loser

knight symbolism in chronic pain save me. armor metaphors for the unseen weight on your limbs. hidden wounds you must hide from your companions. the soft groans when you try to get to your feet. collapsing as soon as the door shuts behind them. knowing that you have to get up, you must get up — you have to be brave and strong for them but god does it hurt. craving the touch of the beloved on your forehead while you see them in dreams. wounded knight symbolism in chronic illness save me save me please

whats that kink called that you get from reading too much fantasy lit as a child that makes you want to be tortured in front of someone who loves you so you can see the pleading desperation in their eyes and hear how much they love you in between the cracks of their voice and really truly believe they would do anything to save you. also you get to look so cool and brave and covered in blood and soooo able to withstand pain haha no just me? ok