seize it. live to it.

Loneliness. Feeling misunderstood. Feeling shunned, unseen. Having to fight for my boundaries. Desire to be taken care of, to belong. I am tired of this chasing energy, of having my needs projected to someone, of making something out of nothing, of feeling wanted/chosen. I know part of it... well, most of it - is a me thing. I know I need to work through these discombobulations, these demons, these egotistical thinking - but it is so hard if I feel such a disconnect from the people around me, lacking that genuine authentic support system -  especially after such a messy blow from the family. It hurts. I am tired. It has been heavy. I am tired. Like what they say, just because I am strong to handle the pain doesn’t mean I deserve it. I am tired. 

I feel seen