RootedIron

Spoke with some French today and got honestly juiced. Now watching Peter Pan and remember ‘Ed the anology o proposed in my early 20’s

Kisses

I thought of a monarch telling me that another monarch adored me like I adored her/ and I still don’t know how to chase it.

I was not to far from it. I to tattoos and other cyber options for people but I was at my end.

I was with nothing the other day. And suicide was a option for me.

I was the this side Suicide the other day

Stil hurting; Understanding y right now; but this isolation hurts more that I understand. I know my art is found in lifestyle and desire to live; but y can I not find a rythum to ride my hurt through. I mean when I am running or hiking; finding a ruthym to proceed to is not hard.. with this life shit:. Is their a rythym by body adapts too? Or is it that fact that my social currency is not relative to my physical experiences

Working my ass off; tired if the ups and downs and everyone jumping on and off the boat at their own whim. Please pray for me

This depression is no joke today. Prayer for me please

Help.

Record everything. And save it.

Today I accepted my dads stroke. I didn’t think I was ready tbh. I am not where I wanna be. Is that okay? I prepped for this since I left school but am I am ready for standing in his waves and tides. Time. He was the one buying for me; I can feed myself and others; can I feed my family? I don’t even have one of my own. My dad is dying..... I am myself and ready; and I am so ready to show him who I am now before he dies; do I have enough time? What do I do with the jigsaw he just got to retire building for.

Only thing I can say is that I available for my Jesus request!!!!! Amen

Not lost. Just alone.

To be an incredible son; Christian; brother; neighbor; friend. Maybe a provider.

I was ready a few months ago