ｏｎｌｙ ｗｅ ｋｎｏｗ

    jace had gotten quite good at pretending, but nights like tonight always proved to her that there was a point where she couldn’t anymore, despite how badly she longed to keep herself hidden under her mask. it was obvious in the way her expression softened the moment she realized who it was, a long exhale through parted lips as she scooted over to make room for him. ( it was so much easier to pretend that she hated him when they weren’t face to face like this. ) “ you stink, ” she muttered under her breath, though the venom in her words was surprisingly absent.  she just reached up to comb her fingers through the front of his hair ( a surprisingly gentle action for her ), the other hand bringing her joint to her lips once again. “ how’d this get here? ” she plucked a leaf from his curls, eyes rolling as she tossed it to the ground and crushed it under the heel of her shoe. she exhaled the smoke slowly at his question, staring out at the water. she could only shrug. “ i’d rather be in bed, ” she laughed bitterly. the mention of holden’s death never sat right with her, but she just hid her discomfort. “ i’m fine. i barely knew the kid. it’s you i’m worried about, ” she admitted. “ this is the first time i’ve heard you mention him since he died. ”  

       despite her grumblings, there was no way jace wasn’t going to be at the bonfire. she was too much of a worrier ( hence the need for a joint in her hand at all times, ) and there were a few faces in attendance that she couldn’t bring herself to leave unattended. she took another hit, head lolling to the side in boredom as she watched the rest of her friends crowded around the bonfire, unable to hide the way her nose crinkled in distaste at the bottles of alcohol being passed from person to person. this had barely been her scene before she’d lost her brother to it. now it was only coupled with memories she’d rather forget altogether. wincing at the shouts of celebration coming from the crowd, her eyes fixed themselves on the darkening sky, barely even noticing someone else breaking off from the group and approaching her until they were blocking her view. “ wha—oh, ” she cleared her throat, scooting over slightly on the log she was seated on. “ you alright? ”