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Having two weeks without being able to fuck her girlfriend has never been ideal for Paige, but when she hears Azziâs reasonâor rather, sees itâtwo weeks doesnât feel like torture anymore.
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A/N: hereâs chapter ten! i decided to add the part abt paigeâs birthday gift last minute, so if it seems a bit random and detached from the rest of the chapter, thatâs why. hope u like it!
CHAPTER TEN: The Ask
The first morning after the kiss, Paige woke up smiling.
It took her a second to remember why. Her body was still heavy with sleep, and Adeline was still snoring softly down the hall, but then it hit her all at once, like warmth spreading through her chest.
Azziâs apartment. The couch. The quiet, deliberate kiss that had changed the air between them forever.
Her phone buzzed on the nightstand, like it had been summoned by the thought alone.
Azzi âď¸đ: Morning, night owl. Were you able to stay awake long enough to shower before bed?
Paige laughed quietly to herself, before rolling onto her back and staring at the ceiling. She typed back with one eye still closed.
Paige B.: Barely. You should be arrested for how cozy your couch is.
Those three dots appeared almost immediately.
Azzi âď¸đ: Says the woman who claims she âfunctions best after midnight.â
Paige grinned at that, her thumbs hovering over the keyboard.
Paige B.: I do. Youâre the one who goes to bed like a Victorian child with a candle.
Azzi, who was sitting at her kitchen table with a mug of coffee and both dogs pressed against her legs, actually snorted at that.
She reread Paigeâs name at the top of the thread. It was still Paige B., still safe enough, and felt that same flutter sheâd been waking up with for weeks. It wasnât nerves. It wasnât guilt.
It was anticipation.
She typed back while smiling into her coffee.
Azzi âď¸đ: Iâll have you know I am a responsible adult with a job that requires energy.
Then, after a beatâ after considering it and deciding she was feeling boldâŚ
Azzi âď¸đ: Also, just wondering, what are you wearing right now?
She set her phone down immediately after sending it, her heart thudding, like she might get caught by her own dogs.
Across town, Paigeâs eyebrows shot up.
She bit her lip, glancing down at herself. She was wearing an oversized T-shirt, sleep shorts, and her hair was wild.
Paige B.: Wow. Bold for someone who usually falls asleep before 10.
She let that sit for a moment. Then:
Paige B.: A sleep shirt with stains on it and old basketball shorts from college. Donât get any ideas.
Azzi laughed again and rubbed a hand over her face.
Azzi âď¸đ: Too late.
And there it was, something suggestive again. Not innocent anymore. Not accidental. They both felt it.
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By Saturday afternoon, the rhythm had settled into something easy.
Short check-ins throughout the morning, between cereal spills and dog walks and couch naps.
In the afternoon, Paige took Adeline to the park. She pushed her on the swings, laughed at her attempts to climb the monkey bars, and still found herself checking her phone every few minutes, like a reflex.
Azzi was at the store with a basket balanced on her hip, her phone lighting up again and again as Paige sent updates she hadnât even really asked for. She wasnât complaining.
Paige B.: Addy says swings are âboring now.â Weâve entered a new phase.
Azzi âď¸đ: Wow. Kindergarten really changes a kid.
Paige B.: Sheâs too mature for me already.
Azzi smiled at her screen, picturing it too easily.
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That night, Paige sat cross-legged on her bed after Adeline was asleep, her hair damp from her shower, her hoodie pulled over her hands.
Azzi âď¸đ: Iâm trying to stay up later like a cool person and itâs not going well.
Paige B.: I give you ten minutes.
Azzi âď¸đ: Rude.
A pause, then:
Azzi âď¸đ: What are you thinking about?
Paige stared at the screen, her pulse ticking up. It wasnât fast, not even frantic, just aware.
Paige B.: Thinking about how you kissed me and then made me leave.
There it was. Gentle and honest, while still being careful.
Azzi swallowed, her eyes fixed on the message longer than necessary.
Azzi âď¸đ: I didnât make you leave.
Paige B.: You absolutely did.
Azzi âď¸đ: For your safety. Didnât want you to crash the car from exhaustion.
Paige smiled, warmth spreading low and steady throughout her body. Then, before she could reply, another message came through.
Azzi âď¸đ: Youâre kind of mean, you know that?
Paige laughed softly into the quiet of her bedroom. She knew Azzi was just kidding.
Paige B.: Says the woman who flirts with me and then disappears once the sun goes down.
Azzi âď¸đ: God forbid a girl be sleepy :(
Azzi âď¸đ: Youâre lucky youâre cute.
Paigeâs chest tightened with something fluttery and full.
This wasnât casual. It hadnât been for a while.
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By Sunday night, they were both aware of it.
The way the silence between texts didnât feel awkward anymore. The way neither of them pretended this was about convenience or boredom. The way the kiss lingered in every exchange, unspoken but present.
Paige B.: I like this. Us talking like this.
Azziâs reply came a moment later.
Azzi âď¸đ: Me too. A lot.
Paige set her phone down after that, her heart steady and grounded.
This wasnât reckless. It was intentional.
And they both knew it.
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Monday morning, the feeling still hadnât worn off.
If anything, it had settled deeper. It was less frantic now, and more constant. Paige felt it in the way she hummed while packing Adelineâs lunchbox, in the way she checked her reflection twice before leaving the house, in the way her chest warmed every time her phone lit up with Azziâs name.
Three days wasnât long, but it felt like enough time for something to take root.
Paige had a pep in her step as she got herself and Adeline ready. Things were going so well for herâ despite her emotionally tough week last weekâ and also, today was her birthday.
She didnât have anything planned. She felt she was past that point in her lifeâ having a party or getting gifts. She was blessed as is.
But still, she had high hopes for this next year of her life. It definitely seemed to be heading in a positive direction.
The drop-off line at Riverwood moved slowly, as it always did. Parents inched forward, their kids bounced in the back seat, and teachers stood outside with coffee cups and clipboards.
Paige spotted Azzi immediatelyâ as always.
She had on a light sweater, her hair was down today, and her hands were tucked into the pockets of her slacks as she laughed at something another teacher said. She looked⌠relaxed. Comfortable. Like someone whoâd slept well and woken up smiling.
Paigeâs grip tightened on the steering wheel.
She shouldnât want to kiss her again. Not here. Not now. The thought slipped in anyway, uninvited and persistent.
From the back seat, Adeline spoke up.
âThereâs Ms. Fudd,â she announced, like Paige hadnât already noticed. âShe looks happy.â
âShe does,â Paige agreed softly.
Azzi turned toward their car as it rolled forward, her eyes landing on the windshield and then Paige. Something in her expression shifted instantly. Not dramatic, just a subtle softening, like her shoulders loosened without her realizing it.
She stepped toward the car before any other teacher could.
Adeline squealed as soon as Ms. Fudd had gotten close. âMs. Fudd!â
Azzi laughed as she opened the back door and unbuckled the little girl with practiced ease. âGood morning, superstar.â
Paige watched the interaction like she always didâ fond and gratefulâ but now there was something else layered underneath it. Awareness and want. The knowledge that Azzi would look at her next.
And she did.
âMorning,â Azzi said, her voice professional and her smile warm.
Paige leaned slightly toward the open window, lowering her voice instinctively. âHey.â
For half a second, neither of them moved.
Paige swallowed, then before she could overthink it, she said quietly, âYou look really pretty today.â
Azzi froze.
It was brief, almost imperceptible, but Paige saw it. The pause, the intake of breath, the color blooming across Azziâs cheeks.
âThank you,â Azzi said, softer than she probably meant to. Her eyes flicked quickly down to the sidewalk. Then to the other teachers. To the world beyond this moment.
Then she straightened, that professionalism clicking back into place like a switch.
âAlright,â she said brightly, turning to Adeline, âletâs get you inside. Weâve got art today, remember? Your favorite.â
Adeline nodded enthusiastically, but not before glancing between them, slowly and thoughtfully.
Paige caught it. The way her daughterâs eyes lingered. The way her head tilted, just slightly.
Azzi held Adelineâs hand, then looked back at Paige once more, her voice steady but her eyes still warm. âIâll see you later, okay?â
It wasnât coded. It wasnât hidden. It didnât need to be.
Paige nodded. âYeah. See you.â
Azzi squeezed Adelineâs hand once more and guided her toward the building, resuming her role seamlessly.
Paige stayed put in the drop-off line for a second longer than necessary.
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That same day, that afternoon, while Paige waited for dismissal to begin, she caught herself replaying the kiss in her head for the 50th time since Friday night.
Her trance was interrupted as the kids and teachers spilled out of the doors. Azzi led Adeline over as always, giving Paige a smile and a wink as she opened the back door.
âHappy birthday,â Azzi said as she lifted Adeline up and placed her in her car seat.
Paige turned her body a bit at that, facing Azziâs direction.
âUhâ thanks. How do you know about that?â She asked, her heart fluttering as Azzi buckled Adeline in, making sure she was secure.
âAddy told the entire class today,â she replied, which elicited a giggle from Adeline, who was once againâ analyzing the conversation like a little detective.
Paige gave Adeline a grin. Of course she didâ she thought to herself, then sat back normally in the driverâs seat, her head leaning back against the headrest.
Azzi shut the back door, then stopped by Paigeâs window, leaning close, like her words were a secret.
âShouldâve told me. I wouldâve gotten you something,â she said under her breathâ only loud enough for Paige to hear.
Paige shook her head, but couldnât help but feel curious. What would Azzi have gotten her?
Before she had time to reply, Azzi spoke again.
âThatâs alright. Iâll just have to give you your present another time,â she breathed out, then turned around and walked awayâ like it was nothing. Like that comment wasnât alluding to something that made Paige feel warmth between her thighs.
Paigeâs heart was racing now. Not wildly, not uncontrollablyâ but in that steady and alive way that made everything feel brighter. She watched Azzi walk away, watched her crouch to talk to another student, and watched her laugh again.
From the back seat, Adeline spoke up.
âMommy?â
âYeah, Addy Bug?â
Adelineâs tone was casual. Curious. Not accusatory, but instead observant in the way children often are when they donât yet know what something means, only that itâs different.
âYou talk softer to Ms. Fudd than you do to other grown-ups.â
Paige blinked. Oh. She glanced at the rearview mirror and met her daughterâs blue eyes. Thoughtful, unbothered, and watchingâ all at once.
âOh,â Paige said carefully. âDo I? I didnât notice.â
Adeline shrugged. âMhm. And Ms. Fudd smiles at you a lot.â
Paigeâs chest tightened. Not with fear, but with awareness.
âWell,â she said lightly, pulling the car forward as the line moved, âMaybe Iâm easy to smile at.â
Adeline seemed satisfied with that answer. For now.
As Paige drove away, she took a few deep breaths to calm down her heartâ and now, thanks to her daughter, her spiraling mind.
They werenât hiding how much they liked each other anymore. Not at all, really. They were just⌠containing it, or at least trying to.
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Later that night, Paige and Adeline baked a cake together for Paigeâs birthday.
It was simple, just a boxed vanilla mix with vanilla frosting and a reckless amount of rainbow sprinkles. Adeline insisted on mixing the batter herself, on cracking the eggs (badly), and begged to lick the spoon afterward. Paige let her. Some things were worth the mess.
They stuck a few crooked candles into the finished cake, turned off the kitchen lights, and Adeline sang Happy Birthday at the top of her lungs, clapping wildly when she finished.
âHappy birthday, Mommy,â she said, leaning up to press a sticky kiss to Paigeâs cheek.
Paige closed her eyes for a second, letting the moment settle into her chest. These were the momentsâ the quiet, ordinary onesâ that made everything else feel survivable.
âThanks, sweetheart,â she said, wrapping an arm around Adelineâs shoulders and giving her a gentle squeeze.
After bath time and bedtime stories, Paige had the house to herself. She showered, tugged on boxers and a soft and worn T-shirt, and turned off the lights before climbing into bed.
She checked her phone out of habit more than expectation.
Azzi hadnât texted much that evening. Paige wasnât upset. She knew Azziâs nights were often swallowed by lesson plans and grading, but she still missed her. Which was ridiculous, considering theyâd seen each other just hours earlier at pickup. Sue her.
She sighed, reaching over to plug her phone up and place it on the bedside table, when suddenly, her phone vibrated.
Paige turned her phone back towards herself, a smile forming on her lips when she read the name on the screen.
Miracles never cease.
Azzi âď¸đ: Sorry I havenât been texting
Azzi âď¸đ: Been lesson planning all evening
Paige smiled at her screen, waiting to reply, because those three dots were still there, showing that Azzi was typing something else.
Azzi âď¸đ: How was your birthday?
Paige turned on her side to reply, her thumbs tapping across the keyboard.
Paige B.: No problem. I assumed you were busy with teacher duties đ¤
Paige B.: And it was good. Addy and I baked a cake. Iâve become a lot more content with simple celebrations.
She patiently waited for a reply from Azzi, the seconds feeling like hours. It was honestly unhealthy how desperate she was for attention from this woman.
Azzi âď¸đ: Ah, I see. Well, thatâs unfortunate.
Paigeâs eyebrows furrowed in confusion. Unfortunate? What did Azzi mean by that?
Just before she could reply, another text came through.
Azzi âď¸đ: I was gonna send you smth as a little birthday giftđ
Paige sat up so fast she nearly pulled a muscle.
Her mind short-circuited. Was going to? What kind of gift? Why the past tense? Was she flirting again, or was Paige just projecting because she was embarrassinglyâ okay, extremelyâ attracted to this woman?
Paige B.: Ah come onđŤ
Paige B.: You gotta show me now. My curiosity will drive me crazy
Across town, Azzi was relaxing in the bathtub, her eyes scanning her phone screen as Paigeâs replies came through. She had her bottom lip pulled between her teeth, and her mind was thinking up some very not-appropriate-totally-risky-definitely-not-professional ideas.
Ever since the kiss, everything felt heightened. The texts. The looks. The quiet ache that had taken up residence under her ribs.
She wanted Paige. In more ways than one.
Sheâd known exactly what she was doing earlier at pickup when sheâd mentioned a birthday gift. She couldnât leave Paige hanging nowâ not when the tension between them was already wound so tight.
Before she could talk herself out of it, Azzi opened her camera and lifted her arm, snapping a few photos. Some caught her face. Some didnât. Some were modestly obscured by bubbles; others⌠less so.
Her pulse raced as she scrolled through them, finally selecting one.
This was a jump. A big one. Theyâd kissed, flirted, danced around the edges of desire, but this was undeniable. Vulnerable. Risky.
Azzi stared at the screen for a few seconds longer, then attached the photo to the thread. She double-checked the contactâ Paige B., thank Godâ and hit send.
No caption.
She locked her phone and set it face down on the edge of the tub, exhaling sharply.
âFuck,â she muttered to herself.
Back at Paigeâs, the woman was still sitting up in her bed, back against the headboard. It had been a good few minutes since Azzi texted her.
Maybe she fell asleep, Paige thought to herself, but then, all of a sudden, a photo came through.
Paige almost fell off the edge of the bed.
It was Azzi, reclined in the bathtub, hair wet and dark against her skin, bubbles clinging to her in a way that felt both teasing and generous. Her face was fully in frame, lips parted slightly, eyes heavy-lidded and unmistakably aware of the effect she was having.
Paigeâs breath hitched.
She zoomed in without thinking, starting at Azziâs face and working her way down slowly and deliberately. Her heart pounded. Her skin felt too warm, like she couldnât get comfortable no matter how much she shifted.
Paige swallowed thickly as she made it down Azziâs neck, across her collarbone and shoulders. She knew what was next.
Her tongue darted out to wet her lips as she looked at Azziâs breasts. There was no doubt about it now: Azzi Fudd was the most beautiful woman she had ever seen. It felt unfair. Cosmically cruel.
Her breath came out in slow exhales, because she was trying to keep herself from hyperventilating and passing out.
She stared at Azziâs chest for far too long. Then, she took her time to look at Azziâs stomach, too. Paige then realized that Azzi was pure muscle. This woman deserved to be worshipped.
Eventually, Paige remembered she was supposed to respond.
Paige B.: Iâm sorry, this number cannot be reached. The owner of this phone HAS DIED
Paige B.: Are you insane? No warning or anything? Oh my God
Paige B.: Azzi. AZZI FUDD. You are gorgeous
Paige B.: Best birthday gift Iâve ever received.
Paigeâs thumbs were moving across the keyboard with no end in sight. She had so much she wanted to sayâ so much she wanted to do. Jesus Christ.
Azzi âď¸đ: Oh wow okay
Azzi âď¸đ: You are gayer than I thought Paige Bueckers
Azzi âď¸đ: And thank you âşď¸
Paige let out a breathy chuckle at Azziâs reply, tonguing at her cheek. She wasnât even going to argue with that.
Paige B.: If me appreciating how sexy you are makes me gay then guilty as charged. Number one dyke right here!
Paige B.: #iloveboobies
Paige B.: But seriously⌠youâre so beautiful. My eyes have been blessed. TYJ đđź
Azzi chuckled in the tub, warmth spreading through her chest as the messages came in. She wasnât scared of Paigeâs reactionâ sheâd known this would landâ but she was acutely aware of how real this was becoming.
Vulnerability always was.
Azzi âď¸đ: Hehe, I just hadddd to get you something đ
Azzi âď¸đ: And thereâs more where that came fromâŚ
Paige stared at the screen, wide awake now, pulse humming.
They texted for another hourâ no more pictures, just words, teasing and laughter and the slow deepening of something that already felt important. Paige fell asleep smiling, her phone warm in her hand.
She really, really liked this woman.
And somewhere across town, Azzi drifted off with the same thought echoing softly in her mind.
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A few weeks went by.
Things were going wellâ really well. Too well, almost, in a way that made Azzi occasionally pause and take stock.
They still hadnât labeled anything. Neither of them felt rushed to. Whatever this was, it was unfolding at its own pace.
The texts had deepened, though. They were openly flirtatious, occasionally dipping into something undeniably sexual. Just pictures, nothing in-person yet, but it was obvious where it was heading. Eventually. When there was time. When lifeâ kids, teaching, rec games, mid-year benchmarksâ stopped pulling them in a dozen different directions.
Until then, they took what they could get.
Quick check-ins. Winks at drop-off and pickup. The occasional late-night phone call when texting felt insufficient.
Paige liked hearing Azziâs voice in her ear. Azzi liked knowing that.
It wasnât until the first week of November that something happened.
It was a Wednesday morning. Math time.
Azzi had her students working quietly on a worksheet. Simple ten frames, count the objects, write the number underneath. The kind of assignment that allowed her to circulate, crouching beside desks, offering praise and gentle corrections.
Sheâd just finished helping a little boy fix his backwards three when she felt a small tap against her arm.
Azzi turned, smiling automatically.
âYes, Miss Adeline?â she said warmly. âDo you need some help?â
She crouched beside her, already reaching for the paper, but Adeline didnât hand it over.
Instead, she tilted her head slightly, her eyes bright and curious in that way kids had when they thought they were asking something very important.
âMs. Fudd,â she said, voice clear as day, âdo you have a crush on my mommy?â
Azzi froze.
Not outwardlyâ she was too practiced for thatâ but something inside her stuttered hard. The classroom noise dimmed, and it was replaced by the rush of her own heartbeat.
There were nineteen other five-year-olds in the room.
She didnât know what to say. Not really. Not to that.
She and Paige had talked briefly about how perceptive Adeline was. Azzi knew this moment would probably come someday. She just hadnât expected it to happen between ten frames and number lines.
She reached for the safest place she could land.
âWell,â Azzi said carefully, keeping her voice light, steady, professional, âyour mommy is very special, Addy.â
She rested a reassuring hand on Adelineâs back.
Adeline beamed at that, clearly pleased with the answer, and to Ms. Fuddâs relief, didnât press any further.
âOkay,â Azzi continued gently. âLetâs head back to your seat, yeah? I want to check your worksheet. I bet you nailed it.â
She walked Adeline back to her chair, waited until the girl was focused again, then returned to her desk to take a moment. Only then did Azzi inhale deeply.
She sat still for a moment, her hands folded, her gaze unfocused.
She wasnât ashamed. That wasnât it. She was shaken because this was real. Because this wasnât just flirting anymore, or stolen moments, or late-night texts. This involved a child she cared about deeply. A child who trusted her. A child who was her student.
Azzi glanced across the room at Adeline, who was giggling at something Lucy whispered to her, pencil tapping against the desk.
The truth settled heavy and unavoidable in her chest.
This couldnât stay unspoken. Not with a child involved. Not like this.
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Azzi didnât mention the situation to Paige at dismissal.
There hadnât been time to. The pick-up line was too public and too rushed, and Adeline didnât need to be anywhere near that conversation. So Azzi filed it away, even though it sat heavy in her chest for the rest of the afternoon.
She went home, ate dinner without tasting much of it, laid out materials for the next day, triple-checked her lesson plans, and took a shower that was warmer and longer than usualâ like she was trying to rinse the nerves off her skin.
Only once the apartment felt quiet, once it felt reasonably safe to assume Paige had put Adeline in bed, she finally reached for her phone.
Azzi âď¸đ: Is Addy asleep?
The response came quickly.
Paige B.: Yeah, snoozing as we speak. Why?
Azzi stared at the screen for a second longer than necessary. This couldnât be a text conversation.
She hit call instead and placed the phone on speaker, before setting it in her lap and leaned back against her headboard. It rang only twice before Paige answered.
âHey,â Paige said softly. âEverything alright?â
Paigeâs voice was raspy with exhaustion, low and warm in Azziâs ear. Under different circumstances, it wouldâve made her smile. Tonight, it just made her chest tighten.
Azzi cleared her throat, her fingers fidgeting with the edge of her comforter as she searched for the right place to start.
âYeah⌠yes,â she said calmly. âEverythingâs okay. I just⌠I wanted to talk to you about something that happened today.â
Paige hummed quietly on the other end, attentive now. âOkay.â
Azzi took a breath before speaking.
âThis morning, during math time,â she began, choosing her words carefully, âAdeline came up to me. I thought she needed help with her worksheet. She asked me if I had a crush on you.â
There was silence. Not shocked silence, and not angry silence. Just⌠some processing.
âOh,â Paige finally said, exhaling through the phone. âWow.â
âThat doesnât really surprise me,â Paige added after a beat. âSheâs been⌠noticing things. Little comments here and there. Asking why I smile when your name comes up. Stuff like that.â
Azzi closed her eyes briefly before responding.
âI handled it as gently and neutrally as I could,â she said. âI didnât confirm anything. I redirected her. Butââ She hesitated, then pushed on. âIt made something really clear to me.â
âI care about you,â Azzi said plainly. âAnd I care about Adeline. Like, a lot. Sheâs my student, Paige. And I take that very seriously.â
âI know,â Paige said quietly.
âI canât move forward like this,â Azzi continued, not unkindly, but firmly, âwithout knowing sheâs okay. Without knowing she understands, at least in an age-appropriate way, whatâs happening. I wonât risk breaking trust. Not hers, or yours.â
Paige was quiet again, but this time there was something warm in it. Something understanding.
âI get that,â Paige said. âI really do.â
Azzi swallowed, her heart thudding a little harder now.
âI just need to know sheâs okay,â Azzi said, her voice soft but unwavering, âbefore I let myself go any further.â
That was the line sheâd been circling all evening.
Paige let out a slow breath. âHonestly? Iâm glad you said something. I was already thinking I needed to talk to her. I just⌠didnât know how soon.â
Azziâs shoulders relaxed slightly. Paige didnât seem upset, and that made her feel better about this whole thing.
âI donât want to rush you,â Azzi said. âAnd Iâm not going anywhere. If sheâs okay with it, we can pick up where we left off. I just needed to be clear about my boundary.â
âI respect that,â Paige replied. âAnd for what itâs worthâ thank you. For caring about her like that. Iâll talk to her, I promise.â
Azzi smiled faintly to herself. âOf course,â she said. âSheâs important to me. You both are.â
The silence that followed wasnât tense this time. It felt intentional and grounded. They werenât in any way stopping what they had going on, they were just choosing to do this the right way.
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Paige completely understood where Azzi was coming from.
Azzi was professional. She had limits and boundaries, and that was something Paige admired deeply. That phone call had shown Paige a lot about her. About how she was willing to put her desire on pause to make sure Adeline was okay. To make sure no trust was broken. That really mattered, a lot.
So, Paige decided to talk to Adeline the very next night, right before bed.
Adeline had been fed and bathed, and her pajamas were already on. Theyâd just finished a bedtime story. It was one Paige had read so many times she could recite it from memory.
Adeline scooted under her covers like she always did, cutely snuggling into her pillow. Paige, however, didnât get up to turn off the light just yet.
âHey, Addy Bug,â she said softly, sitting on the edge of the bed and gently stroking her fingers through Adelineâs red hair. âIs it okay if I talk to you about something real quick before you go to sleep?â
Adeline nodded immediately, her blue eyes locking onto Paigeâs. âSure, Mommy.â
Paige took a slow breath. This was big, but it didnât have to be heavy. She had to do this right. Not too much, but also not too little. Honest and safe.
âSo,â Paige began gently, âyou know how you sometimes tell me that I get really happy around Ms. Fudd?â
Adeline nodded.
âAnd how youâve said that Ms. Fudd smiles at me a lot at school?â
Another nod.
âWell,â Paige continued, her voice staying warm and steady, âMs. Fudd told me about something you asked her yesterday. About a crush.â
Adeline shifted slightly, but she didnât look embarrassed or guilty. She just looked curious.
âI asked her if she has a crush on you, Mommy,â she said simply.
Paige smiled faintly in response. âI know. And thatâs okay.â
She took a second, her thumb brushing gently across Adelineâs temple as she carefully chose her words.
âWell⌠Mommy likes Ms. Fudd. A lot. And Ms. Fudd likes Mommy, too.â
She paused, watching Adeline carefully, just to make sure she wasnât overwhelmed.
Adelineâs face scrunched in thought almost immediately. âLike⌠like like?â she asked.
Paige nodded. âYeah. Like like.â
That opened the floodgates.
âDo you love Ms. Fudd?â
âIs that why she smiles at you?â
âIs she gonna be my extra mommy?â
âWill you marry her?â
âIs she coming to live with us?â
Paigeâs chest tightened. Not with fear, but with how big those questions were coming from such a small body. She answered the way she thought Azzi wouldâve wanted her to. Gently and clearly, and without making promises she couldnât keep.
âMommy and Ms. Fudd care about each other,â Paige said. âAnd we like spending time together. Sometimes adults like other adults, and thatâs okay. But nothing about our life is changing right now, alright? No oneâs getting married. No oneâs moving in. Itâs still just you and me at home. School stays the same. Bedtime stays the same.â
She squeezed Adelineâs hand.
âI wanted to tell you because youâre important to me. And because we donât keep secrets in our family. That didnât feel right.â
Adeline went quiet. For a full thirty seconds, she didnât say anything. She just stared at her blanket, her fingers fidgeting with the edge of it. Paige resisted every instinct to rush her.
Finally, Adeline looked up. âWell,â she said slowly, âI love Ms. Fudd. And I love you. So, if you like each other⌠I think thatâs okay.â
Paige smiled, brushing a kiss against Adelineâs forehead. She was proud of Addy for being so emotionally open with her.
âIâm really glad you told me how you feel,â she said softly. âAnd just so you know, this doesnât change how much I love you. Nothing ever will.â
Adeline nodded, already relaxing back into her pillow. âOkay.â
As Paige stood and turned off the light, she realized something settled deep in her chest. This didnât threaten her family. Instead, it expanded it.
This was another person who cared about Adeline. Another safe place for her. Another set of hands to love her kid.
And thatâ Paige knewâ could only ever be a good thing.
â
Paige took a shower and let the water run hotter than necessary, like she was trying to rinse the weight of the evening off her shoulders. When she finally climbed into bed, her hair damp and pulled back, she reached for her phone without even thinking about it.
She stared at Azziâs name for a moment before typing.
Paige B.: You awake?
Azzi âď¸đ: Yeah. Wanna talk?
Instead of texting back, Paige hit the call button. It rang once.
âHey,â Azzi answered softly.
Paige shifted onto her side, phone tucked against her ear. âHey. I talked to Addy tonight.â
Azzi inhaled on the other end, sharp enough for Paige to hear it. âYeah?â she asked carefully.
âYeah,â Paige said. âI told her about you and I. About us.â
There was another pause, which was longer this time. âAnd?â Azzi asked.
Paige smiled into her pillow. âShe was confused. Asked about one hundred questions. She thought you might become her extra mom.â
Azzi let out a soft and nervous laugh. âThat tracks.â
âBut,â Paige continued, her voice gentler now, âsheâs okay with it. She said she loves you, and she loves me⌠so she thinks itâs a good thing.â
There was silence on the line, then a slow, relieved exhale. âThank you,â Azzi said quietly. âI didnât realize how tense I was until just now.â
Paige nodded, even though Azzi couldnât see her. âMe too. I didnât love the idea of hiding something from her. Sheâs too perceptive. And⌠sheâs my whole world.â
âI know,â Azzi said. âThatâs why I was so adamant about it. I couldnât move forward if she wasnât okay. It didnât feel right.â
Paige swallowed. âI feel a lot more at peace now. Likeâ whatever this becomes, itâs not a secret. Sheâs not shut out.â
âPaige,â Azzi said softly, âyou handled that so well. Seriously. Youâre a really good mom.â
Paigeâs chest tightened at that. She blinked rapidly, staring up at the ceiling. âThat means a lot, Azzi. Especially coming from you. And for what itâs worth? Youâre a really good teacher.â
Azzi laughed quietly. âHigh praise.â
They sat in the shared silence for a moment, and it felt lighter now.
âIâm really glad you called,â Azzi said.
âMe too,â Paige replied. âIt feels like weâre doing this the right way.â
âYeah,â Azzi agreed. âIt does.â
Paige ended the call a few minutes later, her phone warm in her hand, her heart even warmer.
When she finally set it down and closed her eyes, she realized something had shifted. So many shifts lately.
This wasnât rushed, and it wasnât forced. It was just aligned.
â
Theyâd planned it on Friday evening.
Not formally and not with any big declaration. It was just a phone call that stretched longer than either of them meant it to. Paige had been half-curled on her couch while Azzi paced her apartment, the dogs circling her ankles. Adeline had chimed in tooâ popped her head into the conversation long enough to ask if Ms. Fudd liked board games and if she could bring some books from class.
By the end of the call, it was settled. Saturday night, after dinner, nothing fancy, just a cozy night and some time together.
Azzi stood outside Paigeâs door at exactly six forty-five, her hands shoved into the pockets of her jacket like she needed somewhere to put the nerves. Sheâd changed outfits twice before leaving. She abandoned the idea of looking nice and landed on something comfortable insteadâ soft joggers, a long-sleeve shirt, and sneakers she could slip off easily.
This somehow felt heavier than a date.
She knocked once and the door opened almost immediately.
Paige stood there in worn sweatpants and a hoodie, hair pulled back loosely, her face natural in a way that made Azziâs chest tighten. This was Paige at home, like, completely unguarded.
âHey,â Paige said, smiling like sheâd been waiting all day.
âHey,â Azzi replied, her voice softer than she meant for it to be.
Before anything else could happen, a small blur appeared at Paigeâs side.
âMs. Fudd!â Adeline squealed, already bouncing on her toes.
Azzi laughed, the sound easing something in her chest. âHi, Addy.â
Adeline took her hand without hesitation and tugged her inside like this was already routine. Azzi let herself be pulled and kicked her shoes off at the door. Her nerves melted into something gentler as she stepped into Paige and Adelineâs space.
The house felt lived-in and warm. There were toys tucked neatly into corners, a faint vanilla smell in the air, and a half-finished puzzle on the coffee table. It didnât feel staged at all. It felt so real.
Paige locked the door behind them and watched Azzi take it all in. She fits here, Paige thought, surprised by how immediate and steady the feeling was. Not in a way that felt rushed, but instead, just⌠natural.
Adeline was already in pajamas. She was freshly bathed, and her hair was still slightly damp at the ends.
They started with some reading, because Adeline insisted.
Paige went and got a book from Adelineâs room. It was something familiar and well-loved, her voice warm and easy as Adeline followed along from memory more than anything else. Azzi watched from the other end of the couch, smiling softly, already sensing where this was going.
âOkay,â Azzi said when Paige closed the cover, âmy turn. But Addy, youâre helping me with this one. Youâve read it before. Itâs from school.â
Adeline perked up immediately. This book was a level up from the first, but it was still colorful and inviting, just with more words. Sight words sprinkled through the pages, and it contained short sentences that required attention.
Adeline leaned into Azziâs side, the book balanced between them. Azzi didnât rush her one bit. She ran a finger under the first line, slow and steady.
âTake your time,â Azzi murmured. âYouâve got it. Just like we do in class.â
Adeline sounded out the first few words confidently, then stumbled on a longer one. She paused, brow furrowing.
âThe m-mouse loves to⌠to eat⌠to eatâŚâ
Paigeâs instinct was to jump in. She almost did. But she caught Azziâs eye, and Azzi gave the smallest shake of her head, patient and encouraging.
âLook at the beginning,â Azzi prompted gently. âRemember, we talked about these. Thatâs a digraph. What sound does c and h when they are beside each other?â
Adeline tried again, slower this time. She worked through it, letter by letter, until the word finally clicked.
Her face lit up. âOh! Cheese!â
âYes!â Azzi said, genuinely delighted. âYou did that all by yourself.â
Paige felt something bloom in her chest.
They kept going. Adeline struggled here and thereâ hesitated, corrected herself, asked for helpâ but she stayed focused. Every time she faltered, Azzi met her exactly where she was, never pushing, but never rescuing, either.
When they finished the book, Azzi glanced up at Paige, her eyes bright.
âSheâs been working really hard on this,â she said quietly. âShe doesnât give up anymore. Even when itâs tricky.â
Paige nodded, reaching over to gently rub her daughterâs back in encouragement. Adeline had become such a strong reader in kindergarten so far, and that was a big thanks to Ms. Fudd.
Adeline beamed, clearly soaking in the praise, then insisted they read one more book.
After books came a board game. Something simple, brightly colored, with rules Adeline mostly made up as she went. Azzi followed them without question, laughing when she lost, and cheering dramatically when Adeline won.
Paige watched it all with a strange, steady calm settling in her chest. This wasnât performative. Azzi wasnât trying to impress anyone. She wasnât overthinking her presence or holding herself at a distance. She was just⌠here.
They decided to wind down after that by watching a movie. It was something short and familiar, one Adeline had watched a dozen times. They all ended up on the couch, Adeline in the middle, Paigeâs arm draped behind her, and Azziâs shoulder pressed lightly against Paigeâs.
Azzi was aware of everything. The weight of Adeline leaning into her side, the quiet closeness of Paige beside her, the way this felt domestic in a way she hadnât fully prepared for.
It scared her a little, but it thrilled her more.
By the time the movie ended, Adelineâs head was drooping.
Paige looked at Azzi, whispering a âIâll be right back,â before standing up and scooping an almost-asleep Adeline into her arms.
Azzi waited on the couch, her hands folded loosely in her lap, listening to the muffled sounds of bedtime. Water running, a quiet voice, and a door closing gently.
When Paige came back after a little bit of time, she sat down next to Azzi on the couch again, but closer this time.
âShe told me she wants you to come over again next weekend,â Paige said, chuckling softly. âWe may have created a monster.â
Azziâs eyes fluttered shut momentarily, then she shook her head. âNo monster is that cute.â
They talked for a bit about how well things had gone, how Adeline seemed to enjoy it, and how things felt right. Neither of them felt like they were balancing on the edge of something fragile anymore.
â
They cuddled for 30 minutes or so, softly talking to each other. They had a different movie on now, but they werenât really paying attention to it. Both of them were more focused on each other.
Paigeâs fingers traced idle patterns along Azziâs forearm, while Azziâs thumb brushed slow circles against Paigeâs hip. It was easy and comfortable. Neither person was rushing, but both were aware of exactly how close they were.
Their eyes kept meeting, and eventually, Azzi tilted her head slightly. Her gaze dropped, not all the way, just enough for Paige to notice. Paigeâs breath hitched before she could stop it.
âHey,â Paige murmured, her voice barely louder than a thought.
That was all it took.
They leaned in at the same time, the kiss soft at first. It was familiar already, like the last kiss theyâd been circling for weeks. It deepened slowly, the kind of kiss that wasnât about urgencyâ but intention.
Paige had her hands on the sides of Azziâs neck, her thumbs brushing against the warm skin just below her ears. Azziâs hands were on Paigeâs sides, gripping tighter when Paige sighed against her mouth.
Paige felt lightheaded in the best way. She kissed like someone who had missed this. Like someone who had waited.
After about five minutes of soft exhales and slight moans and lip nibbles, Azzi pulled back.
Paigeâs eyes opened, her cheeks flushed, her lips wet with spit. She let herself look at Azziâ really look at her, and she wanted to kiss her again. Right now.
Azzi was beautiful. Her cheeks were flushed too, her eyes were dilated, and her lips were swollen from the kiss.
âIs everything okay?â Paige asked, her voice slightly raspy.
Azzi nodded, reaching out to grab one of Paigeâs hands. She gently played with her fingers, her voice just as strained when she responded.
âYes, more than okay,â she whispered, clearing her throat before speaking again. âI just donât⌠I donât wanna overwhelm Adeline.â
Paige opened her mouthâ half a protest already formingâ but Azzi kept going, her thumb brushing over Paigeâs knuckles.
âI donât want to rush something that matters. Not that I didnât enjoy making out with youâ because I very much did,â she clarified, which made a smile form on both of their faces, âI just⌠we both know where that was going. Tonightâs not the night.â
Paige one hundred percent agreed. Even if her body was screaming at her to take this woman to her bedroom right now, Adeline was still present. They didnât have to speed through this. Stopping wasnât rejection, it was care.
âYouâre right,â Paige replied, her free hand reaching over to gently cup Azziâs cheek. She didnât say anything for a second, but then spoke up again.
âDidnât know you were such a make-out pro,â Paige teasedâ to which Azzi rolled her eyes.
âYou flatter me, Bueckers,â Azzi said softly as she leaned in, nuzzling her face into Paigeâs shoulder, arms wrapping around her againâ for comfort this time.
â
Azzi didnât linger when it was time to go.
Not because she wanted to leave, but because this mattered enough to leave well.
Paige walked her to the door, standing close in that quiet and domestic space where the night had settled into something calm. Paige squeezed Azziâs hand once, a silent thank you, and Azzi squeezed back, the message returned in full.
âDrive safe,â Paige murmured as she pressed a light peck to Azziâs cheek.
âI will,â Azzi said, smiling. âIâll text you once Iâm settled.â
Paige nodded, watching as Azzi stepped out into the cool night air. The porch light caught her just long enough before the front door closed.
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In the car, Azzi let herself breathe.
Her hands rested easy on the steering wheel as she pulled away, her chest still warm. Not from adrenaline, not from desire alone, but from something steadier.
The night had gone better than sheâd allowed herself to hope.
Adeline had been comfortable. Happy, even. Paige had been thoughtful, open, and grounded in a way that only made Azzi admire her more. There had been laughter, ease, and intention threaded through every moment.
No hiding, no rushing. Just⌠right.
Azzi realized she wasnât replaying the kiss in her head the way she usually would.
She was replaying the way Paige looked when Adeline leaned against her on the couch. The way Paige listened. The way Paige chose care without resentment.
That mattered more.
â
By the time Azzi got home, showered, and changed into pajamas, the night had settled into quiet.
Her screen lit up first.
Paige B.: Home safe?
Azzi smiled before typing back.
Azzi âď¸đ: Yeah. Showered and still smiling :)
Azzi âď¸đ: Thank you for inviting me over.
Paige B.: Thank you for coming. And⌠thank you for caring so much.
Azzi stared at that message for a second longer than necessary.
Azzi âď¸đ: I care about you.
Azzi âď¸đ: And Addy.
Three dots appeared. Then disappeared. Thenâ
Paige B.: I know. Thatâs why this feels good. Not scary.
Azzi leaned back against her pillows, her phone now resting over her heart.
The desire was still there. It was quiet and patient, yet very much alive. Something stronger laid beneath it.
Trust that was deepened, care that was proven, and a relationship that was no longer hovering in possibility.
Azzi fell asleep knowing this wasnât something that needed to be rushed.
A/N: i did not plan for this to be over 4k words⌠oops. i honestly think the remaining chapters will all be longer than i intend for them to be. sry if there are typos, i proofread this so fast bc Iâm abt to have to leave for work. anyways, i think u all are gonna like this one :)
CHAPTER NINE: Anniversaries
Paige had never been so excited to wake up at 6:30 in the morning.
She noticed it immediatelyâ the absence of dread, the way her body moved without resistance as she swung her legs over the side of the bed. Even the pale, early light spilling through the curtains felt gentler than usual.
Adeline was excited too, springing out of bed faster than Paige had ever seen her move on a school morning.
âIs it a school day?â she asked, already halfway to the bathroom, hair sticking up in every direction.
Paige laughed softly. âIt is.â
Adeline grinned. âGood.â
That alone felt like a small miracle.
Paige moved through their usual routine on autopilotâ helping Adeline get dressed, pouring her cereal, packing her lunchbox and backpack at the kitchen counter. She slid the drawing from fall break carefully into Adelineâs folder, smoothing the paper once, like it mattered. Like it carried weight.
Adeline sat at the table, mumbling something through a mouthful of Froot Loops about being happy to see Ms. Fudd after the quote-unquote five hundred year long break.
Paige smiled to herself as she zipped the backpack closed.
While she was slinging it over her shoulder, her phone buzzed against the marble countertop.
Her heart jumped before she even looked.
Azzi âď¸đ: Make sure Iâm the one who gets Adeline out of the car this morning :)
Azzi âď¸đ: Donât let any of the other teachers do it
Paige let out a quiet laugh, shaking her head. Of course she would say that.
Sheâs excited to see us, Paige realized, warmth blooming in her chest. The thought settled there easily.
Yeah, theyâd been texting nonstop all throughout fall break. Paige had learned so much more about Azzi in that short span of time. She had learned about her family, her college experience, why she chose kindergarten over any other grade. About her dogs. Her favorite comfort movies. The way she needed quiet after long weeks.
Paige had shared more too, which still surprised her. Sheâd told Azzi about Adeline starting out as a foster placement. About coaching at the rec center. About how her life didnât look the way sheâd once imagined it would, and how she was trying to be okay with that now.
Well, she had told her a little bit about that.
She hadnât told her everything. Not about the extent of her injury, not beyond the surface-level truth Azzi already knew. Not yet. She didnât want to trauma dump. She wanted this to stay light. Wanted to deserve how good it felt.
They listened to the Tangled soundtrack the entire drive to Riverwood. Paige didnât even mind it today. Adeline danced in her car seat, kicking her legs and singing loudly and off-key.
Paige realized that she was smiling.
She was third in line at drop-off, which was unusual. She mightâve driven a little faster than necessary. Oops.
When the teachers came out of the building, Paigeâs pulse picked up instantly.
Azzi was wearing a light purple sweater and white cargo pants, hair styled into neat French braids. She looked relaxed. Comfortable. Like she wasnât hiding behind classroom armor today.
Paigeâs breath caught.
Azzi found Paigeâs car immediately.
She hadnât meant to scan the line so obviously, but there it was. That familiar grey car. That familiar feeling in her chest.
Another teacher started toward Paigeâs window. Before Paige could even process it, Azzi was already moving.
âIâve got this one,â she said quickly, flashing a smile at the other teacher as she veered off course.
Paige rolled her window down just as Azzi opened Adelineâs door.
âMs. Fudd!â Adeline squealed, legs kicking wildly as Azzi unbuckled her. âI missed you!â
Paige bit her lip, resisting the urge to say me too out loud.
âSheâs been talking about you all morning,â Paige said, twisting in her seat to watch them. âWellâ honestly? All week.â
Azzi laughed, genuine and bright, carefully lifting Adeline down onto the pavement. âYeah?â she asked, eyes soft. âI missed you too, Addy.â
She glanced down at the backpack, then back up at Paige. âYou brought the drawing, right?â
Hope crept into her tone despite herself.
Adeline nodded enthusiastically. âYep! Mommy put it in my folder.â
Azzi helped Adeline slip her arms through the straps, and a sparkle showed up in her brown eyes.
She looked up at Paige thenâ really looked at herâ and smiled so wide her dimples showed.
âAh,â Azzi said lightly, still speaking to Adeline but very much not. âMommyâs always on it, huh?â
She winked. Paige short-circuited.
Heat rushed to her face, her heart slamming so hard she felt it in her throat. She stared back, utterly useless, managing only the ghost of a smile as Azzi shut the car door.
God, sheâs so cute when sheâs flustered, Azzi thought, biting back a grin as she took Adelineâs hand.
âHave a good day, Addy,â Paige called, voice a little too loud. âLove you, baby!â
Adeline waved enthusiastically as she was led toward the building.
Azzi glanced back once, just long enough to murmur, âTalk to you later,â under her breath.
Paige nodded, gripping the steering wheel like it might save her.
When Adeline disappeared inside and Azzi moved on to the next car, Paige pulled away from the curb, her chest buzzing.
She felt warm. Lit up. A little unhinged.
If this was how drop-off was going to feel nowâ if this was what liking someone out loud did to herâ Paige wasnât sure sheâd survive the rest of the school year.
But God, she wanted to try.
â
The week moved forward.
Texting between them continued, but it wasnât the same as it had been during fall break. Messages came slower now, and the replies were spaced out by hours instead of minutes. Azzi couldnât really text during the school day, and Paige understood that. Truly, she did.
Still, she felt the absence.
They were relegated mostly to evenings, small windows of time carved out between dinner and bedtime routines. And Azzi usually went to sleep earlyâ which, again, Paige couldnât fault her for. Anyone responsible for twenty five-year-olds all day deserved the rest.
Even so, Paige missed the constant thread of conversation theyâd had during fall break. Missed the way her phone had felt alive in her hands.
They still talked. It just required more patience now.
Evening check-ins became a kind of ritual. Azzi would text once she was home, usually with some commentary on the chaos of kindergarten life.
Paige B.: How was your day?
Azzi âď¸đ: Oh, it was amazing. Splendid, even.
Azzi âď¸đ: Just kidding. One of my students projectile vomited all over the canvas at the art center đ¤˘
Paige snorted, shaking her head as she typed back.
Paige B.: Addy told me. With lots of detail.
Paige B.: She said it was lime green đ
Azzi âď¸đ: Oh my God. You cannot make this shit up đ¤Ł
Those moments grounded her. Gave her something to look forward to at the end of the day. Paige found herself timing things. Waiting until Adeline was asleep, until the house was quiet, until she could give Azzi her full attention.
And on the other endâŚ
Azzi felt it too.
The shift. The restraint. The way she had to consciously put her phone down during the day, even when she wanted to reach for it.
Sheâd catch herself mid-lesson, thinking about something Paige had said the night before. Wondering what she was doing. Whether she was smiling at her phone the way Azzi was.
But there were boundaries. Always boundaries. She reminded herself of that often.
Paige was grateful for the conversations they did have. Grateful for every shared laugh, every emoji, every lingering goodnight. She told herself that wanting more didnât mean she was owed it.
By Friday afternoon, with Adeline at school and the house quiet, Paige stood in front of the calendar hanging on the fridge, scanning the week ahead.
Her eyes moved absently at first. Nothing on Monday the 13th, rec team game on Tuesday the 14thâ
And then she stopped.
Wednesday. The 15th.
October 15th.
The date seemed to darken on the page, like it carried weight the others didnât.
Five years ago, on October 15th, Paige had been told she would never play professional basketball again. Ever.
She stared at it longer than she meant to, her chest tightening until it felt difficult to breathe.
How did it sneak up on me like this? she wondered.
Usually, the dread started earlierâ late September, sometimes even before that. But this year, it had been quieter. Muted. Getting to know Azzi had distracted her in a way she hadnât anticipated.
Paige pressed her palm against the fridge door, grounding herself.
She wasnât sure if this anniversary would ever get easier. Her birthday was coming up too, on the 20th, but that didnât bring much comfort anymore. It felt like another reminder of time passing without the life sheâd imagined.
The nights leading up to it were rough.
Sleep came in fragments. Paige tossed and turned, mind cycling through old memories sheâd tried to bury. The sound of sneakers squeaking on hardwood. The smell of a gym. The certainty sheâd once had.
She woke up tired. Irritable. Hollow.
The weekend passed in a blur of pretending. She took Adeline to the park. They baked muffins. She smiled when she was supposed to. Laughed when it was expected.
She didnât let Adeline notice.
She didnât let Azzi notice either, at least not fully. She kept her texts light. Normal. Answered questions without elaboration.
Azzi noticed anyway.
She noticed the slight delay in Paigeâs responses. The way her jokes didnât land quite as hard. The way Paige stopped initiating conversation as often.
Somethingâs off, Azzi thought more than once, phone warm in her hand as she debated asking outright.
But she didnât. Not yet.
â
Monday came and went.
Tuesday evening found Paige at the rec center gym, the familiar hum of voices and sneakers echoing off the walls.
Adeline sat on the bench near midcourt, legs swinging back and forth as she clutched a plastic crate filled with water bottles and a neatly folded stack of towels. She took her job very seriouslyâ jumping up every time a player ran toward the bench, offering water like it was a sacred duty.
âWater break!â she announced at one point, entirely unprompted.
One of the kids grinned and high-fived her on the way past. Paige felt a flicker of warmth in her chest at the sight. Adeline loved being here. Loved being part of something.
Paige paced the sideline, clipboard tucked under her arm. She clapped when the team made good plays, called out encouragement, corrected positioning when needed. From the outside, she probably looked fine. Focused, engaged, and present.
But inside, it was harder.
Watching the game always did this to her. The rhythm of it. The speed. The instinctive way her body wanted to move with the play, even as she stayed rooted to the floor.
They won, by a comfortable margin, actually. Parents clapped from the bleachers, and the kids cheered, pulling each other into clumsy group hugs. Adeline ran out onto the court the second the final buzzer sounded, towel in hand.
âYou won!â she yelled, beaming up at Paige. âThey won again!â
Paige crouched down and pulled her into a hug, breathing in the familiar scent of strawberry shampoo and gym air. âThey did,â she said softly. âThey played great.â
Adeline nodded seriously, then handed her a water bottle like she was sealing the moment. Paige laughed despite herself and took it.
The drive home was quiet.
Adeline kicked her feet in the backseat, humming to herself at first, then falling silent as the streetlights blurred past the windows. Paige kept both hands on the steering wheel, eyes forward, thoughts heavy.
After a few minutes, a small voice piped up.
âMommy?â
âYeah, Addy?â
There was a pause. âAre you sad?â
Paigeâs grip tightened just slightly.
She glanced at Adeline in the rearview mirror, catching her daughterâs concerned expressionâ brows knit together, eyes thoughtful in that way that always caught Paige off guard.
âIâm okay,â Paige said gently.
Adeline didnât look convinced. âYou donât look okay,â she said, carefully choosing her words. âYou just look⌠quiet.â
Paige swallowed.
âIâm just tired, baby,â she replied after a moment. âThatâs all.â
Adeline considered that, then nodded, apparently satisfied. âOkay,â she said. âYou can be tired. Iâll help you.â
Paige smiled despite the ache in her chest. âThank you,â she said softly.
When they got home, Paige made Adeline some nuggets, gave her a bath, then tucked her into bed, lingering beside her just a little longer than usual as she brushed her hair back and pressed a kiss to her forehead.
âI love you,â she whispered.
âI love you more,â Adeline murmured sleepily.
Paige knew that wasnât true, but she let it stand.
Later, alone in her room, she laid on her back staring at the ceiling, phone resting on her chest. A message from Azzi sat unread in her notifications, and for a moment, Paige just breathed.
Tomorrow was October 15th.
She turned onto her side, finally opening the text.
Azzi âď¸đ: Howâd the game go?
Paige hesitated, fingers hovering over the keyboard.
She could tell her. She wanted to tell her. But the words felt too big for tonight.
Paige B.: We won. Addy was the best water girl there ever was đ
Azzi âď¸đ: I believe that completely. She takes her responsibilities very seriously
Paige smiled faintly at that.
Paige set her phone on the nightstand and turned off the lamp, exhaustion settling deep in her bones. Sleep came slowly.
Tomorrow would come whether she was ready or not.
And she wasnât sure she ever would be.
â
As soon as Paige woke up the next morning, she felt like shit.
It sat heavy in her chest before she even opened her eyes. It was an ache that wasnât physical, but familiar. The kind of dread that didnât need explanation. Her body already knew what day it was.
October 15th.
She lay there for a few extra seconds, staring at the ceiling, listening to the quiet hum of the house. Adeline was still asleep. The world hadnât started moving yet, and for a brief moment, Paige considered staying still with it. Letting the day pass without her participation.
But she couldnât. She never could.
She swung her legs over the side of the bed and stood, joints stiff more from memory than age. As she pulled on clothes, the flashbacks came uninvited.
The physical therapy roomâ too bright, too sterile. The smell of disinfectant and rubber mats. Her knee braced, swollen, aching in a way that had nothing to do with pain and everything to do with fear.
Her rehab team sitting across from her, careful with their words. Too careful.
Youâve been so positive during your recovery, Paige.
Your work ethic has been incredible.
Youâve done everything right.
She remembered how hopeful sheâd been in that moment. How sheâd clung to their praise like it was a lifeline.
But thenâ
Unfortunately, we canât clear you to play again.
She could still hear it. The way the room had gone quiet after. The way her ears rang, like sheâd just taken a hard hit to the head. Her future collapsing in on itself so quickly it almost felt like whiplash.
Her career hadnât even really begun. Not the way sheâd imagined. And suddenly, it was over.
Paige pressed her lips together and pushed the memory away as she went to wake Adeline.
She went through the motions. Smiled when she was supposed to. Brushed her hair, tied her shoes, poured her some cereal. She hugged Adeline more than usualâ longer and tighter. Not because Adeline needed it, but because Paige did.
Adeline didnât mind at all.
Paige was distant, despite her efforts not to be. Her body was there, but her mind lagged behind, caught somewhere between who she used to be and who sheâd become. Thankfully, Adeline didnât seem to notice. The little girl was still half-asleep, her usual sharp perception dulled by morning grogginess.
They talked in the car about lunch and specials.
âWhere do you go today?â Paige asked, glancing at her in the rearview mirror.
âMusic!â Adeline squeaked, already bouncing in her seat.
Paige smiled, genuine this time. Hearing that excitementâ seeing itâ helped, even if only briefly.
Azzi didnât get Adeline out of the car that morning. Another teacher explained she was inside making last-minute copies.
Surprisingly, Paige felt relieved.
She didnât want to face Azzi today. Not when she felt this raw. Not when she knew Azzi would read her like an open book and gently ask questions Paige wasnât ready to answer.
After dropping Adeline off, Paige went home and let the day stretch endlessly in front of her.
She did nothing. And everything.
She watched TV without absorbing any of it. Forced herself to eat half a sandwich. Sat on the couch staring at the wall. Time passed slowly, painfully, like it was taunting her.
Eventually, she gave in and opened her camera roll.
Old photos. Old videos.
Her in a jersey that still felt like a second skin. Sweat-slicked hair pulled back tight. Her body strong, sure, hers. Clips of layups, defensive stops, free throwsâ her ritual shoulder shrug and deep breath before every shot.
God, she missed it.
She was allowed to miss it, right?
She loved her life now. She loved Adelineâ more than anything. That little girl had saved her in ways Paige still didnât have words for. She loved coaching. Loved the relationships sheâd built. And without the injury, she never wouldâve met Azzi.
Good had come from the loss, but that didnât erase it.
By the time she left to pick Adeline up, the grief felt thick, suffocating.
She thought about Azzi the entire drive to Riverwood. She knew she wouldnât dodge her at pickup. And she knew Azzi would see herâ really see her.
When Paige pulled into the dismissal line, she rolled down her window and drummed her fingers against the steering wheel, nerves buzzing under her skin.
Ten minutes later, the kindergarteners spilled outâ laughing, squealing, spotting familiar cars.
Paigeâs heart lifted at the sight of Adelineâs smile. That part never failed.
Azzi looked beautiful, too, effortlessly soâ and the sight of her still caused a flutter in Paigeâs chest, even on a day like this.
Azzi led Adeline toward the car, and immediately, she noticed.
The glossy eyes. The shadows beneath them. The way Paigeâs posture sagged, like she was barely holding herself upright.
Days of short texts. Dry responses. And now this.
Azzi didnât put Adeline into the backseat.
âHi, Paige,â she said softly, using that gentle tone she reserved just for her. âAdeline had a wonderful day.â
Paige nodded, forcing a thumbs-up. âThatâs good. Proud of you, Addy Bug.â
Azzi stilled.
She looked down at Adeline, then back at Paige, her decision already forming.
Azzi felt it settle in her chest all at once.
This wasnât exhaustion. This wasnât a bad day or a passing mood. She had spent years learning how to read people, how to spot when a child was overwhelmed, when a parent was holding it together by a thread. Paige had been quieter all week. Distant in her texts. Careful with her words. And now, standing in front of her, she looked like someone carrying something heavy and old.
Azzi had grown fond of Paige without meaning to. The way she loved her daughter so fiercely. The way she triedâ always tried. Somewhere along the line, that fondness had shifted into care. Real care. The kind that didnât sit right with walking away.
She knew she should keep things simple. Professional. Safe.
But she also knew she couldnât leave Paige alone with whatever this was.
âActually,â she said quietly, stepping back from the car with Adeline still in hand, âpark and come to my room.â
Paige froze.
She finally met Azziâs eyes, really looked at her. âPardon?â she asked, her voice strained.
âPark and come inside,â Azzi repeated, gesturing toward the lot. âCâmon, sweetheart,â she said to Adeline, squeezing her shoulder. âMommyâs going to come get you.â
Paige watched them walk back toward the building, Azzi murmuring something to another teacher as they disappeared inside.
She exhaled shakily.
Sheâd known this would happen.
Because Azzi noticed.
Because Azzi cared.
And because once Paige stepped into that classroomâ
She wasnât sure sheâd be able to hold herself together anymore.
â
Azzi led Adeline back inside the building, her hand warm around the little girlâs as the dismissal noise faded behind them.
She considered keeping Adeline with her, letting her sit quietly in the corner with a book or a toy, but something told her Paige wouldnât want that. Whatever was going on with her felt too heavy, too personal, to unpack in front of a five-year-old. Azzi trusted that instinct.
She took Adeline across the hall instead, to Mrs. Wilsonâs classroom. It was familiar territory, another kindergarten room, warm and colorful, with bins of crayons already set out and a cartoon paused on the SmartBoard.
âHey, sweetheart,â Azzi said, crouching slightly so she was eye level with her. âMrs. Wilson is going to let you color and watch Super Why for a little bit, okay?â
Adeline nodded easily, already reaching for the crayons. âOkay.â
âAfter I talk to your mom, Iâll come get you,â Azzi added, smoothing a hand down Adelineâs back. âYouâll just stay here until then.â
âOkay,â Adeline repeated, completely unbothered now, her attention fixed on the paper in front of her.
Azzi straightened and mouthed a quiet thank you to Mrs. Wilson, who gave her a knowing smile in return. Then she slipped back into the hallway and returned to her classroom.
A few minutes later, Paige came in.
Azzi stood immediately, her chair scraping softly against the floor as she crossed the room and closed the door behind her. The click of it shutting felt heavier than usualâ like it sealed them into something private.
Paige looked⌠wrecked.
Her hands were shoved deep into the pockets of her sweatpants. Her shoulders were rounded inward, protective. Her eyes, which usually were bright and expressive, looked dull and glassy, like she was holding something back with sheer willpower alone.
Something in Azziâs chest tightened painfully.
She pulled out a chair at one of the student tables and gestured for Paige to sit, then took the seat beside herâ close, familiar. The same configuration as the parent-teacher conference. The first time Paige had really let herself be seen.
Paige sat, but she didnât relax. Her hands twisted together in her lap, her fingers worrying at each other as she stared down at the tabletop like it held answers she couldnât say out loud.
She didnât look at Azzi.
Not once.
And Azzi knew, with absolute certainty, that whatever was wrong wasnât something small.
She angled her body slightly toward Paige, close enough to be felt without being overwhelming, her forearm resting on the table near Paigeâs hands. It was the same posture she used with her students when something was wrongâ open, grounded, and steady. She kept her voice low.
âHey,â Azzi said gently. âTalk to me.â
Paige swallowed, her jaw tightening. âItâs⌠itâs nothing,â she murmured, too quickly. âIâm fine. I shouldnât have⌠Iâm sorry for making this a thing.â
Azzi didnât buy it for a second.
She tilted her head, studying Paigeâs face. The way her shoulders were curled inward, the way she was bracing like she expected to be corrected or dismissed. Something in Azziâs chest pulled tight.
âPaige,â she said softly, but firmly. âThis isnât nothing.â
Paige let out a humorless breath, her fingers twisting together. âI just⌠Iâm tired. Thatâs all.â
Azzi nodded once, acknowledging the attempt. Then she reached out and rested two fingers lightly against Paigeâs forearm. Not gripping. Not demanding. Just there.
âOkay, but itâs more than that,â Azzi said. âYou look like youâre carrying something.â
That did it.
Paigeâs breath hitched. She stared at the table for a long moment, like she was trying to decide whether she could survive saying it out loud. When she finally spoke, her voice was quieter. Fragile.
âItâs today,â she said. âOctober fifteenth.â
Azzi didnât interrupt. She didnât ask what that meant. She waited.
âFive years ago today,â Paige continued, her voice tightening, âwas the day I found out my career was over.â
Azzi felt the weight of that land, heavy and sudden.
Paige drew in a shaky breath. âYou know I tore my ACL. I told you that part. But⌠it wasnât even some dramatic play. I didnât get taken out on a stretcher. I justââ She shook her head, disbelief still there after all this time. âI hyperextended my leg. One wrong step. I was carried off the court. I had no idea that would be the last time.â
Azziâs fingers curled slightly against Paigeâs arm instinctively.
âI had surgery,â Paige went on. âAnd rehab. And everyone kept telling me how well I was doing. How strong I was. How positive. I believed them. I really did.â Her laugh cracked, soft and bitter. âI thought if I just worked hard enough, Iâd get back.â
She finally looked up at Azzi then, her blue eyes glassy. âAnd then they sat me down and told me my knee would heal, but my career wouldnât. That it wasnât safe. That it wasnât worth the risk. Just like that.â
Azzi felt something hot and protective flare in her chest.
âMy whole future disappeared in one conversation,â Paige whispered. âEverything Iâd worked for. Everything I thought I was.â
She scrubbed at her face with the heel of her hand, frustrated with herself. âSo yeah. Every year around this time, I get like this. I try not to. I really do. But itâs like my body remembers before my brain can stop it.â
Her voice dropped even lower. âThatâs why Iâve been⌠off. With texting. I didnât want to dump this on you. Iâm sorry.â
Azzi shook her head immediately. âDonât apologize.â
She shifted closer, her knee now lightly brushing Paigeâs. She didnât pull away.
âYou didnât do anything wrong,â Azzi said, her voice steady, certain. âAnd youâre not dumping anything on me.â
Paige sniffed, a tear finally slipping free. âItâs stupid. I have a good life. I know that. I love my daughter. I love coaching. I justââ Her shoulders trembled. âI hate that it still hurts.â
âItâs not stupid,â Azzi said quietly. âIt makes sense.â
She squeezed Paigeâs arm, grounding. âYou lost something that mattered. Of course it still hurts.â
Paige let out a shaky exhale, like sheâd been holding her breath for years. She nodded once. Then twice.
Azzi stayed with her. Didnât try to reframe it. Didnât offer platitudes or silver linings. She just stayed, her presence solid and unwavering.
In that moment, Azzi realized something with startling clarity.
She didnât just want to be the safe person Paige talked to at school. She didnât just want to be the one who noticed. She wanted to be thereâ in the messy, inconvenient, deeply human ways. The ways that crossed into vulnerability and care and risk.
Paige shifted suddenly, turning toward her.
âCan Iââ she started, then stopped. Her voice broke. âCan I hug you?â
Azzi didnât hesitate. She opened her arms.
Paige leaned into her, slow at first, then fully, her forehead pressing into Azziâs shoulder as her arms wrapped tight around her middle. Azziâs arms came around Paigeâs back, firm and sure, holding her like she wasnât something fragile to be handled carefullyâ but something real.
Important.
Azzi closed her eyes and held on.
â
Azzi hugged Paige for as long as the woman would let her.
She kept her arms firm but gentle, one hand pressed flat between Paigeâs shoulder blades, the other moving slowly up and down her back. She counted Paigeâs breaths without meaning to. Felt the way they gradually evened out. She made herself a quiet promise not to let go firstâ not because she was afraid of letting Paige go, but because Paige deserved to control when the comfort ended.
The classroom was silent around them, save for the faint hum of the lights overhead and the distant noise of the rest of the building winding down.
After a minuteâ maybe twoâPaige shifted.
Azzi loosened her hold immediately, stepping back just enough to give Paige space. When she caught sight of her face, her chest sank.
Paigeâs eyes were rimmed red, glossy with unshed tears. Her jaw was tight, like she was holding herself together by force. She looked drained in a way Azzi recognized. Like someone who had been carrying something heavy for far too long without setting it down.
Azzi wanted to ease her. Ground her. Make it stop hurting, even though she knew she couldnât.
âThank you,â Azzi said softly, her voice careful, âfor trusting me with that.â
Paige nodded, swallowing thickly.
âAnd⌠donât be so hard on yourself for grieving it,â Azzi continued. âA career-ending injury is a huge loss. Itâs not just a job. Itâs an identity. It makes sense that it still hurts, even years later.â
Paige crossed her arms over her chest before nodding again, her eyes fixed somewhere just past Azziâs shoulder. She looked like she wanted to say something, like her words were sitting right there, but she didnât quite know how to arrange them yet.
Azzi let the silence stretch. She watched Paige closely, the way her shoulders were still tense, the way her body hadnât fully come back down. The grief was still there, thick and heavy, radiating off her in waves.
And something in Azzi shifted.
This wasnât the kind of hurt you just sent someone home with.
âYou should come over,â Azzi said suddenly.
The words slipped out before she could overthink them. They werenât rushed or loud, but clear.
The second they were out in the air between them, Azzi knew exactly what she was doing.
It was a risk. A line. Maybe several lines. Sheâd already crossed one when she gave Paige her number, another every time she lingered too long at pickup, another with that hug.
Still, she didnât regret it.
Paigeâs head snapped toward her, surprise written plainly across her face. She straightened a little in her chair, her brows furrowing.
âWhat?â she asked, her voice rough.
âYou should come over,â Azzi repeated, steadier this time. âTo my apartment.â
Paige blinked.
Azzi exhaled softly, realizing she needed to clarify. She needed to make sure Paige didnât feel pushed.
âNot tonight,â she added quickly. âBut⌠maybe this Friday? We could just⌠hang out. Watch something. Order food. Talk, if you want. Or not talk. I justââ She paused, choosing her words carefully. âI donât think you should be alone with all of this.â
She didnât call it a date. It wasnât a date.
It sounded dangerously close to one, just the two of them, in Azziâs space, at night⌠but that wasnât how she framed it. This wasnât about labels or intentions she wasnât ready to name out loud.
It was about showing up.
Paige didnât answer right away.
Her surprise softened into something else. Something like relief. Like someone had just offered to take a weight off her shoulders she hadnât realized she was still carrying.
When she finally looked back at Azzi, she nodded.
âYeah,â she said quietly. âOkay. That⌠sounds like a good idea.â
There it wasâ small, tentative, but real.
Azzi caught the hint of a smile tugging at the corner of Paigeâs mouth. She didnât comment on it. Didnât need to. The moment was fragile enough as it was.
âCool,â Azzi said, making a small tsk sound, half-nervous, half-amused, as they both just looked at each other, like they were standing on the edge of something new and unnamed.
âIâll text you my address before the weekâs out,â she added.
Paige nodded again, her shoulders noticeably looser now, her body finally starting to settle.
They both knew what this was, or at least what it might become. They didnât have to say it out loud to feel the shift.
Azzi knew she was crossing a line. She also knew she didnât care.
She had crossed it willinglyâ intentionallyâ and she would do it again if it meant being there for Paige in the ways that mattered.
She was choosing Paige anyway.
â
Paige had overprepared.
Sheâd texted her friend twice to confirm. Once to confirm confirm, and then again to apologize for being annoying about it. She wanted Adeline at home. She wanted her fed, bathed, and tucked into her own bed at a reasonable hour. Paige didnât know how late sheâd be at Azziâs, and that uncertainty alone made her stomach flip.
In the bedroom, Paige stood in front of her closet and immediately panicked.
This isnât a date, she reminded herself.
Sheâd pulled out khakis first. Then a sweater. Then paused, stared at her reflection, and groaned softly.
Who was she kidding?
She shoved everything back and reached instead for sweatpants and her softest hoodieâ the gray one Adeline liked because it was âextra cozy.â She twisted her hair into a low bun, checked that she looked presentable but not trying, and decided that was as good as it was going to get.
âMommyâs just hanging out with a friend,â Paige told Adeline as she pulled her sneakers on by the door. âIâll be home later, okay?â
She felt bad for lying to Adeline, but dropping the bomb that mommy is hanging out with your teacherâ at her apartment isnât something she could just say without explanation. She would have to plan that conversation later.
Adeline nodded, unfazed, already deep into a conversation about a coloring book. Paige kissed the top of her head anyway. Lingering. Longer than usual.
On the drive over, Paige betrayed herself completely.
Love songs. All of them. The kind she usually skipped because they hit too close to the bone. Tonight, she let them play, drumming her fingers against the steering wheel, laughing at herself for it.
Get a grip, Bueckers, she thought. Youâre just hanging out.
Still, her chest felt light. Nervous. Open.
Azziâs apartment was smaller than Paige expected, but warm. Lived-in. Soft lighting spilled out into the hallway when Azzi opened the door.
Paige barely had time to say hi before she was being enthusiastically greeted by two dogs.
âOh my god,â Paige laughed, instinctively crouching down as one immediately shoved her nose into Paigeâs thigh while the other wagged so hard her whole body shook. âHi. Hi, helloââ
âNola, Maggie, manners,â Azzi said, though she was smiling. âThey donât usually do this.â
âClearly Iâve been chosen,â Paige said, scratching behind Nolaâs ears.
Azzi lookedâŚcomfortable. Sweatpants, an oversized tee, no makeup. Her hair loose and a little messy. It settled something in Paige instantly.
They ordered Chinese takeout, way too much of it, and ate straight from the containers at Azziâs small kitchen table until they were both full and a little groggy.
âI regret nothing,â Paige said, leaning back in her chair.
âSame,â Azzi replied. âThis is optimal decision-making.â
They migrated to the couch, turned the lights off, then put on a movieâ mostly for background noise. Paige kicked her shoes off. Maggie claimed her feet. Nola curled up between them like sheâd been waiting for this moment her whole life.
Conversation flowed easily.
Paige talked about basketballâ about loving it and resenting it and missing it all at once. About coaching and how it still hurt sometimes, even on good days. Azzi listened without interrupting, offering small, thoughtful comments that made Paige feel seen instead of dissected.
Azzi talked about teaching. About kids who made her laugh. About how tired she was all the time and how much she still loved it anyway. Paige found herself watching Azzi talk more than listening. She watched her hands, her expressions, the way she smiled when she talked about the dogs.
At some point, the movie became irrelevant.
Silence settled in. It wasnât awkward, not heavy. JustâŚdifferent.
Paige shifted slightly on the couch, aware suddenly of how close they were. Of the warmth at her side. Of Azziâs arm resting behind her, not touching, but close enough to feel.
âIâm really glad you came,â Azzi said quietly.
Paige turned her head.
Their eyes met.
Something shifted. Paige felt it in her chest first, then everywhere else. Her gaze dropped, just brieflyâ to Azziâs mouth. She saw Azzi notice.
Time slowed.
Neither of them moved right away. It felt earnedâ this pause. Like the space mattered as much as what came next.
Paige leaned in first. Just barely. Azzi met her halfway.
The kiss wasnât rushed. It was a little desperate, though. It was warm and slow and sureâ deeper than a peck, but overall gentle. Paige felt Azziâs hand rest lightly at her waist, grounding, steady.
When they pulled back, it was at the same time. They both laughed softly, breathless and stunned.
âWell,â Paige said, smiling in that goofy, flirty way she couldnât quite suppress, âthat definitely wasnât in the movie.â
Azzi laughed, ducking her head. âYeah. Plot twist.â
They didnât kiss again right away, but they didnât move apart either.
And Paige knew with absolute certainty that this was something serious. This was the beginning of something that would only keep unfolding from here.
â
They stayed like that.
Curled together on the couch, the movie long forgotten, the dogs shifting occasionally at their feet. Paige wasnât sure how much time passed. Ten minutes. Thirty. Maybe more. She didnât check. She didnât want to.
They werenât really holding handsâ not officially. But Paigeâs fingers kept drifting, brushing against Azziâs knuckles, catching lightly on her pinky. Sometimes Azziâs hand shifted in response, her thumb grazing Paigeâs skin like it was unconscious. Like it was allowed.
They stayed quiet for a bit. Both of them were pretending to watch the movie. After some time, Paige swallowed, then spoke before she could talk herself out of it.
âIâve been thinking about this,â she said softly.
Azzi turned her head just enough to look at her. âYeah?â
Paige nodded, her fingers still tracing idle shapes against Azziâs hand. âSince meet the teacher night,â she admitted. âI didnât know what to do with it then. I told myself it was justâŚadmiration. Or gratitude. Or something harmless.â
Azziâs jaw tightened just a little, not in discomfortâ more like understanding. âI knew it wasnât harmless,â she said quietly.
Paige looked up at her, surprised.
âI felt it that night,â Azzi continued. âI remember thinking I needed to be careful. That it would pass if I justâŚkept things professional.â She shook her head, a small, self-aware smile tugging at her mouth. âIt didnât.â
Paigeâs chest fluttered.
âSo yeah,â Azzi added, softer now, her thumb brushing Paigeâs knuckle, more deliberate this time. âIâve been thinking about it too. Longer than I probably should have.â
They looked at each otherâ their eyes locked. It grounded them both.
Paige rested her head against Azziâs shoulder, feeling the steady rise and fall of her breathing. Her body felt loose in a way it hadnât in a long time. Not fixed. Not solved. JustâŚquiet.
At some point, Azzi glanced at the clock on the TV screen.
10:58.
âYou should probably head out soon,â she said softly, not moving. âItâs getting late.â
Paige hummed in acknowledgment, her voice low. âYeah. Probably.â
Neither of them made any effort to separate.
Paige stayed another few minutes anyway, memorizing the feeling. Azziâs warmth, the ease, the fact that she felt safe enough to want to stay.
Eventually, she stood. Reluctantly. The dogs protested. Nola let out a dramatic sigh. Maggie followed Paige toward the door like she might change her mind.
âTraitors,â Azzi muttered affectionately, scratching their heads before walking Paige to the door.
The moment stretched there. Hesitant and awkward in the sweetest way. Paige shoved her hands into her hoodie sleeves, suddenly unsure what the right move was.
They decided on a hug.
It was warm and lingering, Azziâs arms were solid around her, Paigeâs forehead brushed her shoulder. Paige pulled back first, then hesitated.
Azzi did the same.
They both smiled, a little shy. And then, almost at the same time, they leaned in.
The kiss was gentle. Deliberate. No rush, no uncertainty. Just a soft press of lips that said this is real. That they were choosing this, whatever this was becoming.
When Paige finally stepped back, she felt lighter. Like something heavy had shifted off her chest. Not gone, but loosened.
âText me when you get home,â Azzi said.
âOf course,â Paige replied.
â
The drive home felt different.
The same streets. The same turns. But Paigeâs chest felt open instead of tight. She let the music play again, this time softer, humming along without really thinking about it.
She wasnât healed.
She still missed basketball. Still carried that loss in her bones. But for the first time, it didnât feel like standing still.
Professional basketball was her past. It always would be. And that was okay.
This, whatever was beginning with Azzi, it felt like motion. Like possibility.
When Paige got home, her friend was curled up on the couch, half-asleep.
âThank you again,â Paige whispered, and she meant it more than she could say.
She peeked into Adelineâs room before heading to bed. Her daughter was sprawled sideways, her hair messy, breathing deep and even. Paige stood there for a moment, letting the sight settle her completely.
After a quick shower, Paige climbed into bed, skin warm, mind buzzing in that quiet, post-something way.
She grabbed her phone.
Paige B.: Almost fell asleep on my drive home.
Paige B.: Maybe I should just sleepover next time
The reply came quicker than she expected.
Azzi âď¸đ: Donât get ahead of yourself, Bueckers ;)
Paige laughed softly to herself, setting her phone down.
A/N: happy opening day of the unrivaled season! i caught myself smiling at my phone at times while I was writing this lol. i decided to make some of this chapter azzi-centric, and kind of dive into her past a bit. lmk what u think!
CHAPTER EIGHT: Threads
Paige sat in the car for at least fifteen minutes after the conference ended, her engine still off, her keys resting uselessly in the cupholder.
Her brain was going a mile a minute.
Azzi saying her nameâ soft, deliberate, like it belonged in her mouth. The way Azziâs hand had moved up her back, slow and grounding, before settling on her shoulder. The way sheâd listened. Really listened. And thenâ like the universe deciding to be cruel and generous all at once âthe fact that she had Azziâs fucking number sitting in her phone right now.
Wow. Dreams really do come true, Paige thought, letting out a shaky laugh as she leaned her head back against the headrest. She closed her eyes and took a few steadying breaths, trying to calm the frantic thump of her heart.
She reached into her pocket and pulled out her phone.
Her thumb hovered for a second before she opened her contacts. There it was. The number. The name Azzi had typed in herself.
Ms. Fudd.
Paige huffed softly through her nose, equal parts fond and nervous. Of course Azzi had put herself in like that. Professional to the end. She stared at the name for a long moment, chewing on her bottom lip as she weighed the implications of what she was about to do.
It felt silly. It felt dangerous. It felt like a small, quiet rebellion.
She tapped Edit.
Changed the name to Azzi âď¸đ
Paige exhaled, something loosening in her chest as she hit save. She shook her head at herself, half-smiling.
âI shouldnât want this,â she murmured to the empty car. âBut I do.â
And that was the truth of it. Wanting somethingâ someoneâ like this felt rare now. After her injury, desire had gone dormant. Not just romantic desire, but desire for life. For movement. For risk. For the version of herself who used to chase things without fear of falling.
Losing her career had taken more than just her body. It had taken her sense of self, her confidence, her momentum. Sheâd spent so long rebuilding that sheâd forgotten what it felt like to be pulled forward instead of cautiously standing still.
Thisâ whatever this wasâ felt like motion again.
She glanced at the contact one last time, thumb brushing the screen as if committing it to memory, then locked her phone and slipped it back into her pocket with a slow breath.
Not yet, she told herself. But soon.
â
Azzi coasted through her final parent conferences of the day on muscle memory alone.
She smiled, nodded, reviewed data, reassured concerns. She talked about reading levels and social growth and classroom routines with the same warmth and professionalism she always did, but beneath it all, her thoughts kept drifting.
Back to Paige.
Just because she had a crush didnât mean she got to slack off. She owed every family the same care and attention. So she stayed present, stayed focused, stayed Azzi Fudd, Kindergarten Teacher until the last parent finally stood, thanked her, and walked out.
Only then did she let herself breathe.
She slid the final data folder into the drawer beside her desk and began the familiar end-of-day routine: wiping down the student table, pushing in chairs, shutting down the classroom computers. The room felt quieter than usual without the buzz of children or the low murmur of parents.
Fall break stretched ahead of her. An entire week of silence, rest, and recovery.
As she packed her bag, Paigeâs face kept resurfacing in her mind. The way her voice had wavered. The way sheâd tried to laugh through the fear. The raw honesty of her vulnerability.
Azzi felt something warm settle in her chest. That same warmth that appeared every time she thought of Paige.
Sheâd been honored by it. Truly. Paige wasnât someone who opened up easily, that much had been clear. The fact that sheâd trusted Azzi with something so personal felt⌠intimate, in a way Azzi hadnât been prepared for.
She walked to the door, pausing for a final glance around her classroom. Everything looked in order. Safe. Ready to be left behind for a week.
She reached up and flicked off the lights.
And then it hit her again.
Paige had her number.
âOh God,â Azzi muttered under her breath as she stepped into the hallway, locking the door behind her. âI probably shouldnât have done that.â
She knew the rules. Knew the risks. Knew how carefully sheâd built her professional life, brick by brick.
But regret?
No. Not even a little.
She tightened her grip on her phone as she walked toward the exit, her eyes dropping to the lock screen like it might light up any second. Like Paigeâs name might appear there if she wanted it badly enough.
When would she text? Would she text? Would it really be about school, or something else entirely?
Azzi slipped the phone into her purse, heart thudding softly with anticipation as she stepped outside.
Time for a week off.
â
Fall break began quietly.
Azzi woke to the soft pressure of Nolaâs chin on her mattress and the faint sound of Maggieâs tail thumping against the wall. Sunlight filtered through the blinds in pale stripes, warm but gentle. The kind of morning that didnât ask anything of her.
She laid there for a moment, staring at the ceiling, listening to the slow rhythm of her dogsâ breathing. No bells. No schedules. No tiny voices calling her name from across the room.
She exhaled.
This was why she loved sleeping in and not having to wake up at 6 in the morning. Teaching kindergarten took something out of her every single day. She gave her patience, her attention, her emotional regulation, her calm. Fall break always felt like being handed herself back.
She eventually rolled onto her side, reaching down to scratch behind Maggieâs ears. âGood morning, ladies,â she murmured, voice still rough with sleep.
They followed her into the kitchen as she made coffee, nails clicking softly against the tile. Her apartment felt lived-in but sparseâ plants on the windowsill, lesson planners stacked neatly on the counter, a single framed photo of her and her family at her college graduation.
Professional. Orderly. Safe.
Azzi leaned against the counter as the coffee brewed, her mind drifting somewhere expected.
Paige.
The way her voice had cracked in the classroom. The way sheâd tried to apologize for crying, like she hadnât been allowed softness. The way Azziâs hand had moved before sheâd even thought about it.
She closed her eyes briefly.
This was why it was hard.
Professionalism wasnât just a preference for Azzi, it was armor.
Four years ago, when sheâd just started teaching, sheâd been reckless in a way only twenty-four-year-olds could afford to be. Fresh out of college with her Masters. Newly hired. Thrilled to be taken seriously. That was when sheâd met Amber.
Amber taught fourth grade on another hall. She was another first-year teacher, all confidence and sharp humor and easy smiles. Theyâd started with lingering glances in staff meetings, shared jokes in the copy room. Then coffee after work. Then texting, which was innocent at first, and then not so much.
It had felt exhilarating. Like permission.
They told themselves it was fine. They were equals. Same school, different grades. Adults making adult choices.
Until it wasnât fine anymore.
Other teachers noticed. A look held too long. A laugh that didnât belong in a professional setting. Whispers that followed them into the hallway. And then Amber panicked.
Azzi still remembered the way Amberâs hands had shaken when she said it. I canât do this. I donât want to be known for this. I donât want to lose credibility before I even have it.
Within a month, Amber had resigned. Took a job in another state. Left behind nothing but an empty classroom and a quiet lesson Azzi never forgot.
It hadnât been a scandal. But it could have been.
And Azzi had learned something thenâ how fragile respect could be. How quickly perception turned into narrative. How easily something personal could become something damaging.
Since then, sheâd been careful. Meticulous. Untouchable.
Teaching was sacred to her.
Not just because it was her job, but because it had saved her.
Sheâd known she was queer around thirteen. Not in a dramatic, world-ending wayâ just a quiet certainty that settled in her chest and never left. Her parents had been accepting. Kind. Loving.
But Azzi hadnât been kind to herself.
Sheâd policed every crush. Every thought. Told herself maybe it meant she wasnât as good as she thought. That she had to earn her place through excellence. Through restraint.
Teaching became that place. A space where she knew the rules. Where love was structured and appropriate and safe. Where her care had purpose and boundaries.
And nowâ
Paige.
Azzi felt it in her body, not just her head. The awareness when Paige leaned close. The warmth in her chest when Paige smiled at her. The way her pulse quickened at the thought of Paige texting her.
This wasnât abstract. This wasnât a harmless crush.
She wanted Paige. The sound of her laugh. The steadiness of her presence. The softness she only showed when she was tired or vulnerable.
Her phone buzzed on the counter.
Azziâs heart nearly jumped out of her chest before she even looked.
It was a notification from a group chat. One with her fellow Kindergarten teachers. Nothing more.
She let out a quiet, humorless laugh and poured her coffee, her hands steady despite the adrenaline that was coursing through her. Paige could text her at any moment. That was the truth she couldnât escape.
She took her mug to the couch, Nola curling into her side as Maggie flopped dramatically at her feet. Azzi stared out the window, the world moving slowly beyond the glass.
She wasnât scared of Paige.
She was scared of what wanting her meant.
Of what lines could blur if she wasnât vigilant. Of what it would cost if she let herself be human instead of careful.
Azzi took a slow sip of her coffee.
I just have to be careful, she told herself.
She wasnât sure anymore who she was trying to convince.
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It was Sunday afternoon.
Barely forty-eight hours since Paige had last seen Azzi.
She felt like she was going a little insane.
The house was quiet in that particular fall-break way. No alarms to chase, no rush out the door. The windows were open just enough to let in cool air, the kind that smelled faintly like leaves and distant rain. Paige should have been enjoying it. Instead, her thoughts kept circling back to one thing.
Azzi Fudd.
She tried to distract herself. Folded laundry that didnât need folding yet. Cleaned the kitchen twice. Opened her phone, locked it, opened it again. Every road led back to the same place.
Paige had opened a new chat with Azziâs number more times than she cared to admit. Her thumb hovered over the screen like it was something dangerous. Something that might bite her if she touched it wrong.
She didnât know what to say.
If she texted, it should probably be school-related. That would be smart. Safe. But she didnât want safe. She wanted real. She wanted something that didnât end after a polite response. She wanted something that could breathe.
The realization startled her.
She was pulled out of her thoughts by a small and excited voice from the kitchen table.
âMommy, come look!â
Adeline had been coloring quietly for a while, her tongue poking out in concentration, the crayons scattered across the table like confetti. Paige had been half-paying attention, assuming it would be another drawing of the two of them togetherâ something sweet and familiar. There were already dozens taped to the fridge.
She stood and walked over, resting a hand gently on Adelineâs back.
âLetâs see what my little artist made today,â Paige said softly.
She leaned inâ and stopped.
It wasnât her.
It was Adeline, yes. Standing in front of a school building. But next to Adeline, definitely not her.
Paigeâs breath caught.
âIs that⌠Ms. Fudd?â she asked, pointing lightly at the second figure.
Adeline nodded enthusiastically, pride shining in her eyes. âMhm! I drew it for her.â
Something warm and achy bloomed in Paigeâs chest. Adeline didnât draw people casually. When she gave someone her crayons, it meant something. It meant trust.
And the drawingâ God, it was good. For a five-year-old, it was impressive. Adeline had captured herself perfectly: red hair, blue eyes, freckles scattered across her cheeks. And Azziâ
Azzi had dark curls. Brown eyes. Even her skin tone was there, shaded carefully, thoughtfully.
Before she could say anything, Adeline kept going.
âMs. Fudd helps me when Iâm sad,â she said matter-of-factly, eyes still on the paper. âShe always looks out for me. I want to give this to her when I go back to school.â
Paige melted.
Not all at onceâ slowly, painfully, in a way that felt like longing rather than joy. The kind of feeling that pressed in behind her ribs and stayed there.
âYou should absolutely give it to her, Addy,â Paige said, her voice steady despite the way her chest tightened. âSheâs going to love it.â
And then, the thought came.
Clear. Bright. Impossible to ignore.
An excuse.
Her heart started to race.
âHey,â Paige said carefully, already pulling her phone from her pocket. âCan I take a picture of it?â
Adeline nodded immediately. âYeah!â
âYou can still give her the real one next week,â Paige added, angling the paper toward the light. âBut this way she can see it early.â
Adeline grinned like this was the best idea sheâd ever heard.
Paige snapped the photo. She made sure Adeline was in it too, smiling proudly beside her artwork. Then she opened her phone again, this time with intention.
Azzi âď¸đ
The name stared back at her.
She selected the photo and hesitated over the keyboard.
Someoneâs missing you (sheâs not the only one).
Paige deleted it instantly, heart pounding. Absolutely not. Too much. Too fast.
She typed again.
Heyâ I hope this is okay. Adeline drew this for you. Thought youâd like to see it.
Simple. Justified. True.
Her finger hovered for half a second longer. Long enough to doubt herself. Long enough to feel the weight of what she was doing.
Then she pressed the little blue arrow.
Delivered.
Paige set her phone face-down on the table like it might burn her if she looked at it too long.
Now we wait.
She glanced down at Adeline, who was already reaching for another crayon, perfectly content, unaware sheâd just nudged her mother one step closer to something that felt terrifying and hopeful all at once.
Paige exhaled.
No taking it back now.
â
Azzi was sitting at her kitchen table, doing her best to ignore the way Nola and Maggie hovered near her knees, both hopeful and dramatic, as she ate a grilled chicken salad.
Her phone buzzed against the surface.
She froze mid-chew.
Azzi had promised herself she wouldnât do this anymore. No jumping. No hoping. The last forty-eight hours had trained her not to expect anything, because every notification had been a letdown. Spam emails. Group chats. Weather alerts.
She exhaled, set her fork down deliberately, and reached for her phone.
The screen lit up.
A number she didnât have saved yet.
Her stomach flipped before her brain could catch up.
Oh.
She opened the message, her breath hitching when the photo loaded. It was Adeline, beaming beside a drawing. That drawing style, it was unmistakable. Azzi smiled without even meaning to. She zoomed in and took in every detail.
The school building. The two figures holding hands. The way Adeline had captured her curls, her skin tone, her eyes.
She saved the photo immediately. No hesitation. This one was getting printed. Laminated, even. Going straight onto the classroom wall.
Then she tapped and held the image, reacting with a heart before she could overthink it.
Well, this just made my day :)
She sent it, then stared at the screen, her pulse quickening. Her thumb hovered.
She shouldnât double text.
She absolutely double texted.
Let Miss Adeline know I canât wait to see her next week.
Azzi set her phone down and leaned back in her chair, rubbing a hand over her face.
God. She was enjoying this far too much.
She picked the phone back up and added the number to her contacts, pausing at the name field longer than necessary.
Ms. Bueckers felt too stiff.
Paige Bueckers felt like she was lying to herself.
She typed Paige B. and saved it before she could spiral.
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Paige was stretched out on the couch, Adeline curled beside her with a small bowl of Cheez-Its balanced on her stomach. Moana played in the background, but Paigeâs attention was fixed elsewhere.
Her phone buzzed in her pocket.
She sat up so fast she startled Adeline, but the little girl quickly focused back on the movie.
Paige was already reading.
The heart reaction. The smiley face. The words made my day.
Her chest fluttered.
âShe loves your drawing,â Paige said aloud, smiling down at her daughter. âShe misses you.â
âI know,â Adeline replied confidently, eyes never leaving the screen.
Paige snorted softly and looked back at her phone.
She typed carefully.
She canât wait to see you either.
Sent.
She stared at it, then sighed, fingers moving again before she could stop herself.
Her mom is excited to see you too đ
The moment the message sent, Paige pressed her lips together and exhaled.
Too much? Maybe. But it was honest.
Three dots appeared almost immediately.
Paigeâs heart kicked.
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Azzi read the second message twice.
Then a third time.
Her lips curved into a slow smile she didnât bother suppressing.
Iâll take that as a compliment, she typed back.
I hope youâre both enjoying fall break.
Paige replied faster this time.
We are! Adeline has been coloring nonstop. Iâm not sure my fridge can handle much more artwork.
Azzi laughed quietly, Maggie lifting her head at the sound.
That sounds about right. Sheâs very committed to her craft.
Paige sent a laughing emoji. Then another message followed.
Do you ever actually stop working? Or are you secretly lesson-planning even now?
Azzi hesitated, then decided honesty felt better.
I told myself I wouldnât⌠but yes. Guilty.
I donât really know how to turn my brain off.
I get that, Paige replied.
Iâm trying to learn how to slow down again.
Something about again stuck with Azzi.
They talked through the afternoon. Small things at firstâ dogs, favorite fall foods, how Adeline insisted on wearing mismatched socks. Somewhere along the line, the tone shifted.
Paige B.: Do you always eat salads like an adult or was tonight a special occasion?
Azzi âď¸đ: Rude. I had soup yesterday.
Paige B.: Wow. Balanced queen.
Emojis crept in. Teasing softened into warmth.
By the time evening settled in, both of them were in bedâ lights dim, their phones glowing in the dark.
Azzi âď¸đ: I should probably sleep.
Paige B.: Me too. Probably.
Azzi âď¸đ: but I donât really want to.
Paige smiled into her pillow.
Paige B.: Me neither đ
Their phones rested inches from their faces, the conversation drifting far from school, from drawings, from excuses.
Neither of them said it out loud yet.
But both of them knew.
This wasnât just school-related anymore. It never was.
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Fall break stretched in a way Paige hadnât expected.
The days were fullâ pleasant, even. Mornings at the park while the air still held that early fall chill. Afternoons at the public library for story time, Adeline sitting cross-legged on the rug while Paige leaned against a shelf, her arms folded as she watched her daughterâs face light up at every turn of the page.
She was present. She always was.
But her phone never left her pocket.
It buzzed while Adeline climbed the jungle gym, Paige glancing down instinctively before forcing herself to look back up. It buzzed while they waited in line for apple cider at a small stand near the park. It buzzed during quiet moments at home, when Adeline colored at the table and Paige pretended not to be watching the screen light up from across the room.
Azzi.
Always Azzi.
Paige knew that this was fine. That she could be a good mom and still want something for herself. That checking her messages didnât mean she wasnât present, it just meant she was human.
Still, she felt it. That strange dual awareness. One hand holding Adelineâs. The other itching for her phone.
â
Azzi noticed it in herself, too.
She walked Nola and Maggie longer than usual, looping the same quiet streets near her house while her phone rested warm in her hand. She went to the grocery store and forgot half the things on her list because she was mid-text. She let a pot of soup simmer too long because sheâd gotten distracted smiling at her screen.
She had never been like this.
Not with Amber. Not with anyone.
Teaching had always taken so much of her emotional energy that by the time she got home, she wanted silence. Space. Stillness. But now? Now her brain felt louder when Paige wasnât there, buzzing with unfinished thoughts and unsent messages.
They texted through the days in fragments.
Paige B.: Addy just insisted on picking out her own outfit. I didnât intervene.
Azzi âď¸đ: Thatâs brave of you đ¤Ł
Paige B.: Sheâs wearing stripes with polka dots.
Azzi âď¸đ: Iconic. Honestly.
Inside jokes formed quickly, slipping into place like theyâd always been there.
When Paige sent a picture of Adelineâs mismatched socks, Azzi replied with âFashion risk-taker. I respect it.â
When Azzi complained about Maggie stealing her spot on the couch, Paige shot back âShe knows what she wants. Relatable.â
The tone softened. Warmed. Stretched.
By the fourth day of fall break, Paige caught herself smiling at her phone while sitting on a park bench, Adeline playing tag with another kid nearby.
Paige B.: Is it weird that it feels like I havenât seen you in forever?
Azzi âď¸đ: Not weird. I was literally thinking the same thing.
Paigeâs chest tightened at that.
â
The nights were worse.
Adeline fell asleep easily after busy days, her body worn out in that way only kids manage. Paige would tuck her in, linger longer than necessary like always, then retreat to the living room with a blanket and her phone.
Thatâs when the texts changed.
Azziâď¸đ: Are you still up?
Paige B.: Yeah. You?
Azzi âď¸đ: Supposed to be sleeping. Clearly failing.
The conversations deepened, and they chose their words more carefully. Pauses stretched longer, but somehow felt heavier instead of empty.
Paige B.: What are you doing right now?
Azzi âď¸đ: Lying in bed. My dogs are taking up way too much space.
Paige B.: Sounds crowded.
Azzi âď¸đ: It is. But not unpleasant.
Paige swallowed, fingers hovering.
Paige B.: I can picture it.
That earned her a pause on the other end. Long enough that Paige wondered if sheâd pushed too far.
Then, an image popped up, and Paigeâs heart nearly stopped.
It was a selfie of Azzi in bed, being cuddled by Maggie and Nola. Her hair was down, splayed across the pillow, and it was still a bit damp from a shower. She had no makeup on, and this was the first time Paige had seen her bare-faced.
Paige suddenly felt jealous of Azziâs dogs.
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Azzi rolled onto her side, phone glowing against the dark of her bedroom. Nolaâs back was pressed against her legs, Maggieâs head tucked under her arm. She stared at Paigeâs name on the screen, feeling something warm and restless settle in her chest.
This wasnât just flirting anymore.
It was anticipation. Familiarity. Want.
She caught herself typing things she shouldnât. Things that went beyond teasing.
I keep thinking about the way you looked the other day.
I wonder what youâre like when youâre not holding everything together.
She deleted them all.
Not yet.
Instead, she typed:
I really like talking to you.
She hesitated, then hit send before she could overthink it.
â
Paige was in bed, the covers pulled up to her waist, staring at the ceiling when the message came through.
She read it once.
Then again.
Her heart did that strange, light ache thingâ like recognition.
I like talking to you too. A lot.
There it was. Simple. Honest. Enough.
The line between them didnât vanish in that moment, but it thinned. Softened. Became something you could step over without quite realizing it.
They kept texting until their eyes grew heavy and their phones slipped closer to the pillows beside them.
Fall break still had days left.
But neither of them were counting the time the same way anymore.
They were counting messages. Pauses. Heartbeats.
And both of them knewâ without saying it out loudâ that whatever this was, it wasnât something they could tuck back into neat little boxes.
A/N: i canât be the only one who got flashbacks to asw last night lmfaooo. anyways, hereâs chapter seven. this one had me feeling all types of emotions while i was writing it, ngl. let me know what you think!
CHAPTER SEVEN: Conferences
âIâll pick you up later, okay, sweetheart?â Paige whispered as she hugged Adeline tight.
Adeline nodded, already half-turned toward the living room, where the other girl was arranging toys on the rug. She waved without much ceremonyâ secure, unbothered, trusting. That part still amazed Paige.
Adeline was staying with friends of Paigeâsâ a kind, steady couple sheâd met last year when she coached their daughter at the rec center. They were the sort of people who remembered Adelineâs favorite snacks and always asked how kindergarten was going. Paige didnât take that kind of trust lightly. But Adeline adored their daughter, and sheâd asked, bright-eyed and hopeful, if she could stay the whole afternoon.
Once Paige was sure everything was settled, she stepped back outside and slid into her car.
She sat there for a second before starting the engine.
Paige rarely did things by herself. Adeline was her constant companionâ her shadow, her anchor. The backseat felt too empty, the silence louder than usual. No small voice narrating the drive. No dropped toy under the seat. Just Paige, her thoughts, and the soft hum of the engine as she pulled away from the curb.
The drive to Riverwood was short and familiar. Muscle memory took overâ turn here, stop thereâ but her chest felt tight anyway. She told herself it was just nerves. Parent-teacher conferences always carried weight. They made everything feel official. Evaluated.
When she arrived, the parking lot was quiet in a way schools never were during regular hours. A handful of cars sat scattered across the lotâ teachers, staff, maybe a few parents like herâ but there were no backpacks bouncing against legs, no shrieks of laughter, no crossing guards ushering families along. The stillness pressed in, calm and unsettling all at once.
Paige parked, turned off the car, and exhaled.
Inside, she buzzed at the entrance and waited while the office checked the cameras. The door unlocked with a soft click, and she stepped into the building, her footsteps echoing faintly as she headed down the hall.
The school felt different without kids in it. Too neat. Too quiet. Paige slowed as she passed the bulletin boards, letting herself actually look this time. Crayon drawings. Construction-paper pumpkins. A crooked paper leaf with Adelineâs name written carefully along the stem.
Her stomach flipped.
She felt anxious, but not in the way sheâd expected. Not dread. Not fear.
She knew, suddenly and clearly, that it had nothing to do with Adelineâs grades or behavior.
Itâs about being alone with Azzi.
The thought landed with uncomfortable honesty.
Paige stopped in front of a darkened classroom window and caught her reflection. She smoothed her hands down the front of her shirt, tugged at the hem like it might suddenly sit wrong, then reached up to adjust her ponytail. She took a slow breath, grounding herself the way sheâd learned to after her injury. Inhale, count, exhale.
Get it together.
As she continued down the kindergarten hallway, she passed other classrooms where conferences were already underway. Parents sat across from teachers at small desks, leaning forward, voices low. It struck her then, this wasnât a quick pickup conversation or a passing exchange in a crowded hallway.
This was one-on-one.
After Friday night, after the thoughts she let herself get carried away withâ everything felt sharper. More charged. Like she was stepping into something she didnât have a solid name for yet.
This is professional, she reminded herself. This is about Adeline. Not yourself.
Her heart picked up speed anyway as she neared Room 5B.
She slowed just outside the doorway, took one more steadying breath, and stepped forward.
â
Azzi was sitting at her desk and working on her computer as she waited for Paige to arrive for the parent-teacher conference.
To be honest, she was a little nervous about this one. The energy between the two of them lately had gotten so strong, it was to the point where it couldnât be pushed to the side anymore. Especially not after the other night.
When Azzi heard movement at her door, she looked up immediately. Her face softened in a way Paige hadnât seen in the pickup line. Less practiced. Less public.
âHi, Paige,â Azzi said, standing up from her rolling chair. She said her name like it was familiar. Like it belonged there.
Paige felt it settle low in her chest. âHi,â she replied, smiling back before she could stop herself.
Azzi gestured toward the small student table near the windows. âWhy donât we sit over here?â
Paige nodded and followed, aware of the quiet in the room. The absence of backpacks and chatter, the hum of the lights overhead. This classroom felt different without children in it. Smaller. More intimate.
Azzi pulled out a chair and sat down beside her instead of across.
Paige noticed immediately.
The chairs were close. Too close to pretend it was accidental. Their knees werenât touching, but they werenât far from it. Paige sat carefully, like any movement might tip something delicate out of balance.
âThank you for coming in,â Azzi said, turning slightly toward her. âI know itâs hard to find childcare, especially during the day.â
âYeah,â Paige said. âBut I appreciate you making the time for me. Really.â
Azzi smiled at that, something warm and unguarded flickering across her face.
Up close, Paige noticed things she hadnât before. Azziâs hair was looser than usual. It was still neat, but not pulled back as tightly. A few curly strands framed her face. She was wearing a soft sweater instead of her usual structured layers, and Paige realized she looked more like Azzi today, rather than Ms. Fudd.
âDid you have trouble finding someone?â Azzi asked, breaking Paige out of her thoughts.
âNo,â Paige said. âA friendâs got her for a few hours. Addy sees it as a playdate, so sheâs thrilled.â
Azzi laughed quietly. âThat sounds about right.â
There was a brief pause. It wasnât awkward. Paige shifted slightly in her chair, then immediately wished she hadnât. Her knee had brushed Azziâs. She almost moved away, but Azzi didnât say anything, so she stayed put.
âSo,â Paige said, trying for casual and landing somewhere just left of it. âI promise Iâm not one of those parents who shows up with a notebook and a list of demands.â
Azziâs eyebrow lifted. âIs that a promise or a warning?â
Paige grinned. âMore like reassurance. I left my clipboard at home.â
Azzi laughedâ actually laughed. It surprised Paige how much sound came out of her, how her shoulders shook just a little. It didnât feel like polite amusement. It felt like she genuinely found Paige funny.
Paige felt a spark of triumph she absolutely should not have. She wanted to make Azzi laugh again. And again, and again, and again.
âWell,â Azzi said once sheâd recovered, âI appreciate that. Though I have to say, you donât strike me as the clipboard type.â
âOh?â Paige tilted her head with a raise of her eyebrows and a teasing inflection in her voice. âWhat type do I strike you as?â
Azzi hesitatedâ just a beat too long, then smiled. âThe very attentive type. The emotionally-aware type.â
Paigeâs throat tightened. She nodded, suddenly more aware of how much she was leaning toward her.
Was Paige just reading too much into this, or was Azzi hinting at something else, there? She swallowed thickly, before mustering up the courage to respond.
âI try to be,â she said softly.
Another pause. You could cut the tension with a knife.
Azzi cleared her throat and reached for a folder on the table, her movement subtle but intentional, like she was grounding herself. Getting back on track.
âOkay,â she said, tone shifting just enough to signal what came next. âWhy donât we talk about how Adelineâs been doing?â
Paige nodded, straightening in her chair, even as part of her wished they could stay right here a little longerâ balanced in that in-between space where nothing had crossed a line yet, but something very clearly wanted to.
â
Azzi had done this about half a dozen times already today.
She knew the rhythm of it by heartâ the way parents leaned forward when they cared, the way they tensed when they were afraid of hearing something they couldnât fix. She knew how to translate numbers into reassurance, how to frame growth without pressure. She was good at this. It mattered to her that she was.
Still, sitting beside Paige felt different.
Azzi opened Adelineâs folder and laid it out neatly on the table between them. Color-coded charts, assessment sheets, short notes sheâd written to herself over the semester. She angled the pages so Paige could see clearly, her arm brushing the edge of Paigeâs sleeve as she did.
âOkay,â Azzi said gently. âLetâs start with academics.â
She pointed to the first sheet. âThese are her sight words. She came into the year recognizing about a quarter of them. Now sheâs consistently identifying a little over half without prompting.â
Azzi watched Paigeâs eyes track her finger as it moved down the list. Paige nodded slowly, absorbing every word like it mattered. Like it mattered to her.
âShe especially loves reading them out loud,â Azzi continued. âSheâll volunteer during group time, even when sheâs not one hundred percent sure she will get it right. That confidence is a big deal at this age.â
Paige smiled at that, small and proud. Azzi felt a familiar warmth bloom in her chest. This was the part she loved. Seeing parents realize their kids were doing better than they thought.
âSheâs also doing really well with early math,â Azzi said, turning the page. âSimple addition and subtraction under ten. She uses manipulatives really thoughtfully. She always counts carefully and double-checks herself.â
Azzi glanced at Paige as she spoke. Paigeâs attention never wavered. Her hands were folded tightly in her lap now, knuckles just barely white.
âShe doesnât rush,â Azzi added. âShe wants to get it right.â
Paige exhaled a quiet breath, like sheâd been holding it.
âAnd socially,â Azzi said, letting her tone soften further, âAdeline is⌠really special.â
That got Paigeâs attention. She looked up fully now.
âAs you know, her and Lucy were already close, but sheâs formed a few more close friendships,â Azzi went on. âSheâs gentle. Observant. If another child is upset, she notices immediately.â
Azzi flipped to a page with short notes. âThere was a moment last week where one of her classmates was crying during centers because they couldnât finish a puzzle. Adeline stopped what she was doing, sat next to them, and said, âItâs okay, we can do it together.ââ
Paigeâs mouth parted slightly.
âShe feels things deeply,â Azzi said, quieter now. âAnd she cares when other kids are sad. That kind of empathy isnât something you can teach directly. Itâs modeled.â
Azzi felt the weight of that sentence as soon as it left her mouth. She had told Paige this beforeâ that emotional-awareness like that doesnât come from nothing, but she knew it sunk in deeper when clear examples and moments were described.
She watched Paige swallow. Her eyes had gone glossy, though she was trying to blink it away. Azzi slowed instinctivelyâ her voice, her movements, everything. The same way she did when a child was on the edge of tears.
âShe talks about you a lot,â Azzi added, carefully. âCasually and comfortably. You come up during drawings, during play, during stories.â
Paige let out a shaky little laugh. âThat sounds like her.â
Azzi smiled. âIt tells me she feels very secure in your presence. That she knows youâre there. Even when youâre not.â
Paige nodded, but she didnât speak. Her hand came up to rest against her mouth, fingers pressing lightly beneath her nose as if she needed the grounding.
Azzi felt something pull tight in her chest.
She pointed back to the folder, grounding herself in the data again. âOverall, Adeline is right where she should be. Academically and emotionally. In some areas, sheâs even ahead.â
Azzi spoke steadily, but her awareness stayed fixed on Paige. On the way her shoulders had drawn in slightly. On the faint tremor in her breath.
Paige watched Azzi as she talkedâ not just the papers. Azzi could feel it. Paigeâs eyes traced the movement of her hands as she pointed things out, the confidence in her gestures, the ease with which she explained things that might have overwhelmed someone else.
Azzi realized, suddenly, that Paige wasnât just listening.
She was trusting her.
Azzi lowered her voice without meaning to. âYouâre doing a really good job, Paige.â
That did it.
Paigeâs eyes filled immediately. She turned her face slightly away, like she didnât want Azzi to see it, but it was too late. Azzi had already clocked it, that flash of vulnerability breaking through composure.
Azzi didnât rush to fill the silence. She waited. Let it breathe.
She reached for a tissue box on the table and slid it gently toward Paige, not touching her, but close enough to be felt. An offering, not an intrusion.
Paige took a tissue, dabbing quickly at her eyes. âSorry,â she said softly. âI just-â
Azzi shook her head. âYou donât need to apologize.â
Her tone was calm and open. The same tone she used when a child felt overwhelmed.
Paige nodded, taking another steadying breath. Her gaze dropped to the table, to the papers, to anything but Azziâs face.
Azzi stayed quiet, present, and grounded.
She could feel it. That moment before someone cracked open. The delicate edge where words finally found their way out.
â
Paige had felt her resolve start to crumble the moment Azzi began talking about Adeline.
Not just the academicsâ though that alone made her chest swell, but the way Azzi spoke about her as a whole person. Hearing that her little girl was excelling socially, that she was kind and thoughtful and emotionally attuned, felt like someone had reached into Paigeâs chest and pressed gently on something already bruised.
Her heart clenched when Azzi talked about Adelineâs empathy. About how she noticed when other kids were sad. About the puzzle. How Adeline had stopped what she was doing just to sit beside another child and help.
That image alone nearly undid her.
Because Paige saw it so clearly. Adelineâs small hands. Her serious face. That quiet instinct to comfort, to fix, to make things better. It wasnât lost on Paige that those traits didnât come from nowhere.
Sheâd been holding it together, barely, until Azzi told her she was doing a good job.
The words hit her square in the chest.
Azzi had such a way with them. She didnât toss praise around carelessly; she placed it deliberately, like she understood the weight it carried. Like she knew Paige would feel it. And sheâd framed it gently, intentionally, in a way that felt earned rather than obligatory.
Paigeâs eyes burned immediately.
She dabbed at her cheeks, then her eyes, willing herself to get a grip. This was a parent-teacher conference, for godâs sake. Not a therapy session. She hadnât come here to unravel.
For a brief moment, embarrassment flaredâ hot and sharp. She hated crying in front of people. Hated feeling exposed. But then she glanced up and caught Azziâs expression.
Soft. Steady. Not uncomfortable. Not impatient.
Something in Paige loosened.
The words spilled out before she could stop them.
âIt just⌠it feels really good to hear sheâs doing well,â Paige said, her voice rough, like it had scraped against something on the way out. âI get worried sometimes that Iâm going to mess things up. That I already have.â
She swallowed hard, staring down at the edge of the table. âI feel like maybe I did her a disservice by adopting her as a single parent,â she admitted quietly. âI donât ever want her to feel otherized. Or like sheâs missing something. Or someone.â
The fear sat heavy and familiar in her chest.
Paige risked a glance up. Azzi was still and attentive, her entire focus trained on Paige like there was nowhere else she needed to be. No rushing. No interrupting.
That made it easier to keep going.
âAnd then thereâs my injury,â Paige continued, her voice dropping. She hadnât planned on saying this. Hadnât planned on sharing any of it. âYou donât know about that, but-â
She exhaled shakily. âI tore my ACL a while back. Ripped my knee to shreds. It ended my career. Took away everything I thought my life was going to be.â
She laughed softly, humorless. âOnce I knew I couldnât play again at that level, I⌠lost control for a while. I didnât recognize myself. And sometimes I still get scared that Iâll slip back into that place.â
Her fingers curled slightly against her palm, grounding herself. âWhat if Adeline feels that loss too?â she whispered. âEven though she wasnât in my life yet. Sheâs so perceptive. She notices everything. I worry she knows what goes through my head, even when I try so hard to shield her from it.â
Another tear escaped, trailing down her cheek.
Azzi didnât say anything right away. She didnât rush to fix it or fill the space with platitudes. She just nodded slowly, her eyes warm and intent, absorbing every word.
Paige let out a shaky breath and shook her head with a small, self-conscious laugh. âSorry,â she murmured. âIâm oversharing. You didnât ask to hear any of this.â
She shrugged, as if trying to minimize the weight of everything sheâd just said.
Azzi shook her head immediately.
âStop apologizing,â she said gently, her hands resting atop the folder on the table like an anchor. Her voice was calm, but there was an underlying firmness to it, like she meant it.
âYouâre not failing her,â Azzi continued, matter-of-fact but still kind. âSheâs thriving because of you. Canât you see that?â
Azzi leaned forward just slightly, closing the already-small space between them. Paigeâs breath hitched. Their knees were still touching. The intimacy of itâ physical and emotionalâ it made Paigeâs heart stutter.
âPaige,â Azzi said softly, her voice lowering. She wet her lips unconsciously, then went on. âYou love her. You show up for her. You make her feel safe. That matters more than anything else.â
Her gaze didnât waver. âDonât let your head convince you otherwise. Alright?â
Paige let out a quiet, broken sob and nodded, wiping at her cheeks again. She felt exposed in a way that was terrifying, yet strangely relieving.
âYeah,â she whispered. âYeah. Thank you.â
She felt seen.
Not just as Adelineâs mom, but as a human. Just as⌠Paige.
â
Azzi hoped she had said the right thing.
She usually trusted herself in moments like this. She trusted her instincts, her ability to listen fully and respond with careâ but Paige had just handed her something fragile. Something personal. Something that didnât fit neatly into the mental categories Azzi normally kept parents in.
A parent had never opened up to her like that before. Not like this.
There were tears sometimes, sure. Worries about reading levels, social development, behavior charts. Parents afraid they were failing, afraid their kids were falling behind. Azzi knew how to meet those fears with reassurance and data and warmth.
But this had been different.
This wasnât just about Adeline.
This was about Paige.
Azzi stayed quiet, giving her space. She knew better than to rush a moment like this. She watched Paige dab at her cheeks, inhale carefully, gather herself back into something steadier. Azzi flipped through the folder in front of her out of habit, pages whispering softly as they turned, though she wasnât really seeing the numbers anymore.
Her attention kept drifting back to Paige.
To the way her shoulders were slightly hunched, like she was bracing for impact even after the worst of it had passed. To the way her hands rested on the edge of the table, her fingers curling and uncurling without her realizing it. To the faint flush still lingering on her cheeks.
Azzi was acutely aware of how close they were sitting.
Sheâd chosen the spot beside Paige deliberately earlier. She had told herself it was to make the conversation feel collaborative, less formalâ but now the truth pressed in harder. Their knees were touching. Their chairs were angled just enough toward each other that there was no real space to retreat into.
The classroom felt smaller because of it.
Azzi could feel it in her chest, a low hum of awareness that had nothing to do with professionalism and everything to do with want. The kind of awareness that made her notice the heat radiating from Paigeâs body, the faint scent of her shampoo, the way her breathing still hadnât quite evened out.
She suddenly had the dangerous thought that it would be so easy to reach out.
Just a hand over Paigeâs fingers. A squeeze. Something grounding. Something that said I see you without words.
She didnât.
She couldnât.
Not yet.
Azzi pressed her lips together and looked back down at the papers, though her eyes skimmed uselessly over sight-word percentages and benchmark charts. Everything she felt for Paige had been building quietly for weeks. Small moments stacking on top of each other until they felt impossible to ignore.
The way Paige listened when Azzi spoke, like her words mattered.
The way she smiled, a little crooked, when she was nervous.
The way she trusted Azzi with her daughter without hesitation.
And now this.
This vulnerability.
It complicated things in a way Azzi couldnât neatly sort through. It made the attraction sharper and heavier. Less abstract. Paige wasnât just someone she was drawn to, she was someone she wanted to protect.
That realization alone was dangerous.
Azzi swallowed and exhaled slowly through her nose, grounding herself the way she taught her students to. Keeping things professional with someone you felt this kind of human connection with was hard. Exhausting, even. It meant constantly editing yourself. Holding back instincts that came naturally.
It meant sitting with all the things you couldnât say.
And she knewâ she knew that Paige felt it too.
There was a shared awareness in the room now, something unspoken but there. It hung between them in the quiet, in the way Paige didnât rush to fill the silence, in the way she stayed turned toward Azzi now instead of retreating inward.
Azzi heard Paige shift in her chair, the soft scrape of legs against tile pulling her out of her thoughts.
Right. The conference.
Adeline.
She straightened slightly, re-centering herself, even as her heart continued to beat just a little too fast. This was still her job. This still mattered.
Before she fully pulled away, though, Azzi made a decision.
Carefully and deliberately, she reached out and ran her hand gently up Paigeâs back, all the way up until she gave her shoulder a light and grounding squeeze. The contact was briefâ supportive and measuredâ but it carried the weight sheâd intended.
It was a risk.
But she needed Paige to know she wasnât alone in the moment. That what sheâd shared hadnât fallen into a void.
Paige stilled under her touch.
Azzi felt it.
The awareness sharpened, electric and undeniable, before she withdrew her hand and folded it back over the folder like a lifeline.
âAlright,â Azzi said softly, her voice steady despite everything stirring underneath it. âLetâs take a look at Adelineâs benchmark scores.â
And just like that, they stepped back toward safer ground, both fully aware of how close theyâd come to crossing something that neither of them were ready to name.
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After about twenty more minutes of discussing Adelineâs data, the conference came to a close.
Paige felt lighter than she had walking in. Grounded. Reassured. Proud. Adeline was doing wellâ thriving, evenâ and that mattered more than anything. Whatever fears Paige had walked into the room carrying, they felt smaller now.
Azzi slid the remaining data sheets back into their folder with careful precision, smoothing the edges like she always did. The gesture felt like punctuation. An ending.
Paige stood and reached for her keys, the metallic jingle loud in the suddenly quiet classroom. The chairs scraped softly against the floor as Azzi stood too, but neither of them moved toward the door right away.
There was a pause. Not awkward. Not rushed.
Just⌠suspended.
Paige adjusted the strap of her bag on her shoulder, then stilled. Her fingers tightened around the keys, nerves sparking in her chest. She could feel the moment slipping by. That familiar instinct to retreat, to keep things safe and unspoken.
But Azzi had taken a risk earlier. A small one. A hand on her back. A squeeze of her shoulder.
Paige swallowed and turned back.
âHeyâ um,â she started, then stopped, her heart thudding hard enough that she felt it in her throat. Azzi looked up at her immediately, attentive in that way that always made Paige feel like she had the floor. Like she mattered. Always like she mattered.
âYes?â Azzi said softly.
Paige laughed under her breath, more nerves than humor. âThis might be weird,â she said, already cringing a little. âBut would you⌠would you be okay if I had your number?â
Azziâs eyebrows lifted slightly. Not in surprise exactly. More like acknowledgment.
âFor school communication,â Paige added quickly, gesturing vaguely between them. âYou know, just in case something comes up with Adeline. Emergencies. Orâ I donât know. Stuff.â
They both knew.
The lie sat gently between them, thin as tissue paper.
Azzi didnât answer right away. Paige watched her consider itâ really consider it. The professional implications. The boundaries. The rules she lived inside of every day.
Paige braced herself for a polite rejection. A suggestion to email instead. A reminder of school policy.
Instead, Azzi exhaled slowly, like sheâd made a decision.
âYeah,â she said. âSure. Let me see your phone.â
Relief rushed through Paige so fast it made her dizzy.
Paige pulled her phone out of her pocket, pulled up the contacts app, and held it out for Azzi to grab. Azzi reached for Paigeâs phone, her fingers brushing Paigeâs as she took it. The contact was brief, but it sent a sharp jolt up Paigeâs arm.
Azzi turned slightly away, typing her number into the screen. Paige watched the curve of her shoulder, the loose strand of hair that had escaped her clip earlier, the way her concentration softened her expression.
She handed the phone back and their fingers brushed again.
This time, neither of them pulled away immediately.
âIf you ever need anything,â Azzi said quietly, her voice lower now, more personal, âdonât hesitate to text.â
Paige nodded, her mouth suddenly dry. Anything. The word echoed.
She wondered what would count as anything.
Would it have to be about Adeline? A missing lunchbox. A question about sight words.
Or could it be something else?
A thank you.
A check-in.
A thinking of you she wasnât brave enough to even imagine sending yet.
âThank you,â Paige said, meaning more than just the number. She tucked her phone back into her pocket like it was something precious. âReally.â
Azzi smiled at her thenâ not the practiced one, not the teacher one. That warm one. The one that felt real.
Paige walked toward the door, then paused one last time, her hand on the frame.
âIâm really glad Addy is in in your class,â she said.
Azzi met her eyes. âSo am I.â
Paige left before either of them could say anything else.
But the buzz stayed behind, humming softly in the quiet classroom. A line had been crossedâ not loudly, but deliberately.
A/N: happy game day guys!!! hereâs a pregame read for you. this chapter is kinda short, sry :( it might seem like a nothing burger at first but i promise its not. read until the end!
CHAPTER SIX: Friday Nights
Friday nights had learned Paigeâs name.
They came without urgency, without alarms or packed backpacks waiting by the door. No rushed dinners or clock-watching. Just the quiet understanding that theyâd made it to the end of the week and could finally let their shoulders drop.
Paige pulled into the driveway just after six. They had just left rec-ball practice. Both of them were ready for the weekend, to say the least.
Adeline kicked her shoes off before Paige had even turned the engine off, one socked foot thumping against the back of the seat.
âPizza night?â Adeline asked hopefully, already craning her neck to look at Paige.
Paige smiled. âPizza night,â she confirmed, as she got out of the car to go unbuckle her. âYou remembered.â
âI always remember,â Adeline said seriously, like it was an important responsibility.
Inside, the house felt different than it did on school nights. Lived-in. Softer. Paige set her keys down, kicked off her own shoes, and let herself stand there for a second longer than usual, just breathing. Her knee ached the way it always did at the end of the weekâ dull, familiar, but manageable.
Once, Fridays had been harder. Not because of work, but because of what they reminded her of. Games she couldnât play anymore. Nights she used to fill differently. A body sheâd trusted without thinking.
Now, Friday nights meant this instead. Pizza menus. Adeline spinning in slow circles in the living room while Paige pulled out plates. Recovery measured not in milestones, but in moments she no longer flinched through.
âWhat kind?â Paige asked, already reaching to grab her phone so she could place the order.
âCheese,â Adeline said immediately. Then, after a thoughtful pause, âWith the crispy edges.â
Paige laughed softly. âOf course. I shouldâve known.â
While they waited, Adeline dragged her sight-word cards from her backpack and spread them across the coffee table like they were playing a very serious game. Paige lowered herself onto the couch with a careful exhale, stretching her leg out in front of her.
âOkay,â Adeline said, tapping the first card. âThis oneâs easy. Itâs and. Ms. Fudd says this one is super important.â
Paigeâs eyebrows lifted and her heart fluttered at the sound of her name. âOh yeah?â
âYep. She says it helps us read lots of books.â Adeline grinned, pleased with herself. âSheâs really smart, mommy. She knows all these words.â
Paige smiled, something warm settling in her chest. âShe sounds like it.â
Adeline nodded, already flipping to the next card. âShe has pretty hair too. And she knows how to help when people feel mad.â
Paige paused for half a second, then leaned forward, resting her elbows on her knees. Consider her interest piqued. âDoes she?â She asked.
âUh-huh,â Adeline said. âShe helps me breathe.â
The words landed gently, but they stayed.
Paige reached for the next card, her fingers brushing Adelineâs. âAlright,â she said softly. âShow me what youâve got.â
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They flipped through the sight words for a while. Paige gave Adeline reinforcement when she got one right, and corrected her when needed.
âOkay,â Paige said, setting the finished stack of sight word cards on the coffee table. âJust five more, and then weâre done.â
Adeline groaned dramatically, slumping sideways against the couch cushions. âThatâs what Ms. Fudd says,â she complained. âAnd then itâs never really five. Itâs like⌠fifty hundred.
Paige chuckled at that. âI promise. Real five.â
Adeline narrowed her eyes suspiciously, then sat up again, grabbing the next card. âFine.â
She squinted at it for a second, lips moving silently before she spoke. âSaid.â
Paige nodded. âGood.â
The next card went faster. Then the next. By the fourth, Adeline was smiling again, confidence creeping back in like it always did once she realized she could do it.
âI read this one at school today,â Adeline said, tapping the card proudly. âItâs over. Ms. Fudd said I was getting really good.â
âIâm not surprised,â Paige said. And she meant it.
Adeline beamed. âShe says that a lot.â
âIâm glad,â Paige replied, sliding the last card back into the stack. âOkay. You did it. Sight words complete.â
Adeline threw her hands in the air. âPizza time!â
As if on cue, the doorbell rang. Adeline bolted off the couch, socks sliding across the floor as she ran for the door.
Paige followed more slowly, listening to her daughter chatter excitedly as she accepted the pizza box like it was a prize. Paige paid attention to how her body felt as she moved. No sharp pain, just the familiar stiffness that eased once she settled. It struck her, not for the first time, how far sheâd come. How ordinary moments like this no longer felt fragile.
They ate on the couch, pizza balanced on paper plates. Adeline kicked her feet as she ate, humming between bites.
âMs. Fudd likes cheese, too,â Adeline announced suddenly.
Paige paused mid-bite. âShe told you that?â
âShe said itâs her favorite,â Adeline said matter-of-factly. âBut she said she only eats it on Saturdays.â
Paige smiled, that same warmth starting to stir in her chest. âThat sounds reasonable.â
âShe also said she likes movies,â Adeline continued. âNot scary ones though.â
Paige laughed quietly. âGood to know.â
She liked learning more about Azzi. Even if she was getting details from her five year old daughter.
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Once the plates were cleared and hands wiped, Paige pulled up Inside Out on their tv. Adeline curled into her side immediately, like it was instinctual. Paige pulled the blanket up over both of them, tucking it around Adelineâs shoulders.
As the movie started, Adeline narrated freely.
âThereâs Joy. Sheâs my favorite.â
Paige hummed in acknowledgment, her arm draped loosely around her daughter. Theyâd seen this movie before, but Adeline loved it, so they watched it a lot. She didnât mind.
Halfway through, Adeline shifted, her head resting against Paigeâs shoulder.
âSadness cries a lot,â Adeline said softly, âMs. Fudd says thatâs okay. She says feelings donât need to be fixed right away.â
Paigeâs chest tightened. âThatâs very wise of her.â
Adeline nodded, already sleepy. âShe says grown-ups forget that sometimes.â
Paige swallowed, her gaze fixed on the screen even as her thoughts drifted. The pull she felt toward Azzi wasnât just attractionâ though that was there, undeniable nowâ it was this quiet trust building layer by layer. The way Azzi spoke to Adeline. The way she noticed her. The way she made space for feelings without making them feel like problems.
Paige realized she hadnât felt this kind of relief around another adult in a long time.
When the credits rolled, Adeline barely stirred. Paige clicked the TV off and sat still for a moment, listening to her daughterâs breathing slow and even.
âBath or straight to bed?â Paige asked quietly, her hand gently rubbing circles into Adelineâs back.
âBath,â Adeline whispered. âBut fast.â
The bath was quick and calm. Adeline leaned against the side of the tub while Paige washed her hair, eyes already drooping. Pajamas went on easily after. Soft ones, that were worn thin from use.
Adeline climbed into bed without protest, curling under the covers as Paige tucked her in.
âWas I good today?â she asked, suddenly serious.
Paige brushed her hair back gently. âYou were the best.â
Paige closed the door quietly behind her and stood in the hallway for a moment, the house settled and still. She felt tired in a good wayâ the kind that came from being there. From building a bond. From maintaining it.
Once she was in her room, she showered, and then changed into something comfortable before she slid into bed. The sheets were cool against her skin. She lay back, staring at the ceiling, not quite ready to sleep yet.
Her thoughts drifted back to her interactions with Azzi. To her steady voice. To the way she smiled when she talked about Adeline. To the ease she carried herself with. It was professional, yes, but also warm in a way that felt intentional.
Paige let out a deep breath.
She wasnât imagining it anymore. She hadnât been for a while. The pull was real, and it wasnât going anywhere.
And she let herself acknowledge that.
â
By the time Azzi shut the door behind her, the house felt like an exhale.
The kind that came after holding tension in her shoulders all week. Twenty small voices, constant motion, questions that never quite stopped. She loved her job, but she could admit that by Friday, she needed a break.
She dropped her keys into the ceramic bowl by the door and kicked off her shoes, barely having time to set her bag down before two dogsâ one beagle, one golden doodleâ barreled toward her.
âOkay, okay,â she laughed softly as Maggie skidded across the hardwood, Nola right behind her. Their tails wagged hard enough to knock into her legs. âI missed you too.â
She crouched to scratch behind their ears, letting herself stay there for a moment longer than necessary. The dogs pressed into her like theyâd been counting the hours. It grounded her. Reminded her that here, she didnât have to be on.
She changed into sweats and an old sweatshirt, the one with paint stains on the sleeve from a long-forgotten classroom project, and pulled her laptop onto the dining table. Friday nights werenât for big plans. They were for reset.
Lesson planning came first when her weekends began, always.
She moved through it efficiently, adjusting next weekâs schedule, swapping out a reading activity she knew would be too long for something more hands-on. She smiled to herself when she added a feelings chart to Monday morningâs routine.
It had been one of those weeks.
When she was done, she closed her laptop with a quiet sense of accomplishment and turned toward the kitchen. Soup simmered on the stove, something simple sheâd thrown together earlierâ chicken, vegetables, noodles. Comfort without effort.
She ate at the counter while Nola laid stretched out at her feet and Maggie watched her like she might share. Azzi smiled and slid a carrot into Maggieâs bowl.
After dinner, she cleaned up slowly. No rush. The house was dim, the lights low. She put on a movie sheâd already seen, more background noise than anything else, and curled into the corner of the couch with a blanket and both dogs crowding her space.
Her phone buzzed on the coffee table.
She glanced at it absently. It was just a notification from the school system calendar, but it made her pause.
Paige crossed her mind without warning.
Not as a parent. Not as Ms. Bueckers.
Just⌠Paige.
Azzi sighed softly, staring at the TV without really seeing it. She thought of the way Paige had stood in the classroom doorway earlier that week. Hesitant, protective, soft in a way that felt deliberate. The way she listened, really listened, when Azzi spoke. The way her gratitude hadnât felt like obligation, but something heavier. It felt earned.
And then, unhelpfully, Azzi remembered the look Paige had given her when she thanked her. The way her voice had dipped. The way her eyes had lingered for just a second too long.
That hadnât been nothing.
Azzi shifted on the couch, her jaw tightening slightly. She wasnât naĂŻve. She knew when a line existed, and she knew when she was standing too close to it.
Still, the thought didnât fade.
She told herself it made sense. Paige was someone she interacted with often. Someone she respected. Someone who trusted her with the most important thing in her life. Of course that created closeness. Of course there was warmth there.
But she didnât feel this warmth with other parents. Not warmth this strong.
Her stomach flipped, subtleâ but there.
Azzi reached down to scratch Nolaâs head, grounding herself again. âMom needs to get a grip,â she murmured quietly.
She turned the TV off earlier than planned and stood, stretching her arms over her head. The week had been long. She was tired. Overthinking came easily when she was tired. It was easy to blame these thoughts on exhaustion.
She took the dogs out and turned off the lights, then headed to the bathroom to shower.
She stayed in there a while, just decompressing. There was nothing like a scalding hot shower.
Afterwards, she let the dogs settle into their usual spots at the foot of the bed, and then slid under the covers. The room was quiet except for the soft rhythm of breathing around her.
Azzi stared up at the ceiling.
Her mind refused to slow.
She thought of Paige again. This time, she didnât try to stop it. The way she spoke to Adeline. The way she carried herself, steady but tender. The grief Azzi had sensed just under the surface, something unresolved but not consuming. The kind that lived alongside love, not instead of it.
Azzi pressed her fingers against the bridge of her nose and let out an exhale.
This wasnât a crush. It couldnât be. She didnât let herself have those. Not like this, not with parents, not ever. She prided herself on the boundaries she set. On professionalism.
Even if her chest felt tight in a way that had nothing to do with exhaustion.
She turned onto her side, her eyes closing briefly before opening again.
Sleep wasnât coming anytime soon.
And that realization, more than the thoughts themselves, made her uneasy.
Because it meant this wasnât just passing.
It meant sheâd started paying attention.
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It was 2 a.m. now, and Paige still couldnât sleep.
She laid on her back, her hands fidgeting with the bed comforter. Her eyes were wide open as she stared at the ceiling, counting nothing, thinking of everything.
She shouldâve been tired. She was tiredâ bone-deep, the kind that lived behind her eyes, but her mind refused to settle down.
It kept drifting.
Back to the way Azzi had smiled at pickup that afternoon. Not the polite, professional one. The deeper one. The one that had lingered half a second too long. The way sheâd said together when she talked about supporting Adeline, like it was an assumption instead of a courtesy. Like she already belonged in that space with her.
Paige swallowed and rolled onto her side, pulling the blanket closer around her waist.
She told herself it was ridiculous. That she was reading into things because her life felt like it might be missing something. Because she was still adjusting to this version of her life five years laterâ quiet nights, early mornings, the absence of noise she used to fill with practice schedules and flights and locker rooms.
Her thoughts slid back to Azzi anyway. To the calm in her voice. The steadiness. The way she could comfort children without thinking, like that was just where she belonged when they needed her.
Paigeâs hand shifted absently against her stomach, her fingers curling into the fabric of her t-shirt. She closed her eyes, just for a moment, and let herself imagine what it would feel like to be on the other end of that care from Azzi. That focus and warmth.
Her heart started to race before she realized it.
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Across town, Azzi laid on her side, one leg bent, the dogs now asleep somewhere else in the houseâ probably on the couch. The week sat heavy in her muscles, in the ache between her shoulders, in the soreness that came from giving so much of herself and not quite knowing when to stop.
She stared into the darkness, replaying past moments with Paige in pieces.
Prolonged eye contact in drop-off lines. The brush of fingers when handing a backpack, or a folder, or a lunchbox. The way Paigeâs eyes would light up and a smile would form when she approached the car with Adeline at dismissal. The way she stood a little too close when they talked. But also, the tension she carried, coiled and contained, like someone whoâd spent her whole life pushing forward even when she shouldâve stopped.
Azzi could almost feel these moments happening in real time, right now. Almost.
She exhaled slowly as she squeezed her eyes shut.
She was good at boundaries. She was proud of them. They were what let her do this job without burning out completely. Without crossing lines that mattered.
But tonight, exhaustion loosened her grip on all of that.
Azzi shifted, and her hand slid under the blanket to slip into her sleep shorts.
She told herself this was just stress. Just her body wanting relief after a long week. It didnât mean anything.
Still, her pulse picked up.
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Back in Paigeâs room, the quiet felt heavier now. Charged.
She rolled again, facing the window, one knee drawing up slightly. Her hand followed the movement without conscious thought, and it slipped lower, tucking under the waistband of her boxers like it belonged there.
She didnât picture anything explicit. She didnât need to.
Just Azziâs voice. Low and calm. Saying her name in that raspy tone. Saying it like it mattered.
Paige bit down on her lip, stifling a sound she hadnât meant to make.
At the same time, Azziâs fingers curled lightly into the sheets, then relaxed, then curled again, as the fingers of her other hand worked at herself. Her breathing picked up as she let herself sink into the sensation of wanting something she knew she couldnât touch.
She imagined Paige laughing softly. Paige touching her hand, or her cheek, or her stomach. The warmth of another body close by. The idea of being chosen, not as a teacher or a professional or a steady presence, but as herself.
Both women let themselves indulge, separated by miles and circumstance and better judgment, yet caught in the same heated moment.
Hands moved beneath blankets.
Thoughts blurred.
The world narrowed to breath and warmth and the ache of wanting.
After it was over, the night held them both thereâ awake, restless, and undeniably aware that something had shifted.
And now, there was no way it was going to unshift on its own.
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A/N: happy new year everyone! hereâs chapter five. p & a are starting to subtly flirt now (on both sides), but reminder, this is a slow burn. patience is key⌠the tides will turn soon.
CHAPTER FIVE: The Hard Day
Paige knew the moment that she woke Adeline up that she was acting off.
It took her longer to get out of bed, she didnât speak once while Paige dressed her, and she tried to fight back while Paige brushed her hairâ little tugs and twists instead of the usual sleepy compliance.
Paige didnât ask her about it at first. Maybe she just needed time to adjust this morning. Waking up at 6:30 a.m. is never fun.
Usually, Paige would talk to Adeline about the dayâs plans while the little girl ate breakfastâ what she put in her lunchbox, whether it was a practice day at the recreational center, what book Paige hoped sheâd bring home from the classroom library, but this morning, Paige packed her backpack and lunchbox in near silence, glancing at the table every once in a while to see if Adeline looked any happier.
She didnât.
âAddy,â Paige spoke out, and her daughter looked up from her bowl of oatmeal, her eyes heavy and unfocused. âYou okay, baby doll? Youâre quiet this morning.â Paige kept her voice softâ gentle on purpose.
Adeline just looked at her for a second, then pushed her spoon through her oatmeal again.
âI donât like today,â she replied. Her voice was barely above a whisper, like saying it any louder might make it more true.
Something in Paigeâs chest tightened.
Paige didnât press it. She didnât want to upset her, didnât want to turn a bad mood into a bigger thing.
Sheâs five. Hard days happen, Paige told herself. As much as it hurt to see Adeline sad, this just⌠happened sometimes. Kids woke up wrong. Adults did too.
Still, the feeling stayed with her.
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The car ride to school was quiet, just like the rest of the morning. Paige played the Tangled soundtrackâ which was usually a guaranteed winâ but Adeline didnât sing along to a single word. She stared out the window, forehead resting against the glass.
Paigeâs concern deepened. This felt worse than she had originally thought.
By the time they reached the drop-off line, Paige was already wound tight. She waited until it was their turn, her hands gripping the steering wheel a little firmer than necessary.
Her heart gave a small lurch when she saw Azzi walking toward Adelineâs door.
Ms. Fudd looked the same as alwaysâ put together but not stiff, clipboard tucked under one arm, hair pulled back neatly. She smiled as soon as she reached the car, like the morning hadnât worn her down yet.
âGood morning, Adeline!â she said brightly.
Adeline didnât respond. She just let Ms. Fudd unbuckle her and lift her out of the car, her body going pliant in a way that made Paigeâs chest ache.
Azzi glanced up at Paige, her smile softening, her head tilting slightly. Paige realized sheâd already clocked itâ the quiet, the heaviness, the difference.
âSheâsâ uhâ just not in the happiest mood this morning,â Paige said, watching as Azzi helped Adeline put her backpack on.
Azzi nodded, her hand closing gently around Adelineâs. âOh,â she said quietly, understanding immediately. She looked down at Adeline again, her expression warm and unhurried. Like she had all the time in the world.
âThatâs okay. No worries,â Ms. Fudd said, giving Paige a reassuring nodâ one that felt practiced, but sincere. Paige knew she probably gave that look to parents every single day.
And still, it worked.
Paige nodded back, though the anxiety didnât fully loosen its grip. She hated when Adeline was upsetâ obviously, because Adeline was her whole heart, but she also hated the idea of making things harder for Azzi. She knew sour moods came with the job. Kids cried. Kids struggled. But she wanted things to go smoothly. For Adeline. For Azzi.
She didnât miss the way Azzi crouched slightly, bringing herself closer to Adelineâs height, murmuring something Paige couldnât hear. The sight of it, how natural it looked, it settled something in Paige even as it stirred something else she didnât name.
Azzi glanced up then, just brieflyâ and caught Paige watching.
Not in a confrontational way. Not even curious. Just⌠aware.
Her mouth curved into a small smile, softer than the one sheâd used for the other parents. Quieter. Like it was meant only for Paige.
âSheâll be okay,â Azzi said, low enough that it felt almost private. âSome mornings just need a gentler landing.â
Paige swallowed. âYeah,â she said, a little breathless despite herself. âThank you.â
Azzi held her gaze a second longer than necessary. Not long enough to be inappropriateâ just long enough for Paige to feel it.
Then Azzi straightened, the moment gone as quickly as it had appeared.
âJustâ donât hesitate to email me,â Paige said, catching Ms. Fuddâs attention before she walked off. âLikeâ if anything goes wrong.â
Azzi looked back at her, eyebrows lifting just a touch, before she waved Paige off with her free hand. âIâm sure weâll be just fine,â she said easily.
Then she smiled down at Adeline again, before looking at Paige once more. âHave a nice day,â she said softly.
Azzi handed Adeline off to another teacher waiting near the doors and moved on to the next car.
Paige watched her walk away longer than she meant to.
âBye, Addy Bug!â Paige called out, forcing brightness into her voice.
Adeline lifted her hand and gave a small, straight-faced wave before disappearing inside.
Even with Azziâs reassurance echoing in her ears, Paige drove away feeling unsettled. like sheâd left something unfinished behind.
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Center time was usually Azziâs favorite part of the morning.
The classroom hummed in a low, busy way. There were plastic bins sliding across tables, small voices negotiating rules to games they were mostly inventing on the spot. Azzi stood near the art center, her eyes moving constantly. Years of practice had taught her how to watch without hovering.
She noticed Adeline before anything actually happened.
The way her shoulders were tense. The way she hovered instead of settling at one center. The way her fingers twisted at the hem of her shirt as she stared at the block bin like it had personally wronged her.
Azzi shifted closer without making it obvious.
âHey, weâre sharing,â another child saidâgentle, but firm.
âBut I want it,â Adeline replied, her voice sharp in a way it hadnât been at drop-off.
Before Azzi could step in, Adeline reached forward and yanked the wooden truck from the other childâs hands.
The room went quiet in that immediate, fragile way only five-year-olds could manage.
Ms. Fudd was there instantly.
She crouched down to Adelineâs level, her voice calm, her body language open. No sharp intake of breath. No raised voice. Just steady presence.
âHey,â she said softly. âPause.â
Adeline froze, her chest already heaving, eyes bright with the threat of tears.
Ms. Fudd gently but firmly took the truck from her hand and handed it back to the little boy Adeline had grabbed it from. âWe donât grab from our friends,â she said evenly. âThat doesnât feel good for them.â
Adelineâs face crumpled.
âI wanted it,â she said, her voice wobbling. âI just wanted it.â
âI know,â Ms. Fudd said immediately. And she meant it. âItâs really hard when you want something and someone else has it.â
She glanced at the other child. âYouâre okay,â she said reassuringly. âThank you for using your words.â
Then her attention went back to Adelineâ fully, completely.
âCan you tell me what you were feeling right before you grabbed it?â She asked.
Adeline shrugged, then shook her head. Her eyes filled with tears.
âI just want my mommy,â she whispered.
Something inside Azzi softened painfully.
There it was. The real thing. The thing under the thing.
Ms. Fudd nodded slowly. âThat makes sense,â she said gently. âSome days feel heavier than others.â
Adeline wiped her nose on her sleeve. âShe said today would be okay.â
Azzi felt the familiar ache settle in her chest. The one that came from caring this much and knowing it would never stop. She placed a hand lightly on Adelineâs back, grounding but respectful.
âYour mom loves you very much,â she said. âAnd sheâll be back this afternoon. But right now, we still have to be kind with our friends.â
Adeline nodded, small and earnest.
âHereâs what weâre going to do,â she continued. âYouâre going to take three big breaths with me, then you can choose a different center, or you can wait your turn for the truck.â
They breathed together.
One.
Two.
Three.
Adeline sniffed, then pointed toward the puzzle table.
âGood choice,â Ms. Fudd said warmly. âThank you for fixing it.â
As Adeline walked away, calmer but still tender, Azzi stayed crouched for a moment longer than necessary.
Kids like her felt everything all the way through. Love, frustration, longingâ it all lived close to the surface. Azzi recognized it because sheâd always been the same way.
Her thoughts drifted, briefly and unhelpfully, to Paige.
She pictured her at home, maybe checking her phone more than she meant to. Maybe replaying the drop-off. Azzi knew that look. Parents wore it like a second skin.
She exhaled slowly.
Iâll need to be careful with how I explain this, she thought. Honest. Reassuring. Professional.
Always professional.
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The classroom was quiet in that strange and temporary way it only ever was when the kids were at specials.
Azzi sat at her desk, the hum of the lights overhead, her Gmail pulled up in front of her. She rested her fingers on the keyboard, thinking for a moment before typing.
She wanted to get it right.
Hello Ms. Bueckers,
I wanted to reach out and give you a quick update on Adelineâs day so far.
She had a small moment during center time where she felt frustrated and grabbed a toy from a classmate. We talked through it together, and she was able to calm down, use her words, and make a positive choice afterward. She has been doing well since and is participating normally in activities.
It seemed like she was feeling a bit more sensitive today, which is completely normal. She was receptive to guidance and showed a lot of empathy once she had a moment to regulate.
Please donât worry. I wanted to keep you informed, and Iâm very proud of how she handled herself.
Iâll be available after dismissal if youâd like to talk briefly when you pick her up.
Best,
Ms. Fudd
Azzi sent the email after a quick skim over it. Then, she focused on getting as much as she could done before the kids came back from art class. Those 50 minutes always flew by.
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Paige was folding laundry when her phone buzzed.
She didnât look at it right away. She had Adelineâs clothes spread across the couch. Her tiny leggings, a t-shirt with glittery stars, socks that never stayed paired no matter how careful Paige was. The rhythm of it was calming. Normal. Something she could do without thinking.
Her phone lit up again.
Paige wiped her hands on her sweatpants and grabbed it, already half-expecting a notification from ESPN or a group chat sheâd muted weeks ago.
Instead, she saw the subject line.
A quick check-in about Adeline.
Her chest tightened instantly.
She leaned back against the arm of the couch and opened the email, her thumb hovering for half a second too long before she let herself read it.
She read it once.
Then again.
Then a third time, slower.
Small moment.
Felt frustrated.
Grabbed a toy.
We talked through it.
Please donât worry.
Paige swallowed.
If it was so small, why email me? a quiet voice in her head asked.
She hated that voice. Hated how fast it showed up.
Her eyes caught on phrases she was sure were supposed to be reassuringâ small moment, normal, proudâ and somehow twisted them into something heavier.
Sensitive today.
Had a moment.
Needed to calm down.
Paigeâs grip on the phone tightened.
Was she upset because of this morning? Because Paige hadnât pushed her to talk? Because sheâd brushed off that quiet I donât like today like it was nothing?
Her mind jumped tracks too easily. She was an over thinker, and she knew it.
Did I miss something?
Is this my fault?
Paige exhaled shakily and stared down at the laundry, suddenly unable to remember what sheâd already folded.
Adeline had always felt things deeply. Paige knew that. Sheâd been the same way as a kidâ intense, sensitive, emotionally wide open. It wasnât a flaw. It was just⌠something that needed care.
But what if she wasnât giving Adeline enough of that?
Her thoughts slid, uninvited, into familiar territory.
The injury.
The way everything had felt fine. Manageable, evenâ until it wasnât. One wrong moment. One thing she hadnât listened to closely enough. One body signal sheâd pushed past because she wanted to keep going.
The way control had slipped right out of her hands.
Paige pressed her lips together, willing the comparison away. This wasnât even close to being the same. Adeline wasnât broken. Nothing terrible had happened.
But still, that old fear sat heavy in her chest. The fear that loving something didnât protect it. That trying your best didnât always mean it worked out.
She read the last line again.
Iâll be available after dismissal if youâd like to talk briefly when you pick her up.
Paigeâs heart thudded.
Inside, then. Not the car line. Not a quick handoff and a wave. Inside meant serious. Meant eye contact. Meant answers she wasnât sure she was ready to hear.
Her instinct was protective first, something sharp and immediate. I need to see her. I need to make sure sheâs okay.
Right behind it came gratitude. Something she felt for Azzi often.
Azzi noticed.
Azzi handled it.
Azzi cared enough to explain.
And thenâ quietly, almost guiltily, came fear. Fear of how much relief that thought brought her.
Paige locked her phone and set it face-down on the coffee table. She stood there for a moment, hands at her sides, breathing through the knot in her chest.
She trusted Azzi. That was the truth of it.
And somehow, that felt just as scary as it did comforting.
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Paige arrived at Riverwood a bit later today to pick Adeline up. Regular dismissal was already overâ all the kids picked up by their parents or sent to an after-school program.
She clicked the button with a ring icon on it at the entrance, which alerted the office, who would check the cameras before allowing her inside. Once the door buzzed open, she stepped inside, and made her way towards Room 5B.
She was more nervous than she shouldâve been. Azzi had told her it was alright. That her and Adeline had talked it out and fixed it. But stillâ Paige hated that Adeline had a bad day. She had been doing so good in school so far, and she didnât want this to be a turning point.
When Paige got to the Kindergarten hallway, she stopped and took a deep breath. She already had enough trouble acting composed around Azzi. This whole Adeline incident would just make it worse.
Finally, she approached Ms. Fuddâs classroom, where the door was already propped open. Azzi was awaiting her arrival. Something about that made Paigeâs heart skip a beat.
When she stepped into the doorway, her eyes landed on both Azzi and her daughter. They were sitting at one of the round tables, and Azzi seemed to be going over some sight words with Adeline. That meant a lot to Paigeâ that Ms. Fudd was taking this little bit of extra time to work with her.
She watched for just a moment, then cleared her throat to let them know she was there.
Adeline looked up first.
Her face showed instant relief, a bit of embarrassment flickering right alongside it. She slid out of her chair and crossed the small distance to Paige in a hurry, her arms wrapping tight around her waist like sheâd been holding herself together all afternoon and had finally run out of energy.
Paigeâs chest ached.
âHey,â she murmured, crouching slightly so she could wrap her arms around her, pressing a kiss into her hair. âThereâs my girl.â
Adeline buried her face deeper into Paigeâs shirt, her fingers curling into the fabric. She didnât say anything. She didnât have to.
Paige looked up then, meeting Azziâs eyes.
Azzi stood as well, smoothing a hand over the edge of the table out of habit. She gave Paige a small, reassuring smileâ calm, open, and steady.
âShe had a long day,â Ms. Fudd said gently, like she was translating something Paige already felt in her bones. âWhich is totally normal for this age.â
Paige nodded, swallowing past the lump in her throat. âYeah,â she said quietly. âI figured.â
Azzi continued, her tone even and careful. âLike I wrote in the email, during center time this morning, Adeline got frustrated over a toy and pulled it away from another student. There were some tears, but we paused and talked through it.â
She gestured lightly toward Adeline. âShe did a really good job calming her body afterward.â
Paigeâs hand moved instinctively, rubbing slow circles into Adelineâs back. âIâm really sorry,â she said, the apology spilling out before she could stop it. âShe had a rough morning.â
Ms. Fudd shook her head immediately. âNo need to apologize. Truly.â Her voice was warm but firm, a boundary wrapped in kindness. âThis happens all the time in kindergarten. Learning how to handle big feelings is part of why theyâre here.â
Paige let out a breath she hadnât realized sheâd been holding.
âThereâs no punishment,â Azzi added. âJust a reminder and continued support. If it becomes a pattern, weâll address it together. But right now? This was just a hard day.â
The way she said together landed heavier than Paige expected.
âThank you,â Paige said, her voice soft but sincere. She meant more than just the words Azzi had spoken. She meant the patience, the care, the way Adeline hadnât been shamed or diminished. âReally. I-I appreciate how you handled it.â
Azzi felt it then. The weight of that gratitude.
Sheâd heard thanks from parents beforeâ dozens of times, every weekâ but this was different. Paigeâs voice wasnât performative or polite. It trembled just slightly, like the emotion was being kept on a short leash.
Azzi recognized that look. Vulnerability, barely contained. Something in her chest tugged in response.
Azziâs lips parted like she was about to say something elseâ something not scriptedâ then she stopped herself.
âFor what itâs worth,â she said instead, her voice quieter now, âyouâre doing a really good job with her.â
Paige blinked. That wasnât about the incident. She could tell immediately.
âOh,â she said, a little caught off guard. âIâ thank you.â
Azzi smiled again. This one wasnât the standard teacher smile. It didnât feel rehearsed.
âSheâs kind,â Azzi continued. âAnd empathetic. Those things donât come from nowhere. Seems like she got that from her mom.â
Something warm unfurled low in Paigeâs chest. Praise hit different when it came from someone whose opinion matteredâ and Azziâs did. More than she was ready to admit.
Their eyes held.
Just for a beat.
Then Adeline shifted between them, tugging at Paigeâs shirt, and the moment folded back into itself.
Azzi straightened subtly, grounding herself, letting professionalism settle back into place like armor she knew how to wear well. This was the moment lines could blur if she let them.
She didnât. She wouldnât.
Instead, she smiled gently and redirected her attention downward. âIâll see you tomorrow, okay, Adeline?â
Adeline peeked up at her from Paigeâs side, eyes tired, cheeks flushed. She nodded once, then tightened her grip on Paige like she wasnât planning on letting go anytime soon.
Paige gave a small, apologetic smile. âLooks like sheâs had enough for today.â
Azzi nodded, understanding clear in her expression. âThat makes two of us,â she said lightly, then added, âShe did really well bouncing back.â
Paigeâs throat tightened again. She nodded, unable to say much more without risking tears.
âHave a good evening,â Azzi said, stepping back just enough to give them space.
âYou too,â Paige replied.
As Paige guided Adeline out into the hallway, Adeline glanced back once, shy and uncertain, before lifting her hand in a small wave.
Azzi waved back.
As Paige and Adeline left the hallway, Azzi stood alone in the quiet classroom, her hands resting on the edge of the table, her heart beating just a little faster than it should have.
Get it together. Focus, she told herself.
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The car was quiet when Paige pulled out of the school parking lot.
Not the awkward kind of quiet, just tired. The kind that sat heavy after a long day and didnât ask to be filled right away.
Adeline sat in her car seat with her shoes kicked halfway off, her knees pulled up, her forehead resting against the window. She absentmindedly traced shapes in the fog on the glass with one finger.
Paige glanced at her in the rearview mirror.
âYou wanna tell me about today?â she asked gently, keeping her voice light.
Adeline shrugged. âIt was bad.â
Paigeâs chest tightened, but she kept her tone steady. âBad days happen,â she said. âThat doesnât mean youâre bad.â
Adeline was quiet for a second, then said, âI didnât mean to grab it. I just wanted it.â
Paige nodded, even though Adeline couldnât see her. âI know,â she said. âBig feelings make our hands do stuff sometimes.â
Adeline sniffed. âAnd I cried.â
âI know,â Paige said softly. âAnd thatâs okay too.â
She waited a beat, then added, âIâm not mad at you. Not even a little.â
That got Adelineâs attention. Her head lifted from the window. âReally?â
âReally,â Paige said. âIâm proud of you for listening and calming down.â
Adeline thought about that, then nodded once, like she was filing the information away. âMs. Fudd helped me breathe,â she said. âShe said some days feel heavy.â
Paige smiled. âShe sounds very smart.â
Adeline yawned, her entire body folding inward. âCan I have mac and cheese for dinner?â
Paige laughed quietly. âYeah,â she said. âWe can have mac and cheese.â
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By the time they got home, Adeline was dragging her feet through the house, exhaustion written into every movement. Paige helped her kick off her shoes, set her backpack by the door, and started the oven without even thinking about it.
While the food cooked, Adeline curled up on the couch with her favorite blanket and watched a cartoon, her eyes already half-closed.
âBath after dinner?â Paige asked from her spot in the kitchen.
Adeline nodded. âAnd then bedtime.â
âSounds like a plan,â Paige responded.
Dinner was quiet and simple. Adeline ate slowly, content just to be there, occasionally humming to herself between bites. Paige watched her from across the table, that familiar ache swelling in her chest. The fierce and protective love that never quite stopped feeling overwhelming.
After the bath, Paige put Adeline in her pajamas, her hair damp and curling at the ends.
âMommy?â she asked, her eyes scanning over Paigeâs face.
Paige looked at her as she reached to pull down Adelineâs bed covers. âYeah, baby?â
âCan I sleep in your bed tonight?â Adeline asked, already hopeful. Her voice was laced with exhaustion.
Paige didnât hesitate. âOf course you can.â She knew her daughter wouldnât ask for that forever, so she jumped at every opportunity she could get.
Adelineâs face broke into a tired smile. They walked down the hall together, then both climbed into Paigeâs bed. Adeline curled into her motherâs side almost immediately. Paige shut off the lamp by the bed, and wrapped an arm around Adelineâs small, warm body.
âToday was not fun,â Adeline murmured into the quiet.
Paige nodded against her hair. âTomorrow will be better.â
Adeline was asleep within minutes, her breathing evening out, her fingers still clutching the hem of Paigeâs shirt.
Paige stayed awake a little longer.
Adelineâs breathing had evened out beside her, soft and steady, one small hand still curled into the fabric of Paigeâs shirt like an anchor. Paige didnât move. She lay there, eyes open in the dark, letting the weight of the day settle.
Her mind drifted back to the classroom without her permission.
To the way Azzi had knelt beside Adeline, yesâ her calm voice, her patience, the gentleness in her handsâ but also to the moments that had nothing to do with Adeline at all.
The way Azziâs eyes had lingered a beat too long when Paige spoke. The soft curve of her smile when Paige thanked her, like sheâd heard more than just the words. The lightness in her voiceâ easy, almost teasing, slipping in like it belonged there.
Paige hadnât imagined it. She was sure of that now.
There had been something in the way Azzi looked at her earlier. It wasnât just professional warmth, not just polite reassurance. It was something curious. Something assessing. Like Azzi had been aware of Paige in the room in a way that went beyond her role as Adelineâs teacher.
That was the part that unsettled her most.
She trusted Azziâ deeply, instinctivelyâ and somehow, alongside that trust, something else had been growing. A quiet awareness. A pull she hadnât asked for, but hadnât shut down either. The kind that showed up in small glances and carefully chosen words. The kind that stayed tasteful and contained, but unmistakably alive.
It wasnât just admiration. It wasnât just relief.
And it wasnât one-sided. Paige felt that, too. The recognition, the shared spark hovering just beneath the surface, never spoken aloud but gently acknowledged.
She rolled onto her side, careful not to wake Adeline, and stared at the wall. Her chest felt full in an unfamiliar way. It wasnât panicked, not guilty, just⌠alert. Awake.
This wasnât harmless anymore. Not entirely. It was subtle and restrained and wrapped tightly in professionalism, but it was real. It had weight. And Paige could feel how easily it might tip into something more if either of them let it.
She took the safe route, like she always did.
Told herself it was gratitude.
Told herself it was exhaustion.
Told herself it was just the intensity of a long day and a vulnerable moment.
She told herself a lot of things.
In the dark, Adeline shifted closer, and Paige tightened her arm around her automatically. That grounded her. Choosing the familiar.
A/N: happy game day! i think this is my favorite chapter thus far! enjoy :)
CHAPTER FOUR: Between The Lines
It was now the end of August. Paige couldnât believe Adeline had already been in Kindergarten for almost a whole month. Time was flying by, and Paigeâs heart ached, because she knew she couldnât slow it down.
Paige had just picked Adeline up from school. It was a Tuesday afternoon, and they were just doing their usual after-school routine.
Paige would always unpack Adelineâs lunchbox and backpack as soon as they got home. She would look through her folder, make sure nothing needed to be signed or filled out, and would take out any completed worksheets that Ms. Fudd had sent home.
Paige set Adelineâs lunchbox by the microwaveâ where she always set it, so she wouldnât forget to pack her lunch the next day, then she approached Adeline on the couch, where the little girl was eating a string cheese stick and watching a cartoon on the television.
âCan I have your folder, sweetheart?â Paige asked, and Adeline nodded, before reaching into her backpack and handing it over. Her eyes didnât move away from the tv once.
Paige grabbed the folder, then sat down on the couch to check its contents. The front had her name on itâ Adeline Bueckersâ in bold lettering, along with some stickers. Azzi had definitely let her students decorate their folders themselves. Paige found that to be so adorable.
When she opened up the folder, she first noticed there was a few papers in the keep at home section of the folder. She grabbed the worksheets, smiling to herself as she flipped through them.
It was all things that Adeline had completed in class. Simple number sheets, a couple vowel practices, and some drawings. Each one had a smiley face from Azzi on it, along with an encouraging phrase such as good job! or excellent work! Ms. Fudd was such an uplifter. Paige admired that about her.
Next, Paige checked Adelineâs behavior sheet. Everything seemed to be great, no incident reports or office referrals. Adeline seemed to be a well-behaved kid at school. That made Paige so proud.
She was just about the close the folder and slip it back into Adelineâs bag, when something caught her eye. A small, ripped sheet of paper, with black pen ink on it. A handwritten note.
She gently pulled it out of the folder pocket, and let her eyes scan over the words.
Adeline had such a wonderful day today! She worked so hard during centers and was so kind to her classmates. Thank you for raising such a thoughtful, curious kid. It shows.
â Ms. Fudd âĄ
It was a simple note. A note Paige was sure that Azzi left for every student in her class at some time or another, but she felt special anywayâ and the letter wasnât even for her. It was for Adeline.
âAddy,â Paige breathed out, reaching over to gently rub her back. âMs. Fudd sent home a note for you,â she said.
At first, Adeline didnât react, but once she heard her teacherâs name, her head snapped towards the note, and a smile formed on her face.
Paige read it for her, then gave her a kiss on the top of her head.
âMommyâs so proud of you, baby,â she said softly, then let Adeline get back to watching her cartoon. The little girl seemed more interested in Paw Patrol than the note.
That was fine. Paige knew Adeline appreciated the note. The smile on her face proved that.
Paige folded the note once, then unfolded it again.
She told herself she was just going to put it back in the folder. She didnât. Instead, she let her eyes linger on the handwritingâ rounded and careful, slightly slanted to the right. The letters werenât rushed, but they werenât stiff either. Confident. Warm. The kind of handwriting that belonged to someone who took their time, even when they didnât technically have to.
Azziâs a hearts-on-notes person, Paige realized. That tiny detail settled somewhere in her chest.
The pen pressure varied just a little. Heavier on certain words, lighter on others, and Paige found herself wondering if that meant anything at all. Wonderful. Kind. It shows. She traced the sentences with her eyes again, slower this time, like rereading a favorite line in a book.
The heart at the end was small. Intentional. Not overdone. Paige imagined Azzi adding it almost as an afterthought, a final gentle touch before sliding the note into the folder. It was easy to pictureâ Azzi at her desk before dismissal, getting folders ready to go home.
Paige swallowed thickly.
She knewâ logicallyâ that this was part of the job. That teachers sent notes home all the time. That this didnât mean anything more than what it said. And yet, it didnât feel generic. It didnât feel copied and pasted or dashed off between tasks. It felt⌠seen. Even if Paige wasnât the one meant to be seen.
She glanced back at Adeline, who was now laying sideways on the couch, feet propped up on the armrest, fully absorbed in her showâ already moved on, already content.
Paige looked back down at the note one last time before shutting the folder and sliding it back into Adelineâs backpack. She kept the note out. She wanted to keep itâ for Addy, of course.
Paige stood up from the couch with the note still in her hand.
She walked into the kitchen, opened the drawer by the fridge, and pulled out a magnet. It was a blue one shaped like a basketball that Adeline had picked out at the dollar store months ago. Paige smoothed the note flat against the stainless steel and pressed the magnet over the corner, right at eye level.
There.
That way, Adeline could see it every morning. A reminder. Encouragement. Proof that her teacher noticed her.
That was what Paige told herself, anyway.
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Wednesday morning, Paige caught herself reading it while her coffee brewed. She leaned against the counter, her mug warming her palms, her eyes scanning the same sentences like they might change.
Such a wonderful day today.
So kind to her classmates.
She imagined Adeline during centers at schoolâ small hands busy, tongue peeking out in concentration, and felt a swell of pride so sharp it nearly hurt. Paige had always loved watching her daughter in spaces where she wasnât needed. Loved it, even when it scared her.
She reread the line about raising a thoughtful, curious kid.
Her throat tightened.
Paige didnât know when sheâd started measuring her life in moments like this. Notes home, fridge magnets, gold stars that werenât hersâ but somewhere along the way, it had happened. Somewhere between surgeries and rehab and the slow, quiet realization that the league wasnât calling her anymore.
This still mattered, she told herself. It counted.
On Wednesday afternoon, while Adeline was at school, Paige paused by the fridge again before grabbing her keys to go run some errands. Just a glance. Just to make sure the note hadnât slipped.
It hadnât.
Thursday morning, she read it out of order, skipping the first sentence entirely and landing on Thank you for raising such a thoughtful, curious kid.
She wondered if Azzi meant it. If sheâd hesitated before writing it. If sheâd thought of Paige at all while she did.
This was ridiculous. Paige knew that.
Still, Azzi couldâve written Adeline is doing great! and left it at that. She could have slapped a sticker on the page and moved on. She hadnât. Sheâd taken the time to write It shows.
Paige exhaled slowly, pressing her thumb into the edge of the fridge door until it left a faint mark.
Thursday night, after Adeline was asleep and the house had gone quiet, Paige stood in the kitchen in socked feet, the hum of the refrigerator the only sound. She traced the heart at the bottom of the note with her eyes, again and again and again and again.
It was stupid, she knew that. To want something personal in something that wasnât. To feel this pulled by a piece of paper written in black ink meant for a five-year-old.
But Paige had spent her whole life being seen for what her body could do. For how fast she moved, how hard she worked, how much she could give to the game. Praise had always come loud and public and conditional.
This was different. This was small. Quiet. Domestic.
And somehow, it lodged deeper.
Paige left the note where it was when she went to bed.
She didnât take it down in the morning.
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The next day, while Adeline was in school, Paige found herself focusing on the note more than ever. She read it, and read it, and read itâ until she realized she probably had it memorized.
âJesus Christ,â Paige whispered to herself. This noteâ it meant so much to her, and she had to let Azzi know that. Not in a creepy way, of course, but in aâ thank you for caring about my daughter enough to write thisâ kind of way.
She walked over to the couch, plopped down, and grabbed her laptop off of the coffee table. She propped her feet up, then pulled up her email. She was going to email Ms. Fudd.
Her fingers clacked on the keys of her laptop, her eyes scanning the screen as she drafted out an email. After she had one typed out, she read over it.
Hi Ms. Fudd,
I just wanted to thank you for the note you sent home with Adeline earlier this week. It really meant a lot to both of us. She talks about you all the time, and itâs been such a comfort knowing sheâs in a classroom where she feels seen and encouraged.
I know teachers do things like this every day, but I wanted you to know that it made a bigger impact than you probably realize. Thank you for being so kind to her. And us.
Best,
Paige
After a few minutes of Paige rereading it and overthinking every word, she used her mousepad to highlight the text, and deleted the entire thing. No way she could send that one.
So, she tried again.
Hello Ms. Fudd,
I just wanted to thank you for the note you sent home with Adeline this week. She was very proud of herself, and it meant a lot to her for us to read it together.
We really appreciate the encouragement and all the care you put into your classroom.
Thank you again,
Paige Bueckers
Paige was more satisfied with this one. It was more formal. More restrained, but not cold.
She took a deep breath, mentally cursing herself for letting this cause her heart rate to increase.
Getting all worked up over an email to my childâs teacher. Iâve lost it, she thought to herself, then finally clicked send.
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Paige spent the rest of her day waiting for a reply from Azzi. She knew that was embarrassingâ that she needed to put her laptop away, turn off the notifications for the Gmail app on her phone, and find something else to do, but she couldnât. Her brain just wouldnât let herself focus on anything else.
She wasnât sure why she kept checking for a response. Azzi was workingâ literally teaching a class of 20 five-year-olds right nowâ a class that included her daughter. Azzi obviously didnât have time to sit around and refresh her inbox like Paige was doing.
Around 2, Paige went to pick up Adeline from school. She listened to her Apple Music playlist on the way, because she knew once Adeline got in the car, sheâd be asked to put on Disney Princess songs. Probably from Tangled. Definitely from Tangled.
She drummed her fingers against the steering wheel, watching the doors as they opened and kids began to file out. When Adeline appeared, her backpack crooked, hair slightly frizzed, talking animatedly to Lucyâ Paige felt the familiar rush of relief.
Azzi was right behind them.
Paige straightened in her seat without meaning to.
Azzi guided Adeline to the car like always, calm and efficient, crouching to help buckle her in. âWhat was your favorite part of the day, Miss Adeline?â she asked.
âWhen we did math and you gave me a gold star,â Adeline announced proudly.
âThatâs a good choice. You did a wonderful job during math stations today,â Ms. Fudd said warmly. She shut the door gently and then stepped back, before glancing toward Paige.
Paige rolled down the window.
âHi,â she saidâ too fast. âHey. Hi.â
Azzi smiled, polite and familiar. âHi.â
There was a beat.
Paigeâs brain offered her about six things she could say. She picked the worst one.
âSheâ uhâ she seems like she had a really great day today,â Paige said, nodding toward the backseat like Ms. Fudd hadnât just been the one with her daughter since 7:30 this morning.
Azzi didnât miss a step. âShe did great. Very enthusiastic and excited to learn today.â
âOh. Thatâsâ yeah. Thatâs good,â Paige replied, already wincing internally. Why couldnât she be normal around Azzi for once?
Azzi hesitated for half a second, like she might add something more, then simply smiled again. âHave a good evening.â
âYou too,â Paige said quickly.
Azzi stepped away, turning back toward the line of cars and kids, already shifting her attention where it belonged.
Paige pulled forward when prompted, her heart thudding in her chest.
That was it. Completely regular. Nothing weird. No indication Ms. Fudd had read her emailâ because she hadnât.
Still, Paige replayed the interaction in her head twice before she even made it out of the parking lot.
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The hallway outside Room 5B was finally quiet.
Azzi stacked the last of the books, wiped down the tables, and shut off the overhead lights until the room softened into late-afternoon gold. This was the part of the day for her to reflectâ the in-between. When the kids were gone, but their presence still lingered in crooked name tags and half-erased sight words.
Dismissal had gone smoothly. It usually did.
Still, her mind flicked back, briefly, to the pickup line.
Paige had been⌠different today.
Not in a concerning way. Not in any way that crossed a line. Justâ off-kilter. Nervous, maybe. Talking a little too fast. Offering observations Azzi already knew, like she was filling silence she didnât trust.
Azzi hadnât thought much of it in the moment. Parents had days like that. Life showed up on their faces sometimes, and school pickup happened to catch them mid-thought.
But Paigeâs energy had lingered.
There was something almost endearing about it. The way sheâd clearly wanted to say something, then settled for something safer. The way sheâd smiled too quickly, then seemed to realize it and pull back.
Azzi shook her head slightly, as if to clear the thought.
She sat at her desk and pulled up her Gmail, more out of habit than urgency.
Emails first. Always emails first.
Most of them were routine. Some district updates, a reminder about picture day, a parent asking about snack guidelines. Azzi answered those quickly, efficiently. She prided herself on that. Clear boundaries. Prompt replies. Professional warmth without invitation.
Then she saw the name.
Paige Bueckers.
Azzi didnât click it right away.
She told herself she was just finishing the email above it. She reread a sentence sheâd already understood. Adjusted a comma that didnât need adjusting. When she finally opened Paigeâs message, she felt it anywayâ that small, unmistakable pull, low and unwelcome.
She read it once.
Then again.
The email was short. Thoughtful. Careful. So careful that Azzi noticed the restraint immediatelyâ the way Paige thanked her without overstepping, the way she centered Adeline while still letting something personal hum beneath the words.
Read it together.
Azzi leaned back in her chair, lips pressing together.
It clicked, thenâ the pickup line. The nerves. The way Paige had seemed almost distracted by her own thoughts.
Parents thanked her all the time. Notes, emails, end-of-year cards that made her tear up and remind herself why she chose this job in the first place. This shouldnât have been different.
And yet.
There was something about Paigeâs toneâ measured, grateful, held just this side of containedâ that made Azzi pause. It read like someone who knew how to take up space carefully. Like someone who had learned, somewhere along the way, not to ask for too much.
Azzi exhaled slowly and glanced around the empty classroom, as if the walls themselves might remind her who she was supposed to be.
She was good at this. At keeping her heart guarded. At knowing where the lines were and not even brushing against them.
Still, she reread the email one more time before typing a reply.
Hello Ms. Bueckers,
Thank you so much for your kind message. Iâm very glad to hear that Adeline felt proud of herself. She has been doing a wonderful job in class, and itâs always nice to see students feel confident and encouraged.
I truly appreciate your support and partnership. Please donât hesitate to reach out if you ever have any questions or concerns.
Have a great weekend,
Ms. Fudd
Azzi let her eyes scan over the replyâ checking for typos and such, then pressed send, before she could overthink it.
Reply sent.
â
Paige didnât have time to check her email for a few hours. She had been so ready to pickup Adeline todayâ because she missed her, of courseâ but also because Adeline kept her busy. Distracted in the best ways.
It wasnât until after dinnerâ when Adeline was coloring at the kitchen table and Paige was washing dishes, when her phone screen lit up, and her missed notifications were on display.
Paigeâs eyes scanned over the screen as she dried off a plate.
A couple ESPN updates, a text from her Dad, an email from Ms. Fuddâ wait. An email from Ms. Fudd?
Paige scrambled to grab her phone, leaning her back against the counter as she opened up the Gmail app.
Her thumb hovered over the screen for half a second before she opened it.
She read the email once.
Then again.
It was exactly what she should have expected. It was kind, appreciative, and careful. The sort of message Paige herself wouldâve written if she were on the other side of the desk. Nothing personal. Nothing inappropriate. Nothing that crossed a line.
She leaned her head back against the cabinet, the cool wood grounding her as she read it a third time, slower now. Wonderful job. Confident and encouraged. Paige could picture Azzi typing it, all composed and deliberate, and choosing every word with intention.
Of course she had.
Paige locked her phone and set it facedown on the counter, exhaling through her nose.
âThatâs good,â she murmured to herself, not loud enough for Adeline to hear. âThatâs⌠good.â
And it was. Truly. This was her daughterâs teacher. A professional woman doing her job well. Paige didnât wantâ or needâ anything more than that.
But if that was true, then why did her chest feel tight?
She glanced toward the kitchen table, where her daughter was hunched over her coloring book, her eyes narrowed in concentration. Paige smiled at the sight, her heart softening in its familiar way.
This was harmless, she told herself.
A little admiration. Gratitude. A crush that would burn itself out once novelty wore off.
She had been telling herself that since Meet the Teacher Night.
Parents liked good teachers all the time.
Still, Paige picked her phone back up.
She reread the email once more, lingering on the sign-off this time. Ms. Fudd. Formal. Appropriate. A reminder of where things belonged.
Paige let the phone drop back to the counter.
Sheâd been looking forward to drop-off. To dismissal. To those brief, contained moments where Azzi existed in her orbit.
Sheâd been reading between lines that werenât meant to hold anything extra.
That realization settled in her chest. It wasnât heavy, but honest.
Paige turned back to the sink, before rinsing the last dish and setting it carefully in the rack. She wiped her hands on a towel and glanced at Adeline again, reminding herself of what mattered.
This wasnât something she needed to act on.
It was something she needed to notice.
And noticing, she knew, was usually the first step before something changed.
A/N: guys, I literally got cuteness aggression while writing adeline in this chapter. also, i decided to add a section of azziâs pov, since people wanted it. never hesitate to leave a comment or smth in my inbox if you have any questions about the fic, or if you just want to chat!
CHAPTER THREE: Sidelines
School had settled into a rhythm.
Paige realized it as she idled in the pickup line at Riverwood Elementary, one hand resting on the steering wheel, the other draped casually over the center console like she wasnât internally counting the seconds. Adeline was three weeks into Kindergarten now. Long enough that the mornings didnât feel like controlled chaos. Long enough that Adeline no longer clung to her at drop-off. Long enough that Paige knew exactly when to start watching the doors.
The kindergarten dismissal doors swung open in a familiar wave of noise and color. Kids spilled out in clusters, their backpacks bouncing, their voices loud and unfiltered. Paige leaned forward slightly, eyes scanning automatically.
She found Azzi before she found Adeline.
Ms. Fudd stood just outside the doors, her clipboard tucked under her arm, and she greeted each child by name as they were guided toward their cars. Her movements were practiced. Calm, efficient, endlessly patient. She crouched to speak to one student, then straightened, signaling to another teacher before guiding a child forward by the shoulder.
Paigeâs chest did that stupid little flutter it always did.
She told herself it was just routine now. Familiarity. Nothing more.
Then she saw red hair.
âMommy!â Adelineâs voice cut through the noise as she broke from the line, her face lighting up the second she spotted Paigeâs car.
Paigeâs lips curved into a smile she didnât bother holding back. âHey, baby.â
Ms. Fudd walked Adeline over, one hand resting lightly on her back. âMiss Adeline had a really good day,â she said as she opened the back door. âShe was very focused during reading time.â
âI finished my whole book,â Adeline added proudly, climbing into her seat.
âYou did?â Paige said, warmth blooming in her chest. âThatâs amazing.â
Ms. Fudd nodded as she helped guide Adelineâs arms through her backpack straps. âShe didnât give up when it got tricky, either.â
Paigeâs gaze flicked to Azzi without her meaning to. âThank you,â she said, and meant more than the words covered.
Azzi smiled. It was soft and professional. Then, she reached for the seatbelt. âAlright, kiddo. Arms up.â
Adeline complied easily, chattering about stickers and math games as Ms. Fudd buckled her in. Paige watched the whole thing, something quiet and reverent settling in her chest. The care. The steadiness. The way Azzi treated her daughter like she mattered.
âShe talked about trying again instead of quitting,â Azzi said as she checked the buckle. âThat was really nice to see.â
Paige swallowed. âIâm glad she has you.â
The words slipped out before she could stop them.
Azziâs hands paused for just a fraction of a second.
Then she straightened, her smile still warm, but careful now. Measured. âSheâs doing really well,â she said gently. âYou should be proud.â
There it was. The subtle redirect. Not cold. Just clear.
Paige nodded, forcing herself to breathe. âI am. Iââ She stopped, the rest of the sentence pressing heavy behind her teeth. I never thought Iâd get this right. I still donât know what Iâm doing. Some days I miss the person I used to be.
Ms. Fudd glanced toward the growing line of cars behind them, then back at Paige. âIf you ever have questions about class things,â she said kindly, âemail is always the easiest way to reach me.â
Paige smiled, a little tight. âRight. Of course.â
Azzi stepped back and closed the door carefully. âHave a good rest of your day, Adeline.â
âBye, Ms. Fudd!â Adeline chirped, already kicking her feet happily.
âAnd you,â Azzi added, her gaze meeting Paigeâs for a beat longer than necessary. âDrive safe.â
Paige watched her step away, clipboard back under her arm as she turned to the next car.
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Azzi watched Paigeâs car pull forward with the rest of the line, the familiar shape of it disappearing past the crosswalk and out toward the street.
She didnât linger. Not really.
There were still kids to load, names to call, buckles to check. Another student tugged at her sleeve, asking where their water bottle went, and Azzi turned easily, attention snapping back into place the way it always did. Presence was part of the job. Kids noticed when you drifted.
Still, once the last car pulled away and the doors were closed behind them, the quiet hit differently.
Azzi exhaled, rolling her shoulders back as she gathered the stray backpacks left behind on the bench. The dismissal routine was muscle memory by now. Efficient. Clean. No room for messiness.
She liked it that way.
Paige Bueckers was not efficient. Or at least she didnât seem like she was.
Azzi hadnât meant to notice her at first. Parents blurred together early in the yearâ their faces, names, schedules. But Paige had stood out in ways Azzi tried not to catalog. The way she listened like everything mattered, the way her attention stayed anchored on Adeline even when the world was loud around them. The steadiness undercut by something rawer and quieter.
Azzi saw it because she knew it.
She wiped down a bench with a disinfectant wipe, the sharp scent filling the air. Another day done. Another set of small victories. Her students had tried. They had smiled. They had trusted her.
That mattered.
And Paige? Paige had looked at her like she mattered too.
That was the problem.
Azzi wasnât naive. She knew the line. Sheâd drawn it early in her career and redrawn it every year since. Parents leaned in when they were grateful. When they were scared. When their kids felt like extensions of their own hearts. It wasnât romanticâ it was human.
Still, there was something about Paige that made Azzi careful in a way she didnât usually need to be.
The almost-thank-you. The things Paige stopped herself from saying. The way her eyes softened when Adeline talked about her day, like pride and relief were tangled together so tightly they couldnât be separated.
Azzi understood that kind of love. The kind that made you vulnerable without asking permission.
She gathered her clipboard, tucked it under her arm, and headed back inside. The classroom smelled faintly like crayons and dry erase markers, the late afternoon light slanting across the alphabet rug. She straightened a stack of books that didnât need straightening.
Professional. Always professional.
Still, as she wiped down the tables, her thoughts drifted to the way Paigeâs voice had dipped when sheâd said thank you. To the way sheâd caught herself, pulled back, respected the boundary before Azzi even had to name it.
That mattered too.
Azzi pressed her lips together, a small smile ghosting across her face before she could stop it. She shook her head, amused with herself.
Get it together, Fudd.
She sat down at her desk and started to go over some lesson plans. Making changes where she saw fit. Tomorrow would be the same. Morning greetings. Lessons. Stickers. Safe routines.
And Paige would be back in the pickup line again, steady hands on the wheel, trusting Azzi with the most important thing in her world.
Azzi nibbled on her bottom lip as her fingers pressed into the keyboard.
Some things were worth protecting.
Even when they made her heart beat a little faster than she liked.
â
They fell into silence as Paige pulled forward, the school fading behind them.
âSo,â Paige said after a moment, glancing at the rearview mirror. âSounds like you had a pretty great day.â
âMs. Fudd smells like your happy soap,â Adeline said, voice soft and certain, like it was an important fact.
Paige let out a quiet laugh, the sound catching halfway in her chest. âMy what?â She asked, her eyebrows furrowing in confusion.
âYour happy soap,â Adeline repeated. âThe one that always makes me wanna cuddle with you.â
Paige understood now. Adeline was referring to the soap she used most nights. The one that smelled like lavender and clean sheets, the one her daughter always said meant everything was okay. She hadnât thought about the fact that someone else might smell like comfort, too.
âYeah,â Paige murmured after a beat, her eyes drifting back towards the road. âI guess she does.â
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Later that evening, Paige and Adeline drove to the county recreational center for the first practice of the school year. She was assigned a fourth grade co-ed group this season.
Paige had done this coaching thing for years now. It was a way for her to stay close to the game she loved. She wasnât sure she was ever going to be ready to completely let go.
She parked, grabbed her bag, and then held Adelineâs hand as they walked inside.
The gym smelled like rubber and old wood, the kind of place where the air always carried a faint echo of bouncing balls no matter how quiet it was. Sneakers squeaked somewhere down the hall, a whistle blew from a different court, and the overhead lights hummed faintly as they flickered on.
Paige felt it settle into her bones the second they stepped insideâ muscle memory, instinct, something she hadnât been able to outrun no matter how hard she tried.
â
As kids filed in, she got the basketballs ready, and turned on some kid-friendly music over the speakers. Adeline sat on the bleachers, the row closest to the court. She was used to these after-school practices, too. She enjoyed tagging along.
Since it was the first practice, Paige decided that today would mostly focus on building a relationship with the kids and having fun. Plus, they were 9 years old. This wasnât the pro leagues.
Paige had learnedâ sometimes the hard wayâ that kids played better when they felt seen first. Confidence didnât come from stat sheets or scoreboards; it came from knowing someone believed you were capable before you believed it yourself.
Funny how that worked, she thought. How the smallest encouragement could change everything.
â
Once all the kids on the team were accounted for, she sat everyone in a circle, and decided to have a little icebreaker. Paige introduced herselfâ and Adeline, of course, then went around the circle and had all the kids do the same, while also adding their personal favorite basketball drill.
One of them mentioned cone-dribbling, while another favored running layups. Paige made a note of each kidâs answerâ so she could incorporate them all into future practices.
After they all introduced themselves, Paige got things going. She decided on two games at each side of the gym, and split the players into two groups.
Dribble knockout at one side of the courtâ which is where the players dribble within a set area, and they try to knock other playersâ balls away with their free hand, all while protecting their own dribble. The last player standing wins the round.
She set up Rock Paper Scissors 1v1 at the other end. Two kids would play RPS, winner gets the ball and attacks the basket, loser defends. They would rotate and take turns, while the kids that werenât currently playing would spectate.
She gave Adeline the job of whistle-blower, and also let her run water bottles and towels out to the kids as they needed it.
âGood job, sweetheart,â Paige breathed out as Adeline came back from delivering a towel. âYouâre gonna be a great assistant coach this year,â she said, her hand gently going to ruffle Addyâs hair.
â
Paige oversaw practice as both games occurred on each side of the court, and offered help when someone needed it.
Halfway through the second round of dribble knockout, Paige noticed a kid lingering near the edge of the court. He was shorter than most of the others, even the girls. He was anxious and quiet. Griffin was his name, if she remembered correctly from earlier.
Paige walked over, her voice soft and a bit hesitant as she crouched down beside him. âYou good?â She asked as she placed a hand on his shoulder.
Griffin nodded quickly, but avoided her eyes. âYeah, I guess. I justâ donât wanna mess up.â
Paigeâs chest tightened. God. She knew that feeling.
âHey,â she said gently. âMessing up is part of it. It means youâre trying.â
The boy hesitated. âWhat if everyoneâs better than me?â
Paige smiled, soft and real. âThen you work at it. Thatâs it. Yeahâ talent is cool, but effort is what sticks.â She then tossed him the ball. âGo on, then. Protect your dribble.â
Paige then walked back over to her spot beside Adeline to observe, when she felt something twist low in her chest.
She watched the kids move, all clumsy and determined and unafraid of looking bad. She knew exactly how it was supposed to look. Where their feet should land. How their bodies would change if they kept going.
She could still feel it sometimes. The rhythm. The certainty.
Coaching filled the space where her career used to live, but some nights, the silence afterward was louder than any crowd had ever been.
She took a deep breath, willing herself to stop thinking of the past. She needed to focus on the now. She let her eyes settle back on Griffin, who looked more confident now. Less self-conscious than before.
He didnât win the round, but he didnât freeze either. And when he jogged back to the sideline, he glanced at Paige like he wanted to make sure sheâd seen him try.
She had. She grinned at him, and shot him a thumbs up to make sure he knew she saw it.
â
Soon, the groups rotated, and both games continued. Paige walked around and gave tips, while Adeline did her own thing.
The little girl took her job seriously. She marched water bottles out like it was the most important task in the world, offering encouragement between sips.
âGood job!â she told one kid earnestly.
âYouâre really fast!â she said to another.
Paige watched from the other side of the court, something warm blooming in her chest. She saw the way the kids responded to Adelineâ not annoyed, not dismissive. Just accepting. Like she belonged there as much as anyone else did.
Something about watching Addy be so engaged with practice made her appreciate the present more than before.
This is my life now, Paige thought. Not the one I planned, but the one I built anyway.
â
Once practice was over, Paige got Adeline to blow her whistle, and then the group circled up at mid-court, so she could offer a word of encouragement to send them off with.
âAlright,â Paige said, clapping her hands once. âWhat did we learn today?â
A few kids shouted drills. She expected that. But then, Griffin, the unsure boy from earlier, said, âDonât quit.â
Paige smiled, her eyes locking with his. âExactly,â she breathed out, snapping as she gestured to him. âTrying matters more than getting it perfect.â
She felt it landâ not just with them, but with herself, too.
â
The gym slowly emptied out, the echo of bouncing basketballs fading into something quieter. Kids were scooped up by their parents, their voices overlapping as they spilled into the hallway, the energy still buzzing. Paige waited until the last of her team had been picked up, before exchanging quick goodbyes and reminding them sheâd see them next week.
âGood job today,â she said, clapping once as the final kid jogged off.
When the gym was finally still, Paige exhaled.
Adeline had migrated from the bleachers to midcourt, sitting cross-legged on the floor and absentmindedly rolling a basketball back and forth between her palms. Paige watched her for a momentâ how comfortable she looked there, like the gym was just another room in her life.
âYou ready to go, coach?â Paige asked, slinging her bag over her shoulder.
Adeline grinned as she stood up with a nod. âCan we get nuggets?â
Paige laughed softly. âI was hoping youâd ask that.â
â
They stopped for fast food on the way home, the kind of place with bright lights and plastic booths and a drive-thru that never quite moved fast enough. Adeline kicked her feet as she waited, humming to herself, while Paige stared ahead at the glowing menu board, suddenly aware of how tired she was in that deep, good way.
The kind that comes from showing up.
Adeline chattered all the way home. She recounted the best parts of practiceâ who was fast, who fell, how she definitely blew the whistle correctly every time. Paige responded automatically, smiling, nodding, letting the sound of her daughterâs voice fill the car.
At a stoplight, Paige caught her own reflection in the rearview mirror. Her hair was pulled back, her cheeks flushed, her hands still faintly smelling like rubber and sanitizer. The image of Azzi flickered through her mind without warning. The same calm presence, the same quiet authority. Different environment. Same purpose.
Teaching kids how to be brave.
Paige shook her head slightly, as if clearing the thought, and turned the music up just a notch.
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At home, the night unfolded gently. A quick bath. Pajamas. Adelineâs hair still damp as Paige braided it back for sleep. They curled up on the couch for half an episode of a cartoon neither of them fully watched, while Adelineâs head laid heavy against Paigeâs shoulder.
âYou were a good coach today, mommy,â Adeline murmured, already half-asleep.
That was the highest praise she could get. Paige pressed a kiss into her hair. âSo were you, Addy Bug.â
She tucked Adeline into bed a little later, lingering in the doorway like she did every night once the room went quiet. The house settled around herâ soft, familiar, and earned.
Paige turned off the lights and stood there for a moment in the dark, her heart full in a way that still surprised her.
A/N: guys, I literally got cuteness aggression while writing adeline in this chapter. also, i decided to add a section of azziâs pov, since people wanted it. never hesitate to leave a comment or smth in my inbox if you have any questions about the fic, or if you just want to chat!
CHAPTER THREE: Sidelines
School had settled into a rhythm.
Paige realized it as she idled in the pickup line at Riverwood Elementary, one hand resting on the steering wheel, the other draped casually over the center console like she wasnât internally counting the seconds. Adeline was three weeks into Kindergarten now. Long enough that the mornings didnât feel like controlled chaos. Long enough that Adeline no longer clung to her at drop-off. Long enough that Paige knew exactly when to start watching the doors.
The kindergarten dismissal doors swung open in a familiar wave of noise and color. Kids spilled out in clusters, their backpacks bouncing, their voices loud and unfiltered. Paige leaned forward slightly, eyes scanning automatically.
She found Azzi before she found Adeline.
Ms. Fudd stood just outside the doors, her clipboard tucked under her arm, and she greeted each child by name as they were guided toward their cars. Her movements were practiced. Calm, efficient, endlessly patient. She crouched to speak to one student, then straightened, signaling to another teacher before guiding a child forward by the shoulder.
Paigeâs chest did that stupid little flutter it always did.
She told herself it was just routine now. Familiarity. Nothing more.
Then she saw red hair.
âMommy!â Adelineâs voice cut through the noise as she broke from the line, her face lighting up the second she spotted Paigeâs car.
Paigeâs lips curved into a smile she didnât bother holding back. âHey, baby.â
Ms. Fudd walked Adeline over, one hand resting lightly on her back. âMiss Adeline had a really good day,â she said as she opened the back door. âShe was very focused during reading time.â
âI finished my whole book,â Adeline added proudly, climbing into her seat.
âYou did?â Paige said, warmth blooming in her chest. âThatâs amazing.â
Ms. Fudd nodded as she helped guide Adelineâs arms through her backpack straps. âShe didnât give up when it got tricky, either.â
Paigeâs gaze flicked to Azzi without her meaning to. âThank you,â she said, and meant more than the words covered.
Azzi smiled. It was soft and professional. Then, she reached for the seatbelt. âAlright, kiddo. Arms up.â
Adeline complied easily, chattering about stickers and math games as Ms. Fudd buckled her in. Paige watched the whole thing, something quiet and reverent settling in her chest. The care. The steadiness. The way Azzi treated her daughter like she mattered.
âShe talked about trying again instead of quitting,â Azzi said as she checked the buckle. âThat was really nice to see.â
Paige swallowed. âIâm glad she has you.â
The words slipped out before she could stop them.
Azziâs hands paused for just a fraction of a second.
Then she straightened, her smile still warm, but careful now. Measured. âSheâs doing really well,â she said gently. âYou should be proud.â
There it was. The subtle redirect. Not cold. Just clear.
Paige nodded, forcing herself to breathe. âI am. Iââ She stopped, the rest of the sentence pressing heavy behind her teeth. I never thought Iâd get this right. I still donât know what Iâm doing. Some days I miss the person I used to be.
Ms. Fudd glanced toward the growing line of cars behind them, then back at Paige. âIf you ever have questions about class things,â she said kindly, âemail is always the easiest way to reach me.â
Paige smiled, a little tight. âRight. Of course.â
Azzi stepped back and closed the door carefully. âHave a good rest of your day, Adeline.â
âBye, Ms. Fudd!â Adeline chirped, already kicking her feet happily.
âAnd you,â Azzi added, her gaze meeting Paigeâs for a beat longer than necessary. âDrive safe.â
Paige watched her step away, clipboard back under her arm as she turned to the next car.
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Azzi watched Paigeâs car pull forward with the rest of the line, the familiar shape of it disappearing past the crosswalk and out toward the street.
She didnât linger. Not really.
There were still kids to load, names to call, buckles to check. Another student tugged at her sleeve, asking where their water bottle went, and Azzi turned easily, attention snapping back into place the way it always did. Presence was part of the job. Kids noticed when you drifted.
Still, once the last car pulled away and the doors were closed behind them, the quiet hit differently.
Azzi exhaled, rolling her shoulders back as she gathered the stray backpacks left behind on the bench. The dismissal routine was muscle memory by now. Efficient. Clean. No room for messiness.
She liked it that way.
Paige Bueckers was not efficient. Or at least she didnât seem like she was.
Azzi hadnât meant to notice her at first. Parents blurred together early in the yearâ their faces, names, schedules. But Paige had stood out in ways Azzi tried not to catalog. The way she listened like everything mattered, the way her attention stayed anchored on Adeline even when the world was loud around them. The steadiness undercut by something rawer and quieter.
Azzi saw it because she knew it.
She wiped down a bench with a disinfectant wipe, the sharp scent filling the air. Another day done. Another set of small victories. Her students had tried. They had smiled. They had trusted her.
That mattered.
And Paige? Paige had looked at her like she mattered too.
That was the problem.
Azzi wasnât naive. She knew the line. Sheâd drawn it early in her career and redrawn it every year since. Parents leaned in when they were grateful. When they were scared. When their kids felt like extensions of their own hearts. It wasnât romanticâ it was human.
Still, there was something about Paige that made Azzi careful in a way she didnât usually need to be.
The almost-thank-you. The things Paige stopped herself from saying. The way her eyes softened when Adeline talked about her day, like pride and relief were tangled together so tightly they couldnât be separated.
Azzi understood that kind of love. The kind that made you vulnerable without asking permission.
She gathered her clipboard, tucked it under her arm, and headed back inside. The classroom smelled faintly like crayons and dry erase markers, the late afternoon light slanting across the alphabet rug. She straightened a stack of books that didnât need straightening.
Professional. Always professional.
Still, as she wiped down the tables, her thoughts drifted to the way Paigeâs voice had dipped when sheâd said thank you. To the way sheâd caught herself, pulled back, respected the boundary before Azzi even had to name it.
That mattered too.
Azzi pressed her lips together, a small smile ghosting across her face before she could stop it. She shook her head, amused with herself.
Get it together, Fudd.
She sat down at her desk and started to go over some lesson plans. Making changes where she saw fit. Tomorrow would be the same. Morning greetings. Lessons. Stickers. Safe routines.
And Paige would be back in the pickup line again, steady hands on the wheel, trusting Azzi with the most important thing in her world.
Azzi nibbled on her bottom lip as her fingers pressed into the keyboard.
Some things were worth protecting.
Even when they made her heart beat a little faster than she liked.
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They fell into silence as Paige pulled forward, the school fading behind them.
âSo,â Paige said after a moment, glancing at the rearview mirror. âSounds like you had a pretty great day.â
âMs. Fudd smells like your happy soap,â Adeline said, voice soft and certain, like it was an important fact.
Paige let out a quiet laugh, the sound catching halfway in her chest. âMy what?â She asked, her eyebrows furrowing in confusion.
âYour happy soap,â Adeline repeated. âThe one that always makes me wanna cuddle with you.â
Paige understood now. Adeline was referring to the soap she used most nights. The one that smelled like lavender and clean sheets, the one her daughter always said meant everything was okay. She hadnât thought about the fact that someone else might smell like comfort, too.
âYeah,â Paige murmured after a beat, her eyes drifting back towards the road. âI guess she does.â
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Later that evening, Paige and Adeline drove to the county recreational center for the first practice of the school year. She was assigned a fourth grade co-ed group this season.
Paige had done this coaching thing for years now. It was a way for her to stay close to the game she loved. She wasnât sure she was ever going to be ready to completely let go.
She parked, grabbed her bag, and then held Adelineâs hand as they walked inside.
The gym smelled like rubber and old wood, the kind of place where the air always carried a faint echo of bouncing balls no matter how quiet it was. Sneakers squeaked somewhere down the hall, a whistle blew from a different court, and the overhead lights hummed faintly as they flickered on.
Paige felt it settle into her bones the second they stepped insideâ muscle memory, instinct, something she hadnât been able to outrun no matter how hard she tried.
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As kids filed in, she got the basketballs ready, and turned on some kid-friendly music over the speakers. Adeline sat on the bleachers, the row closest to the court. She was used to these after-school practices, too. She enjoyed tagging along.
Since it was the first practice, Paige decided that today would mostly focus on building a relationship with the kids and having fun. Plus, they were 9 years old. This wasnât the pro leagues.
Paige had learnedâ sometimes the hard wayâ that kids played better when they felt seen first. Confidence didnât come from stat sheets or scoreboards; it came from knowing someone believed you were capable before you believed it yourself.
Funny how that worked, she thought. How the smallest encouragement could change everything.
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Once all the kids on the team were accounted for, she sat everyone in a circle, and decided to have a little icebreaker. Paige introduced herselfâ and Adeline, of course, then went around the circle and had all the kids do the same, while also adding their personal favorite basketball drill.
One of them mentioned cone-dribbling, while another favored running layups. Paige made a note of each kidâs answerâ so she could incorporate them all into future practices.
After they all introduced themselves, Paige got things going. She decided on two games at each side of the gym, and split the players into two groups.
Dribble knockout at one side of the courtâ which is where the players dribble within a set area, and they try to knock other playersâ balls away with their free hand, all while protecting their own dribble. The last player standing wins the round.
She set up Rock Paper Scissors 1v1 at the other end. Two kids would play RPS, winner gets the ball and attacks the basket, loser defends. They would rotate and take turns, while the kids that werenât currently playing would spectate.
She gave Adeline the job of whistle-blower, and also let her run water bottles and towels out to the kids as they needed it.
âGood job, sweetheart,â Paige breathed out as Adeline came back from delivering a towel. âYouâre gonna be a great assistant coach this year,â she said, her hand gently going to ruffle Addyâs hair.
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Paige oversaw practice as both games occurred on each side of the court, and offered help when someone needed it.
Halfway through the second round of dribble knockout, Paige noticed a kid lingering near the edge of the court. He was shorter than most of the others, even the girls. He was anxious and quiet. Griffin was his name, if she remembered correctly from earlier.
Paige walked over, her voice soft and a bit hesitant as she crouched down beside him. âYou good?â She asked as she placed a hand on his shoulder.
Griffin nodded quickly, but avoided her eyes. âYeah, I guess. I justâ donât wanna mess up.â
Paigeâs chest tightened. God. She knew that feeling.
âHey,â she said gently. âMessing up is part of it. It means youâre trying.â
The boy hesitated. âWhat if everyoneâs better than me?â
Paige smiled, soft and real. âThen you work at it. Thatâs it. Yeahâ talent is cool, but effort is what sticks.â She then tossed him the ball. âGo on, then. Protect your dribble.â
Paige then walked back over to her spot beside Adeline to observe, when she felt something twist low in her chest.
She watched the kids move, all clumsy and determined and unafraid of looking bad. She knew exactly how it was supposed to look. Where their feet should land. How their bodies would change if they kept going.
She could still feel it sometimes. The rhythm. The certainty.
Coaching filled the space where her career used to live, but some nights, the silence afterward was louder than any crowd had ever been.
She took a deep breath, willing herself to stop thinking of the past. She needed to focus on the now. She let her eyes settle back on Griffin, who looked more confident now. Less self-conscious than before.
He didnât win the round, but he didnât freeze either. And when he jogged back to the sideline, he glanced at Paige like he wanted to make sure sheâd seen him try.
She had. She grinned at him, and shot him a thumbs up to make sure he knew she saw it.
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Soon, the groups rotated, and both games continued. Paige walked around and gave tips, while Adeline did her own thing.
The little girl took her job seriously. She marched water bottles out like it was the most important task in the world, offering encouragement between sips.
âGood job!â she told one kid earnestly.
âYouâre really fast!â she said to another.
Paige watched from the other side of the court, something warm blooming in her chest. She saw the way the kids responded to Adelineâ not annoyed, not dismissive. Just accepting. Like she belonged there as much as anyone else did.
Something about watching Addy be so engaged with practice made her appreciate the present more than before.
This is my life now, Paige thought. Not the one I planned, but the one I built anyway.
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Once practice was over, Paige got Adeline to blow her whistle, and then the group circled up at mid-court, so she could offer a word of encouragement to send them off with.
âAlright,â Paige said, clapping her hands once. âWhat did we learn today?â
A few kids shouted drills. She expected that. But then, Griffin, the unsure boy from earlier, said, âDonât quit.â
Paige smiled, her eyes locking with his. âExactly,â she breathed out, snapping as she gestured to him. âTrying matters more than getting it perfect.â
She felt it landâ not just with them, but with herself, too.
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The gym slowly emptied out, the echo of bouncing basketballs fading into something quieter. Kids were scooped up by their parents, their voices overlapping as they spilled into the hallway, the energy still buzzing. Paige waited until the last of her team had been picked up, before exchanging quick goodbyes and reminding them sheâd see them next week.
âGood job today,â she said, clapping once as the final kid jogged off.
When the gym was finally still, Paige exhaled.
Adeline had migrated from the bleachers to midcourt, sitting cross-legged on the floor and absentmindedly rolling a basketball back and forth between her palms. Paige watched her for a momentâ how comfortable she looked there, like the gym was just another room in her life.
âYou ready to go, coach?â Paige asked, slinging her bag over her shoulder.
Adeline grinned as she stood up with a nod. âCan we get nuggets?â
Paige laughed softly. âI was hoping youâd ask that.â
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They stopped for fast food on the way home, the kind of place with bright lights and plastic booths and a drive-thru that never quite moved fast enough. Adeline kicked her feet as she waited, humming to herself, while Paige stared ahead at the glowing menu board, suddenly aware of how tired she was in that deep, good way.
The kind that comes from showing up.
Adeline chattered all the way home. She recounted the best parts of practiceâ who was fast, who fell, how she definitely blew the whistle correctly every time. Paige responded automatically, smiling, nodding, letting the sound of her daughterâs voice fill the car.
At a stoplight, Paige caught her own reflection in the rearview mirror. Her hair was pulled back, her cheeks flushed, her hands still faintly smelling like rubber and sanitizer. The image of Azzi flickered through her mind without warning. The same calm presence, the same quiet authority. Different environment. Same purpose.
Teaching kids how to be brave.
Paige shook her head slightly, as if clearing the thought, and turned the music up just a notch.
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At home, the night unfolded gently. A quick bath. Pajamas. Adelineâs hair still damp as Paige braided it back for sleep. They curled up on the couch for half an episode of a cartoon neither of them fully watched, while Adelineâs head laid heavy against Paigeâs shoulder.
âYou were a good coach today, mommy,â Adeline murmured, already half-asleep.
That was the highest praise she could get. Paige pressed a kiss into her hair. âSo were you, Addy Bug.â
She tucked Adeline into bed a little later, lingering in the doorway like she did every night once the room went quiet. The house settled around herâ soft, familiar, and earned.
Paige turned off the lights and stood there for a moment in the dark, her heart full in a way that still surprised her.
A/N: i tried to make this chapter feel realistic. i used experiences that i have witnessed first-hand in classrooms to really show how paige is feeling in that moment of leaving her daughter with azzi and trusting her to take care of her. I hope you all like it!
CHAPTER TWO: First Day Jitters
Paige woke up on Monday to the sound of her alarm blaring by her bed. She groaned, flipping over on her back, as she grabbed her phone and silenced the loud noise. She glanced at the clock, blinking away the blurriness in her vision to see the time. 6:10 a.m. Damn, she was going to have trouble getting used to this.
She got up after a minute, before making herself presentable. 20 minutes later, Paige walked out into the hallway in a graphic tee and jeans, before approaching Adelineâs bedroom.
She slowly walked in, before flipping the light on, and walked over to Adelineâs bed. The little girl was snoozing away, wrapped up in her blanket, and was clutching her stuffed bunny to her chest. Paige wished Addy could stay this little forever.
âGâmorning, my big kindergartener,â Paige whispered, her hand gently rubbing circles on Adelineâs back to wake her. Adeline opened her eyes, a soft sigh leaving her lips as she sat up, yawning cutely. Paige leaned over, before gently pressing a kiss to her forehead.
âLetâs get you dressed,â she said, before getting Adeline ready.
Paige put her in a cute yellow t-shirt that had sunflowers on it, paired with some light wash jeans, and her light-up sneakers. She then brushed her teeth, and pulled her red hair up into a ponytail.
15 minutes later, Adeline was eating breakfast at the kitchen table, while Paige stressed out about Addyâs backpack.
âExtra set of clothes, check. Snacks just incase she gets hungry, check. Ice pack in the lunchbox, check,â she murmured to herself, before glancing over at Adeline, who was chomping away on some Lucky Charms.
Adeline wasnât talking much, but she looked alright. Not too nervous, but Paige was sure that would change once she was fully woken up.
Right now, Paige was more worried about her own nerves. This wasnât supposed to be this hard. She should be excited for her daughter, but deep-down, she was panicking a little. Adeline was growing up so fast, and Paige felt like she could barely keep up.
âAre you excited, sweetheart?â Paige asked, her voice gentle. Adeline looked over at her and nodded, her voice still raspy with sleep.
âMhm, mommy. Jusâ sleepy,â she said around a mouthful of cereal.
Paige gave her a little smile and returned her nod. She suddenly felt a tight feeling in her chest as she checked Adelineâs bag for the third time this morning. The same tight feeling that she used to get before big games. She felt like Adelineâs presence in her life was the only thing she had control over these days, but as Adeline grew, she felt that control slipping away.
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Paige played the Tangled soundtrack on the way to school to keep Adelineâs nerves at bay. The upbeat and hopeful melody of âWhen Will My Life Begin?â was honestly helpful to Paige, too.
When they arrived at Riverwood, there were children and families everywhere. Most of the students were getting dropped off at the front awning, which was the main drop off area, but Paige decided last minute to walk Adeline in. She told herself she was helping Adeline settle. Paige totally wasnât doing this because she wasnât ready to let go. It was definitely not because Paige wanted to see Ms. Fudd.
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Paige led Adeline to the Kindergarten hallway, where they walked towards her classroom. The school was filled with the sounds of children laughing and talking, and the squeak of shoes against tile floors. Paige squeezed Adelineâs small hand as they approached Room 5B.
âHere we are,â Paige said, as she glanced through the doorway. A handful of students were already there, getting settled into their new classroom.
Paige was just about to walk Adeline inside, when she heard a very familiar little sniffle, and felt a death grip on her fingers. Paige knew this was coming.
Adeline looked up at Paige, her blue eyes glossy with tears. Her bottom lip was quivering, like a dam ready to burst any moment now.
âI-Iâm scared, mommy. I want you to stay,â Adeline rasped out.
Paige immediately kneeled down to Adelineâs level, her thumb gently rubbing over the girlâs knuckles. She looked into her eyes, and swallowed thickly. She was struggling to not burst into tears herself.
What if Iâm pushing Adeline too fast? Should I have talked to her more about her feelings regarding the first day of school? What if she ends up hating school because of me? Paige thought to herself, her heart clenching in her chest.
âHey, Addy Bug,â she spoke out softly, her free hand gently rubbing the little girlâs arm. âYouâre the strongest girl I know. Youâre gonna do great today, okay? Your smile is gonna brighten up the whole classroom. Iâm so proud of you for being brave.â
She never knew if she was saying the right thing, but she tried her best.
Paige then gave Adeline a hug, where she rubbed her back and squeezed her tightly. She could feel Adelineâs heart racing, and she squeezed her eyes shut as she felt a lump form in her throat.
As she was comforting the little girl, Paige felt the air around them suddenly become⌠lighter. She opened her eyes, and there was Ms. Fuddâ same amount of makeup, same hairstyle, but dressed in a âfirst day of schoolâ shirt. Cute.
Paigeâs eyes locked with the teacherâs, and Ms. Fudd tilted her head to the side a bit, as if she was silently asking, can I help? Paige nodded, before pulling back from Adeline, but not completely. Just enough so that Azzi could speak to her.
Ms. Fudd crouched down to their level, too, but kept her distance. God, she knows what sheâs doing, Paige thought, her daughter still holding onto her tightly.
âHi, Adeline,â Ms. Fudd said softly, that same warm smile on her face. âIâm so happy youâre here. Some friends are already inside, if youâd like to come in. Do you like to color? We have some coloring sheets, or you can even grab a book from our classroom library, if thatâs more your style.â
Paige looked at Adelineâ to see if she looked less distressed than before. She was still gripping Paigeâs shirt like it was her lifeline, but her expression was calmer. More relaxed.
Paige took this moment to appreciate the fact that Adeline was put in Ms. Fuddâs class. She was patient. Kind. Gentle. Everything a Kindergarten teacher should be. The relief Paige felt was so sharp that it hurt. She sees my kid, Paige thought to herself. Really sees her.
Thenâ suddenly, Paigeâs thoughts were interrupted by the feeling of Adelineâs grip loosening. Paige almost tightened back, just reflexively, but quickly stopped herself.
Adeline didnât say anything, but she walked over to Ms. Fudd, and grabbed her hand.
Paigeâs mind suddenly flashed with images of other times she had to let go. When rehab ended. When she walked away from her WNBA dreams. This was such a different situation, but it felt so damn familiar.
The feeling unsettled her in the same way rehab once had. Standing at the edge of something she loved, knowing she couldnât protect it the way she used to. Back then, it had been her body she didnât trust anymore. Now, it was the world. Loving Adeline meant stepping back and letting her try, even when every instinct screamed to hold on tighter. Paige had learned the hard way that forcing yourself to grip something past its time only led to more pain.
Azzi smiled, standing up straight again, as she pointed over to where Adelineâs cubby was. âSee your name? Thatâs where your backpack goes. Then, you can get settled while we wait for the rest of our friends to arrive.â
Adeline nodded, before turning to look at Paige one more time. Paige offered a little wave. She wanted to hug and kiss her goodbye, but didnât want to make this any harder for Adelineâ or herself.
âBye, Addy. Iâll see you after school. I love you,â she breathed out. Adeline whispered an âI love you too, mommy,â before spotting her friend Lucyâ which eased her anxieties a little more. âLucy!â She squeaked out, before disappearing into the classroom.
It was earth-shattering in so many waysâ seeing Adeline run off like that, but Paige realized that her daughter was brave. Maybe she had taught her that.
Paige then took a deep breath and stood up, her eyes finding Ms. Fuddâs once more. For a few seconds, both of them just stared at each other. Paigeâs heart started to go bonkers in her chest.
Azzi spoke up firstâ which was good, because Paige was suddenly speechless, just like she had been at Meet The Teacher Night.
âThank you,â Azzi breathed out, and before Paige could ask what for, she continued. âFor trusting meâ with talking to Adeline. It wasnât that you werenât doing a good job. I just think it helps for them to realize that their teacher is on their side.â
Paige nodded, before slipping her hands into her jeans pockets. âNoâ thank you, for helping me,â she said with a rasp, still a little choked up from the whole situation.
Thenâ after a beat, Paige added, âYouâre really good at that, you know,â her voice softer. She wasnât sure if she shouldâve said it, but Azzi deserved to know she was exceptional at connecting with her students.
Paige hoped for a grin, maybe even a blush, but Azzi just responded with âThank you⌠I try. Theyâre still little. They need that support.â
Paige let her eyes scan over the womanâs face as she let her response sink in. Her tone was nothing but professional. Sure, there was a smile involved, but no blush. Nothing out of the ordinary. She wasnât sure what she had been expecting.
âPick-up is at the front awning at 2:30,â Ms. Fudd spoke out, before waving bye, and walking off to tend to her students.
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Paige sat in her car for at least 15 minutes in the parking lot of the school before leaving. She glanced to the empty car seat in the back through the rear view mirror, and felt her chest tighten upâ again. She thought things would be fine. Adeline had gone to Pre-K last year, but something about Kindergarten felt different. Five years old felt like it was decades older than four.
She ran her hand down her face, then sighed, her fingers tapping lightly against the steering wheel.
It was moments like theseâ ones where she was aloneâ when reality set in for her. She should be at practice right now. This should have been a game day.
Donât get her wrongâ she loves Adeline to death, but she was still grieving her dreams. What couldâve been.
She slammed her hands against the steering wheel, before feeling a few tears stroll down her cheeks.
âGet it together, Paige,â she whispered to herself, before wiping her face with the back of her hand. The last thing she needed was some kid seeing her have a breakdown in the school parking lot.
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Paige spent her day running errands and doing chores. She went to the store and car wash, before coming home to do laundry, vacuum the floors, and wash the dishes. She was doing as much as she could to not sit and miss Adeline all day.
Before she knew it, it was 2 oâclock, and she basically sprinted out to her car to go and pick up her little girl.
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Paige was the first person in the pick-up line. Was that embarrassing? She didnât think so. She was excited to see her daughter. It was giving dedicated and loving mom. She hoped to God that Azzi worked the dismissal line.
About 10 minutes after Paige got there, the doors opened and out came all the Kindergarten car riders. Her eyes widened as she looked for her baby, and when she found her, Paige almost burst into tears for the 50th time today.
Adeline was smilingâ really smiling, and she was standing right next to Lucy. She had a lollipop in her mouth, and a sticker on her shirt. Ms. Fudd was behind them, carefully leading them to where they sat on the benches.
Ms. Fudd led Adeline over to the car, helped her get in, and made sure she was buckled. âSee you tomorrow, Miss Adeline,â she said sweetly, before shutting the door.
âTh-Thank you!â Paige stuttered out, thinking Ms. Fudd would just walk away, but she stopped by Paigeâs window, her gaze softâ reassuring.
âNot a single tear, all day,â Ms. Fudd breathed out, her lips curling up into a smile.
Paigeâs grin outshined the sun.
Her chest warmed. It wasnât just relief, but something quieter. Azzi hadnât just noticed Adeline; sheâd remembered her. The whole day. Paige opened her mouth, ready to say more, to thank her properly, to ask what had helped, to lingerâ but Azzi was already turning back toward the line of waiting kids, slipping easily into motion again. Professional. Steady. Unavailable in a way Paige pretended didnât matter as much as it did.
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Adeline didnât shut up the entire way home. She rambled off about the songs they sang, how much she enjoyed story time, how yummy her lunch was, and how much fun she had at recess.
âMs. Fudd does silly voices when she reads, mommy,â Adeline squealed out from the backseat. âI was giggling so much, I couldnât catch my breath!â
Paige just smiled, nodding along to Adelineâs recap of the day.
âIâm so happy you had a fun day, sweetheart. And guess what? Youâll get to have all that fun again tomorrow.â She paused, then spoke up again. âI told you, youâre brave, Addy. I knew you could do it.â
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Adeline fell asleep that night faster than Paige expected.
She did her usual routine anywayâstraightened the blanket, smoothed a hand over her daughterâs hair, paused in the doorway a moment longer than necessary. Adelineâs face was relaxed in sleep, mouth slightly open, her small hand curled around her stuffed bunny and elephant. She insisted on sleeping with two, because Ms. Fudd says itâs okay if it helps you feel brave.
Paige showered longer than usual, letting the water run hot against her shoulders. Her body remembered exhaustion intimately. There was a time when this kind of tired felt earned. Fourth quarters, late practices, the satisfying burn of giving everything she had. This exhaustion was different. Heavier somehow.
When she stepped out, the mirror caught her eye. She looked⌠older, maybe. Softer. Strong in ways no stat sheet would ever capture.
Paige threw on something comfortable and turned on the TV, more for noise than interest. She scrolled on her phone without really reading anything, her thumbs moving on autopilot. Her mind drifted anywayâ back to small hands gripping her shirt, to the way Adelineâs shoulders relaxed when Azzi crouched down in front of her.
She turned the TV off before the episode ended.
In bed, the day came back to her in fragments.
Adelineâs nervous expression in the car. The way Paigeâs chest tightened walking into the school hallway, like she was the one being asked to do something brave. The moment her daughter let goâ really let goâ and walked into a room that didnât belong to just the two of them.
That had hurt more in the moment.
It did still hurt, a little. But it was engraved with something else, too. Pride. Relief so strong it nearly knocked the air from her lungs.
Adeline had been okay. More than okay.
She had been brave.
Paige stared up at the ceiling, letting that settle. She thought about how many times sheâs been afraid to loosen her grip on the world, on the things she loved. How many times life had forced her to anyway. Today, for once, the letting go hadnât taken something from her.
It had given her proof.
Gratitude spread through her chest. Gratitude for a teacher who saw her child, for a classroom that felt safe, for the version of herself who survived enough loss to still show up and trust again. She hadnât done everything right in her life, but today⌠today felt like something sheâd done right.
Her thoughts drifted, uninvited, to Azzi.
The sound of her voice. Calm. Warm. Steady. The way sheâd looked at Adeline like she mattered. The way sheâd looked at Paige, just for a second longer than necessary, before stepping back into professionalism like it was second nature.
She shouldnât be thinking about her. She knew that. Itâs nothingâ just gratitude, just relief, just a harmless crush that will fade once routine settles in. Teachers are kind. Thatâs their job. It didnât mean anything.
Still, the thoughts of Azzi lingered.
Something shifted today. Not in a dramatic, life-altering wayâ but enough for Paige to feel it, small and insistent, settling somewhere beneath her ribs. First days always change things. They open doors you canât quite close again.
Paige turned onto her side, before pulling the blanket up to her chin.
Tomorrow would come. Another drop-off. Another pickup. Another step forward.
For that night, though, she let herself rest. Adeline was safe, she was thriving, and whatever came next, they would figure it out together.
Paige closed her eyes.
The house stayed quiet around her. Sleep came easily at last.
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A/N: hereâs chapter one! i suggest everyone read the prologue before starting, if you havenât yet. you can find it in the fic guide. as someone whoâs currently getting their masters in elementary education, this story means a lot to me. i hope you all love it <3
CHAPTER ONE : Room 5B
Paige was driving down a backroad, her eyes glancing back and forth between her phoneâ which had Apple Maps pulled up on itâ and her daughter, Adeline, who was swinging her feet in the car seat, singing along to the Tangled soundtrack and watching the world pass by through the window.
God, sheâs so adorable, Paige thought to herself. Her blue eyes, red hair, the freckles across her dimpled cheeksâ Paige had been wrapped around this little girlâs finger since the day they met, over five years ago.
Paige turned down the music slightly before getting the little girlâs attention.
âYou excited to meet your teacher, Addy Bug?â She asked with an encouraging smile, her eyes locking with Adelineâs through the rear view mirror.
They were on the way to âMeet the Teacher Nightâ at Adelineâs school. Her little girl was starting Kindergartenâ which made Paige tear up, if she thought too much about itâ and Paige had been trying to gauge Adelineâs feelings about the new school year for weeks, but the girl had been so caught up in summer break festivities, that Paige could never get a real answer out of her.
Adeline turned her head from the window to Paigeâs direction, a small smile pulling at the corner of her lips.
âYep! Really excited, Mommy,â she spoke out, before singing along to the music again, while also doing a little dance to go along with it.
Paige just smiled to herself. Nice chat, she thought, chuckling as she focused back on the road.
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After about ten minutes, they arrived at Riverwood Elementary, where the parking lot was already crowded. It mustâve been âMeet the Teacher Nightâ for every grade.
Adeline had been at the Pre-K building last year, but this was her new home until fifth grade. Paige parked, hopped out, and opened the backseat to unbuckle her daughter.
âCâmon, sweet girl,â she said, letting out a soft oof sound as she placed Adeline down on the asphalt. She held onto the girlâs hand with one hand, using the other to reach over in the backseat and grab a little bag they had put together for Addyâs new teacher.
âDonât forget this forâ uh, Ms⌠uh,â Paige stammered. She had been sent the teacherâs name in an email, but it had slipped her mind.
âMs. Fudd, Mommy! You always forget things,â Adeline breathed out with a shake of her head as she took the bag from her Mom, and all Paige could do was chuckle.
âMy bad, sweetheart,â she replied, before she shut the car door and made sure it was locked.
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The orientation had a little carnival atmosphere. Snack vendors, games, and a parent volunteer table set up in the gym. Paige and Adeline ran into a few familiar faces from Pre-K, and Paige was relieved to see that Adelineâs friend Lucy was in Ms. Fuddâs class, too.
After about 30 minutes or so, the students and their guardians were sent off to find their classrooms, where most teachers would have a presentation prepared and discuss some things about the upcoming school year.
Paige held onto Adelineâs hand, and approached the large bulletin board the school had on display that had each grade, teacher, and room number labeled on it.
âKindergarten, Ms. Fudd, ahâ Room 5B,â she breathed out, mostly to herself, before leading Adeline towards the Kindergarten hallway.
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They found the hallway pretty easilyâ thankfully, everything had been labeled to make things easier for the families.
They passed room 1, 2, 3, 4, and thenâ âRoom 5B, right here, sweetheart,â Paige said to Adeline, before they stepped inside.
As soon as they stepped into the room, Paigeâs eyes lit up. This had to be the cutest classroom ever. It had the same design and setup as classrooms did when she was younger. She was already overwhelmed with nostalgia.
The feeling surprised her. Not because classrooms were new, but because there was a time when rooms like this had never factored into her future at all. Back then, her life had been measured in hardwood floors and roaring arenas, not alphabet rugs and birthday boards.
She swallowed the thought before it could go any further. Tonight wasnât about what sheâd lost. It was about what sheâd gained.
She let her eyes scan over the room. There were primary colors everywhere, bulletin boards with scalloped borders and felt letters, a number line above the SmartBoard, a rainbow rug, wooden cubbies for backpacks, and childrenâs books on display. Yeah, this was a place she wanted Adeline to be.
Once Paige snapped out of her trance, she looked down at Adelineâ who was also taking everything in, and gave her shoulder an encouraging squeeze. âLetâs go meet your teacher, yeah?â She asked, to which Adeline returned with a smile and a nod.
There were other families already in the classroom, one in which was currently speaking to the teacher, so Paige and Adeline waited their turn. They couldnât see her yet, but from the vibes of the classroom, Paige already liked her.
While they waited, Paige and Adeline looked around. They read things on the wall, checked out the birthday boardâ which Adeline was very happy to see when she noticed her birthday of April the 6th, already written on a cupcake stickerâ and before they knew it, their conversation was being interrupted by someone with a very soft voice.
âHello there,â the woman breathed out, tapping on Adelineâs shoulder, before crouching down to her level and giving her a big grin. âIâm Ms. Fudd, and you must beâŚ?â
Paige thought she was going to pass out. This woman was her daughterâs teacher? Ms. Fudd was the most beautiful human she had ever laid her eyes on. Paige was not expecting someone so⌠young, but she wasnât complaining. Ms. Fudd was wearing a knee-length floral dress, her hair was downâ natural, and stunning, and she had a light layer of makeup onâ just enough to make Paigeâs eyes linger on her face for a bit longer than necessary.
Her daughterâs voice snapped her out of it, a soft little âA-Adeline,â leaving the 5 year oldâs lips.
Ms. Fudd beamed, a hand reaching out to shake the girlâs. âAdeline. I love that name! Itâs so nice to meet you. Iâm so excited to have you in my class this year!â
Adelineâs grip on Paigeâs hand tightened, then loosened. She leaned forward slightly, studying Ms. Fuddâs face with the seriousness she usually reserved for bugs or important decisions.
âYou have nice eyes,â Adeline said finally, nodding once like the matter was settled.
Ms. Fudd laughed softly, warmth blooming across her face. âThank you, sweetheart. You do too.â
Paige felt something twist in her chest. Adeline didnât give compliments easily. When she did, it meant she felt safe.
Ms. Fuddâs gaze then caught the goodie bag in Adelineâs grasp, and Ms. Fudd gasped, gesturing to the bag. âIs that for me?â She asked, and Adeline smiled, holding it out for her. The teacher took it, grinning as she took out what was inside.
It was nothing crazyâ just some gel pens, dry erase markers, some chocolates, hand cream, and a scented candle.
Ms. Fudd was ecstatic, a huge smile on her face as she put everything back in the bag. âI love it, Adeline! Thank you so much,â she breathed out, and thatâs when her eyes caught Paigeâs for the first time, because teachers obviously knew most gifts were actually done by the parents.
Paige almost choked on her own spit. She hadnât felt this way in years. Her beautiful brown eyes, her flawless skin, her plump lips, her dimplesâ fuck, Ms. Fudd had dimples just like her daughter. Paige was done for.
Then, Paige suddenly realized she needed to speak, so she cleared her throat, and held out her hand for Ms. Fudd to shake. âHi,â Paige choked out, squeezing the womanâs hand for a split second, before letting go, because she was scared her palms were sweaty. âIâm Paige, Adelineâs Mom. Nice to meet you,â she spoke out.
Ms. Fudd stood back up, smiling brightly at Paige as she responded. âNice to meet you as well, Paige,â she said sweetly, and Paige had never thought her name sounded better.
After that shortâ but life-altering, at least for Paigeâ interaction, Ms. Fudd moved on to her brief presentation. Paige tried to listen. She really did.
Her name was Azzi. She had a masterâs degree in Elementary Education and had been teaching for four years. She loved reading, baking, and her two dogs. Paige absorbed these facts as well as she could, catching only what stuck as she watched the way Azzi moved around the room, comfortable in herself in a way Paige recognized.
Azzi talked about structure and kindness with equal weight, about creating a space where kids felt safe enough to try and brave enough to fail. She joked easily with the parents, listened when they spoke, and never once mentioned a husband, a boyfriend, or anything that required a quick he to explain her life.
Paige hated herself for noticing. She noticed anyway.
Her shoulders relaxed without meaning to. Okay, she thought. This is someone I trust.
After the presentation, Ms. Fudd gave each student a lollipop, then handed out a âStudent Informationâ sheet to all the parents. Paige let her eyes scan over it, then sat down with Adeline by her side and filled it out. Once they were done, Paige was just about to stand up and place it on Ms. Fuddâs desk, but the woman was already reaching out to take it from her.
âAll done?â Ms. Fudd asked, her eyes scanning over Paige and Adeline. Paige nodded, handing her the paper as she stood up, and pushed the chair back under the table. Paige felt like a fool. Why was she shaking? And why did she lose the ability to speak when this woman was existing anywhere around her?
âThink so,â Paige forced out, before gently brushing some of Adelineâs red strands out of her eyes. She was honestly just doing anything and everything to keep her eyes off of her daughterâs hot teacher.
After a moment of Paige gawking at Ms. Fudd like an actual idiot, she spoke up again.
âTime for us to go, Addy. Tell your new teacher bye, okay?â Paige spoke out sweetly, as Adeline looked up at Ms. Fudd, her tongue dyed all red from her lollipop.
âBye-Bye,â Adeline squeaked out, and Ms. Fudd waved to her, her voice gentle. âBye, Miss Adeline. Iâll see you Monday morning, okay?â Thenâ she looked at Paige, offering her the same goodbye wave, which Paige melted at, of course. âIâm looking forward to having Adeline in my class this year. You two have a great weekend,â Ms. Fudd said, before walking off to say goodbye to another family.
As Paige and Adeline headed out to their car in the parking lot, Paigeâs head was spinning. How the actual fuck was she supposed to function anytime she came in contact with that woman? Parent conferences, morning drop off, after school pickup, school events⌠oh god. She was going to have to get it together by Monday.
As she drove them both home, Adeline listened to the Tangled soundtrackâ again. Paige needed a distraction from her spiraling thoughts.
What scared her wasnât the crush.
It was the quiet realization that Azzi Fudd hadnât just reminded her of who she was now, but of who she used to be, too.
And Paige Bueckers had learned the hard way that the things she loved most had a habit of changing her life forever.
prologue contains: former-wnba!paige, injury & grief, singlemom!paige, coaching au, adoption, found family
word count: 475
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A/N: well, hereâs the prologue for my first pazzi fic! I was up until 6 am tweaking this lolol so sry for any missed typos. iâm aiming for the whole fic to be about 15 chapters. go to the fic guide for a summary. lmk what u think !
Prologue:
The sound Paige remembers most isnât the pop.
Itâs the silence that followed. Too loud, too sudden, and it swallowed the roar of the crowd whole. One second she was moving the way she always had, muscle memory and instinct carrying her forward, and the next she was on the floor, staring up at the lights, her knee screaming in a language she already understood too well.
She knew before anyone said it out loud.
Rehab came with calendars and cautious optimism. Her doctors always tried not to look sorry and her coaches told her she was strong enough to come back. Paige smiled, worked harder than everyone else, and believed them longer than she probably should have. But bodies remember things minds want to forget, and hers never let her run the same way again.
When they finally used words like career-ending, it felt less like heartbreak and more like griefâheavy and quiet and everywhere. Basketball had been her constant. It was the dream she chased since she was a kid, and without it, Paige didnât know who she was supposed to be.
She tried distance first.
It didnât work.
The gym still smelled the same, the sound of sneakers on hardwood still tugged something sharp and familiar in her chest. Coaching a rec team started as a temporary thing. It was just a way to stay close without hurting too much. But somewhere between teaching layup lines and tying shoes during timeouts, Paige realized it gave her a different kind of purpose. She couldnât chase the game anymore, but she could teach kids how to love it. She could stand on the sidelines and still feel like she belonged.
She called about fostering on a Tuesday.
Paige almost backed out. She thought she wasnât ready to be responsible for anything that fragile, anything that needed her to be whole when she felt anything but. But something in her decided yes anyway. Maybe it was guilt, maybe hope, maybe the simple need to be needed.
Adeline fit into her arms like she had always belonged there.
The nights were long and exhausting, filled with bottles and rocking chairs and tears Paige couldnât always tell apart from her own. She told herself this was temporary, that she was just helping until someone else came along who could give Adeline what she deserved. But love has a way of rooting itself deep, and before Paige realized it, the thought of letting go felt worse than any injury ever had.
Signing the adoption papers was honestly terrifying.
It felt like choosing something new without knowing if sheâd survive losing the old dream completely, but when Adeline smiled at her, wide and toothless and perfect, Paige understood that some things werenât replacements. They were different kinds of miracles.