Ok so this is an AU where Ponyboy TW Kills himself in the fountain after Johnny died. So instead of Dally running out Pony does and he runs all the way to the fountain and this is the aftermath
Again TW Suicide is in this story
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The fountain was where it all started and now Pony was back there. The blood had all been cleaned away but Pony could still see it. The blood of Bob would forever haunt this park. And now Ponyboys blood would too. He had thought about this for a long time. He couldnāt be here if Johnny wasnāt. So he was going to end it how it should have ended that night. It felt so long ago but it was only a week ago now. Today Johnny had died and now Pony would too. No one knew where he was after he ran out of that hospital. He had left Dally there. But all he could think of was how if Johnny had never saved him Johnny would still be here. Now it would be an exchange. Pony for Johnny. Because if one of them deserved to be here it was Johnny. Drowning took time but Pony now had all of it. He pulled the copy of Gone With the Wind and his favorite pen. A note. To explain to everyone even if they never understood. So Pony began to write.
I'm sorry for everything.
Darry I'm sorry you never got to go to college or settle down with a girl.
Soda you canāt let this kill you. You have to keep going.
I know you miss Sandy but you will find someone else.
To Steve I know you always felt like I was a tag-along kid.
I hope you have fun running around without me.
Dally please do your best to stay out of jail. You have a chance to do something, so try.
And go look at a sunset for me you might be surprised at what you see.
To Two-Bit maybe you should finally get on and graduate high school.Ā
Keep telling jokes Keith but know life is bigger then one big joke.
And Johnny I canāt wait to see you again.
It's only a matter of time till we can watch the sunsets together again.
Pony then stepped into the water. He laid back and put his head under water.
Pony was dying slowly. He felt the water enter his lungs as he breathed in. It felt different then it had that night. Instead of squirming and kicking Pony was now at peace. All he wanted was to see Johnny. He never got to tell him a lot in life and now Pony would tell Johnny in death. He had been under for 30 seconds and he could feel himself slipping slowly out of consciousness.
Pony couldnāt wait to see his parents again. It had been less than a year since he had seen them but he missed his mama's hugs. And his dads strong voice that made little Pony think he could do anything. He knew better now.
He thought about his brothers before he went unconscious what they would say when they found Pony. Darry wouldn't cry, Darry didnāt feel things like everyone else, he would do what he did for mom and dad. Plan the funeral. Go to the funeral. And then right back to work. Soda would cry. It would probably almost kill Soda but he would get through it with Darry. They had each other.
The last 30 seconds of Ponyboy Curtisās life were very uneventful. He thought about a perfect world. One where his parents never died. Darry got to go to college and live the life he deserved without Pony holding him down. Soda would have finished high school and maybe he would have married Sandy like he dreamed. In this world Johnny would be able to get out of that awful house he hated and he could move in with the Curtisās and have a better life. Dally wouldn't be locked up so much. He could be happy and settle down, maybe finally finish high school. Maybe Two-bit would finally graduate too and talk to Marcia again. He had always wanted to. And Steve would be working on cars and he would finally leave his awful dad and not come back. Maybe in a perfect world that would have been his friend's lifes. But no. It would never be. Because things werenāt like that here. In this world there were greasers and Socs were all that there was and that was justā¦ wrong. Maybe in another world.
Dying didnāt feel how Pony thought it would. It just felt like taking in a breath and he was gone.Ā
Then he was pulled out of the water.Ā
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Darry Curtis had to plan 3 funerals in the last 8 months. His own parents. And Johnny Cade, the little boy he saw as a brother because his parents couldnāt be bothered. And now Darry had to plan his youngest brother's funeral. Pony had drowned himself two days ago and it was ripping the gang apart. Darry had been the one to find Pony. He went looking after Dally came back and said Pony had run off after Johnny had died. Darry went to go look at the park. The fountain. No Pony wouldnātā¦ But he did. Darry tried to resuscitate him for 20 minutes but Pony was long dead by the time Darry had gotten there. The only reason he stopped is because Soda pulled him off Pony. He was crushing him. The doctor said he had crushed almost all of Ponys ribs trying to do CPR. He could have done so much. What ifs would haunt Darry for the rest of his life. What if he hadnāt been so hard on Ponyboy. What if he hadnāt slapped him. What if he had run after him when he left. What if what if what if. But there was no going back and a manchra Darry had lived by for the last year kept coming back to him āThe world doesnāt stop when you lose someone, there are people still alive you have to fight forā Darry couldnāt leave he still had Soda to look after. His last kid brother.Ā
The house felt different after everything. Two-bit made less jokes almost like so much death had killed his humor. Soda started drinking more. He was never at work. Steve got angry. He fought so much he lost his job. Dallas was long gone. After everything that happened he hopped a freight train and they havenāt seen him since. Darry didnāt feel anymore. He woke up. He worked. He slept. And he did it again. Grief wouldnāt catch Darry Curtis. Not if he could help it.
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Ok so that was all I wrote if you want more let me know but yeah I'm tired (:
