such lewd things, but who were you to deny…you’d be lying if you said you didn’t wish for this day to happen, to finally feel what it’s like to have jinsoul in the way that others have had her.

“and how are you gonna give me pointers?” you asked, turning yourself around in your spinny chair, watching as her smirk grew.

“get on this bed with me and i’ll show you.”

and that you did, it took you barley any time to get out of the chair and sit directly in front of jinsoul.

“such an obedient thing already, you listen so well.” she said in a lewd tone and you could have sworn that if you opened your mouth in that moment, a butterfly would fly out due to how many butterflies you had in your stomach.

“now, whenever you get with someone, it’s important to make them feel good, yes?” she asked, to which you nodded. “so to make them feel good, it’s always important to start off with something to work them up.”

jinsoul started to shimmy her way out of her sweatpants, tossing them on the floor next to the bed, leaving her in only some loose fitting boxers.

“why don’t you slowly remove my boxers, hm? tease me a bit so i can see just how much you know, like a placement test.” and so you did, you moved from your sitting position to being on your knees, slightly hovering over jinsoul as your hands crept their way up her thighs to the band of her boxers. you looked at her with desperate eyes as you slowly dragged her boxers down, watching her slightly hard dick slip out of them. jinsoul wanted to ruin you in that moment, but she needs to go slow, to teach you of course.

“o-ok, now get closer and maybe even kiss my tip a little, maybe even make more eye contact to really have whoever you wanna please really weak in the knees.” she stuttered, feeling herself lose it slightly at the sight of you slowly lower your head down to kiss the sides of her shaft. jinsoul wouldn’t have thought you were as inexperienced as you say you are especially with the way you slightly fondled her balls while giving little licks to her tip, letting her precum settle on your tongue.

“like this, soul?” you asked, making eye contact with her as you licked a strip from the base to the tip of her penis, letting a bit of drool fall out of your mouth which ran down her tip.

“fuck, yes, just like that baby.” jinsoul said, gently grabbing a fist full of your hair, wanting to absolutely fuck your face until you’re gagging, but she held back.

“how about you suck my tip just a bit, really get it wet and coated with your saliva, for extra lubrication of course..” you listened, letting your lips wrap around her tip while swirling your tongue slowly around it.

“that’s it, just like that.” jinsoul praised, grunting slightly at the end. she slowly moved your head lower down her cock until she heard you gag about halfway and she just about lost it.

“cute, can’t go that far yet? it’s ok, i’m sure you’ll be able to take all of me after i’m done with you.” she said, lifting your head back up before anything else.

you looked at her with tears forming in your eyes, you wanted to be able to take all of jinsoul, but you just couldn’t, your gag reflex wouldn’t allow you…or at least you thought.

“god, i can’t anymore, i need to fuck that pretty face of yours…” jinsoul said quickly before getting a better grip of your hair before she forced your mouth on to her cock. from there, she fucked your face, only feeling herself get more desperate as you kept gagging around her length.

“oh fuck, i’m so close, just a bit more…” she whined, feeling your tongue go even more flat against her length with a bit of teeth added, both of those feelings just making her absolutely get lost in the feeling and eventually shooting load after load down your throat.

after she came down from her high, she slowly pulled out, closing her eyes and catching her breath before opening them again to watch you swallow the leftover cum that was on your tongue.

“thanks, now my throat is gonna be killing me for the next couple of days.” you said, hoarse, your throat completely ruined.

“that won’t be the only thing ruined after tonight.” jinsoul replied in a mischievous tone.

Dearest, darling, my universe

날 데려가 줄래?

나의 이 가난한 상상력으론

떠올릴 수 없는 곳으로

giselle, your rock, your #1 supporter, your best friend. whenever you had any sort of troubles, giselle was the one person that you could run to when things became unbearable and you were grateful for that, for her. even when you didn’t have troubles that giselle would worry about and lend you a shoulder to cry on, you two would spend time together and bond over the little things that would seem meaningless to others.

저기 멀리 from Earth to Mars

꼭 같이 가줄래?

그곳이 어디든

오랜 외로움, 그 반대말을 찾아서

어떤 실수로

이토록 우리는 함께일까?

“hey, have you ever wondered what it would be like to run away?” giselle abruptly asked, making you look up from the manga you had stolen from her shelf.

“sometimes, why?” you cocked your head, eyebrows furrowed, confused on what made her ask.

“what if we ran away together, we could go somewhere even more beautiful than here, away from all your troubles.” she explained.

you smiled, liking the idea of running away with your best friend, being able to live a better life with her without worrying about anyone or anything. however, there’s one faulty thing about running away with giselle.

would your feelings towards her grow more?

“i think i’d like that” you smiled, causing giselle to smile as well.

so it was settled, you two would simply run away to a better place where it would be nothing but peaceful. of course you two couldn’t jump into this so carelessly, a lot of planning was made to assure that you two had the right funds, location, and transportation. once everything had been carefully thought out, you two progressed.

bags packed, excitement contained, and a patient giselle waiting just down the street. you were ready to leave this place to settle down somewhere better with your best friend. you hated having to still call her your best friend during all this, but what could you do? you didn’t know if she felt the same or not and you didn’t wanna risk anything.

세상에게서 도망쳐 run on

나와 저 끝까지 가줘 my lover

나쁜 결말일까?

길 잃은 우리 둘 mm

and so it started, the walk to the train station while talking about the first things you two would do in the new area begun. giselle wanted to check out any cafés that may be there while you wanted to take a nap as soon as you two made it to your destination. giselle laughed, gentle pushing your shoulder in a playful manner, joking about how much of a homebody you are.

after some talk later, you two found yourselves on the platform of the train station, looking at each other before taking a deep breath and stepping onto the train. it was almost empty minus the business workers who were going home after a long day at the office. you and giselle had sat in a secluded part of the train cart, putting your suitcases on the padded seats in front of you two. giselle let out a long breath of air, slouching a bit in her seat and resting her head on your shoulder. you stiffened up, feeling her nuzzle her head on your shoulder to get comfortable before the train started to move.

“we should have started operation run away later in the day, which one of us decided that we should do this at 4 in the morning.” she groaned.

“you did, you decided that.” you chuckled, wrapping your arm around her in an attempt to shield her eyes from as much as the train lighting as possible, allowing her to sleep peacefully.

“well…shit.” she sighed, giggling quietly to herself before letting the wave of tiredness get to her.

부서지도록 나를 꼭 안아

더 사랑히 내게 입 맞춰 lover

Love is all, love is all

Love, love, love, love

an hour or so passed since giselle had fallen asleep, the sun started to rise which only made her look even more beautiful. the way the sunrise had captured her features was amazing even if your sweater sleeve was blocking almost half her face. you were convinced that she’d wake up soon with how hard and loud your heart seemed to be beating, but you couldn’t help yourself.

you started to wonder if this was a bad idea, if maybe had you not actually run away with her, you wouldn’t be feeling this way.

impossible. it was inevitable with the way any little act of kindness she had done towards you made your heart flutter.

결국, 그럼에도

어째서 우리는 서로일까?

세상에게서 도망쳐 run on

나와 저 끝까지 가줘 my lover

나쁜 결말일까?

길 잃은 우리 둘 mm

as the train ride proceeded for a bit longer, you noticed your stop was coming up. you unwrapped your arm around giselle, causing her to stir from the sudden loss of warmth.

“hey, we’re almost here.” you whispered, rubbing your head against hers. she groaned, slowly waking up and taking in the view from outside the window.

“wow…” she was at a loss for words, grateful for picking this area as a place to run away to especially when it would make you look even more beautiful than you already are.

after a good stare out the window, giselle faced you, observing your facial features before frowning.

“did you not get any rest when i did?” she asked, moving her hand your your face to caress your cheek.

“no, i wanted to make sure we didn’t miss our stop.” complete lie. as you were about to gently grab giselle’s wrist to move her hand off your face, the announcer had announced your stop, resulting in giselle’s hand moving on her own. you two got up from your seats, stretching a bit before grabbing your things and making your way off the train. once off the train, you two took in your surroundings, sharing a joint ‘woah’ before starting the walk to the temporary hotel.

찬찬히 너를 두 눈에 담아

한 번 더 편안히 웃어주렴

유영하듯 떠오른

그날 그 밤처럼

나와 함께 겁 없이 저물어줄래?

산산히 나를 더 망쳐 ruiner

너와 슬퍼지고 싶어 my lover

during the walk, giselle couldn’t help but stare at you, causing her to almost fall a couple times.

“you should really pay more attention while you’re walking, you’re so clumsy.” you laughed, watching as giselle almost tripped over her own feet.

“it’s hard to pay attention when….the view is so pretty!” she awkwardly said, suddenly turning her head towards a fenced off ledge that had a perfect view of the ocean and a small island off in the distance. “here, stand right there, i wanna take a picture of you with this beautiful view.” giselle pointed at a spot with her finger.

you stood where she pointed, looking behind you to also take in the view. as you were looking behind you, giselle had whipped out her phone to take some candid shots of you, loving how amazing you looked without even trying.

“wow…you’re a work of art.” she said a little too loud, causing you to look at her. you smiled.

“same to you, you’re absolutely stunning.”

giselle’s arm slowly dropped to her side as she walked towards you. once she got close enough, she held you in a warm embrace, the breeze flowing through both of your hair. after some silence, you decided to risk everything and lean in for a kiss which she thankfully reciprocated.

필연에게서 도망쳐 run on

나와 저 끝까지 가줘 my lover

일부러 나란히 길 잃은 우리 두 사람

부서지도록 나를 꼭 안아

더 사랑히 내게 입 맞춰 lover

Our love wins all, love wins all

Love, love, love, love

it was a warm, longing kiss. the mix of the cool breeze and the faint wave crashes in the background made it all the more better. you were glad you took the risk to run away with her, you wouldn’t have it any other way.

giselle pulled away first, looking into your eyes lovingly before gently hitting your shoulder.

it was another day of being sick, you woke up at 4am due to coughing your lungs out. sua, who was asleep next to you, shot up out of bed as soon as she heard your coughing fit, quickly scrambling to turn the lamp on while grabbing a bottle of water that was on the nightstand next to her. she quickly untwisted the cap and helped you drink, rubbing circles on your back to soothe you. 

you thanked her weakly before laying back down and taking a deep breath in and out. sua looked at you as you slowly closed your eyes, her eyebrows turning upwards in a worried expression. sua brushed a strand of hair behind your ear before putting the water bottle back on the nightstand and turning the lamp off, settling back into bed as well.

morning came and sua opened her eyes to not see you next to her which worried her. she wanted to make sure you were alright especially after your coughing fit from a bit earlier. sua shot out of bed once again and began searching your shared apartment only to find you making breakfast while holding a tissue in one hand. sua let out a breath she didn’t realize she was holding while slowly making her way over to you, wrapping her arms around your waist once she was behind you. 

“what are you doing out of bed? you’re sick.” she said in her morning voice, kissing your exposed shoulder as she watched you flip a pancake.

“i wanted to make breakfast for you for once.” you chuckled quietly, a cough following your chuckle which thankfully, you managed to cough into the tissue that was in your hand before it could contaminate anything. sua reached around and turned off the stove, guiding your hand to place the spatula down before turning you around and holding you by your shoulders.

“you need to rest, let me take care of you.” she said with a small grin on her face. you shook your head, attempting to turn back around and finish the pancakes, but your actions were shut down. sua pulled you away from the stove completely, grabbing your hand and leading you to the bedroom where she gently pushed you on the bed. 

“get comfortable and you better be drowsy by the time i get back.” sua scolded, pointing a finger at you before leaving the room and closing the door behind her. you huffed, staring at the ceiling before touching your forehead. you didn’t think you were that sick, but when you touched your forehead, you quickly pulled your hand back since your forehead felt like you had just touched a metal pole that had been sitting out in the sun. 

you started to get comfortable, wiggling under the covers before pulling them over half your face. you sighed as you looked towards the door, wondering when your girlfriend would be back, but that thought was quickly dismissed when your eyes started to feel heavy and a yawn left your mouth. you attempted to keep your eyes from shutting, but sleep quickly won. sua was just in the kitchen, making some soup that she knew you’d like, just something that would be light for your stomach yet good for your throat. while the soup was boiling on the stove, she cleaned up the kitchen from your breakfast attempt while also searching the cabinets for medicine. when she couldn’t find any, she shook her head, mentally scolding herself and you for not being more prepared by having medicine in the cabinets. sua turned the stove off before making her way to the front door, slipping her shoes on and grabbing her purse before leaving to buy medicine. upon returning, she quietly made her way to the shared bedroom, medicine in hand. she hoped you’d be asleep, but with how slightly stubborn you were earlier, she had a doubt.

sua quietly opened the door, peeping into the room to see you asleep. as she continued to quietly walk into the room, she could hear your light snores with an occasional gentle cough. sua set the medicine down on the nightstand, her eyes never once leaving you. she brushed a strand of hair away from your face which caused you to stir for a second, but you fell back asleep, snuggling into the covers and pillow. sua bent down, kissing your exposed forehead before leaving the room and going back into the kitchen where she poured some soup into a bowl. afterwards, sua made her way back into the room, setting the bowl down on the nightstand next to the medicine before lightly shaking your shoulder.

“hey, i made some soup and got you some medicine.” sua said in a voice that was calming and soft. you mumbled, your eyes slowly opening before adjusting to your surroundings. you smiled at your girlfriend who mirrored the same smile. helping you sit up, she grabbed the bowl and insisted on feeding you.

“babe, i’m sick, my arms aren’t broken…” you playfully rolled your eyes.

“but what if you spill it because…because!” she struggled to find a reason which caused you to chuckle. you shook your head, opening your mouth so she could feed you. her eyes lit up as she fed you a spoonful of soup. 

“you’re an idol though, we could have cute idol interactions and our fans could make cute montages of us…” you whined to which jiu shook her head.

“being a trainee was just as hard as being an idol, i wouldn’t want you to stress or cry over any sort of conflict you may have.” jiu wanted to protect you at all costs since she knew you could be quite the crybaby when it came to harsh comments on your abilities, hell, even she cried rivers when she was given feedback that sounded a little too harsh for her own good.

“fine.” you say with a pout, crossing your arms and letting out a sigh. jiu pat your head before receiving a text from her manager, telling her that the van is waiting for her outside.

“i have to go now, my schedule starts soon.” jiu said, placing a kiss on the top of your head, whispering an ‘i love you’ before leaving your apartment. you were sorta glad jiu kind of convinced you to not become a trainee, you couldn’t imagine a life where you were too busy to have your girlfriend over just because you had to stay at whatever company to practice for your trainee evaluation.

you sighed once more, rolling off the couch with a gentle plop to the floor where you laid there, staring at the ceiling until you had an idea.

“if i can’t be an actual idol then i’ll just pretend to be one.” you said with a mischievous grin as you got up off the floor, making your way to your bedroom.

once you got in your bedroom, you shut the door behind you before turning on the tv you had on there. after that, you went to youtube and searched up nmixx’s roller coaster dance practice. you enjoyed bubbly and happy songs that had fun choreography, you had always wanted to attempt to dance to roller coaster, but since jiu was around most of the time and you were too embarrassed to dance around her, you never had the chance to until now.

the video had started and you were easily following along. you didn’t know who to follow so you just did a little bit of everything, letting yourself get fully immersed into the song. the choreography was pretty easy to follow, it was just the jumps and footwork that messed you up a little stamina wise, but other than that you had fun.

the song ended and you were feeling great. wanting to dance to more songs, you started falling down a spiral of dance practices. bubble by stayc was another one of your favorites that you had enjoyed, but you were getting tired of the bubbly choreographies so you decided to switch things up a bit by dancing to a dreamcatcher song.

“what’s the craziest choreography they’ve done..” you asked yourself out loud as you cycled through all their dance practices. when you saw the demian special clip, you knew you had to dance to it. you remember jiu talking about how exhausting the choreography is and you thought the same when you had originally watched the special clip, but what was the harm in trying it for yourself.

you pressed play and got into jius position since what type of partner would you be if you didn’t do your girlfriends part? as soon as the music played, you quickly started realizing why jiu thought the choreography was so exhausting.

demian needed high stamina and jello bones especially during the body roll that quickly killed you. you gave mental props to sua as you continued dancing, attempting to catch your breath during the parts that you didn’t need to dance to. as the song came to a close, you were glad that you survived, but you were so exhausted that you had to lay on the floor. you were relieved to feel the cold hardwood floor, it was just what you needed after dancing to songs that required tons of jumping and whatever demian was.

you were snapped out of your hardwood floor solitude by someone clapping behind you and when you rolled over to see who it was, you saw a smiley jiu clapping her hands.

“i didn't think you’d survive that.” she said, walking over to you and squatting.

“how long have you been standing there?” you asked, unsure of how you didn’t hear her come into your apartment and open your bedroom door.

“not long, but are you ok? do you need any water?” jiu asked, moving the little hairs that stuck to your face due to sweat. you shook your head, taking one last deep breath of air to regulate your breathing before sitting up and staring into jius eyes.

“tell sua that i’m never dancing to another song she makes the choreography for ever again, that almost killed me.” you said, causing jiu to burst into laughter.

sakura had walked into you and eunchae’s shared room, waking you both up for school with a shake on the shoulder. you groaned while sitting up, rubbing your eyes while calling out for eunchae. eunchae didn’t stir, turning around so her back was faced towards sakura who shook eunchae’s entire body, waking her up instantly. you got out of bed, walking towards the closet to pull out your uniforms. you handed eunchae her uniform to which she tiredly thanked you, yawning after.

after the two of you got dressed, you both went to the vanity to put on light makeup before going into the kitchen to eat breakfast. eunchae grabbed the face roller to deal with puffiness while you started to apply mascara, scared that you might mess up with how your eyes kept fighting to close. eunchae put the face roller down and scooted over a bit so you could sit down at the vanity with her, leaning her head on your shoulder once you had sat down. you put the lid back on the mascara tube before putting it down and resting your head on top of eunchae. you both yawned in sync, causing you two to giggle before letting both your eyes shut.

what you two didn’t hear was chaewon and yunjin calling your names for breakfast since you two were about to be late. sakura sent kazuha to check on you two since she knew that if she were to check on you two, it would be a whole lot of scolding. kazuha got up from her comfortable spot on the couch without making a fuss, making her way towards you and eunchae’s room, pressing her ear to the door before opening it. silence, not a single sound which was unusual for you two since eunchae was always so full of energy in the mornings that it would spread to you, making you full of energy in the mornings as a result too. 

upon opening the door, kazuha melted at the sight, quickly but quietly running over to the older girls to tell them. they all quietly followed kazuha who held out her arms to show the way you two had been sleeping. yunjin was quick to pull out her phone to snap pictures, taking in the moment before sakura woke you two up. chaewon pleaded quietly for sakura not to wake you two up since you were just too cute, but sakura shook her head, crossing her arms.

“they’re going to be late, school is important.” sakura said, walking towards you two, but stopping when she saw you snuggle closer to eunchae. sakura walked out of the room, closing the door quietly behind her, hanging her head low in defeat.

can you come by the practice room and bring my water bottle? i was in such a rush to workout that i left it on the kitchen island:( texted heejin. you smiled to yourself, muttering a small “loser.” before getting off the couch and making your way over to the kitchen where you saw her water bottle sitting exactly where she had said it was. after you grabbed the water bottle, you made your way towards the front door, slipping shoes on, and putting a cap on before leaving to run your quick errand.

or so you thought.

as soon as you walked into the practice room where heejin was doing an impressively long plank, you felt drawn to her, almost like she put a spell on you that made you want to stick around for the rest of her workout. you placed her water bottle next to her, she thanked you while still planking, and with that you made your way towards the wall opposite of her, sliding your back down it to sit down. a timer had gone off a couple minutes later, signifying that her plank was done with. heejin sat on her knees, grabbing the ipad she used to time her plank, turning it off. 

“thanks for bringing my water bottle by the way, that plank almost killed me.” heejin chuckled while opening her water bottle, taking the biggest gulps you’ve ever seen her take. a couple water droplets fell, dribbling down her chin before eventually falling and rolling down her chest. the stray water droplets had caught your eye, but you shook your head, attempting to get any lewd thoughts you may have just had out of your head. 

heejin carried on with her workout, getting through it with ease since you were there for moral support even if you only nodded and smiled when heejin would ask you any sort of question. you were too focused on every bead of sweat that formed over time with her workout. you found yourself not even being able to snap yourself out of your thoughts, fully letting any and every thought consume your brain until heejin started clapping her hands.

“hello? earth to y/n? you there?” heejin clapped and chuckled, catching your attention. you blinked a couple times, shaking your head and apologizing. who knew you could get so lost in your thoughts. “do you mind getting me a towel from that rack over there? i'm drenched.” heejin continued to which you nodded. 

“you’re not the only one that’s drenched.” you muttered to yourself, giggling under your breath while grabbing a towel from the rack and making your way towards her. she thanked you, using the towel to wipe the sweat off. you couldn’t help but watch as she wiped herself dry. just when you thought you were being somewhat subtle, heejin snapped her fingers, catching your attention once again.

“i know you’ve been staring this entire time, that’s why you stuck around for my workout, huh? you enjoy watching me sweat? does it turn you on?” heejin smirked, watching as your cheeks started to turn a light shade of red out of embarrassment. “oh come on, don’t get embarrassed now.” she chuckled, cupping your jaw with her hand free hand that wasn’t holding the towel, pulling you into a lust filled kiss that only deepened after heejin dropped the towel she was holding. she pulled away, admiring your face filled with bliss, rubbing her thumb against your lip before smirking.

“i want you to suck me off.” heejin blatantly said, grabbing your hand to cup her hard on. “let me feel those pretty lips wrapped around my cock, sound good?” you nodded, licking your lips to which heejin nodded in response. you got down on your knees, pulling her gray sweats down, seeing her imprint in her boxers before teasingly pulling her boxers down while looking up at her. you held her hard on with one hand as you gave a gentle lick to her tip, getting a taste of her precum that had started to ooze out. heejin brought a hand down to your hair, grabbing a handful while uttering praises of how good you were doing already.

you got closer to the base, licking a stripe up from her balls to her tip before leaving little kisses down her shaft, licking another stripe up to the tip. the sensations made heejin lull her head back, letting her mouth open with an ‘o’ which only got bigger when she gasped as you took her tip in your mouth, circling your tongue around it.

“fuck, feels so good.” she cursed, readjusting her grip on your hair, pushing your head a bit to fit more of her length into your mouth. you gagged a bit which made heejin almost cum on the spot. she knew she was too big for you, but that was ok because she’d be sure to make up for any throat pain later.

once you let your throat adjust to how much of heejin’s length you had in your mouth, you continued to bob your head up and down at a slow pace, letting your throat adjust to more and more of her length until you had gotten down to her base. you moved back, removing her entire cock from your mouth, letting your hand jerk her off to spread your saliva for extra lubrication, making sure to rub your thumb across her tip when it got to the top. heejin was starting to get impatient, it seemed like you were teasing at this point and she wasn’t having it. 

heejin brought her other hand up to grab another chunk of your hair before telling you to move your hand, slamming her cock into your mouth, hearing you gag, but not caring anymore. heejin proceeded to fuck your mouth, letting out grunts and moans as you continued to gag, tears rolling down your face from the constant gagging.

“look up at me, let me see those tearing eyes of yours, slut.” heejin said, to which you obediently did, staring up at her with teary eyes as she proceeded to roughly fuck your face. you attempted to flatten out your tongue more and when you did, it sent a wave of pleasure over heejin which caused her to thrust once more into your mouth, shooting ropes of her thick cum down your throat. heejin heavily breathed, attempting to catch her breath as she pulled out of your mouth, a string of saliva mixed with cum following. heejin let go of your hair, ruffling it up as she watched you swallow any leftover cum. 

handong was a wild card. she would act very friendly one second, flirty the next, then want nothing to do with you afterwards. it was a never ending cycle of mixed emotions, misunderstandings, and confusions. it had left you conflicted and stumped on what to do, but did you care enough to distance yourself to get your feelings for her situated? no, of course not. you were well convinced that you were in love with her and that your feelings for her would never change. you were completely infatuated with her.

“hey, wanna go out for dinner?” handong had asked, sticking her head into your room with a smile on her face. you looked up from your laptop, mirroring her smile.

“sure, who’s going with?” you asked, usually she brought her members along to treat them after a tough promotion period, but she shook her head at your words.

“no one, it’ll just be me and you, now pick out something nice to wear for tonight!” she excitedly exclaimed, turning around and running to her room while letting out little giggles. as soon as you heard her door shut, you let out a breath that you didn’t know you were holding. sure, you were excited to spend a nice dinner with handong, but was it actually going to be nice? were you falling into another one of her mixed emotion traps? were you going to embarrass yourself? all these questions filling your head made it hard to breathe, it felt like you were drawing in an ocean filled with doubt, fear, and embarrassment. if this is how you feel after handong asked you if you wanted to have dinner then maybe it was time you reconsidered your feelings for her.

you put on your best clothes, looking at yourself in the mirror, flattening the sides of your outfit down by running your hands down it. you fixed up your hair a bit before turning around to see handong leaning against your door frame. she was wearing the most beautiful, perfectly fitting velvet dress. you stared in awe for a couple moments, a chuckle erupting from handong who started to step closer to you. 

“you look beautiful.” you breathlessly said. handong chuckled once more.

“you don’t look too bad yourself, ready?” she asked, receiving a nod from you before grabbing your hand and leading you out of the building. 

you two had arrived at a restaurant which looked high end, you were nervous that you weren’t going to be able to afford anything, nervously gulping and feeling your hands start to get sweaty. handong started to walk towards the front doors, looking back to notice you were following her. she softly smiled, walking back to you to grab your hand and lead you inside.

“sorry.” you whispered, looking down at handong’s hand which was slightly intertwined with your sweaty hand.

“for what?’ she whispered back, leading you two to an empty, candlelit table.

“you know…the sweat, i’m just nervous, this place looks so high end.” you said while looking around. handong guided you to your seat, helping you sit down as you continued to observe the place.

“don’t worry about it then, i’ll pay for everything.” she said, opening the menu that was quickly handed out by a waiter.

“no, i can’t let you do that, i’ll look for something cheap.” you stumbled over your words as you opened the menu to see anything but cheap. why had she brought you here of all places? you would have been fine with a simple hangout at a diner, talking over milkshakes and fries. 

the waiter came back to take your orders, handong had ordered a drink that sounded all sorts of fancy and a meal that sounded like it came directly from france while you had just gone with a simple glass of water. the waiter stared at you as if you were an alien, as if ordering water there wasn’t normal, but they obliged and took your menus. handong stared at you, a smile creeping up on her face as she thought about your simple order.

“really? just water?” she laughed quietly.

“of course just water, a bowl of soup was almost 20 bucks!” you whisper yelled, putting your face into your hands. “why did i agree to go out with you?” you groan quietly, your hands muffling your complaints. handong found it harder to contain her laughter, you didn’t understand how this was so funny to her.

“maybe if you think of this like a date then it’ll make things better, who knows, maybe i’ll even give you a treat for behaving afterwards.” her tone turned sultry, you knew she was messing with you, she considered you a friend and you were well aware of that. you couldn’t put yourself through this, not again.

“don’t say that, you know you wouldn’t want to consider this a date.” you lifted your head up from your hands, now making eye contact with the woman in front of you who only raised an eyebrow.

“what makes you say that?” she questioned. 

“maybe the fact that you always laugh off any flirts, making fun of me for getting flustered then proceeding to mess with me knowing fully well that i love you.” you scoffed, you knew this dinner night with her was a mistake, but you were like a puppy when it came to her, you’d do anything to be around her.

“i do that with everyone, you’re nothing special. we’re friends and we’ll always stay friends, nothing more.” handong said, turning to thank the waiter for the drinks and food, taking a sip of her beverage before looking back at you. “whatever feelings you have for me, i suggest you stop them, you’re my friend and you always will be.”

you grit your teeth, not knowing how much more you could take of this night.

“fine.” was all you said, taking some money out of your pocket, slamming it on the table before getting up out of your chair. “thanks for tonight, i guess.” you spoke through gritted teeth as you left the restaurant, heading back home on foot, not caring about the weather or how late it was. if handong wanted you to lose feelings for her then so be it, that shouldn’t be hard when its always been unrequited love. 

it was slightly awkward to wake up the next morning to see handong on the couch after what happened last night, but you’d have to get used to it. you made your way to the kitchen for breakfast, seeing one of your closest friends, sua, making pancakes for everyone.

“good morning.” you said, standing behind sua and wrapping your arms around her, watching as she poured pancake batter into the sizzling pan.

“well good morning to you too, feeling clingy this morning or something?” sua asked, flipping a pancake and pressing down on it.

“maybe a little bit, after you're done with the pancakes then can we go into your room and watch a movie? please?” you pleaded moving around so your face was in her peripheral vision. she smiled and nodded, attempting to finish up the pancakes faster as you started making your way towards her room.

handong overheard everything, it hurt to hear. is this how you felt all along? who knows. she didn’t care, you were still friends in her book and nothing would change that, she could never think of a friend in a romantical way, that would be a complete violation of a friendship. she did have to admit that watching sua happily run towards her bedroom hurt though. sua had always liked clinging on to everyone, but she seemed to enjoy clinging on to you the most. 

“does sua like them?” handong asked herself out loud, but she immediately shook her head. that couldn’t be the case, handong was so sure that sua saw you the same way she had seen you all these years. there wasn’t any way that sua could like you or anything of the sorts, it was just platonic cuddling and movie watching. handong had convinced herself that was the case.

she was far from wrong though. a couple weeks had passed since then and sua made it very aware to everyone that you two were dating, the hickies had only solidified everything. handong couldn’t describe what exactly she was feeling in that moment, something about seeing you so happy with sua had made her feel off. she felt a pang in her chest which was something she had never felt before. she didn't know why she was starting to feel this way towards you, she was adamant about you being a friend and nothing but a friend, but friends shouldn’t be jealous over the other being in a happy relationship.

you stare at the ceiling, memories of the two of you flashing by. they seem like a blur, but they’re so vivid at the same time, it’s confusing. you wondered if yunjin ever felt like this and if she ever lies awake thinking of you and everything you two could have been.

“come on, we need to hurry, the sun’s setting!” yunjin shouted as she ran towards a tree on top of a small hill. you followed somewhat behind her, blanket tucked under your arm as you attempted to catch up. once on top of the hill, yunjin gently grabbed the blanket from under your arm as you had your hands on your knees, attempting to catch your breath. yunjin laid the blanket under the tree, picking the perfect spot to watch the sunset together.

“i don’t get how you’re not panting.” you said in between breaths, getting somewhat closer to catching your breath.

“i’m just built different.” she smiled, grabbing one of your hands from your knee, leading you towards the blanket to sit down. once the two of you were seated, yunjin pulled you close, wrapping her arms around you as your head instinctively went to her shoulder. you liked having moments like this with her, just the two of you sitting in a comfortable silence while in each other's presence. it was nice.

you felt a tear roll down your face, hitting the pillow beneath you. you missed moments like that with her, the domestic moments with her that made you look forward to any off days she had, the moments that seemed to be in slow motion because you didn’t want them to end yet, the moments that had you selfishly wishing she wasn’t an idol so you could see her more.

“what’s gotten into you? can’t you just support me? god, you’ve gotten so clingy.” yunjin said, venom laced in her voice as she pinched the bridge of her nose. that would be the last time you would ever bring up how it feels like she’s always in the practice room even on days when she doesn't even need to be there.

“i've missed you, am i not allowed to miss you now? you don’t even tell me that you love me anymore, all you ever do now is go to the practice room and ignore me for hours without end!” you retorted, feeling just as annoyed as she was. it felt like yunjin was barely putting any effort into the relationship, it all felt one sided, you hated that.

“maybe it’s because i don’t love you anymore, have you ever thought of that? how could i love someone who’s always on my ass!” yunjin yelled, immediately regretting her words. “wait, i didn’t-” you cut her off.

“no, you’ve said enough.” your voice cracked, your worst nightmare was coming true. the one thing that you didn’t want to happen was finally happening and it was breaking you. you felt tears start to prick at the corners of your eyes as you made your way towards the room that you shared with yunjin. you started to grab your things, shutting down every single one of yunjin’s attempts to hold you back, you couldn’t do it anymore. what you had with her was getting worse, you had to leave for the night to figure out where to go from here.

“please, hear me out, i love you, i really-” yunjin paused when you turned towards her, tears falling freely out of your eyes. you shook your head at her, wiping your tears while making your way towards the front door, yunjin following close behind. 

“we clearly need some time apart.” were the last words you said to her before you walked out the door. it hurt you to say that, you wanted to just forgive and forget, but if you did end up forgiving and forgetting then who’s to say that it won’t happen again?

“fuck, yunjin, you were terrible.” you sat up, pulling your knees up to your chest, letting the tears that sat on the edge just fall freely because who cares? you surely didn’t at this point. 

“ok, you can open your eyes now!” yunjin happily exclaimed as you opened your eyes to see a birthday cake with messy frosting and some candles that were already melting. you smiled at the gesture, she was always such a sweetheart when it came to your birthday.

“i know it’s nothing fancy, but it’s the thought that counts?” she smiled like an absolute dork, but she was your dork. you leaned in and gave her a gentle kiss on her lips and cheek before bringing a hand up to run your thumb across her rosy cheeks. yunjin leaned into your touch as you both smiled warmly at each other. 

“doesn’t matter if it’s nothing fancy, i still love it, thank you. now let's blow out the candles before all the wax melts onto the cake!” you quickly turned towards the cake, blowing out the candles before removing them from the cake, licking the frosting off the bottom of it. yunjin stared at you with the most love behind her eyes that she has ever had in her life. she was so in love with you.

the two of you enjoyed cake, watched tv, slow danced, and just enjoyed each other's company. this was the best birthday that you have ever had, thanks to yunjin. yunjin walked towards the kitchen, getting ready to make you the best birthday dinner you could ever have even though it was more of her trying to show off any cool chef skills she knew.

“voila, dinner is served.” yunjin said placing two plates on the dining table, pulling your chair out and pushing it back in afterwards. you two put some food on your forks, clinking them together before taking a bite at the same time. yunjin was the first to grab a napkin, spitting the food out into it, and you followed suit. there was a small silence before the two of you bursted into laughter. 

“ok, maybe i should stay out of the kitchen.” yunjin said in between fits of laughter.

“should we just order takeout? i’m sure they’re still delivering.” you said, calming down from your fits of laughter. 

you grabbed your phone off your nightstand, scrolling and tapping mindlessly until you finally realized what you were doing. yunjin’s contact on your screen, your finger just barely hovering above the call button. you knew this would be a bad idea, but it felt so right at the same time. it was conflicting.

“i think we should break up.” yunjin said, continuing to drive forward, not even glancing at you. you stared ahead, not believing what you just heard.

“...what? i don’t think i heard you right.” you chuckled lightly. 

“i said, i think we should break up, this just isn’t working anymore and you know that. we’re both well aware by now.” yunjin continued to talk as she pulled into an empty parking lot, putting the car in park before unbuckling her seatbelt and turning to face you. you didn’t dare look at her, you only continued to look forward as her words slowly hit you.

“will you please look at me?” yunjin raised a hand in an attempt to turn your face towards her, but you moved away. you shook your head, not wanting to believe anything, not wanting to accept the reality of you two being broken up. you wanted to cry, but you couldn’t, nothing was coming out. you took a deep breath before finally turning your head to face your now, ex-girlfriend.

“ok.” was all you could say, you felt choked up, it was hard forming sentences, everything just hurt and it was all hard to process. 

“we both know that we wouldn’t have worked out, we both have our problems and differences. our relationship was flawed and toxic.” yunjin said as she put her seatbelt back on before putting the car in reverse, pulling out of the empty parking lot to take you to her place to grab your things. 

“did you think our entire relationship was flawed and toxic?” you asked in a monotone voice. yunjin gripped the steering wheel, gulping while glancing at you in the corner of her eye.

“no, we just had our moments.” was all yunjin said. those were the last words she ever said to you and you didn't bother to press further on what she thought during the entire relationship.

you held your phone up to your ear, biting your lower lip out of nervousness while listening as your phone continued to ring until a familiar, yet tired, voice answered.

“hey.” you spoke quietly.

you were sitting on the couch of your shared apartment, flipping through the channels on tv as you waited for her to come home from her long day of busy schedules. as you flipped through the various channels, you felt your phone buzz. unlocking it, you saw a text message from nayeon.

on my way home now, miss you so much :( 

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you clicked on the image with a smile on your face that only got bigger as you saw nayeon’s beautiful face. 

my beautiful bunny, get home safely, the apartment’s so quiet without you!

turning off your phone, you continued to flip through the channels until you felt your eyes get slightly heavy.

“i guess a short nap wouldn’t kill anyone.” you shrugged, turning off the tv after an unsuccessful channel surf, grabbing a blanket from the basket of blankets, and draping it over you before letting your eyes shut. 

you felt a couple gentle taps on your shoulder, but when you wouldn’t wake up from the taps, you felt a pillow swing at your face which made you shoot up and look around. your vision was blurry from the sudden awakening, but once you adjusted to your surroundings, you saw your girlfriend menacingly smiling at you.

“if i knew that would wake you up quicker than any other way i’ve woken you up then i would have hit you with pillows way earlier.” nayeon giggled to herself as you looked at her with a scowl on your face.

“you interrupted my totally awesome dream about being a free roaming chicken.” you threw yourself back on the couch dramatically, earning a groan from nayeon.

“can you at least pretend to dream about me every once in a while.” nayeon said, playfully rolling her eyes. 

you laughed, patting the spot next to you on the couch so she could sit. you enjoyed when the two of you just sat together, it was comforting just to have her near you, her presence was comforting. you also enjoyed getting to cling to her after a long day of being apart, but that’s besides the point. when nayeon sat down, you heard a flarp sound. flabbergasted at the sound that came out of your girlfriend, your jaw dropped slightly. nayeon pretended to be flustered while looking away to hide her laugh.

“glad to hear you’re comfortable,” you said, laughter creeping up on you. “but that definitely has to be a two out of ten, not crisp enough.” nayeon whipped her head around, you shrugged at her.

“what do you mean two out of ten?! it wasn’t even a real one, don’t say stuff like that!” nayeon said, legitimately embarrassed as she stood up, attempting to quickly take the whoopie cushion out of her pants. you watched and laughed as she struggled, her face only turning more red out of embarrassment as she continued to struggle.

“calm down, i’m only messing with you, i knew you had something back there.” you said in between laughs. nayeon had finally gotten the whoopie cushion out of her pants, looking down at the floor in defeat. she wanted to prank you, but it only turned against her. nayeon sat back down, throwing her head back on the couch cushion, staring at the ceiling.

“you’re lucky i love you because i would have thrown hands after that.” nayeon said dramatically.

“you would have won anyways, one slap from you and I would flung across the world.” you snickered, that was a good one, but not a good one to nayeon apparently since she was staring you down.