Firefly Catchin Days

Tell me about it and post a big beautiful picture of yourself, one where you’re happy. We will be smiling and singing together soon, no matter how hard it is now. 

I’ll start! 

- I decided to fight off my horrible anxiety and stay in one of the most COVID-19 ridden areas of the world - northern Italy - instead of going home. Why? Because I have people here that couldn’t go home and were so so scared of being alone. My love for them gave me enough courage to stay. And I’m so glad it did.

I’m tagging @nikkinevergoesoutofstyle @anherona @13-taylor-swift​ @reflectionofthearcher​ and anybody else that wants to share! 

I was diagnosed officially with having anxiety not long before Covid-19 arrived. So going into this situation with my anxiety has been a struggle. I’ve had some really down days, especially in the last couple of weeks, but I’m doing my best to stay positive and overcome it. I’ve started talking about my feelings more, I’ve even started therapy sessions and I’m not ashamed to say it. I’ve also started running again. I hadn’t ran for a long time as I am not a big fan, but I know that doing it will make me feel better both mentally and physically. I thought I would stop after going once or twice but I keep going and it’s getting easier and it’s getting faster and definitely helping to clear my mind, so I’m really proud of myself for that! I’ve also been baking with my family as it’s really been cheering me up and forget about all the crap going on! I still have my down moments, and my anxiety attacks come at me out of nowhere, but I know im moving in a positive direction and doing the best I can in these hard times. If Taylor can be strong and brave then so can I 💕

Here’s some pictures of me running and looking happy lately whilst having a Taylor music and wine night! The smile is genuine.

I’m tagging @fearlessly-me-e-e, @uhh-imean @feellike22 @mollyandmimi and @explorerswiftie. No pressure. Only if you want to share.

In this lockdown period, I’m struggling to remain focused and not lose hope for my future. There’s this part of my mind which compares my being with others’ and thus takes me into a vicious cycle of overthinking and procrastination. I love to travel and explore places. It makes me realise how small my problems are in this humongous world.

The good part is that I’ve joined Tumblr and am starting to know beautiful people here who take me away from the negativities in my life. This is the only social media platform where i actually love to spend time without spiralling into deep existential thoughts. I’ve started to paint and cook which makes me happy. I know these are trying times but hope and will power is all that is needed. ✨☺️

I tag @longlivetayswift-13 @13-taylor-swift @jasonshawwithtay @xcleanx @swiftthisway @itss7am

@explorerswiftie thanks to you too!

Just before this virus started spreading I made the decision to leave the company I had been working with for 22 years. I worked at a bank and they are cutting costs and closing offices so much, I knew it was smart to leave now. But then 2 weeks after we realized this would be a bad situation for a long time… I didn’t let it take me down though, I’ve been studying like crazy and the weird thing is I started to get more job interviews (maybe people with steady jobs withdraw now?). And….. now I have to decide between 2 jobs in a completely different field!

Well, least to say 2020 has been a very rough year for me so far. I’d already been in battle with anxiety and depression over the last couple of long months before COVID-19 came along. Been in and out of hospitals since January & have seen 4 different doctors who couldn’t figure out what is wrong with me, spending thousands on medicals because my company shut down and they terminated all of our contracts - therefore leaving me jobless and with no health insurance. Finally got diagnosed with hypothyroidism  (which doesn’t help my depression at all lol). It’s just been a real struggle not having a job while this big hit came in & completely took out employment as an option for me (and I am sure many others) at the moment.

I spend alot of my time devoted to creating digital drawings of Taylor. My latest project has been my taylor comic series - literally the only thing keeping me sane during this tough time. Other than that, just staying home and watching lots of tv and playing online games! hehe.

I hope we all stay safe and strong through it all. Here is a picture of me & my daylight comic art.

My small business was denied the government Payroll Protection Program Loan (PPP loan). A microscopic $5k that would cover about 3 weeks of what I've lost as a sole proprietor due to COVID-19. My business qualifies for 100% forgiveness, yet I was denied due to a high credit card balance. Imagine that.

I still have not gotten a stimulus. As a business owner I always owe taxes so they have no direct deposit account for me and their portal has been no help.

If anyone has a work from home editing or writing position they can pass on I'd be forever grateful. And if anyone can pass this onto @taylorswift , we need all the help we can get. I feel like such a failure even asking, but I also know none of this is my fault.

My income has dropped 75% since this crisis began. And on Feb 19 I was recovering from surgery to remove a dangerous mass from my thyroid. So February wasn't a great month either. As a single mother who is head of household, I make the income but I can't exactly start a job and leave my kid home 40hrs a week. No I don't have family, never have. Been on my own since 15.

My business allows me to work from home, a business I started 7 years ago so I could be with my son. That has turned to dust in a matter of weeks. I'm hopeful it will pick up but it could be months.

Our 90 day mortgage forbearance is up June 1 and the bank wants all 90 days plus June. That's $7k of imaginary money. How does that even make sense? Oh and the hold time on the phone is 8 hours. EIGHT.

I literally have no idea what's going on and I'm kinda starting to spiral. I've got food, money for utilities-ish. But what now? What happens when all the grace periods lift and there's no money coming in?

The rain is really pouring down on this one.... hoping to be finally clean.

Ready for Christmas Tree Farm with my 4 Christmas trees that sit above my desk (one not pictured)

@taylorswift do you like it? 🎄🎄🎄

My small business was denied the government Payroll Protection Program Loan (PPP loan). A microscopic $5k that would cover about 3 weeks of what I've lost as a sole proprietor due to COVID-19. My business qualifies for 100% forgiveness, yet I was denied due to a high credit card balance. Imagine that.

I still have not gotten a stimulus. As a business owner I always owe taxes so they have no direct deposit account for me and their portal has been no help.

If anyone has a work from home editing or writing position they can pass on I'd be forever grateful. And if anyone can pass this onto @taylorswift , we need all the help we can get. I feel like such a failure even asking, but I also know none of this is my fault.

My income has dropped 75% since this crisis began. And on Feb 19 I was recovering from surgery to remove a dangerous mass from my thyroid. So February wasn't a great month either. As a single mother who is head of household, I make the income but I can't exactly start a job and leave my kid home 40hrs a week. No I don't have family, never have. Been on my own since 15.

My business allows me to work from home, a business I started 7 years ago so I could be with my son. That has turned to dust in a matter of weeks. I'm hopeful it will pick up but it could be months.

Our 90 day mortgage forbearance is up June 1 and the bank wants all 90 days plus June. That's $7k of imaginary money. How does that even make sense? Oh and the hold time on the phone is 8 hours. EIGHT.

I literally have no idea what's going on and I'm kinda starting to spiral. I've got food, money for utilities-ish. But what now? What happens when all the grace periods lift and there's no money coming in?

The rain is really pouring down on this one.... hoping to be finally clean.

My small business was denied the government Payroll Protection Program Loan (PPP loan). A microscopic $5k that would cover about 3 weeks of what I've lost as a sole proprietor due to COVID-19. My business qualifies for 100% forgiveness, yet I was denied due to a high credit card balance. Imagine that.

I still have not gotten a stimulus. As a business owner I always owe taxes so they have no direct deposit account for me and their portal has been no help.

If anyone has a work from home editing or writing position they can pass on I'd be forever grateful. And if anyone can pass this onto @taylorswift , we need all the help we can get. I feel like such a failure even asking, but I also know none of this is my fault.

My income has dropped 75% since this crisis began. And on Feb 19 I was recovering from surgery to remove a dangerous mass from my thyroid. So February wasn't a great month either. As a single mother who is head of household, I make the income but I can't exactly start a job and leave my kid home 40hrs a week. No I don't have family, never have. Been on my own since 15.

My business allows me to work from home, a business I started 7 years ago so I could be with my son. That has turned to dust in a matter of weeks. I'm hopeful it will pick up but it could be months.

Our 90 day mortgage forbearance is up June 1 and the bank wants all 90 days plus June. That's $7k of imaginary money. How does that even make sense? Oh and the hold time on the phone is 8 hours. EIGHT.

I literally have no idea what's going on and I'm kinda starting to spiral. I've got food, money for utilities-ish. But what now? What happens when all the grace periods lift and there's no money coming in?

The rain is really pouring down on this one.... hoping to be finally clean.

WE LOVE YOU, TAYLOR! 🦋

My small business was denied the government Payroll Protection Program Loan (PPP loan). A microscopic $5k that would cover about 3 weeks of what I've lost as a sole proprietor due to COVID-19. My business qualifies for 100% forgiveness, yet I was denied due to a high credit card balance. Imagine that.

I still have not gotten a stimulus. As a business owner I always owe taxes so they have no direct deposit account for me and their portal has been no help.

If anyone has a work from home editing or writing position they can pass on I'd be forever grateful. And if anyone can pass this onto @taylorswift , we need all the help we can get. I feel like such a failure even asking, but I also know none of this is my fault.

My income has dropped 75% since this crisis began. And on Feb 19 I was recovering from surgery to remove a dangerous mass from my thyroid. So February wasn't a great month either. As a single mother who is head of household, I make the income but I can't exactly start a job and leave my kid home 40hrs a week. No I don't have family, never have. Been on my own since 15.

My business allows me to work from home, a business I started 7 years ago so I could be with my son. That has turned to dust in a matter of weeks. I'm hopeful it will pick up but it could be months.

Our 90 day mortgage forbearance is up June 1 and the bank wants all 90 days plus June. That's $7k of imaginary money. How does that even make sense? Oh and the hold time on the phone is 8 hours. EIGHT.

I literally have no idea what's going on and I'm kinda starting to spiral. I've got food, money for utilities-ish. But what now? What happens when all the grace periods lift and there's no money coming in?

The rain is really pouring down on this one.... hoping to be finally clean.

Questioned it

Really questioned it

Bet my ass on it

"I fucking knew it"!!!!!!!!!!!

@taylorswift manspreading is the most incredible and disturbing thing at the same time.

@taylorswift manspreading is the most incredible and disturbing thing at the same time.

As a divorced mother I think it's a HUGE fucking double standard that society totally dismisses the Disney Dad. As mothers we spend every waking moment prioritizing our kids, sacrificing for those priorities and embellishing as much as we can so they can look back with fond memories of their childhood years. Let me unpack that.

We run on 4hours of sleep so we can have those 15 minutes in the car to connect with them on the way to school. We multitask like wizards so they can get to their voice lesson, martial arts, dance and clubs. We manage the bills, the home, the Dr appointments, the sleepovers and the breakups. And many of us work a 40hr work week. I can't tell you when the last time I soaked in a bathtub with a glass of wine was.

Why the fuck does society praise men for showing up to work, and taking their kids on vacation once a year or to a park one day a week with none of the every day magic tricks that women pull from their metaphoric asses to actually get the daily life demands done?

"When people decided I was wicked, and evil, and canniving, and not a good person, that was the one I couldn't really bounce back from, cause my whole life was centered around it" @taylorswift

When we are quick to judge and slow to question, the human being at the other side of an @ with real lives, real careers, real families, real struggles, real anxiety, they suffer immeasurable pain.

"I've been doing this for 15 years and I'm tired of it. I'm just tired of the... just, just feels like it's more than music now at this point. And most days I'm like okay, but then sometimes I'm just like... it just gets LOUD sometimes."

You don't know how near or far from a ledge a person is. Dragging them on a public platform can cause a lot of damage, possibly irreversible damage. It's not fair. It's a middle aged approach to justice in a modern age when we have the right to unbiased jury trials. It's no different than a public stoning. And it's rampant in this fandom with fans as young as 13.

"When people fall out of love with you, there's nothing you can do to make them change their minds, they just don't love you anymore. I just wanted to disappear."

If seeing Taylor sobb over being so vigilantly hated on social media made you want to throat punch someone and hug her all at the same time, then start spreading the message that cancel culture is NOT COOL. If not for the sake of the humans that are at the other side of an @ now, then for the sake of our kids who will inherently suffer from this vile and toxic social behavior.

@taylorswift Miss Americana