my heart aches for him. it truly does because I know how worried and nervous and scared he is for the safety of me and Dowon. at least right now Dowon is safe at home with Minho’s mom until we get home from tour again. i miss him. 

I don’t blame Minho for feeling the way he does I don’t at all. I just wish there was something I could do to ease his anxiety and make him feel better. I’m proud of him for being able to open up to me more about it and actually talk with me instead of keeping things bottled inside. It feels a little like things are going back to how they’ve always been with us. sharing things with each other. our thoughts and feelings. he’s always been the one i tell everything too because i trust him completely. it would be a big problem if i didn’t considering were getting married. 

For most our trip we had been getting followed around by this girl everywhere we went and every time we saw her she just intensely stared me down. We saw her during lunch one day and Minho decided maybe we should go say hello since she seemed like a fan then maybe if we did that she’d stop following us around. We did just that. We said hello and chatted, took a few photos with her and figured okay it should be over maybe she’ll stop following us around. god were we wrong. 

The morning after the day we said hello to her, whilst I was asleep and Minho had gone out to get us some breakfast and coffee, she broke into our hotel room. she was just sitting there watching me sleep until i woke up. i honestly don’t think i’ve ever panicked so much in my life. while she was distracted getting a tray of breakfast she brought off the dresser, i was able to call Minho who immediately picked up on the fact something was wrong when i didn’t greet him in the usual sweet way i do when we call each other. he came rushing back just in time as she tried to kiss me and was saying all sorts of delusional things about how i should marry her cause she’s perfect for me. Minho managed to get her away from me and pretty much tackled her to the floor where he held her until the cops that he had told hotel reception to call showed up to take her away.