really not doing well again

i have a mcdonalds brand bottle of water in my room rn and i’m thirsty + i have a headache but i won’t drink it bc my brain refuses to believe that they didn’t secretly put sugar or deep fryer grease in it i wish i was joking

helo, i hvnt posted on here in months and i dont rly wanna get into the reasons for me gaining weight bc no one cares LOL but i just went through all my posts on here n almost started crying bc i miss last year so much. like i finally got my sht together and fixed so many things abt my appearance that made me deeply unhappy, only to destroy it all again this year. i’m over feeling this way so i’m going to try again . it can’t be tooooo hard (lol) bc i just need to lose like, 8kg at least. i barely workout anymore bc i hve lost all motivation in every aspect of life but i hope being on here will force me to try again . not sure if anyone will even see this, but if u do, ily 

my boyfriend said i have soft squishy thighs so guess whos not fkn eating today lol

omg my bf makes me lowkey feel terrible abt myself. he talks shit when girls have cellulite and i’m like ???????????? i have some ??????????????????????????????? he’s tells me i don’t but he obv hasn’t seen my legs in Cellulite Lighting™️ . it’s one of my biggest insecurities and now i feel even worse about it. i know he would be disgusted if he noticed it. i hate how you can’t really get rid of cellulite it makes me so sad . i love lots about him but i dislike a lot too. like how judgemental and picky he is over other peoples appearance (especially girls). like who cares ?? i used to be a judgemental person too, when i was like 13, and then i GREW UP :) anyways i really wish i was dating someone who didn’t care about looks . i wish i was with someone who makes me learn to love myself instead of hate myself more 

trying to take nudes with an ed is so funny because. Body Check

i wish i could lose weight without my butt disappearing so easily :)