Let The Past Die.

           ‘ cant say we do. but ive been gone a little while, so im not too up to date on what earth has and doesnt have. ‘ wanda said taking a sip of her coffee with an amused smile. ‘ well there really is no creativity on that name now is it? its basically a big light stick or at least thats what it look like. ‘

Kylo shrugged again, taking another sip. “Less of a headache for me, then.” He mentally kicked himself for being so vague, he knew Wanda wasn’t a threat. There was no need for him to act this way-so Kylo Ren-esque. “Ah, not really.” He actually let out a chuckle. “It’s powerful and dangerous, but there really isn’t any creativity.”

            ‘ it keeps it from being too harsh and bitter. black coffee kinda of gross. ‘ wanda said with a shrug of her shoulders. wanda raised her eye brow at him when he said it was called caf. ‘ to each their own really. ‘ even though he can be kind of a dick at time, something just drew her to him. ‘ so whats was the glowing red thing you had the when we first met. ‘ 

Kylo shrugged at her explanation, the difference between them didn’t faze him. But her question actually amused him. “You don’t have them on this planet?” No Jedi or Sith here besides his own family and Rey, then. That was actually a relief to him. “It’s called a lightsaber.”

“But she’s your mother,” Rey countered, and they both had to know that that must have counted for something. “Surely she’s disappointed, but she’s never truly given up on you…” Suddenly she felt a bit out of place for discussing something so personal to him, but she couldn’t help it. She wanted him to reconcile with Leia somehow, even if technically it wasn’t her business. His question made her cross her arms over her chest, putting her guard up again. “Is that what you want me to think? That you’re completely set in your own ways now?”

“She should have.” Kylo said simply. He always felt like he was an awful person, some monster. Nobody worth saving or having hope in, that’s why he hated that Rey ever had hope in him. “No, I’m just curious. My sister doesn’t admit it, but she feels like I can be too, I feel it. Maybe I’m not set in my ways, I don’t know. I’ve been this way for a while, but I also know that I’ve done too much.” 

Jaina was unimpressed with what her brother had turned into, and she became even more unimpressed the more he talked. “Right, it only took you six years, and the murder of not only or little brother but our father as well to turn the tables.on him. Congratulations.”

“You’re right.” She was right, he can at least admit that. He also knows, or at least feels like, nobody is safe with him here. His control over his emotions flickered violently like a little kid messing with a light switch. “Then kill me, Jaina.”

“It is true!” Anakin was so pissed. He was beyond pissed. There wasnt a word for how he felt and it just made it all that much worse. “And you failed, you were weak. I would never, Jaina would never, Jacen would never!” 

Jacen would never. Anakin didn’t know that Jacen fell too, it almost slipped Kylo’s mind that Anakin had died before their brother fell. “Anakin...Jacen, he...He fell after I did.” His voice was soft, for once.

Rey raised an eyebrow in confusion at his words. This man was an enigma; she never truly knew what to think of him. But she knew he wouldn’t hesitate to harm or even kill any of his officers or stormtroopers if they even dared refer to him as Ben. “…Fine, then.” She was even more confused when he agreed willingly to talk to Leia - she thought it would take a bit more convincing. “She’ll be happy to hear from you…I know it’s been a long time…”

The switch of Kylo’s behavior went off and on violently, it was now a constant cycle of being half decent to being awful. He was Snoke’s monster, a monster who was left almost completely unable to control his own emotions. He wondered if Rey, or anyone else had been able to see it. “I doubt it, we’re leaders of opposing sides of the war.” Not to mention the fact that he killed his brother and father, and wanted to kill his uncle. “I’m surprised you’re speaking to me this long without trying to kill me, are you sure you don’t think I can turn?”

“And for what,Benjamin? You become the Supreme Leader, but lose everyone who ever cared about you or loved you because of some misguided idea about what our grandfather would have wanted? To hold power in your hands? What use is all that power if no one wants to stand by your side? 

“You tell me,” Rey answered pointedly with a frown as he mocked her. But she was already convinced that was who he wanted to be now. However, it didn’t make much sense to her when he seemed to shift almost immediately, sensing actual concern in his voice. She considered withholding it from him, but couldn’t bring herself to have him worry about Leia…even if that alone gave her a bit of hope. “…She was okay the last time I saw her, but…maybe you should talk to her yourself…”

“You can call me Ben, if you want to. You already have had no problem doing so.” He wasn’t going to yell at her for calling him that. That was his true name, anyway. But, her answer relaxed him, at least a little bit. He hasn’t been actually relaxed in years. “I know, I will.”

“Really, Kylo?” The name felt strange on her tongue now; she had grown accustomed to calling him Ben. But it didn’t feel right anymore. “I don’t have to say it. You know. And I’m not going to run off and tell anyone anything, so at least be grateful for that.”

“I’m Kylo now?” He raised an eyebrow very slightly. “Oh, thank you, dearest Rey. I really am eternally grateful for you.” The Supreme Leader’s voice was dripping with sarcasm. But his tone soon went serious once again. “My mother-Leia...is she okay?” He could pretend to hate everyone, but not Leia. He could never bring himself.

Rey thought to mention that she did get along well with his family, figuring he already knew that deep down, but she decided to remain quiet as she sensed the twinge of hurt in his voice. Truthfully, she didn’t think Leia would ever completely give up hope, but it was only causing her pain to hold onto it for much longer. “…I know your fears,” She responded quietly, glancing at the ground. “And yes, I know you’ve seen mine as well…so we’re even. Okay?”

“Maybe we are, but you didn’t answer the question.” Kylo challenged. With the force bond that neither of them could explain, she knew him better than a lot of people. “You know me so well, then say it.”

“Yeah, right, like I’m going to tell some dude that shoved his rod in my face who I am.” He actually has to have a laugh at the absurdity of his own words. “Sweet Pea, actually.”

“Sweet Pea?” Kylo laughed. “Sure, I’ve heard stranger names.” Armitage, Phasma, and Rey with no last name being a few. “Kylo Ren.”

“I think he was just a facade till you believed you were strong enough to murder my father and me.” Ani was breaking, his palm pressed into his eye again and he doubled over with a pained groan as he thought about his fathers death. “No. You weren’t. No. you didn’t. I will never forgive you. I will never understand. I will never see WHY I had to die.”

“No...Ani...No, that’s not true.” Kylo spoke like it physically pained him that his brother wasn’t believing him. “You know I was manipulated by Snoke for years, I-I tried to hold on, you know I did.” The Kylo Ren facade was flickering off and on like an old light switch at this point. “I know you won’t...I know.”

“No, I’ve officially given up on you,” Rey practically spat, her words coming out harsher than she’d intended. A small part of her did believe he could, but it seemed more unlikely than ever, and she didn’t have the energy to put into believing in him again. “I know secrets that I doubt anyone else does about you,” She snapped back, but then realized she shouldn’t have waved that in his face - they both knew things about each other that no one else did. It had been a result of their force bond somehow, even if it still didn’t make sense to her. So she dropped the subject quickly, simply nodding. “I’ll try. But I’d rather get a good night’s sleep without waking up to people trying to steal from me or hurt me in the middle of the night…so maybe a house would be a better option.”

“You’d get along quite well with my family then. They’ve all given up on me as well.” It was tiring to keep the act up, he already was trying it with his own family. Rey saw right through him, there was no use in trying to keep it up the facade. “And what are those secrets? Because I have some about you, you know that right?” He raised an eyebrow. 

“Is it a threat or a promise? Because either way we’re at a fuckin’ standstill. Put it away. I was just fuckin’ walking and you whip that thing out like some sort of glowy dick. Which, by the way, I don’t want in my face either.”

“Classy, really.” But regardless, Kylo knew he was both not a threat to him and a waste of time to try to fight. “Who are you, anyway?”

          ‘ if you dont care then why did you say sorry. ‘ wanda asked raising an eyebrow at him. she can see right through his tough guy act but she didnt say anything about it. ‘ cant, youre literally taking up the side walk. ‘ 

“Do you have a comment for everything?” Kylo raised an eyebrow, but he moved out of the way regardless and turned off his lightsaber. “Step on the street, then.”