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i hate when ppl who are obviously wayyy smaller than me call themselves huge like yes you’re allowed to be insecure but saying that around someone who’s obviously bigger than you.. SHUT THE ACTUAL FUCK UP YOU MAKE ME SO ANGRY

me when i made myself throw up for the first time since 5th grade the other day :p

when my gf isn’t at school today and my clothes feel uncomfortable and the people who i don’t want to talk to are trying to start conversation and i want yo go home and to crawl out of my skin

i’m so hungry but i can’t eat

i’ve been doing so good with restrictive eating the past few days but i get home and realize my grandma restocked on groceries. i’m going to end up binging i hate this

recently things have been so much harder with my self image. i keep looking at picture of me from december and i miss how i looked then. i had just gotten out of a not so good relationship so i was failing to to eat a healthy amount and i obsessed over my appearance to try and make my ex “miss me”. now while being in a healthy relationship i feel safe enough to eat again but my self image is plummeting. i know it’s bad but i want that me back. current me disgusts me.

why can’t i throw up

i feel sick when i don’t eat but even more sick when i do

i <3 my gf

the thought and idea of throwing up after every meal is starting to grow more

how were you just in my arms a week ago but now we can barely even speak a word to each other.

school ID picture is going to fr be the reason for my relapse😵‍💫