i thought i was gonna be dead before i turn 18 and now im 24 and have no idea what im doing with my life

dissociation is fascinating because i know for a fact i have been existing and going to class and stuff recently because it says so on my calendar and yet i can't really remember the last 8 weeks of my life 👍🏻 i will laugh and pretend this doesn't scare the shit out of me

Ask me stuff please

Need to change my whole appearance.

it’s the worst struggle honestly

they should invent a day that does not exhaust me and suck the life out of me

I regret every time I let someone know me too much.

I think I would be less suicidal if I wasn't constantly in some sort of physical pain

Kill me

Put a secret in my ask box

I'm just so fucking sad

i loooove being delusional. catch me ignoring reality altogether. catch me never being reasonable ever. catch me straight up making up things in my head to cope. delusion is my best friend

Sometimes it’s great but sometimes I’m fucking scared of myself tbh

People will tell you “trust me, I’m not going anywhere” and then two days later never speak to you again with no explanation. Abandonment doesn’t even phase me anymore. Everyone else left why wouldn’t you.