Skinny is all that matters. pw:76 GW:50

Tomorrow begins by skinny challenge.

I feel so fucked up right now. Not only did I binge in great quantity but I fucken enjoyed it. Why? I feel like I'm putting on more weight with every binging I do. I am damn fucked up. But I'm not giving up...not just yet till I get damn skinny.

I just want to fucken lay in bed all day looking at nothing but my ceiling as days goes by while I go skinny in bed...wish it was that easy.

I'm so damned fucked up right now cause i don't know if I'm actually loosing weight or I'm gaining it. How the he'll am I suppose to loose this fuck'n "kilos" and actually feel I'm loosing it?

I've decided to undertake a cucumber diet. Let's see how it goes this whole month.

I love the fact that i freely express my thoughts here without anyone judging me or making a whole fuss about nothing. People don't understand how deep my desire to become skinny is. I crave it and I want it. Though I fall sometimes I know I always end up standing and I never loose my point of focus...and that's what keeps me moving.

As days go by, my thirst to become skinny grows more profound.