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and so, the guilt hits them extremely hard after seowan's death, with both of them wondering if they could have done something to help him.

both namgyu and bangwool deal with their brother's death in different ways. while bangwool turns to spiritualism, namgyu turns to drugs. bangwool meets haetsal, and he gets lost in this new world of shamanism as a way to cope with his brother's death and in the hopes of maybe connecting with seowan's spirit again, while namgyu decides to cope with his guilt and grief by working at club pentagon and distracting himself with all the drugs he now has on hand.

both namgyu and bangwool deal with their brother's death in different ways. while bangwool turns to spiritualism, namgyu turns to drugs. bangwool meets haetsal, and he gets lost in this new world of shamanism as a way to cope with his brother's death and in the hopes of maybe connecting with seowan's spirit again, while namgyu decides to cope with his guilt and grief by working at club pentagon and distracting himself with all the drugs he now has on hand.

seowan's death definitely causes a rift between bangwool and namgyu, and they start to drift apart. i think bangwool would try to stay in touch with namgyu, and would try to talk to him about his spiritualism and tell him about his hopes to be able to communicate with seowan, but namgyu would push him away and shut him down, he wouldn't believe in bangwool's practice. they even have a fight over it, and it ends with namgyu spitting to bangwool that “seowan’s dead and there’s nothing we can fucking do about it”, before they part ways. bangwool goes off with haetsal to continue his practice, and namgyu… well, not long after that fight, namgyu accepts a business card from a stranger.

the events of squid game (s2/3) and if wishes could kill take place at around the same time, and after the final fight in if wishes could kill where bangwool’s near death experience now leaves him with the ability to see spirits… immediately, he thinks of his brothers. he thinks about how now, with this new ability, he might finally be able to see seowan again. he might finally be able to talk to his brother again, to tell him that he loves him again, to apologize to seowan for not being there for him. but, of course, bangwool can’t do this alone. he knows that namgyu doesn’t believe in his shamanism, and yes they did have a bad fight the last time they spoke to each other… but time has passed, and bangwool’s ready to be the bigger man and make the first move to apologize to namgyu so that they can finally see seowan again, all three of them, together again.

the only thing is……. when bangwool goes to namgyu’s apartment, he’s not there. when bangwool goes to club pentagon, namgyu isn’t there either. and when he asks around, he finds out that namgyu hasn’t been seen for weeks. his friends, his neighbours, his coworkers, none of them know where he is. one day he just… vanished. hasn’t been seen since.

of course, bangwool is worried. but also… he knows his brother. he knows that namgyu’s preferred way of dealing with trouble is by… not dealing with it. avoiding it, running away, hiding from it; after all, that’s how namgyu dealt with seowan’s death. bangwool knew that namgyu was in some debt before they had their big fight, he wonders if maybe that debt grew even more, and namgyu skipped town to avoid the loan sharks…

it’s only when bangwool decides to finally try and summon seowan’s spirit, to finally talk to his brother again that he learns the truth. because when bangwool casts the spell that makes seowan appear before him again… he’s not alone.

because namgyu is there, too- at least, his spirit is.

THATS THE FIRST IDEA AND I LOVE IT AAAAHHHHH !!!! just the idea of the three of them being so connected to death, into the way of two of them dying (AND DYING IN SIMILAR WAYS, both seowan and namgyu fell to their deaths ☹️) and the only surviving brother being able to communicate with the dead, IT JUST WORKS SO WELL UGHHHH 💔💔💔

okay and so a second idea i had is sort of similar to the first one, where seowan dies and bangwool and namgyu go their separate ways… only this time, when bangwool goes to namgyu’s place to tell him about his new abilities and his plan to communicate with seowan, namgyu answers the door.

the first thing bangwool notices is how…. rough namgyu looks. he’s skinnier than the last time they saw each other, he looks like he hasn’t slept in days, his apartment is a complete mess, his eyes have lost their light. bangwool can tell right away that his brother has been through something, but before he can ask namgyu what happened, what’s wrong…

bangwool gets distracted by someone else in namgyu's apartment: a spirit, with purple hair, tattoos, painted fingernails, and bloody wound on his throat. a spirit that namgyu doesn't seem to be able to notice..... but who is desperately trying to get namgyu's attention, and whose face lights up when he seems to realize that bangwool can see him.

i also love this idea sm because i love ghost thanos sooooo much :] and i love to write about namgyu grieving, i think this would be an interesting way for him to deal with his grief over thanos and explore how he felt towards thanos 😋 i really want to write this idea at some point!!!!

AND THE LAST IDEA is less angsty than the first two, really it's just a no games/no nothing au where nothing bad happens to anybody, but namgyu, seowan, and bangwool all kind of just drifted apart as they grew up and became adults, and so when namgyu and thanos become friends/start dating, namgyu never really mentioned to thanos that he has brothers, let alone that he's one of a triplet. and so this idea would just be about thanos meeting bangwool and seowan, and i think it would just be a fun little idea that i might write eventually hehe i think it would be so fun for thanos to meet bangwool and seowan and be like woah...... three namsus.......