𝕕𝕚𝕒𝕞𝕠𝕟𝕕 ᴇʏᴇꜱ

hello everyone! i’m sammie, i’m 27, and my timezone is est and i go by female pronouns (she/her). i’ve been in the roleplay community for going on ten or so years now, because i’m old af. this here is eunbi, and here are her links! please like this if you would like to plot! i’ll shoot you a message on here, but feel free to message me on discord if it’s easier, how is yoongi real?#7229

eunbi: hey are you busy?

ayumi: come on baby…stop it you love it when i keep you company ayumi: you can’t get away from me so just live with it  ayumi: cool i’ll just get another key made ayumi: anyway what i gotta do for another gram? i had to share earlier so i’m all out now and i need something to get me through these next couple hours 

ji-hun wasn’t sure how to feel at this moment. seeing the sadness on eunbi’s face was something he couldn’t stomach. she has had him wrapped around her finger since they were teens. maybe even before that. yet, right now he couldn’t bring himself to give into her. it would just cause more heart ache. he had spent days in his room ignoring everyone. even jae eventually gave up on him until he was ready to talk. those endless days of feeling useless and pathetic were very vivid in his mind. as she spoke he wasn’t sure if he believed her. the person who held his heart left with no explanation, and absolutely no goodbye. yet here she claimed she wanted to see him? how many times had he’d called just to be sent straight to voicemail. all the endless voice messages of how much he’d missed her or just telling her about his day. just to never even get a text in return. his hurt was only making him angry. angry at the fact he still loved her. “biggest mistake huh?” he scoffed he didn’t believe her. even with the tears running down her face he couldn’t trust her. sighing ji set his forehead against hers trying to catch as many tears with his thumbs as he could. when she tried to step away his hands moved down to catch her sides. “eun,” he spoke softly trying to find his words. trying to keep his brain on track before he did something he’d regret. “please stop crying,” his voice pleaded as if he’d break down himself. closing his eyes for a brief moment to clear his mind before glancing back down at her. “don’t be sorry. i shouldn’t have given you a reason to leave. what did i do to make you leave me?”

𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔶𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤 in eunbi was screaming at her to just walk away. like she had a right to even be here, to be in front of him after the pain she caused. there was no way around it, and she knew it. so why was she there? why had she thought this had been a good idea. to just show up back in town. and to say these things to jihun. it wasn’t fair, and now every nerve in her was telling her to leave. she did it once why couldn’t she do it again? it would save them both from even more heartbreak in the long run. “yes.” she spoke quietly, willing herself to stop crying. she had no right to stand in front of him and act like this. she closes her eyes tight, trying to will herself away. maybe its a dream. a nightmare, more like it. she feels him lean into her, their foreheads touching and the butterflies in her tummy multiplied, quickly shifting into nausea. but she couldn’t pull away. he had always made her feel safe and this time was no different. “but i am. i’m so sorry.” she whispers, her eyes closed again as he pleads her to stop crying. when he speaks next, it’s like time around her stops. she never realized he would think her leaving was his own fault. her eyes shoot open and she stares into ji’s eyes. “no. no. it had nothing to do with you ji, i swear. i left because of me.” she implores, her hands reaching up to touch his, still busy wiping away the stray tears falling from her eyes. “i left because i was scared okay? i was the problem, not you.” she speaks staring intently into his eyes. “i shouldn’t have come back. this was a mistake. it was stupid and selfish.” she shakes her head.

ayumi: why would i steal from you when you give it to me for free? ayumi: i left your place early this morning and have not been back ayumi: i do not like you enough to wanna be around you like that 

emily rolls her eyes playfully before mirroring the other girls actions and taking a sip. “well it’s four dollars a bottle, so you grow to love it. just wait and see.” she slid the blanket beside her onto her lap. with a small sigh she rests her head against her hand propped up by her elbow resting on the couch cushion. “you know how it is. just overthinking like usual. now what’s keeping you up honey?”

months? eunbi had been back months with no sort of contact. the taller male was ready break down right there in the grocery store. his poor friend would come back to see him crushed. see him on the floor blubbering like a baby. except he couldn’t do it. he couldn’t stand her looking at her. right now he didn’t even want to be in her presence. he had barely heard her as he made his way out the door. dodging a few customers as he tried to get as far away from the store as he could. yet before he could make it to his car she had a hold on his arm. turning his brown hues on her they were filled with anger and hurt. how could she do this to him? pulling his arm away from her hold to settle them against his chest. ji was in no mood to hear her excuse. for the sake it was always the same. when she spoke her soft voice cracked only making him hurt more. instantly regretting the way he just acted. he was simply acting like a child. except didn’t he have a good reason? hated her for leaving? those words, those words rung in his ears. did he hate her leaving? yes. did he hate her? the answer was no. he couldn’t bring himself to hate her. seeing her tears only made it worse. ji raked his fingers through his long black hair before sighing. “of course i wanted to see you. i’ve wanted to see you every single day after you left. i spent days just starring at our pictures eun,” he breathed as his husky voice grew deeper the more his emotions flooded through. “and no, i don’t hate you. i could never hate you. i just wish you had cared about me like i did you,” his hand reached out to wipe away the tears that fell from her eyes. “i just can’t act like everything is ok though,”

𝔢𝔲𝔫𝔟𝔦 is convinced that the look on jihun’s face is going to crack her heart in half. as if it hasn't been in pieces since she left him years ago. she bumps into an older woman as she chases after him, not even bothering to apologize. she’s being selfish and she knows it. she just can’t let him out of her sight yet, it had been too long since she had seen him. she doesn’t even realize they’re outside until the sun in shining and ji is shaking her hands off him. she of all people understands the reason he can’t even stomach looking at her. she’s more angry at herself than she ever has been, like she had a right to feel pain when she had put him through the ringer. years with no contact. nothing but the unsent letters sitting in a box under her bed at home that she had been too afraid to send. a coward. that’s what she was. “i wanted to see you too. you have to understand that. the minute i hopped on that plane i knew that i had made the biggest mistake of my life.” her voice cracks, and she closes her eyes as a sigh slips through her lips. when he speaks she intently listens to the emotion in his voice, which makes the tears come faster and harder. when he feels his touch on her cheek she can’t help but lean into it gently. how many times had he done this before? when her mother had died, he was there for her. when her father left the country, he was the only one she had to count on. and it killed her inside to know that she had left, that he thought she didn’t care. “i cared. please don’t say that. i know i have no right, but i cared so much.” she shakes her head, trying to step out of his hold, it’s too much. “i would never ask you to. this was a mistake. i’m sorry.” she whimpers, turning to look around them, avoiding his eyes again.

his brown hues couldn’t leave the girl standing in front of him. he was afraid at any second she’d disappear. disappear, and he’d never see her again. wouldn’t that be a good thing though? he could forget all of his feelings towards the other. they would just disappear right? wrong. they were still there, and hitting him full force. it took everything in him not to reach a hand out. to touch her soft skin once more. yet, he knew if he did there was no turning back. ji didn’t know if he was ready for that kind of hurt again. did she just say a while? the words stung. they stung so bad he had to take a step back. she’d been back for months, and hadn’t even thought about reaching out to him? was he nothing to her, but a foolish first love? the hurt filled his hues while they tried to stay on eunbi. she couldn’t even look at him which just made him feel even more pitiful. “a while huh?” he mustered in his deep husky voice. all while trying to collect the fuit he’d let fall to the floor. when her hand brushed his goosebumps instantly lined were her hand just was. catching her eyes he tried not to stay locked in them, but it was too late. they drew him in. “i….” he trailed off before setting the fruit down. “i can’t do this,” ji muttered while walking past her leaving his cart. maybe running wasn’t the right thing to do.

𝔪𝔞𝔶𝔟𝔢 looking at him full on was a bad idea. her heart rate increased as she took in the sight of him. he had always been handsome, but seeing him like this, after so long, it nearly knocked the breath out of her. they had both grown so much since the last time they had seen each other that it almost hurt a little. it hurt that she hadn’t been there to see him grow into the man he was today. she blinks away the start of tears forming in her eyes when he speaks to her again, “well... a few months.” she mumbles, clearly embarrassed. the next thing she knows is he’s walking away, and its like her heart can’t take it. she can’t let him walk away before she explains. “ji! wait!” she follows after him, leaving her own cart next to his. she grabs his arm, not daring to grab anywhere exposed. she’s not sure if either of them can handle it. “please. let me explain.” she says, loud enough to get her point across. “i really didn’t think you would even want to see me, let alone talk to me.” she stresses, her cheeks flushing. “i figured you still hated me for leaving.” her eyes are watering again, but this time she can’t blink the tears away as they begin to fall down her cheeks.

the voice that spoke was a bit familiar. he hadn’t heard it in years though. maybe his mind was playing tricks on him. it was creating him to hear things. his thoughts where so far away he had barely heard what the other had said. getting a good glimpse of the girls backside his fingers began to tremble. no, no, this could not be happening. especially right here in the grocery store. his heart wasn’t ready to confront his past just yet. It had just barely gotten over the hurt that she had caused. when eunbi turned around his breathe caught as the apples fell from his shaky fingers. his mind was telling him to turn around and run out of the store. then he’d probably just leave jae concerned as to why he was in his car crying. his deep voice was raspy when he could finally find the strength to speak. “you’re back?” was all he could muster as his brown hues observed the petite raven haired woman in front of him. she had left him for college without even a goodbye. the very person who thought would never hurt him. bringing his hand to scratch the back of his head out of nervousness before bending down to pick up the fruit he dropped. “um, how you been?”

𝔱𝔥𝔢 grocery store? of all places the grocery store? since eunbi had been back in town she had been dreading this. she was surprised when she managed to avoid jihun for the four months she had been back in town. maybe it had made her just cocky enough to let her guard down, and the universe decided to spring this on her. just being back in ji’s presence is calming to her nerves. he always had been. when they were younger all he had to do was place his large hand on the small of her back or gently her arm and it was like all of the anxieties in life just... disappeared. the apples hitting the floor brought her back to reality and she winced. “uh, yeah. i’ve been back for a little while.” she tries to smile but she’s sure it looks more like a grimace. “oh, let me help.” she mutters under her breath before leaning down to help pick up the apples that had fallen, her hand brushing jihuns before she swiftly pulls it back against her chest. she kept her eyes focused on the ground, not daring to look up at him. “i’ve been alright. how about you?” she finally looks up at him to make eye contact.

⠀ ⠀   A SOFT SIGH LEFT EMILY’S LIPS as she poured two glasses of wine. the flowery aroma was inviting and served as the opener to another long evening. plugging the cork back into the bottle, emily walked back over to the sofa with both glasses in hand. ❝ here hun, ❞ she said as she handed the wine to eunbi. it had been a few months since the pair had been introduced and since emily found someone to confide in. her heart beat heavily against her chest as she took her place beside the brunette. ❝ thanks for letting me come over, i really appreciate it. ❞ her words were sincere, though slipped out of her lips in a tired manner. some nights it became too difficult to find sleep. each thought served as a burden, reminding emily of what she lacked. after hours of tossing and turning, she resorted to the only safe haven she had: eunbi.  ⠀ ⠀   —  @fteunbi·

how ji was responsible for grocery shopping was still a mystery to him. most the things in his cart was absolute junk. maybe this was because neither him or jae cooked a lot. especially when he worked late nights it was just easier to grab takeout. as he looked over the different kind of apples he raised his eyebrows. what was the difference in all of these? he somehow lost jae somewhere in the store otherwise he would have asked his friend. sighing he slight tapped the person next to him on the shoulder. putting on his shy smile he held up two apples one red and the other a bit yellow. “umm, could you tell me the difference between these? i want one a bit more on the sweet side. sorry to bother you,” @denton-starters·

𝔢𝔲𝔫𝔟𝔦 had put off grocery shopping for far too long. when she had gotten up from her nap this afternoon with the intent to fry up a few eggs, her fridge had been bare except for a lone slice of pizza and bottled water. after scarfing down the pizza and running a brush through her thick dark hair she had begun the trek to the nearest grocery store. as she rolled down the aisles of the grocery store she was barely paying attention to the people around her. as eunbi got to the produce area she had a beeline for the apples, hoping to get there before all that was left was a pile of bruised fruit. as she reached for some of the golden delicious apples, she felt a tap to her shoulder before she heard a deep, familiar voice. instead of looking up at the person next to her she answers, “the yellowish-green ones like this are really sweet.” she responds, before peeking up a the man next to her briefly to confirm her suspicions on who was standing next to her.