whitney

"let me love you," i beg as he continues to take the only happiness he wants from a bottle

i tell you what i need you do what you want how did i confuse that for love for so long

i don't want anything to do with you because what you do has nothing to do with me

i don't want anything from you it comes at too steep a price and i have nothing left to give

my heart breathes a sigh of relief

you let me go and i let you

i thought you were selfish but i'm the selfish one for begging for love you couldn't give

i walked backwards away from you careful not to take my eyes off your face, until you disappeared on the horizon, waiting to see a flicker of remorse that you never showed

i thought what you needed was love and support by you're just weak- preying on my strength like a parasite hollowing out my heart until it collapses to dust

you only give me what i want when it's not what i want at all

you used to bury your nose in my hair my neck my stomach i remember your deceit and wonder do you always inhale happiness up your nose?

if this is how you love please stop loving me

i came to you broken and you kept breaking me so skillfully, so lovingly like a doctor setting a bone that i grew to believe this pain was love and you, the only one who know how to give it to me