Thoughts you'll never hear me say.
1 - I'm sorry for whatever I did. I dunno. We were cool once. Hell, we were almost close once, but for whatever reason now, I just get this "fuck off" from you, even of we're being friendly I get a "keep your fucking distance" vibe from you. I wish the best for you but I'm gonna keep doing what I've been doing and just staying away from you as much as possible. 2 - I hope you're okay. I kinda hope you get a clean punch in the face from a stranger one day for me, but I really do hope you're alright. The thing is, you only talk to me when there's a problem. Either you're trying to off yourself again, or maybe it's something with him, but I only hear from you when things are bad. Maybe I did something to push you away, but fuck, you could've told me. Love you. Hope you're alright. 3 - Fuck you. I'm sorry. And fuck you again. The amount of time, energy, and money I spent on you, and all I can see is the lack of return on your part when I look back on it. Maybe I'm remembering wrong, it's possible. Just seeing things through a personal lense. But if I'm right, then fuck you. You didn't lift a damn finger for me when I tried to move the world for you, and I know... I abused you. I did. There's no question there. And I didn't fuck her, but I wasn't loyal. Sorry for being a piece of shit. 4 - You and I are oil and fucking water, babe. I love you and hate you. We haven't spoken in ages and the last time we did speak, it ended in a fight. But even now I still can't keep you out of my mind. But all I've ever done to you is hurt you. I did then I did earlier and I will again if we ever reconnect. I can't let us reconnect. Cause I'll only fuck you up more. But I think you're the only person I might ever truly relate to... I think you're who I should've always been with and even now I think I'm still in love with you. But we're absolutely fucking wrong for each other. 5 - Really? You're just going to pack up and move and leave us behind? Fuck you. Preach peace and love and equality all you fucking want, I know what you really are. You're a fucking snake. You're manipulative. You destroy everything you touch and twist everything to make yourself look like a Goddamn saint. Basically, you're a female version of me. And I know for a fucking fact that she's got no fucking chance with us. 6 - we don't talk. You're my best friend and I don't really know you.
