We are no longer alone, waiting for the night, waiting for Godot, waiting for⦠waiting. All evening we have struggled, unassisted. Now itās over. Itās already tomorrow. (Prsk sideblog. Largely Mizurui lol)
My main/art blog is @lemonlumens, this is my Project Sekai sideblog. As you may be able to tell, I like Mizurui a lot and post about them a lot. I find them fascinating, and their relationship is fascinatingly weird as hell. More generally, I'm a Niigo fan before I'm a person and I'm in the process of contracting a case of WxS poisoning. Polyniigo and Polysho are simply true to me.
Iām also insane about Waiting for Godot, the play about waiting that Rui mentions a couple times, and I frequently post about it in relation to Rui and Mizuki. The quote in my blog description is from it, as is any dialogue attributed to Vladimir and Estragon, itās what Iām referring to with any mention of Godot or waiting or ānothing to be doneā.
Organizational tag directory (look here if you want to find a specific kind of thing I post or know what MSMS or Bitter Almonds are referring to):
#rambles - All my textposts
#swagposts - My posts that I particularly like and/or put some effort in.
#parallels - Posts where I draw parallels in the text, screenshots and/or citing my sources.
#asks - Asks.
#my art - My finished art. Everything here can also be found reblogged to my main/art blog.
#doodles - All my art and art-like stuff, including sketches, wips, and edits ~exclusive~ to this blog.
#my comics - Comics and sequentials, any of my art with dialogue basically.
#3d stuff - I dabble in 3d modelling (and needle felting) on occasion.
#notes app excerpts - The closest I get to writing.
#images tag - Textposts that are images and I therefore can't keyword search.
#mizurui playlist - Selected lyrics and justifications, songs I think are perhaps very Mizuki and or Rui. You can find the playlist here (spotify link)
#mizurui - Guess. Also includes reblogs. I donāt tag a lot of my Mizurui posting on account of being insane, though, so you may also want to search āMizuruiā or āMizuki and Ruiā without the hashtag on my blog if you want to see the full picture of my illness.
Specific scenarios:
#transfem rui - Wouldnāt it be awesome if Rui were transfem. Iām ill about her.
#mizurui yuri - Wouldnāt it be awesome if Mizuki and Rui were both trans girls and were deeply involved with each other in a sometimes implicitly-explicitly romantic sense. Iām ill about them.
#nothing sweeter than bitter almonds - College roommates Mizurui where Mizuki blatantly puts almond extract in Ruiās food to make him think sheās poisoning him, Ruiās determined to play dumb and not give her the reaction she wants. Yet another mindgame they play for fun. Here's the main post outlining the scenario with accompanying art.
#middle school manslaughter - AU where Mizuki accidentally kills a guy in middle school and Rui covers it up. The rest of the story proceeds as normal(?). Referred to as MSMS for short. | chronological view if you wanna see how the idea developed.
#reverieās getaway - Adult Mizurui situationship roadtrip, wherein Mizuki drops by Ruiās apartment occasionally like stray cat, and then they go on a 3ish day roadtrip together somehow.
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The thing about the cytus collab songs is that theyāre really fun to play actually, rhythm game music makes for a fun rhythm game experience, what with the easily identifiable and strong rhythm and all
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Oh my god this bit from the Secret Distance aftershow about IDSMILE⦠Mizuki completely brushing off the others feeling the pain and loneliness in the song that is born of her story and feelings, clinging to the facade of there being nothing to her except cutenessā¦. I love her.
Leoni Additional Memory is soooooo good. Really hyped for VBS Losstime Memory also. Man this brings back memories of when I was first starting this game and attempting Kagerou Daze and Yobanashi Deceive on hard over and over again.
Hi! Hello!! Long time follower here. Love your mizurui stuff so much you always put so much thought into them and it's really awesome to see all those connections and little details throughout the story. It has helped me to process my own old loneliness too and and I'm thankful for that.
That being said it would be so wonderhoy if you didn't talk about other characters you don't care to analyze or think any part deeply about just to dismiss them. Not saying you gotta like or care about them obviously it just would be cool to not see a post about my favorite little guy from one of my favorite chara analysis blogs that just is "he's stupid and I don't like him". He is my comfort the same way mizuki or rui is to you.
Thanks but how is this my problem, you see my opinions cause youāre following my tumblr blog where I post my opinions. Iām a person with thoughts about a gacha game that I share on a microblogging website, I donāt exist or post with the intent of being your favourite character analysis blog. Itās not a matter of etiquette, I donāt tag my shit 99% of the time, certainly not when Iām being negative, as you admit, you only see it cause youāre following me. When I see people say things I would consider āshit takesā about the characters I like, I hit buttons like āunfollowā or āblockā instead of telling people to stop posting on their own blogs.
Love & light, Anon, but me saying I donāt like a character for my own reasons on my own blog isnāt any sort of harm against you and Iām well within my bounds to do so. Also āheās stupid and I donāt like himā is just a really funny thing to say, itās so fucking juvenile, I would laugh so hard if I saw someone genuinely airing their grievances about something I like and they drop that. Iām not even a hater Iām just a dislikerā¦. I donāt yuck yums I just say itās not for meā¦.. I hedge my words and emphasize that my feelings are my own and this is what it gets me!
Nene Phoenix ss1 so cute, Rui and Nene meeting up early to have Nene record lines for the robo-Phoenix, Rui āaccidentallyā turning it on and making Nene chase after it so she hears her lines in context and can come to her own conclusion of whatās lacking and find the determination to do even better. Also I like that the robot is very explicitly a girl
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Rui - hard carried by having two long term friendships with girls heās not related to before the story even begins, I do genuinely believe on an interpersonal level that Rui respects and loves and admires women, as equals and peers. However. Structurally itās men that he actually looks up to, that he seeks the approval and permission and wisdom of. As a boy long denied boyhood for his aberration, the acceptance and friendship and understanding of boys through Tsukasa and the three musketeers means a lot him, but like, this comes with the implication that the acceptance and friendship and understanding of girls didnāt count? Of course different people mean different things to him and that doesnāt make them inherently lesser, but the shown math there doesnāt always hold up. I think Rui could name 100 women easily, wall to wall of actresses and authors and playwrights and inventors and maybe even directors. How many of them would he cite as personally influential? Maybe 3. I think heās significantly less misogynistic than every other guy in this game and does understand to a working extent the subjugation of women and does think of women as equals (or betters, at times lowkey, interestingly), but thereās a suspect slime of plausible deniability on everything and conspicuous absenses in ideological and professional spheres. Heās a kind teenage boy*, socially aware as result of his marginalization.
Toya - immediately sees himself in Kohane in mainsto and therefore sees Akitoās behaviour as a double standard, but I donāt think he really connected the dots as to what exactly the difference was. Sort of regards everything feminine as alien, but also regards a lot of things like that because of his sheltered upbringing, and he faces and values typically feminine stuff with the utmost earnesty as he would anything else. Heās nice and Iād expect anyone raised in a massively patriarchal and sheltered environment like him to be way way worse, so like, I donāt think he really understands misogyny beyond a surface level or maybe thinks itās over by now, but I do think at basis he thinks of women as equals. Like doesnāt even think to not think of them as equals. Like instinctively an #Ally but also doesnāt really get it so is prone to unthinkingly perpetuating the systems that be. Heās a kind teenage boy.
Huge gap.
Tsukasa - teenage boy playing a 5y/oās idea of what a good adult man is. Chivalrous chauvinist.
Akito - teenage boy with an all-consuming inferiority complex leading him to scramble for any morsel of power and superiority he can affect, self-medicating his helplessness with machismo, AKA a typical teenage boy. Genuinely on some boys rule girls drool shit. I think most younger brothers with older sisters are especially evil lowkey.
Sakurakoās in a really interesting position because to my knowledge sheās literally the only female NPC who is a meaningful rival and/or ally to a guy, like obviously she was introduced and set up as a rival of Neneās in Holy Night, but functionally sheās just as much a counterpart to Tsukasa with her position within the Phoenix Stage and her relevance to WMS and Phoenix. Like Iām pretty sure not a single one of the guys in this game looks up to a woman as a role model or admirable figure outside the Vocaloids. At best you have their moms (or sisters if you really want to get into a losing 3,000 page forum debate about whether they respect them), none of whom are important enough to get designs. Meanwhile 5 fathers are important enough to the girls to get designs, and thereās a good handful of male mentors. Meanwhile the only female mentors mentor girls. So, you know. Pretty cool that Sakurako plays such a key part and is really fucking good at her job in way that leaves all of WxS reeling, and is not just a rival to but handedly better than Tsukasa.
And itās reaallllllly cool how in the end Tsukasa looks straight past her and at a disembodied guy as his motivation to greatness. Like effectively he uses Sakurako and her words to him as a stepping stone to his greatness rather than someone to aspire to and beat in that moment. Her performance sets the bar for where he needs to be, but he doesnāt think of her as someone to surpass. Tsukasaās unreachable āPhoenixā in āTowards the Phoenix at the Sky's Edgeā isnāt Sakurako, the diva of the Phoenix stage at Phoenix Wonderland playing the Phoenix that Tsukasaās character canāt reach in the play put on for her Phoenix stageās 30th anniversary, itās a disembodied guy. Fucking sure.
Update on the food I was making while reading Phoenix cause I know you care but I made beavertails and they were soooo good, theyāre like if donuts and pizza dough fused into a new delicious springy soft and crispy fried treat, ambiguous enough to be sweet or savoury depending on toppings. I cut one in half and filled it with egg salad and I think itās the best thing Iāve ever eaten. And I finished reading Phoenix also and I think those last two chapters especially are some pretty compelling stuff that bounces right off me personally. I really fucking love Sakurako.
I wish I knew how to like Tsukasa half as much as the rest of WxS love him. Like I really donāt feel as though I donāt understand him or his good points or what people see in him in or out of universe, itās just that none of it seems to do anything for me. Itās not like Iām incapable of being moved by any of the constituent parts of his character or narrative, for any given slice of him I can think of other characters or narratives that look just like him that I love. In the first place itās not like a majority of this gameās cast does all that much for me, sort of the premise of ensemble casts like this where youāre incentivized to pick a few favourites, but it feels worse cause I do quite like WxS as a whole and itās not like Tsukasaās any degree extricable from them, the four of them love each other to bits! Itās weird, with him specifically it feels like heās walking a tightrope between me finding him amusing and actively contemptible, and the apathy that leaves me with feels so pointed. I think heās funny.
Actively reading Phoenix right now while cooking and it makes me so anxious how little consideration Tsukasaās giving to his other role that he actually has 100%, like fuck idk man itās great and all to aspire for the lead and to transcend your limits and imitate the steps of the people you admire and all, but whereās the enthusiasm for playing The Obnoxious Chicken, huh? The implicit lessening of what ensemble roles entail, like they arenāt a huge part of what makes or breaks a production, like being a lead is the end all be all of what makes good actor, but giving his everything to understanding how to play ensemble would benefit him a fuck ton also! What makes the difference between a lead and ensemble performance. Do people only play ensemble roles because theyāre not good enough to be the lead? Even if aiming to be the sort of actor whoās always the lead, the stage isnāt for one person alone, and putting himself in the shoes of the people that support him in nearly every single performance he will ever do will only do him good. And it makes me so anxious that heās spending all this time on something uncertain, unable to give 110% to the shit he has on lock, like what a letdown itāll be when his Obnoxious Chicken turns out bland because he didnāt respect it, didnāt take this time to find what he has in common with that role! Iām scared!! And like is he just gonna decimate his ego, searching desperately to find his angle of attack to become a different character every single role he ever gets? Uegh!!
And god how heās not seeing the obvious conclusion of how his feelings about the situation at hand are the answer of what he has in common with Rio, how the immense pressure of the disparity in presence and skill between him and Sakurako is exactly how Rio must feel in the presence of the Phoenix, the helplessness and frustration and determination and shit. Itās been there from day onnnnnne and heās just stupidddddddd and hasnāt got there yet itās so hard to watchhhhhh.
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The thing about doggirl Rui that I find absolutely funniest is that sheād absolutely do the petplay bit irregardless of actually being a dog. Which is why she acts like a cat, to emphasize the absurdity and artifice of the bit sheās playing along with rather than anything fundamental to her wiring, cause sheās entirely a person and not an actual dog, a human with dog ears and tail not a dog with opposable thumbs and human speech. And the incongruity of appearance and behaviour is fitting to me, I like making the distinction of āthis is something sheās choosing to do because itās funnyā rather than anything speaking to an inescapable nature. And dogrui kittyzuki is so cutes.