the current epiphany ive had is i can sometimes "over intellectualize" my feelings or try to apply logic as a self soothing "it makes sense I feel this way", but ive been stopping there and not also FEELING the feelings. and realizing ahhh that's where the restlessness then comes from bc identifying and talking about how you feel still isnt the same as feeling the feeling, which duh? but feeling the feeling is scary when i havent felt safe feeling my real feelings let alone expressing them or god forbid sharing them and like actually sharing them not breaking it down into "logical" bullet points in the hopes they can't be denied by someone else













