miriel

If I'm 50 and still feel like this then there's nothing more I can do.

Mybe if I try to act as a functional human being I magically find a way to live that isn't so draining and purposeless

I've got this new job offer and finally I can save some money for trips and I also thing it'll be good to do some courses. I'm not sure on what topic but I want to have some new skills, because the last 5 years I've been stagnant and not doing anything. Like I was on pause and everything was moving except from me and now I'm finally awake. It could be something because of Covid. When it happens I just shut down like all the things and people around me and now I'm finally sort of back to being myself again, and I like that feeling.