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Feeling guilty has not fixed my social faux pasâŚ
Iâve got it! I can just self-flagellate until the thoughts are all-consuming! Surely then I will be absolved of having committed an honest mistake
Who could have foreseen this
NO BUT YOU ALL NEED TO UNDERSTAND HOW FUNNY THIS IS THEYRE LITERALLY FILLING A ROBOT WITH BULLETS, LIKE BULLETS THAT YOU FIRE FROM A GUN. NOW NORMALLY FIRING A GUN TRIGGERS THE BULLET TO EXPLODE CREATING A PRESSURE THAT CAUSES THE TIP OF THE BULLET TO BE FORCED OUT OF THE BARREL AT A HIGH SPEED.Â
WHaT CAVE JOHNSONâS TURRETâS DO IS LOAD A TON OF FUCKING BULLETS INTO THE CASE OF THE SENTRY LIKE ITâS A GODDAMN GUMBALL MACHINE AND THEN USE A FUcKINÂ SPRING LOADED PISTONÂ TO FIRE IT THAT IS SO UNNECESSARY AND INEFFECTIVE LIKE NO WONDER CHELL CAN RESIST SO MANY BULLETS THE LIKELIHOOD ITD CAUSE ANYTHING MORE THAN A BAD BRUISE IS LIKE ONE IN A HUNDRED
but itâs 65% more bullet per bullet
Wait a second are you telling me
that Portal is such a perfect goddamn game that they even have an explanation for why a video game protagonist can withstand being shot multiple times??????????
They also have an empathy generator immediately followed by an empathy suppressor I love portal
Fucking S tier game writing
"I'm not skilled at gardening and i don't have the time/energy to learn, but i really want a pretty garden, so i hired a gardener"
That makes a lot of sense, it's nice to experience that beauty!
"I love writing music, and I can play a few instruments, but my playing skills don't cover the breadth or depth of what I want my songs to sound like, and none of my usual partners were available for recording this month, so I hired someone who's good on sax and another musician who plays an upright bass to help me record my new stuff, and they added a lot of depth to the experience!"
Good call, when you really want the right sound right now it makes sense to bring in people who are available and talented!
"I'm a decent cook and my friends love the food i make, but sometimes I enjoy a really high-quality meal in a carefully curated atmosphere or i don't want to do dishes, so i go to a restaurant and pay a chef and cooks and waitstaff and dish washers to make me a fantastic meal in a nice setting without any of the chores."
Of course, we all love a good time without the usual work sometimes!
"I love music and I play the piano really well, but sometimes I want to hear it played by someone who's really dedicated their career to it, or who plays in a style I'm not experienced with, so I go to a concert and pay a musician for their music, or I buy their albums so I can listen to it at home."
Yes, getting to experience an expert in their craft is a real treat!
"I've been way too busy to take care of myself or my living space lately and it's been taking a toll on my mental health, so i hired someone to help me tidy up this week and then went to a salon to get spiffed up so I could feel better about myself, and i paid those professionals for their work and education and experience and skill."
Good on you, self care is so important!
"I'm not very experienced with sex and and would like someone else to show me what it can feel like, or I want to enjoy sex at a time when I don't have anyone available, or I enjoy sex and am pretty good at it but I want to experience it a dedicated atmosphere with someone who takes it seriously, or I want to see what all is possible when someone is really an expert at it and treats it like a set of skills they've spent a long time working to master, or sex makes me feel good and i could really use that good experience in my life right now, so I paid a sex worker to help me achieve that goal."
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If you think the last one is somehow fundamentally different from the others, that hiring a professional to provide a service that you want or need for any reason is suddenly immoral because it involves sex, you should probably reflect on why. Because really, at the end of the day, it's not.
#note that someone in any of the other professions (esp gardening cleaning and beauty) could have been labor trafficked!#if that's your only argument against sex work it applies to a lot more than you'd be comfortable with
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"Sex work is exploitative and i won't stand for it!!!!! Anyway what do you think of my garden? I just had it redone by a team of undocumented immigrants who worked for a fraction of minimum wage doing backbreaking labor under a landscape company that will turn them in to ICE if they try to find better work or speak out about their conditions or don't do a good enough job fast enough, so i got a great deal! isn't that wonderful? Anyway, try this Driscoll'sâ˘ď¸ Fruit Salad I got yesterday..."
Also, if you are worried about exploitation in sex work (which we all should be), do some reseach and see if there's a sex workers union where you live. For example, In Australia we have the Scarlet Alliance:
Scarlet Alliance and Touching Base unequivocally reject Minister Bill Shortenâs public declaration to exclude access to sex work services un
While not every country is going to have one, if yours does it is a great way to be able to engage with sex workers while also being certain that they have workers rights and protections. This goes for all the other industries as well by the way.
Sometimes sex workers are trafficked, denied human rights, and exploited horrifically, that is true. And that's why I'm happy that I live in a country where they have a union to protect them. Because those things aren't unique to sex work, and sex workers deserve the same dignity and protection as all other workers.
a neutral reminder that while being a hater can be a fun indulgence you can never find long term happiness by spending your time constantly hating on things and you canât make long term friends if the only thing you have in common is something you both dislike; you need to love and be passionate about things. being petty gets old. you need to be a lover too

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walked into a bookstore today that is curating on a whole different level
This is merely the level of comprehension you reach when you achieve the correct balance of erotica and math
@blood-orange-juice
I feel like some people are misreading the arc in System Collapse about Murderbot being so freaked out by "just having a panic attack" that can't talk about it and doesn't trust its own abilities anymore
Mostly because it never read as an analogue to a panic attack to me. It made me think of a meltdown or shutdown. Like in an autistic sense, not a technological one.
But for those who've never experienced that, picture this: you are, ostensibly, someone who has always been capable, never missed and never needed help, and you have never been too emotionally compromised by anything to do your job. You've never felt the kind of stress that makes it harder to perform physical functions. Mostly because you were never allowed. Nobody, including yourself, has ever let you do that because you're not supposed to, and you've seen other people get to do it, so you just figure that's how you work, and lucky you and everyone else, you can do everything by yourself and no one else has to pick up any slack.
Then you're suddenly surrounded by people who are not only offering to let you do that, but insisting you should be able to have emotional reactions that way like everyone else, which is very annoying for you because they're obviously wrong and if you start believing them it's going to get in the way of your endeavors to just do everything by yourself and be ignored like you're used to.
You've been incapacitated by physical harm plenty of times. The very first time you experience a mental or emotional harm that stops you in your tracks so bad that other people notice and have to do something about it for you and it would have prevented you from managing if you were actually in a situation that required action, no matter what it is, it's going to shake your faith in yourself completely apart and you might not even realize what it is, you just think you and you alone are utterly losing it
Anyway this is really important to me because "character who's never experienced patience in their life is finally in a place that lets them do that, breaks down emotionally and has to experience being a burden for the very first time in their life and DOES NOT REACT WELL" is a way more realistic trauma recovery depiction than "character is rescued from bad things, becomes happy :)"
i think ive been so enamoured with tragedy and unhappy endings recently because it's so common for us to take comfort in the idea that we're okay because we will be okay, you know, the whole "it'll be okay in the end and if it's not okay it's not the end" type thing, this desire to put our faith in things turning out eventually, and that's why people sometimes get upset if something doesn't have a happy ending that gives them closure. but i honestly think there's something equally or even more comforting in having to cope with the fact that in reality the happy ending can't always be counted on. in trying to accept that fact, you're sort of forced to find your comfort and meaning elsewhere, which is what tragedy is asking you to do. if you know a story is going to end badly, can you still invest in it? can you survive it for as long as you're asked to? because then you have to concede that the things that happen and the lessons you learn during the story still are meaningful and fulfilling even if they don't culminate. if the story is unfinished and the threads are loose and you don't get closure, can you still find a way to let this frustrating and unfinished experience mean something to you? you kind of have to. can you be okay with it if you aren't able to believe that things will be okay in the end? without looking forward, can you be okay right now
People leaving comments on my posts about Indigenous knowledge as a science and its relationship with Western science like, "I know Indigenous knowledge is extremely valuable and important, but I only trust verified science." You're just racist. I'm not going to be polite.
Today, many scientists acknowledge the troubling attitudes that have long plagued research projects in Indigenous communities [...] But some Indigenous groups feel that despite such well-intentioned initiatives, their inclusion in research is only a token gesture to satisfy a funding agency.
That's you. You only want tokens for optics. You can't say, "I respect Indigenous knowledge butâ" No, you don't respect Indigenous knowledge. Western science is not the only "real" science and your attempts to argue otherwise are racist. There is no argument.
It's like I'm talking to a wall. All the time when I discuss my work as a wildlife & fisheries biologist, I discuss what I have learned directly from Indigenous people in my everyday work yet it's so clear that so many people hear that and think I'm bringing it up for what reason? To appear somehow progressive?
Has everyone just believed this whole time that I bring it up for optics?
Everyone nods, "of course he mentions Indigenous people," because they believe it would simply look bad for me if I didn't.
In fact Indigenous knowledge is a constant topic of conversation and point of reference when I discuss my work as a scientist who uses Western science because my work is useless without it.
I work with endangered species which are endangered solely due to continual colonial violence against people and the land. I can follow the Western scientific method all I want and publish 100 papers on how to fix salmon populationsâand get nowhere without Indigenous knowledge and sovereignty.
Indigenous knowledge is not an afterthought to reference as back up to Western science. Believe it or not, we can and should lead any number of scientific projects with Indigenous knowledge.
You need to change how you regard Indigenous knowledge on a fundamental level.
i realized this was also lost in the fall of the CH website so
since itâs That Time of Year again, iâm just gonna bring back my Every Christmas TV Rom-Com comic
remembering to bring back this banger from 2018

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REMATCH
WHO'S SEXIER
HOWL PENDRAGON
BILL CIPHER
SLIME IS A GOOD LOOK ON PENDRAGON! REAL SHAME THEY DIDN'T USE THAT PHOTO
MY FUCKONG POLL
Who me?
I wish people were as scared of getting into a car accident as they are of being true crime'd. Maybe then they wouldn't be on their phones while driving.
True crime girlies will be like "wtf I would never go for a walk at night, what if the hash slinging slasher gets me" and then use their knees to merge with no turn signal in front of a semi while applying makeup with both hands
Hot take but I really do think that some of yâall need to consider how/why/when/how often youâre making fun of straight people for being straight
I do it too, Iâm not going to pretend I donât make jokes about the hets, or the down with cis bus, or whatever
But I recently befriended a cis, straight dude and I have watched him be dismissed, degraded, and unambiguously insulted for the perceived âcrimeâ of being straight â all in queer environments where he is allegedly âcompletely welcomeâ and surrounded by âfriendsâ
This guy is not a toxic person! But I have seen him be made to feel so small and like his comfort and safety in those spaces are conditional on his silence and acceptance of being treated like a human dunk zone, and I think that some of yâall have had so much shit from straight/cis people that the second you feel like youâve got an inch, you want to luxuriate in the perceived catharsis of bullying someone whoâ actually âdoesnât deserve it
And until he very, very carefully mentioned to me in private that it makes him feel bad, I didnât even clock that I was involved in doing that, that it had become so instinctive for me to make casual jokes like that, and thatâ well meaning or otherwise âI had been contributing to an environment that made someone I really really like feel like shit
So, I dunno, I think maybe some of yâall should think about that too
Coming back to say that while a lot of the responses to this post have been mainly positive, some folks have an attitude that it should be something that my friendâ or any cis, straight man âshould just be able to get over, because fuck âem, thatâs why, because theyâre in a queer space and they should shut up and accept it, because you suffer as a queer person and they should have to suffer tooâ regardless of whether or not this specific person has done anything to wrong you
Iâm gonna say this point blankâ youâre a tar pit if you think this way
Your suffering does not make you special, you are not granted brand new permissions to be belligerent and cruel because you have been treated poorly, straight people arenât an oppressed class, no, but theyâre people who are entitled to the same amount of basic decency that you, yourself, are entitled to
It feels good when youâve been treated like shit to then go forward and treat other people like shit. Thatâs what youâre admitting. Does it make you feel good to do harm? Are you proud of that? Are you comfortable with being that kind of person? Because I dunno about the rest of youâ but I realized I wasnât, and it turns out itâs pretty fucking easy to change
what a beautiful day to not be in high school
This is the like those âremember to be grateful you donât have a sore throat right nowâ posts. It IS a beautiful day to not be in high school! Thank you!
saw this on pinterest but i think it belongs here too
this will never not be important

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So much translation discourse just boils down to monolinguals not understanding that "coolness" doesn't translate across languages, and you need to re-add it manually on the other end.
Spanish and French understand the anglicism so just say "eso es muy cool" or "c'est très cool" if the context is not particularly formal
No no, not literally the word "cool" I mean the [concept of coolness]. Things that sound cool, poetic, funny, dramatic, etc in one language will completely fail to land if you simply go 1-to-1 word equivalents.
In the Japanese version of Fullmetal Alchemist, the antagonists are named after the seven deadly sins, in English. As in, rather than the Japanese word, "Greed" is still Greed in the original.
Because loan words from English are often pretty "cool", as with your Spanish and French example.
But this presents a problem, because, to give them a bit of flair, the antagonists are sometimes given a proper Japanese adjective along with their name, to make a sort of title of sorts.
"Greedy Greed"
The italicized part would be a Japanese adjective, and the bolded part is an English loanword. This is fine in Japanese, but would be totally nonsense in an English translation.
After all, it's common sense to keep the names the same, duh, and obviously the whole point of what you're doing is to translate the Japanese.
Greedy Greed. You cannot call him that.
You can't go 1-to-1. To keep the [concept of coolness], you have to identify what made the original cool, and then recreate it in the new language.
And here, we have a foreign word, and a native word, both meaning the same thing, paired together to give an antagonist a cool sounding title. So how do we do that in English.
Well, the seven deadly sins, being Christian and Catholic and all, have fancy names in Latin. Or well, they just sound fancy in English, because Latin was the language of intellectuals for a long long time.
And in fact, while we also have the word "greed", English has a fancier sounding word that means the same thing, but whose etymology comes from the fancy Latin. That might give a similar cool-loanword feeling, right?
Let's try it.
"Greed the Avaricious"
Oh yeah. That's definitely, undeniably, "cool".
One thing I really like about Beverly Engel's book It Wasn't Your Fault, which is about PTSD-induced toxic shame, is that quite a bit of it deals with people who haven't broken The Cycle of Abuse (TM) and have gone on to hurt others. That's a really underserved and vulnerable patient population, and statistically, it's also MASSIVE. I don't think I've read a single other self-help type book on PTSD and self-loathing that confronts the possibility that you're exactly as bad as you think you are.
I felt better that it so much as mentioned that children can react to abuse with ungovernable rage. Everybody likes the image of PTSD patients as internalizing everything and becoming doormats, which does happen, and often, but it's not the only narrative. Personally I've always hated my abusers and have always wanted everyone who so much as breathed wrong in my direction from ages 0 to 18 to burn eternally in hell. I *never* thought any of it was my fault and ever since I was a toddler I was willing to make it everybody else's problem, and it's really relieving to read a clinical perspective that acknowledges that abuse victims can act that way too.
It's wild to me that its such a neglected subset of abuse victims. Its really common. When I still lived with my parents and was still subjected to my father every fucking day I would lash out terribly at my mother, to the point when i went to visit them for years afterwards she was afraid I would lash out again. We've worked it out, I'm a much better person when I'm not regularly subjected to mental and emotional abuse, but like, its just so common.
I think it must be, at least partially, because, people hate the imperfect victim. Its easy for so many people to sympathize with someone who never lashed out. Less so for people to sympathize with people who are angry and lash out. Even though its a perfectly sensible reaction to being hurt over and over. I'm sure most people would like to think they would simply never.
I don't think this is the whole reason, but, I think it plays into it.
Similarly, thereâs a narrative of, you cannot experience grief over having fucked up. That if you are hurting because you caused harm, because you were the cause of harm, that youâre not allowed to grieve, because you âearned your sorrow. You deserve to bottle it up and to hurt for the bad things you have done,â
Which is punitive logic. Itâs copthink. Which is bad.
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In fact, you can actually give yourself trauma over fucking up too badly and doing, witnessing, or failing to prevent something evil that goes against your morals; for instance, if you steal your mother's life savings due to drug addiction, kill a civilian during a military operation (please do not join the military), or became abusive because you didn't have the tools and skills yet to handle BPD. In the field of psychology this is called "moral injury" or "perpetrator trauma."