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hi!

im currently writing about some SJM books (acotar and ccity). i write some headcanons, fluff, angst and smut

requests are currently open, so feel free to send anything you’d like me to write!

ACOTAR

headcanons

azriel

eris

CRESCENT CITY

nothing yet

HARRY POTTER

nothing yet

COMING SOON

eris x inner circle reader (friends to lovers)

🍁🍂 Part I 🍂🍁

(a/n): hiii, it took me a while to write this part. honestly, i almost didn’t post it (was this close 🤏🏼 to giving up)

When Eris Vanserra finally finds his mate (eris vanserra x female reader)

warnings: mentions of beron (ew); a little bit of angst; fluff; suggestive

“I didn’t expect you to be this… quiet, Vanserra.” She said after some time of silence.

Eris glaze was on her. After months, she was there looking at him, with her scent invading his nostrils and almost driving him insane. The bond shined, as if trying to pull Eris towards her. He fight against it, denying his own instincts.

“You shouldn’t be here.” He finally said, his voice sharp as a knife.

Having his mate inside the Autumn Court was his biggest dream and nightmare at the same time.

If Beron only find out about that meeting…

“Your little spy follower me for months.” She raised her brown in disbelief, crossing her arms “And now you want me to leave?”

“When did you find out?”

“I’ve felt it the second the bond snapped at Dawn Court. All I could feel was you. I waited for you to come to me, but instead… you left.” Eris felt his heart ache as her disappointment waved through their bond. “So I just assumed the amazing Autumn heir thought he was too good to be with a normal person, who doesn’t have royal blood in her veins.”

Eris frowned, confused. How could she have understood everything so wrong? Even without talking to her, he always felt her, checked how she felt by the small waves by the mate bond. During those months, Eris learned to love every piece he discovered through the brief words of the spy. And yet, he had managed to ruin everything.

“And then, your spy started to following me non stop. At first, I kept playing, pretending I didn’t realized, just to see how far he… you would go. You despise me, that’s clear, but still want to know my every step.” She continued “Care to explain? Or you are too scared your family will find out you’re mated to a nobody?”

“You don’t understand!” He shouted “From the moment I’ve put my eyes on you, all I could care was to keep you safe, far from my messed up life. You don’t know what my family… my own father is capable of. That’s why I didn’t approached you, and that’s precisely why I didn’t plan to do it anytime soon, even when my heart and soul begged me to do it. Neglect the bond was the worst type of torture I’ve ever felt.”

He took a hesitant step towards her, losing all the confidence he always had. She stared at him gaping, surprised by the statement. She really expected his contempt and not to find out that he wanted her more than anything in the world.

“And mostly, if I would be willing to risk everything just to be with you… this would be the last place I would want you to be.” Eris finally broke the distance between then, being only a few centimeters away. He looked at her, keeping every single detail of her face in his memory while feeling her warm breath against his own skin.

“Eris…”

“I truly apologize for making you feel that way.” He whispered, closing his eyes “Don’t think for a second that I think you’re not enough for me. Since I saw you for the first time, you became my entire universe.”

She stared at him, completely astonished. For so long, she have thought to be condemned to a mate that saw her as someone inferior, and suddenly, Eris couldn’t be more different.

Fearful, she raised her hands and gently touched his face. He kept his eyes closed, even shivering under her touch. Eris’s skin was warm and soft, and tiny freckles formed a whole constellation across his cheeks. Slowly, she dragged one of her fingers to his lips, caressing them lightly, before finally closing the distance between them and pressing her mouth to his.

Eris felt his flames stir within him, wasting no time to kiss her back with intensity. He gripped her waist as she wrapped her arms around him, pressing her body against the closest wall.

His mouth moved against hers like he was starved for her, hands pulling her impossibly closer. She felt her own body answering, the bond thrumming so loudly it drowned out every rational thought.

But then —

“Wait,” she breathed, breaking the kiss and pressing her hands against his chest to stop him. Her heart thundered, her lips still tingling.

Confusion flickered across Eris’s face.

“I can’t,” she whispered. “Not like this. I need… I need time. I need to know this isn’t just the bond making us reckless. I barely know you.”

Eris exhaled sharply, jaw tightening. For a heartbeat, it seemed like flames danced in his eyes. Then he stepped back, putting a careful distance between them, even when the bond screamed to never let her go.

“I’m sorry for trespassing the limits.” Eris said “You’re entirely right. We shouldn’t have done… this. ”

It was weird to see Eris lose his words like that, when he seemed to always have everything under control.

Eris tormented himself. He lost all sense of control the moment he touched her, putting her at risk, exposing her to be found by any member of his family. He couldn’t allow himself to go too far. Not there mostly, with Beron and his brothers only some miles away.

Before thinking twice, Eris subtly approached her again and held her hand gently, winnowing them to somewhere Beron wouldn’t find her. A hidden cabin in the forest.

In his father’s disdain, Eris had found unexpected benefits, knowing Beron would never deign to step beyond his lavish palace to concern himself with a miserable cabin hidden in some forgotten corner of his lands.

That house had become his refuge, the only place in Autumn Court where he could find a little peace of mind. Still, knowing his mate was so close to Beron, basically hiding right under his nose, made Eris’s instincts scream to run away with her, far from Beron’s dirty claws.

A little scream left her mouth as they suddenly appear inside the forest cabin. Eris held her waist steady just to be certain she wouldn’t stumble. She looked around confused, trying to understand where they were.

“We still in Autumn Court, if that’s your concern.” Eris said.

“A little warning that you were about to turn the world upside down to get here and drag me along would’ve been nice!” She looked at him angrily.

“You have never winnowed before.” He stated, understanding why she gave gotten so mad “I’m sorry.”

“I don’t want to hear more apologies tonight, Eris.” She stepped back and let go of his hand “And yes, I’ve not and don’t plan to do it again any time soon.”

Eris held his laugh as a weird feeling emerged in his heart. It was strange to finally be with his mate, to talk to her and get to know every detail by himself and not by a cold letter.

Cauldron, all he wanted was her. And now that he had finally tasted her, Eris just wanted to devour her. To worship her entirely.

“You get used to it with time and can even enjoy the feeling, but I’ll let you know in advance if we must do it again.” Eris said “Welcome to my house, by the way.”

She finally looked around, still recovering from the winnowing experience. The forest cabin was a stark contrast to Beron’s palace. Free of extravagance, yet still luxurious in its own way. It was cozy, with an unmistakable touch of Eris.

“I thought you lived in the palace.”

“Officially, I live at the palace.” He pauses while his eyes drift to the fireplace “But this cabin… it’s the only place that feels like mine. No watchful eyes. Just quiet. No one knows it exists.”

“Then why bring me here?” She asked, narrowing her eyes. It was hard to understand the male in front of her.

“Because you’re my mate. And no matter how much it terrifies me, my heart is yours from the moment I saw you for the first time” He said almost desperately “I thought keeping distance would keep you safe, but I was wrong.”

A bitter laugh escaped her lips.

“That’s the reason why you planted a spy in my shadows?” She asked with her voice trembling.

“You don’t understand, do you? My father has tortured me. For the Cauldron’s sake, he has once killed my brother’s lover right in front of him because he didn’t consider her worthy of the Vanserra bloodline.” Eris voice cracked into a shout “If Beron ever finds out about you, he wouldn’t hesitate to use you against me. To hurt you, to break you, just to bend me to his will.”

Her expression crumpled. She could feel his desperation bleeding through the bond, like a deep wound that wouldn’t stop bleeding.

“The choice is mine to make – to stay by your side or walk away. It’s my decision if the bond… if you are worth the danger.” She said firmly “And just to be clear, I’ve never lived my life in fear. I’ve always been free. No court, no chains, no one to hold me back. And I won’t start now because of some ancient, cruel male. Maybe you shouldn’t either.”

It was one of the rare moments that Eris had no words waiting on his lips.

She paused, biting her lip as if the weight of her next words pressed heavily on her.

“I know your father has caused damage that can’t be undone, and I hate to know that he hurt you so deeply.”

Eris let out a slow breath, understanding there was nothing he could do to push her away. And by the Cauldron, it was the last thing he wanted.

So he nodded, defeated and yet tasting something dangerously close to hope. Eris Vanserra had never dared to feel such a thing – not when it could be so easily destroyed.

He was a fool and he knew it. But he was also utterly tired of being haunted by fear.

“You’re right.” He rasped “It is your decision.”

Eris amber eyes flared with a fierce flame.

“Give me the chance to be the mate you deserve, more than being my father’s son, more than danger. And I swear to you I will do everything in my power to make sure fear never holds you captive.”

She gave a small, genuine smile before meeting his amber eyes.

“I’m not promising anything yet, Eris. But I’m here. Let’s see where this bond can take us… together.”

vampire!azriel x female reader

warnings: a lot of angst

Vampires were rare creatures in Prythian these days, almost like folklore told to frighten children. Most had been killed when the fae divided and began to rule the land. Vampires had always been considered vile and dangerous — some of them unable to control their bloodlust, killing anyone who happened to cross their path.

When Azriel departed to the mission Rhys sent him, he didn’t expected anything besides the usual. Most of times, he would spend hours spying on his target — and, of course, that included a lot of boredom. In worst scenarios, he would’ve to fight someone and come home with new scars.

Before he left Velaris, he kissed his mate passionately and promised to her that he would be back to her arms as quick as possible, as he always did.

Before everything happened, the shadowsinger lurked in an narrow alley beside the tavern, waiting for his target emerge out after probably spending hours drinking.

His shadows were always his eyes and ears, but not even them sensed the creature drawing near — not until it was too late.

The vampire struck so fast that Azriel could barely fight back. The last thing he remembered was a searing pain, burning like flames as the shadowy creature sank its teeth into him, and then… darkness. His final thought before slipping away was of his beautiful mate waiting for him at home, and the bond between them that once pulsed so brightly, fading away to be erased forever.

He knew she had felt the exactly moment he was torn from his world. Even after days, Azriel could still see the terror in her eyes that changed her forever.

For all intents and purposes, Azriel died that night completely alone.

And he returned as a monster, worse than anything he had ever been.

When he awoke, completely lost and disoriented, the thirst for blood was already there, gnawing at him while the light of the rising sun burned his skin. In that moment, Azriel was not yet a vampire. No, that only became real when he finally gave in and fed.

Like most vampires from the old tales, Azriel fed until the very last drop, stealing an innocent life and damning himself for eternity.

He would never forgive himself for it.

His shadows, the ones that had followed him since the day he was born, vanished for good. They died with him that night. What remained was a void, dark as a black hole, so deep and desperate it nearly drove him mad. Not to feel them around him, not to hear their whispers in his soul, it tore him apart.

But the worst part was not feeling the mating bond. It had shattered, as if it had never existed, and would never return. He could no longer sense his mate through the silver thread that once whispered her emotions into his soul. The absence was terrifying.

Azriel wondered if he should ever return to Velaris, but he had made a promise to his mate that he would come back — and she deserved an answer, a final ending.

When he finally found the courage to return, he found her in mourning. And when her eyes fell upon him, she already knew.

Azriel was nothing more than a shell of what he once had been.

“I can’t… I can’t feel you.” She stated with tears in her eyes.

Azriel was only wearing the skin of the male she once loved.

While his mate was just as lost as he was, struggling to survive the gaping void left by their bond, she still refused to abandon Azriel, determined not to let him face that darkness alone.

Cassian and Rhysand exchanged looks with pity. Rhysand, as the High Lord, lived in constant fear that Azriel might slip, that he’d lose the battle against the hunger and harm some unsuspecting citizen of the Night Court.

And he had every reason to fear.

Even with all of Azriel’s iron self control, the hunger worsened by the day, hollowing him out from the inside, leaving nothing but pain in its wake.

Azriel tried so hard. He tried to do his best to support and protect his mate and to keep the murderous instinct that burned beneath his skin buried.

Until the day they crossed a line.

After weeks with barely any contact, his mate pressed her lips to his.

Everything inside him snapped. He lost all control and bit her, sinking his fangs deep into her throat.

If it hadn’t been for Feyre’s intervention, he would’ve drained her completely.

The thought of how close he’d come to killing his mate haunted him more than any nightmare ever could.

After that night, Azriel didn’t slow himself to get too close or even be alone with her.

But he couldn’t bare the way she looked at him. With fear. She was afraid of him and the love she had once felt for Azriel was fading, vanishing just as his shadows did.

The inner circle could hardly look at him. They no longer recognized the male before them, nor could they forgive him for hurting his own mate — someone who had became part of their family.

Anger.

Sooner or later, they would come to hate this monstrous version of Azriel, the one who had stolen their brother and friend away.

One night, after everyone had fallen asleep, Azriel took a deep breath and held it as he slipped into his mate’s room, moving silent as death itself with that supernatural stealth only a vampire possessed — careful not to wake Cassian and Nesta sleeping in the next room.

She lay there, so heartbreakingly peaceful, unaware of the monster standing at her bedside.

He drew closer, listening to her heart thunder through her veins, and pressed a warm, lingering kiss to her forehead.

“I won’t return this time, my love. I promise.”

🍁🍂 Part II 🍂🍁

When Eris Vanserra finally finds his mate

warnings: mentions of beron (ew); not proofread

Eris Vanserra always had a plan. First: Overthrow his father, avenging his mother and brothers for all the suffering Beron caused. Second: becoming the High Lord. Third: be completely different from Beron.

A mate wasn’t in this list. In fact, Eris never wanted one. Not after knowing what his own father was capable to do with his mother, Lucien’s lover, his bothers and him. The hidden scars on his back were proof of the evil that lived inside of that male. Beron was a monster with no limits, completely paranoid with the thought of a bethayal. He never spared his own children.

The worst part was to think, that even despising Beron in secret, Eris was still his favorite son somehow. So Eris kept playing his part. While he was attending to Beron’s stupid events and dinners, pretending to be a mirror of that monster, he also made alliances with the Night Court, formed a trustful and reliable network of spies, gathered all the harmful information of Beron and waited for the right time to destroy him.

That was until he saw her for the first time. His mate. The felt it right away, like a magnet pulling him into the gravitational field.

That was the first time Eris doubted his own plan and himself.

He saw her during the time of the High Lord Meeting, at a random walk at the Dawn Court. She was reading a book at the bench, while the wind swung a few strands of hair to her face, making her to pull the stubborn strands behind her point ears.

Eris watched her, fascinated with her beauty and with the feeling that filled all his soul. But at the same time, he couldn’t allow himself to approach her, not when his father was so close. He couldn’t put her in risk like that. The most he allowed himself to do was to observe her, day after day, while the meeting lasted. Then, he ended up putting some of his most trusted spies to find out who she was, scared he would never see her ever again.

— A traveler — The spy said during a visit at night — She doesn't seems to belong to a court and will board a ship towards human lands tomorrow.

— Human lands? — Eris asked, surprised — No fae is welcome there. Why she would do that?

— I fear I can’t answer that question. It confuses me as well.

Eris got silent for a couple seconds. All he wanted to do was to go with her in that ship, discover her reasons, her story and every single detail. But Wei’s knew he couldn’t be that selfish and put his desires above his mate’s safety.

— Make sure she’s safe throughout the trip, regardless of how long it lasts. — Eris finally said, feeling his heart ache inside his chest.

— May I ask why this female is so important? — The spy asked, afraid of Eris' reaction to the question. The older Vanserra always thought that the spy was very curious for his own good, but knew he was reliable at least.

— You may not. — Eris said with a cold tone — Fulfill your mission without questions and you will be rewarded for it.

Months have passed. The spy forwarded coded messages to Eris from time to time, informing the female locations. She had gone to human lands, then to the continent and, according to the last update, was returning to Prynthian. Eris had learned some things about her. And, very different from him, she was a free spirit, smart, cheerful and curious.

He wanted to meet her officially so bad. Dance and travel along the world with her. However, Eris knew that Beron was about to exceed all limits by planning to betray Prynthian. It wasn't the time yet, especially now.

Eris sighed, reading the coded message that said she was returning to Prynthian for the thousandth time.

Suddenly, he felt the bond suddenly pull and a loud throat cleaning behind him. Eris turned his back to the sound, seeing the female that haunted his thoughts for months.

I know I don’t post anything for a looong time, but since I’m finally on vacation, decided it’s time to start writing again. Probably will be posting more in the next few days.

warnings: suggestive; mentions of sex

someone flirts with you during a party.

lucien

at first tries to hide how jealous he is

if the guy doesn’t stops hitting on you soon, he will approach you

“hi sweetheart, is everything alright?” he completely ignores the guy

places a hand on your waist

give an angry look before pushing you away

doesn’t leave your side until the party ends

VERY touchy to show who you belong to

eris

completely pissed

he just left you alone for a couple minutes to go to the bathroom

gave the person a killer gaze

didn’t think twice before treating the guy with his flames

“talk to my mate again, and i will make sure you loose this filthy tongue of yours”

always with a hand placed on your body (waist, hands, thighs)

lots of PDA during the party

jealous sex later

azriel

you weren’t officially together, so he doesn’t know how to react

he would probably feel insecure for a while, thinking he’s not enough for you

when you get rid of the male hitting on you, he pretends everything is alright, but you soon realize something is off

when you understand he was in fact jealous (cassian told you), you show azriel that you are only his

a/n: It’s been a while since I wrote anything so I’m posting this one before I give up. I will try to post more next week so feel free to send requests!

warnings: fluff; kinda suggestive; not proofread; english is not my first language so let me know if you find any mistakes

At the moment he finds out

Lucien felt the bond the first time he saw his mate. He was truly surprised, even shocked to be honest. Lucien didn’t expected to have a mate after what happened to Jesminda, he was actually afraid of having one and end up putting your life at risk by being connected to him. Lucien would be ecstatic and happy, but at the same time couldn’t help but fear.

How he acts?

He would be completely open about it and would probably just split it out as soon he has the opportunity. Lucien just wants to be with his mate and knows how important is to keep a clear and sincere dialogue. He really values honesty, especially when it comes about the bond.

Lucien is not the only one affected by it and even if you didn’t feel it yet, he doesn’t want to left you in the dark.

Will he tell anyone?

As I said before, Lucien doesn’t keep the bond as a secret. He won’t scream it to the whole world (since it’s not something that belongs only to him but also to his mate) but I think he would share it with his close friends (Jurian, Vassa and maybe Feyre) and also with Eris.

In short, he won’t try to hide it but in respect to his mate, he will kept it low until you’re comfortable enough to tell other people.

When his mate feels the bond

Lucien will definitely be insecure, he was opened about the subject since the beginning but once you feel the bond too he’s too scared you will reject him. I think he always would be around you, but if you rather not having his company he will give you all the space needed.

When his mate accepts the bond

Lucien got used to the feeling of rejection and somehow already waiting for it. Once his mate accepted the bond, agreeing to spend the rest of your life with him, Lucien was truly surprised and extremely happy, a type of happiness he thought he would never be able to feel.

That was the first time the light inherited from Helion reveled itself. He felt a joy that made the power overflow through his veins.

He won’t leave your side (and your bed).

Things he loves to do with his mate

Definitely traveling. Once the matebond was officialized Lucien just wanted to enjoy every second with you and above all, the freedom you both had. He didn’t want to be rooted in a court for a while and neither did you. So you both dedicate your free time on travels to other cuts and to the human lands, even those beyond the continent.

Lucien doesn’t actually enjoy having to wear a disguise to deceive humans, but there was nothing better in the world than knowing every piece of the world next to his favorite person.

Does he often gets jealous?

Is something rare to happen, but sometimes the matebond makes him a little possessive. When someone shamelessly hits on you, Lucien sassy personality would definitely show up (all I have to say is: poor guy who thought it would be a good idea to flirt with Lucien Vanserra’s mate.

Favorite body part

Your neck. Lucien loves to kiss your neck and to buy you jewels that enhance your skin. He also loves the way you react when he give small kisses or when he decided to use his hands as your necklace.

PDA

HE LOVES IT. Lucien loves to be feeling your skin against him so he doesn’t care if you are in public or not, he just wants to feel your skin against his.

How often he says “I love you?”

At the beginning it was harder for him to say the 3 little words, Lucien thought somehow he would scare you away once he said it, so he rather demonstrate with attitudes.

You were the first to say you loved him and once you did, Lucien realized how stupid he was being and started to say how much he loves you every day.

Protectiveness

Lucien been through a lot and because of that, he’s always scared something bad will happen to you. I don’t think he would be the overprotective type but would insist that you learn to defend yourself, supporting you to start training with the Valkyries (and also become one of them).

Random bonus

When it comes to you Lucien is always open to any kind of conversation, no matter how difficult it is. He told you everything that happened in his past without censorship (you were the first person he felt completely safe for that).

He loves to hear you talk and always encourages you to always tell him when someone bothers you, setting your boundaries. Lucien becomes your best friend, not only your mate.

warnings: kinda suggestive; mentions of beron (ew)

At the moment he finds out

Eris pretends everything is fine. No one could tell he just felt the bond snapping into place. He is a portrait of coldness as always. When Eris was younger, he expected and dreamed on having a mate, but once he grew up and discovered what his father was capable of (mostly with his mother and after what happened to Jesminda), the oldest Vanserra hoped to never finding a mate.

Eris rather to be alone than watching his mate’s life turning into a living hell because of the bond. And after the Cauldron united your souls together, he felt pure fear running through his veins.

How he acts?

As I said before, the bond truly terrifies Eris. Not because of you, but his father. If wasn’t for Beron, Eris would definitely be more around you and demonstrate how he feels (if there’s no Beron, he would definitely be constantly flirting with his mate), but he can’t, so honestly, he kinda turns into a ghost after he felt the bond. Better saying, he acts like you’re a ghost who is haunting him, because this male is avoiding you a lot.

Even so, Eris can’t be rude to you, he can’t act like an asshole like he easily does with anyone else. He tries to keep his distance and avoid to have long conversations with you, yet he always is discreetly watching you across the room, secretly admiring. Somedays it’s really hard for him to fight the instinct to be near his mate and he allows himself to daydream of how your life together could be.

Attentive eyes (I mean, very very observant eyes) could notice how his eyes soften when he sees you.

Will he tell anyone?

Definitely NOT. Eris is keeping the bond for himself for all the reasons I said before. He is good at keeping secrets and wont let this slip. Well, at least this is what he thought, because Lucien realized how Eris behavior slightly changed when the subject of a conversation were you.

It didn’t take long for Lucien to discover you were mates. Eris made Lucien make an oath that he wouldn’t tell anyone about it, especially you. However, Eris felt relieved for being able to talk to his brother about his concerns envolving you.

When his mate feels the bond

He doesn’t know how to react, it’s like he is paralyzed. It was easy to keep it as a secret when he was the only one aware of the bond, but once you felt it to and confronted him about it? Eris has to make a decision if he’s going to live in the midst of the terror his father’s cause or choose to be with you.

And he chooses you. Even if he’s scared for you being hurt, the heir of the Autumn Court is ready to face Beron. Eris will burn the whole world to keep you safe if he must, even if you decide to not accept the bond.

When his mate accepts the bond

Eris never felt this type of hapiness before. The matebond is the purest piece of his life, a part of his soul that wasn’t corrupted. Eris feels like he was wandering alone in the dark for a long time, but once he has you by his side, Vanserra realizes that he never will have to be alone again. He loves and trusts you more than anything.

Once you hand him a piece of an apple pie you made for him in a signal to acceptance, Eris give it a small bite before colliding his body against yours. You not only find out that Autumn Court males really have fire in their veins, but also that it’s one hard to extinguish.

Things he loves to do with his mate

He loves to spend every available time with his mate. His favorite thing is when you tell about your past and he finds out a new information about you, affectionately saving it in his memory

Eris also loves to go out with you to walk with his dogs (that turn into your dogs as well) at the sunset, to go on travels together and when you have time to drink some tea together, so can he tell you how his day went. Similar to Azriel, Eris adores his mate’s company.

Eris loves the sensation of when he tugs the bond randomly, just to check how you are and receives another tug in answer.

Does he often gets jealous?

He is a pretty confident male and trusts you a lot, so it’s rare for him to feel jealous. If someone flirts with you, Eris will either wait for you to dismiss the person or coolly approach you with a mischevious grin, placing a hand on your waist while the person who was flirting with you gets pale as they realize you are the future High Lord’s mate

Favorite body part

He genuinely thinks you’re perfect, like you’re made for him. However, Eris is truly obsessed with your mouth, not only because he loves to kiss it, but also for every smile you give.

PDA

DEFINITELY INTO PDA. Eris doesn’t care if you’re in public, he will always demonstrate affection towards you, loving to feel the warmth of your body against his skin. It is impossible for him to stay away, mostly after he forced himself to keep his distance from you for so long as soon as he felt the bond.

Always holds your hands or have a hand placed on your waist or thighs.

How often he says “I love you?”

He says it a lot but I think he would rather demonstrate it by acts, throught quality time, gift giving (a lot) and physical touch (also a lot).

Protectiveness

If Beron still alive, Eris will constantly worry about your safety. You are definitely being escorted by a trustful guard chosen by Eris himself if you need to go somewhere in the Autumn Court and he can’t accompany you.

At some point, you got really pissed off to always having a shadow following you everywhere and ended up fighting with Eris. He understands and agrees it’s too much, realizing it’s better for you to learn to defend yourself, becoming independent.

By the way, he is super proud when you start to kick the Autumn guards asses.

Random bonus

Eris is not only a great dancer, but also a great teacher, so he will teach his mate all the Autumn Court traditional dances. He looks foward for the time of the dance training sessions with you, barely being able to wait to guide you in the new dance steps.

bathing with azriel headcanons

warnings: smut at the end (minors don’t interact) - there’s a warning before the nsfw starts

Baths with Azriel are an intimate moment that you share, a way to enjoy each other's company without interruptions.

It became a routine, practically a tradition to bath with the spymaster whenever he comes back from some long mission or from the Court of Nightmares. Of course, you also do it in other circumstances, but in these specific moments is when he most needs to be around you.

Every time he returns from the Court of Nightmares it’s like he has lost himself a little bit. You know the shadowsinger like no one else and although he tries to hide how miserable he feels, he can’t conceal it from you.

When you bath together, you usually sit on his lap and gently scrubs his skin. You wash his soft hair, massaging the area while he keep his eyes closed, giving small kisses on neck and your collarbone

Of course you don’t forget his wings (but let’s talk about it later)

Az does the same for you, patiently washing you hair and thoroughly rubbing the soap on your body.

Even after long minutes being completely clean, you stay together, sometimes talking about your day and others dipped in a comfortable silence, just enjoying each other’s company.

The shadowsinger keeps his arms around you, fondling your skin while he listens carefully to whatever you want to say, appreciating the sound of your voice.

After you’re done, the water is almost cold and Az gives a small peck on your cheeks before getting up and picking the towels.

When you get all dried, Az shakes his hair purposely making the water splash on you.

You cast an angry look at the spymaster, receiving a genuine laugh from him.

Your heart softs a little bit just for seeing that smile on his pretty face

Before you lay down to sleep, Az brushes your hair carefully, saying how much he loves you

NSFW

So… time for the wing talk I’ve mentioned before

You won’t miss the chance to innocently slide the tip of your wet fingers on the shadowsinger’s wings while you’re bathing

Of course it doesn’t go unnoticed

“Don’t you dare” he gives you a warning “I don’t know what you’re talking about”

You play dumb and keep touching with his weak spots, it doesn’t take too long before a moan leave his mouth

“You are an evil, little thing.”

Considering how sensitive Illyrian wings are, teasing him like that almost takes Az beyond his limits

But he holds your wrist together with one hand before it happens, making you stop

“You will regret that”

When you realize, Azriel lays on top of you pressing your body against the tub. He still holding your arms together above your head, while the other hand is down, stimulating your core under the water

When you reach the first orgasm of the night, Azriel picks you up and gets out of the tub, leaving a trail of water to the bedroom

He lays you down again and looks at you with a wicked smile

cold nights with azriel <3

As usual, Azriel wakes up in the middle of the dawn. The sky still dark and the birds asleep in silence. He looks at you, peacefully sleeping on his chest and can’t avoid a smile to appear. This is his favorite way to wake up, when the first thing Azriel eyes see is you.

The cold temperature outside makes him pulls the covers up, covering your bare shoulders. Azriel stare at your face, putting a lock of hair behind your ear and gently stroking your cheek. He moves his caress to your back and you immediately snuggle closer to him, squeezing your arm around his waist.

Az lets out a silent laugh. He would never get tired to watch the way you always sought to get closer to him even during your sleep. Of course, the shadowsinger can’t blame you, since he unconsciously does the same everyday.

Azriel holds you closer, feeling the warmth of your body against his, and close his eyes, whispering in your ear before falling asleep again.

a/n: guess who are feeling sick ☝🏼 (sadly they can’t take care of me)

bat boys + vanserra brothers

rhysand

he was the one who got sick first and feels really guilty that you caught it too

princess treatment

cooks some soup for you everyday

“you’re not drinking water” “hydrate this body right now. i’m not joking”

outraged if you don’t take care of yourself or don’t respect your limits

strokes your hair until you fall asleep

azriel

super worried (acts like you’re about to rest in peace

refuses to be away from you

excuse me rhysand this spymaster is not working right now

constantly feeds you with soup and brings you hot drinks

rubs your body if you feel any pain

reads your favorite book for you

if he has to leave for a short time his shadows stay with you, constantly reporting to az

cassian

checks if you’re breathing every five minutes

if he thinks something is wrong immediately calls madja

she’s done with him for being called for nothing

brings you a lot of food

actually he will give you anything you ask

he even promises to free you from training early for a week if you get well soon

refuses to keep some distance from you and ends up getting sick too

lucien

not going anywhere until you’re completely recovered

best nurse never

make home remedies that his mother taught him

constantly asking if you are feeling well

randomly wakes up at dawn just to check if everything is all right

don’t let you eat any food that isn’t healthy

but give you a lot of candy when you are feeling better

eris

once he realize you’re getting sick immediately calls a healer

extra punctual with the meds you need to take

make different types of tea or some hot choco

spoils you A LOT

he actually spoils you everyday but somehow it gets even worse

is really worried but tries to hide it

i’m thinking of turning this into a series so let me know if you guys would be interested (you can also choose which character i should do next)

warnings: suggestive

At the moment he finds out

Azriel couldn’t hide the surprised look on his face. It was the first time in a while the spymaster got speechless. Az is most likely to create a ragged excuse and leave as soon as possible (yes, he’s definitely panicking), going to some isolated place to understand that he finally found his mate.

How he acts?

Azriel definitely doesn’t know how to act around his mate once the bond snaps. He probably will act very awkward at the beginning, not knowing if he should tell his mate about it (considering they didn’t felt the bond yet) or wait until they realize.

Therefore, Azriel will need some time to digest that he finally has a mate. Az feels really insecure, thinking he’s not good enough for them and believing they won’t accept the bond. Even so, Azriel really tries to be the best he can to his mate, he’s always there, showing support at every situation. He’s also very kind and just wants to see his mate happy.

Will he tell anyone?

No. Az will hide it as much as he can. Azriel is a very private person and probably wants to figure out this new situation by himself. On the other hand, he knows how his brothers are a pain in the ass, so Az rather avoid to listen to the stuff they’re going to say. At least until his mate discover the bond by themself, he won’t talk about it, preventing them from ending up knowing from someone else

But once his mate accepts the bond Azriel’s behavior changes completely, he’s almost announcing to the world, constantly touching his mate in public.

When his mate feels the bond

He’s scared. Really, Azriel never felt this type of fear his whole life, to be rejected by the person who was supposed to be with him for the rest of his life. However, even if he’s terrified, Az forces himself to be honest about his feelings towards his mate.

He has never opened up that much to someone before, exposing an extremely vulnerable side.

If his mate needs some time, he will be very understandable and wait as long as necessary. Az will never pressure his mate to accept the bond or even give him an answer (please he’s the biggest gentleman out there).

When his mate accepts the bond

Az finally feels complete. His mate is his family, the person he trusts the most and is willing to do anything only to make them smile.

As i said before, Az didn’t feel enough for his mate, so he always thought they wouldn’t accept to be bonded to him forever. Honestly, he’s in a deep state of happiness, it’s like he’s finally found his home, his place in the world.

And as SJM said before, Az is a freak, so yeah, not leaving the room any time soon after that.

Things he loves to do with his mate

Pretty much everything. Azriel his happy to go anywhere or do anything if he has his mate to accompany.

It can be to comb their hair to having deep conversations at midnight. Az just loves to be with them.

Does he often feels jealous?

It depends on the situation. Azriel really trusts his mate, but if someone gets too flirty around them, he will definitely be jealous (and kinda insecure). He’s not likely to make a scene but will have a frown on his face for the rest of the night.

Favorite body part

He’s addicted to every single part of his mate, showing true devotion to their body everyday. He loves to kiss their soft lips, neck and inner thighs (he just can’t keep his hands away).

PDA

Even though Azriel is a very reserved person, he’s constantly touching his mate in public, always having a hand on their waist, holding their hand or kissing them. He usually doesn’t go too foward, but it depends on the situation, if he spends a lot of time away on a mission, will definitely be more clingy.

In short, I don’t see him caring much if someone his looking, but he prefers when they have more privacy.

How often he says “I love you?”

Everyday. He just wants his mate to be sure of his feelings. Az not only say it with words, but always demonstrate with his actions.

Protectiveness

Azriel is really overprotective. He’s terrified on losing his mate so they will always have his shadows with them, almost turning into a part of them.

Random bonus

Before every snowball fight Azriel always spends the whole year planning a new strategy to beat his brothers asses. He will share EVERY SINGLE DETAIL to his mate and even accept suggestions to improve it.