Soo... 👉👈 I finished Naruto and it's turn for Bleach rewatch x3 I wish there were more fics with Ikkaku and Yumichika 🥲 Happy Friday everyone!

Happy friday!

I came back after a break and started working again on my fattest, most hairy and brain-sucking fic. Damn, I love this story. I'm breathing it. It's like making my dream come true one way and pour my soul the other. But seeing how much stuff I have to work on still is killing me x3 I thought when I'll finish the outline of the whole book, I'll be able to jump into writing. How crazy was that thought! I wrote first chapter three times already and it's still not good enough ヾ( ･`⌓´･)ﾉﾞ Every time I miss a lot of shit that should happen, gosh! (I mean second but first chapter, lol. Because first one is literally one from the end, hehe.) Anyway my brain is boiling when I'm opening Infraction's files. My second thought was: "Okay, I just have to fill the gaps in those notes and that will be it!" Of course filling gaps took me few intense weeks and… blessed with another realisation: it's still not enough. And that stupid fat ficbaby refusing to stop growing. I got a little depressed. Am I ever going to finish this shit? (´._.`) I can't focus on reading anything else, even my all time favourites snarry stories, because my brain is coming back to this. It's crazy. I don't remember when I was in such state last time. Please give me back the joy from reading x3 At least I found a way - or that's what I hope it is - to make my 260+ pages of notes final. I believe it's called "swimlane timelane" and it only requires writing down perspective of few characters on one timelane. It actually sounds like solution I desperately needed to get everything right in order, have better and cleaner view. And this is actually the moment I want to shoot myself, cus I have to write down everything again for eight characters separately. Dude. I want to pull my brain out and throw it at closest wall ( ﾟｰﾟ) The idea of writing snarry with some Marauders' drama, kinda incest Black's romance, with musical Deatheaters, and Malfoy's political shit in the background with serial killer and all that... it was great at the beginning. But now, when I'm drowning in it and the way to just jump into writing the story, you know, finally in chapters, is not closer than before - I just want to curl in the darkest corner of my room and cry! xD Now now, the good thing is I managed to finish first perspective. Severus' one! It's far from perfect and probably I will have to fix it a bit later on, but isn't it one step closer to the end? Phew, seven more to go!

It's jockstrap day but cut xD Cus someone will flag it anyway <sigh> But I put the whole thingy here.

A moment better than others ( ‾́ ◡ ‾́ ) Don't have much time for drawing. Squeezing brain for writing stuff eats all the energy, but it's good as long as I keep working on my Muggle London AU (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

Okay, okay, Midnight stole my last week, but I'm still here. Slowly working on fic and stuff ɷ◡ɷ

I haven't been in such a good mood for a long time (๑˘ ︶ ˘๑)

Will I ever be free? (My brain finally stopped screaming at the sight of Infraction files. I even managed to fill in a few gaps and start planning the main investigation. Small steps, hehe ɷ◡ɷ)

I desperately need holidays and reset and come back to some old sweet routines.

I need a break. Or reset. Or something.

I kept her wip in a drawer for a year, lol (how time flies...), but finally finished it. I'm still a long way from how I'd like to render art. It's a small progress tho, huh. I don't know. It is such a stupid feeling to not be happy about the work, even if I'm proud I'd manage to finish something :v

Only one person makes him smile like that ɷ◡ɷ