Even if I'm not who I'm supposed to be, I like who I am

I started posting here when I was fourteen. Since then, I've changed my header three times, my pfp twice, my theme once, and my url never. Meanwhile, my life has changed exponentially. And, I'll be real, most of those changes were bad. So I think part of why I've done my best to keep this blog so consistent (writing in a similar style that I did when I was fourteen, adding new fandoms but continuing to posting about the same media I did when I started this blog) is that I had this idea that at least on here, I could remain the same person that I did when my life was happier.

But lately I've come to realize that even if I haven't exactly grown in the direction that I wanted, it doesn't mean I shouldn't accept the person I've become. So I want to take some time to figure out who twenty-one-year-old Ray is. What kind of writing style do I want to have? What kind of media do I enjoy because I like it right now, rather than just having fond memories of it? And I don't think I can answer those questions if I'm still trying to run this blog, because I'll always be worried about disappointing the people who follow me for the content I've tried to be consistent with.

And it's hard! Because I still love this blog, I love the people I've gotten to connect with, and I love the memories I've made on here. Seven years on Tumblr, and do you know how many negative interactions I've had? Three. I can count them on one hand and still have fingers left over. Meanwhile, I've had more positive interactions than I could count in a lifetime.

So thank you, from the bottom of my heart. If you've complimented me on my writing or sent me a question or made a joke in my replies, please know that you almost certainly made my day. If you're a mutual of mine, know that the content you put out and your presence in my life has probably gotten me through some of those rough changes I mentioned earlier. I've had so much fun with this blog, and learned so much, and met so many amazing people. No matter what I discover about myself in the days to come, I'll always be proud of what I've built here, and so grateful for the people who were a part of that. I'm not going to delete it- if any of my content has brought you joy or comfort, it'll still be there for you. But it's time for me to move forward.

So may the Force be with you!

BYEEEEEEEE!

And I love you all. I love you so much.