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a holiday surprise | jaurevino

Oh gosh—have you seriously been listening to me singing to myself? That’s probably when I sing the worst. Well I’m glad you enjoy my moves, babe. I know I wouldn’t, that’s why I’m not even trying. I’m sure you will, Mike, everything you do for me is perfect.

I’m glad you like my voice, babe, you know I’d love to sing just for you anyday. Oh I know those drive you crazy. I might be. Ugh how rude of you. I would say I wouldn’t give you any untill you put a ring on it, but I wouldn’t be able to resist you.

They truly are. I love your job and how passionate you are about it, babe. You have nothing to thank me about. That sounds better, your hot fangirl. Oh babe, now that you’ve told me I might be expecting it. 

Well that is true I have aways supported the show, you guys are all amazing on it. Everyone who’s part of it does an amazing job, the producer, the writers, the crew and obviously the actors. You can see you put your everything into it, which is why I will always support it, specially you. Well then I guess I’m just a hot fangirl. The lady is definitely ready to start the workout. You’re right, I’ve been really cold since we got here, it’s time to heat up. Of course I do.  Another one? Will it be Trevino by any chance? I’ll try to be prepared for when that moment comes.

Good, babe. I feel like I should stop though. Oh please stop. You flatter me way too much, how does watching your show makes me sexy exactly? I think it only makes me a crazy fangirl which is why I should stop. Yes I wil. I have no problem with that, babe. Well aren’t you excited, seems like you want to start your workout already. I like when you use my full name, it might be long as hell but I like how it sounds when it comes from you. Is that so? I love everything about you as well, Michael.

Just trust me on this one, okay? Mark my words, I love you and you will never scare me away. Not even if you tell me the craziest thing ever. Alright we have a deal, babe. Yes we do and we will. I know it does, you’re suppose to be a hybrid that never ages and is forever 18 or whatever age you were on the show when Kalus turned you into a hybrid. God my inner TVD fan is coming out… please ignore what I just said. I’ll be your workout so you don’t have to worry about losing your body. Oh no you didn’t just go there? You even used my two last names. 

Is there anything I could do or say to make you not worry about that? What I feel for you is real, babe, and it won’t ever change. I accepted you into my life knowing how much older you were, if it mattered to me I would’ve never let you in a more than a friend, but that wasn’t the case. That sounds perfect, I want to know all you want from me even if you think it might scare me. That’s all we need to know for now, Mike. Yes really. Hey you never know with time how you’ll get, I’m hoping you stay this hot for a long time. But of that changes I won’t care. Oh Mike if I wanted to use your full name I would’ve gone with Michael Anthony Trevino and not just Michael.  

You’re damn right about that. When you find the right person you just know it, it can be at first sight, it can be after the first kiss, or after years, you just never know when you’ll be sure that you’ve found the one. And I’ve loved being with you as well, I never get bored with you. Babe I’ve told you many times before that I don’t care about the age difference, I love you for who you are and the fact that you’re older doesn’t affect me. You will never rush me into anything, I want what you want but I won’t know what you want unless you tell me. I know I won’t have to worry about that, you’ve proven me that you’ll always treat me right even when your not to happy with me. Oh I’m totally gonna call you my sugar daddy when you turn thirty. I won’t don’t you worry about it. But even if you did get as big and hairy like a teddy bear I’d still love you. Don’t yeah yeah me, Michael.

The few months we’ve been together might not seem like a lot to some people but they’ve been more than enough for me to fall for you. That’s the exact same reason of why I see myself together. The first night we were together I knew I was done with being with guys my age. Being with you was far more exciting than everything I ever experienced and with time you showed me how a real man treats a woman. No guy had ever gave me the respect you give me and treated me how I deserve. Oh don’t you worry about that, babe. I can’t believe my old man is finally turning the big thirty. But don’t you worry Mike, I’ll make sure I do everything in my hands to keep you young. Shut up, you know I’m winning next time.

Yes you really do make me the happiest I’ve ever been. You just do it by being yourself. Well you might not think so or agree with me but to me you are, Mike. That we are. I’m so lucky I found you beause you’re the one I see myself being with for the rest of my days. You’re my everything. I really hope we do because it hurts so bad, I hate feeling this way. The way you think about me amazes me because that’s not the way I feel about myself, But hearing it from you makes me want to start believing it. You do, but don’t think I’m letting you win ever again.

They don’t think badly about you. Both my parents know exactly how I feel about you and they’ve both told me they’ve never seen me as happy as I am now that I have you in my life. They know you’re the right person for me. You already are more than I deserve, you’re too good for me. You might not be perfect in the eyes of society, just like I’m not either. But to me you are the closest thing to perfect I will ever find. I just can’t stop feeling terrible about it, Mike. Do you honestly think I will  be a good mother someday? I know you could go for hours and hours about it, so I won’t argue with you about it. 

I know we can’t. We’ll be upset anyway so why keep avoiding our true feelings? Doing that is only consiming us. Mike—please don’t say that. My father has no idea what I did only my mom and she didn’t even mention you once untill after I did it. She thought I had already told you and was surprised when I told her you had no idea I was ever pregnant. I told her you were an amazing man and no matter what you were going to be there for me and I wasn’t wrong. They know it, Mike, you have nothing to worry about with them. Thanks, babe, but if that was true I would’ve never done what I did. It wouldn’t have even crossed my head. Oh gosh I had forgotten about that. I’m not even near being amazing, you on the other hand, you’re beyond amazing. I was scared too, so don’t feel bad about that.

I think you’re right. Talking is probably the only way we’ll get through this together. Exactly this is something we will never forget, so why pretend like we can. I know they haven’t, otherwise you would’ve never told me you loved me at a moment like this one. I wish the exact same thing, Michael, but no matter how hard we wish for it the truth is we can’t go back. That really does hurt, not knowing how life would’ve been if that little angel came into our lives. But hearing you speak only makes me feel one thing, and that’s that you would’ve been an amazing father. I don’t deserve to have you after taking that chance away from you. I have nothing to forgive you about, Michael, none of this was your fault. You just weren’t ready to say if before.