Fr3akyDino

I'm going to die today. I've thought about it all this week and today is the day. if I wasn't deserving before, I definitely am deserving now. I've pushed everyone I've loved away, traumatized them beyond belief. worst of all, I physically and sexually abused one of my closest friends last night while I was blackout drunk. I don't remember anything, but if drunk me did it, surely it was of some truth. I can't fix what I've been accused of doing because I don't even remember what I did. my guilt is eating me alive. I hate myself for what I've done. I hate who've become and I'm disappointed in the person that I see in the mirror. I always knew that I would die by my hand, just not this soon. I don't want to die, but im tired. I'm ready to dream endlessly into the abyss until I'm nothing but dreams scattered into space. bury me with my bracelets. give Otter my bandana, it's the least I can do. thank yall for listening to me, even when I'm not deserving of it.

I'm decent now and medicated on prozac. but damn, I miss being able to cum bro. it's like my mind orgasms but my body can't 😔

eughh, I can just imagine the sweet cracking and slurping of my bones and flesh 🤤