schizoid embolism

hmm ok depressed... going to have microwave grits with butter and sugar and then think abt dyeing the hair at this absurd hour.

the will & grace reboot is so terrible but they did have karen fuck a hot disabled guy in these episodes BUT he's an iraq veteran because you are not allowed to be hot and physically disabled on tv unless you're a veteran. to atone for the crime of your disability >:(

currently 1 part searching variations on 'burning pain normal sensory exam' and 1 part 'most chronically ill people aren't faking But I Am'

Drs are nicer when (a) i don’t make any direct reference to being transgender, i.e. don’t provide a preferred name or an explanation for being on hormones or anything; (b) when i am with someone who is obviously an aide

my completely off the wall long shot guess is still that i have fabry disease. like that is what i’d put a few dollars on if i were watching myself on the truman show. it’s probably not that but wouldn’t it be crazy

central sensitization syndrome doesn’t even make sense as a bullshit placeholder dx tho because i don’t have either hyperalgesia or allodynia*. he was just like “uhh seems like it’s in the CNS, beats me tho”

there’s nothing wrong with my nerves according to basic testing. dr was very nice and seemed genuinely regretful to say so but floated ‘central sensitization’ lmao :(