brat

now what do i do with all this love i have that was so carefully crafted for you?

i'm starting this year kinda down and i'm so disappointed in myself for being like this. i was doing so well but shit started to overwhelm me.

i don't even know what i am doing. i thought i did but it seems i don't have a clue about anything anymore. i just wish things were simpler and i didn't had to worry so much.

i will forever be conscious of your existence in this world.

and i won’t ever kill myself because loving you made me learn how to love me, how to love being alive, how to love everyone around me, but i swear to god i’ll live the rest of my life feeling like my body was ripped in half and now the other part of myself is missing wandering the earth. i will forever be conscious of this part of me that is missing, because no matter what other people say, you and i know that i’m the type that never forgets.