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Hello, my dear friends! I'm alive! Gosh, how I've missed you all SO
much over the past months I've been away. Is it weird to say I've thought about you this
whole time?? I am truly an awful, awful person for disappearing without a word. I regret that
so much. ;; I hope you all don't hate me now. I wish I would of said something! It would of
been right to, but I didn't, for that I apologize so very much. If you want, you can leave it as
I'm sorry and I'm finally back, or you can see what went on during my time away, under my
read more. Thank you to anyone who'll still be friends. ♥ I'm so, so happy to be back home.
Basically, I went through a rough time after October (which itself was super busy for me,
due to my birthday and Halloween events I tend to go to a lot), when the Christmas season
started. I work at Old Navy, and working retail during that time is crazy, dear God. Wouldn't
of been as bad, but I also helped my mother work a lot, like I do every year, because I hate
for her to do it all on her own. She does so much for us. To be simple, I was overworking
myself, days ran together and I didn't even enjoy the Christmas season or anything until
Christmas Eve night, around 8PM or so. I cried a lot -- I cringe just thinking about it all.
It was hell, tbh. I had a great Christmas day, but before it affected me a lot emotionally and
physically. After that, I just.. didn't want to write? I hate to say. I knew I would slowly have
time to again, when January started, but I was still depressed from the holiday season.
Some other things happened as well, but I won't get into that. But I've finally got my
motivation again! I'm watching more Animes, and even starting to learn Japanese now!!
Doing fun things, and just feeling better -- that's basically what I want to say. Things are
finally optimistic again!! I'm so thankful. ♥
I do want to make it so clear though: I'm sorry. Very. I've never been so sorry for leaving
my friends here, especially without saying anything. I always do this, but this was the worst.
I really love you guys. I was.. sorta scared? I thought you all would be gone, or hate me, so
my anxiety stopped me from getting on here on top of what was going on. I feel like I'm just
making excuses for not being here, but I just wanna say I know I did wrong, and all I can do
is apologize and hope you'll still want to be my friend, even if I've been gone so long.
Let's have fun again though, okay? I've missed my friends, so, so much - and my characters
and writing too! I love you guys. ♥ Let's write together once more!!