saturn

lottienat as believer vs. non-believer gets even more interesting when you take into account their contrasting connection to drugs: nat takes them to detach herself from reality whereas lottie needs them to anchor herself in reality

As much as I get that the other Gallaghers have their own shit going on and the writers wanted to stay true to them being chaotic or whatever this whole scene and the following one still annoys me. Like Ians just got out of prison and they're all absent and disinterested...when Ian sits down in the house and realise he's alone (apart from a bunch of Mexican strangers) I get so sad (and mad). But I guess that's Ian all over, the forgotten middle child who they mostly ignored whenever he dissapeared or got sick. And then I think about if Ian was coming out of prison to a free Mickey, how different his experience would have been. His welcome home party was left up to Liam to organise, the youngest in a house full of adults. No way Mickey would have left Ian to come home to a house like that, he would have been planning his return for days, weeks, months. Just like he planned that anniversary party 😭❤😍

thinking about how while jackie wasn’t the best player on the team, she was probably the most enthusiastic. like she was probably the first one to learn all of their names. she probably organized team sleepovers. maybe her footwork was not the best, but she could give a great pep talk! ofc she would do your face paint for you! ofc she would help you tie your hair or get out that knot! like this is the girl who stole her mom’s valium because, oh no, what if her best friend is too afraid to fly?? handed off her necklace immediately — here shauna, good luck charm! and like, ofc she didn’t do well in the wilderness. they are wolves, the rabbit is not like them. ofc she flinches at blood, ofc she doesn’t pick up the knife, ofc she can’t hold a gun. ofc, ofc, ofc! this is the girl calming allie’s nerves before a pep rally, helping misty feel pretty for the first time, offering shauna her last bit of food. this is the girl who had so little hate in her heart that she had to steal an insult from beaches, the girl who cried over shauna not being her friend anymore, the girl who would’ve come back inside if she heard an i love you.

Mickey's type of friends are either very masc lesbians or aggressively gay guys like Cole, both kinds of people that see his shields and his posturing and are able to see past them.