san

i try to hold back my smile just for a while

like you do when you make me laugh

and i convince myself that I'm also fun

but you never say anything at all

and nothing makes you break the wall

so i wish i could see right through

i wish we could talk a lot more

you know i hear you talk about everyone else

i rarely forget a face like theirs

so you tell me everything about your fakest friends

but your face never says what you're really thinking

and i have to read your mind even if you’re not near

if only your love was a little crystal clear!

cause you’re not the one that needs reassuring

me? i always hoped I’d meet someone who would

not just use me for success

but want something else from me

deeper even, darker even

maybe someone who just

had the idea of laying for hours

under the ceiling fan

and let the noise coming from within

bury the trash that we keep saying

you can punish me for dreaming so loud

I’ve always been thinking way too much

but I try to manage through your hell

watching almodóvar in our cinema

i swiftly knew i needed of your affection

and we ended up being very much alike

my mum says i use many intricate words

and that my jokes aren't funny at all

but you frankly laugh at them

you're laughing every now and then

we were sitting in the backseat of the cab

no one's in the streets like they used to in the past

the city's different when you look from the dark

like we're watching in space from afar

and i mean when you're madly in love

isn't it crazy how they all lived before

they never had you in their lives

right down the hallway

i'm gonna drown

in every nightmare

if you believe

just a reminder

in your wildest dreams

i'll come haunting

feel the blood

in my headspace

read your mind

you turned me to dust cause i couldn't turn

into whatever you wanted

and I'll never be

but it's not my problem

you should've never tried forbidden things

i knew right away that i should get to know you better

but how could i try

it's not like i could appear

just wearing my old sweater

you're dressed in your real black leather

even if the night's not tender

since you've been away for so long

i didn't know it was wrong

i was just confessing my love

don't blame me

pretend that never happened before

I'm not used to betraying

i know that i'm appalling

but this feeling

it could be our calling

not dying, no,

just lying

seeing you here is the moment

(it's clear)

tattoos cover your body

i wonder if there's some space left for me

we're looking at the stars, lying